Hey Sonshine,
It is 4 days until Christmas, I finally got our tree up and your dad and I bought you more penguins for it. I also have your Christmas ornament you made for me in grade school. I also have 2 guitars for you. I set up your nativity scene you love so much. I miss you so much Sweetheart. It has been 9 years without you, and every year feels worse. If only we could have you one more time. We all love you and miss you so much. Happy Christmas in heaven Sweetheart.

Hey Sonshine, I finally got to see your little girl after 5 years. The last time Elly let me see her was in December of 2013. I wish you were here so maybe it would not have taken so long. Emma has grown up so much. She is 9 years old and tall like you were. She has the most beautiful blue eyes. And she looks a lot like you. Emma also has a lot of you in her. I am so thankful that Elly's mom Jane brought Emma to see us. She had Ems' for a few weeks and took her on a vacation from West Va. to Tenn. She stopped in Salem for a while so we could visit her and Emma. Emma did not recognize her grandpa or me. Jane had to tell her who we were. When Emma saw us, she gave us such great big hugs. Of course, knowing your mother, I did cry. I wish you could see her. I had pictures on the phone for her to see that I took off the computer. She saw a picture of you and she knows you are her daddy. That is the first thing she asked. So she did not forget who you are. I have to get back to my school work Honey before I start crying again. I just wanted to let you know about Emma, your little girl. Keep watching over her and us. You sleep easy Honey and someday, we will be together again. One more thing I want to tell you. Your dad is having trouble with his breathing and his legs are in bad shape. But he keeps trying to go as much as he can, which is not much and your grandpa's cancer is back and he has an aneurysm in his stomach. It seems to be getting a little bigger. Becky called and said he had a cat scan done and we are waiting on the results. I will write to you again when I get a chance. We love and miss you so very much. Rest easy son. Love from Mom and dad.

I am really struggling without you this Christmas season. I can't get into anything this year at all. I have not even put up my tree yet. This is the worst I have felt in such a long time. It has been years and I just keep thinking how things might have been different if you were here with us. Your dad and everyone else miss you too. His health is getting worse and I think that is weighing a lot more on my mind also. I just thought I would write you to let you know you are not forgotten nor will you ever be, We love you and I will write again. Love you Sweetheart.

I love you Honey and miss you so much. If only I could hold you one more time.

For Your Birthday In Heaven Jake, You are still loved still missed and very dear. Your Birthday is here, but you are not, I’d send a gift but know that I can’t. So I’ll make a wish upon a star, to carry my love, to where you are.Happy 30rd Birthday Honey. You are still loved. From Mom and Dad

8 Years ago we said good bye to you my son. I try to get by everyday without you and sometimes I find it difficult. I know you are no longer suffering but we are always hurting without. We love you and miss you everyday. Rest peacefully my Sunshine. Love you.

Happy 29th Birthday Sweetheart. You will always be with us. I had you for almost 22 years. It has been 7 years since we said our last good bye. Why did you have to leave us. This is not the way I had things planned for your life. We had some great times and some bad. But you will always be my baby boy. Love you Sweetheart.

happy birthday Jake.We love you and miss you so much. Today we celebrate your special day without you. You are in heaven celebrating with the Angels. I would give anything to have you back again .If only things could have been different.and we had more time together. Your dad misses you so much and he is hurting so bad right now. We pray you are at peace and in no more pain. Love you Sonshine.

Today we said goodbye to a young man of 21 years. I bore you for 9 months, raised and nurtured you into a young man. You took your life and a part of me died that day too. I know the pain you were in and know why you did what you did. I know things could have been better for you but God had other plans. We love you and miss you so very much.

It has been 4 years today since we said goodbye to you. It does not seem that long. It feels like just yesterday I was holding you in my arms and telling you how much I love you my baby boy. As I watched you grow and mature into a young man, my dreams were cut short by your death. Your little girl is growing up so fast and is so much like you. when I see her, I am looking at you. Love you