Hey jair. It’s been a very very long time since I have seen you. I think about you everyday and I still play our favorite song, Superbase, everyday. I cannot go a single day without thinking of you and the man that you are becoming in heaven. Sometimes, I get frustrated with myself because of did not have enough time with you on this side. Once we are reunited, we will have the most fun, like we did as little babies. I am not worried, I know you are safe in the hands of God. I am thankful for God because I know God is treating you well. I have a new dad, and man you would love him so much. I wish you were here with us so we can laugh at his country personality. Love you jair, miss you forever

Words can’t express how much I miss you muffin. Sometimes the hurt is unexplainable. Poppy still can’t talk about you, he try’s but he starts to get teary eyed. You will always be our baby. We miss you grandson. ♥️♥️♥️ Happy Heavenly Birthday love you and your Aunt Janaha

I’ll never get over losing you. I just have to except that. I miss you grandson, I would of given up everything to keep you here but God had a different plan. Your mommy and daddy really miss you. Ask God can you give them a hug tonight. Love you muffin ♥️

Hi my baby boy. Auntie loves you so much! I still have your t shirt in my drawer. It’s been there for ten years now. I love you sooo much! Miss you every day. We know you come down here once in a while and we appreciate the visits. Your mom and dad miss you every day too. Can’t wait to see you again.

Jair this is your auntie.wow you are 11 years old in heaven today! Happy Birthday. You will forever be missed here on earth with your loving family. You are a warrior like no other. The twinkle in your eyes and the the power of your love was magical. Just left us wanting more but God had another plan for you in heaven. You are bringing joy as an angel in heaven.God blessed us with you for a short time but you are forever in our hearts. I will never forget how you came to me as a white dove after you left this world on my way to work by my car to say thank for praying for me Aunte. Love you and miss you too. We will reunite after our mission is filled here on earth. Till then sweet child we will keep you safely here in our hearts. We so much forever love you Jair!!!!!!!!

Big 10 today Muffin! We miss you every day. Its always going to be hard I guess. Being here without you growing up has been tough. Your daddy is still learning and growing as a man everyday. If it wasn't nt for you who knows where I would be, or maybe thats the sad part. My long term goal is to be with you forever Muffin, love you babe.

-DADDY

PS Happy Birthday Muffin #BIG10

Grandmoms baby, I sure do miss you big man. Words can not express how I feel, only God knows. Losing you was one of the hardest things in life I had to endure, so I thought. Everyday I miss your smile, your hugs and kisses and just you. As you can see It has taken me while to even write a post, sometimes excepting reality is hard to do. Missing you Muffin.

Man o man son. It’s unbelievable how much I miss you, and literally how much I need you. I feel like I can literally break down any moment. My heart is so fragile right now. I have a lot of thinking to do, but I’m so tired and drained of thinking. I love and miss you so much my son

I love and miss you soo much Jair. Words can’t even express it anymore.

Good morning my son, my angel. Mommy misses you everyday. I can't believe you're 7 years old now! It makes me so sad to try and imagine how you would have looked, what your voice would have sounded like, what sports you would be into. Even though I have your sister and brothers to see you through, it still never gets easier, it just makes it a little more bearable. It's so easy to loose my mind still, but I keep my sanity for them, daddy, and grandma. It's not fair Jaír, I battle with my understanding in God and why he took you everyday. I still get angry, 5 years later and I still cry to myself when no one is around as if it was just yesterday and I was holding you and praying the hardest I have ever prayed comforting you on your way into heaven, in your last minutes here on earth as your eyes met Gods. I can imagine you're having the most joyous birthdays now with God, your aunt Janaha, Tatha, Githu, uncle Buzz, Grear grandma Loretta, and all the other angels. God has comforted me somewhat through dreams and messages, but I would still love to see you myself to see you smiling and happy. I shouldn't be taking balloons and flowers to a cemetery, I should be throwing your 7th birthday party! A parent should never have to bury her children ever! We are your protectors, and as much as everyone says I was and am a great mother, I still feel as I failed you sometimes son. Continue to look over your brothers and sister my angel. Comfort daddy and grandma because they need it the most. Jazellía, Jazir, and Jaziel know you and love you and forever will. We talk about you and God all the time. I love you with every ounce of my me. I always prayed hard on my knees crying asking God to give me your sickness, to give you my health, to take me instead of you, but God wanted you back my love, he wanted his angel back. Happy 7th birthday son❤️

Happy 6th birthday son!!! I miss you so much! I'm supposed to be getting ready to celebrate your 6th birthday party, not taking balloons n flowers to a cemetery for you! I know there is no one better than God to celebrate your birthday with but not a day goes by where I don't think of what I could have done better or sooner to save you and still have you here with me. I pretend and imagine you laying down next to me and I'm rubbing your head. When you little brother laughs and plays with me and lays on me, I sometimes close my eyes and imagine it's you so I can have some peace in my heart for that split second. I just miss you so so so much its unimaginable. I love you with every piece of me. Happy birthday Jaír❤️

I miss you so much baba. Not a day goes by where I don't think about you . Mariyah loves you so so much . She says you were her match ! We miss you ❤️

I can't believe it's been 4 years already since I held you close and told you I loved you as I kissed you or heard you call me ma. You were so strong son. Your mommy's hero! I was looking at all the beads you got for every procedure and still can't fathom that you received so many injections and procedures and still kept a smile on your face. My heart hurts to this day and not a day goes by that I don't think if you every hour. Your sister and I said a prayer for you last night and I love how she says your name. She kissed your headstone today on her own and it made mommy cry. She's so smart like you were. Your brother and you have the same eyes like mommy. Nothing compares to your smile though, still makes my heart melt. Daddy misses you a lot and I see it in him even though he acts like he's ok. I think what keeps him going is us and his clothing line since your his motivation for it. If it wasn't for you, there would be no clothing line, that's probably why your dad puts all his heart into it. I fantasize about how wonderful life would be if you were still here, how much better things would be. But like I said it's just a fantasy now until the day we unite again. I love you always and forever son. -Mommy

Hey little man, remember when I taught you the mean face, and we showed mommy and dad and ma. Your a little soldier, warrior, you little brother is getting big and your sister reminds me so much of you. I love you baba, your truly the defenition of LOVE the meaning of purity, our angel J.K.R

Happy 5th birthday son! We brought you soooo many balloons today! It was a very hard day on all of us. I couldn't sleep last night n cried my heart out a couple times today. I get very upset because I feel you should be here with me celebrating your birthday getting ready to go to kindergarten. I wish I could rewind time and go back to cure you. It seemed like the longest day ever today! We went to see your great god mom Asha... She's looking better but she can't wait to join you. Life just really sucks sometimes son. Your little brother reminds me of you at times cause he's rea quiet n to himself. I pray your having the best birthday with God n your auntie Janaha. I miss you both more than life. I looked back at five years ago and remembered giving birth to you as if it was yesterday. If someone were to tell me this is how my life would be five years later I wo have thought they were crazy... I love you son n a Happy Birthday my angel Jair.... Mommy

Whats up muffin, just stopping by to tell you happy bday. Been thinking about you a lot your mom and dad are hanging in there and keeping their promise to you love you. Continue to watch over us and tell everyone up there I said hi.

P.S. Thanks for making an appearance at your pops bday dinner I saw your hand on your mommy dress. Not one day goes by when your not on our mind.

GodDad/Uncle

Hi son. I love you so much! I see so much of you in your little sister Jazellia that at times it brings me comfort and I close my eyes and imagine I'm kissing and holding you, especially when she's asleep. Its amazing how much of your auntie Janaha I see in her too. Your little sister is really a special little girl just as you were/are my angel. I don't know why people say the pain gets easier with time, because it doesn't. I think as the living we just put the pain in a box and try not to think of it, because at the times when I do think about losing you I cry and hurt as if it just happened yesterday. Its been a very emotional week on mommy. I've cried everyday and there's been a couple days that I couldn't take the pain and thoughts of giving up raced through my head. I try to be a strong person for daddy, grandma, and everyone else, just as I know they try to be for me, but it hurts son, deep. I can't wait to hold your little brother soon, and see you in him as well. I do believe that God can give you back to us in a healthy body. God can work wonders, and if it wasn't for my faith in him, daddy, and Jazellia I think I would have given up a long time ago. You daddy tho has to be the strongest person I know next to you. I can see where you got your strength to fight from him. Tomorrow's mommy's bday, but it will never be the same... Your my heart son, and know that mommy misses so much that it makes me weak at times. Know that I live and do everything in your memory. Life isn't fair, and it will never be. God is good tho son. And I know that him, your auntie, great grandmas and grandpas are taking great care of you until mommy gets there, then I would never have to worry about never seeing you again. Today 3 years ago was the last day I held you, kissed you, laid with you, and told you how beautiful heaven was and how mommy and daddy and grandma would be there soon with you. I remember telling you about the love God has and how beautiful heaven was, the parks, and other angels, Barney, Yo Gabba Gabba, and how much we all loved you. You couldn't respond but I know you were telling us you loved us too when two tears went down your face right before God took you. I love you son and you will forever be my love. -Mommy

Hey Muffin,
I miss you and love you so much! Dad finally finished school, the graduation is coming up but I'm not to excited. I just wish you were here so I could share that moment with you and your sister.Your my inspiration and motivation. I love you Muffin I love you Muffin I love you Muffin

Whats up GodSon,
just wanted to stop by and let you know I've been thinking about you. Happy Bday. You would've been 4 this year. It's crazy how fast time flies, sometimes I still feel like it was just yesterday. I miss you lil Jay, but I know the mission that God prepared for you was completed. Well just wanted to say I love you and tell everyone I said hi and I love them too. GodDad

Hi son, your always heavy on mommys heart and thoughts, but recently its been really heavy, almost too much to handle. I literally felt as if God was going to take me today with all the pressure coming down on my chest. I miss you so much, its becoming unbearable again. Looking at your sister brought comfort to me today, i felt as if I was looking right at you. I even took a picture! I sent it to a couple people at they said she looked like your twinn! I miss your smile, your voice, your touch, and everything about you, I still question as to why God had had to take you from me, You were and still are my everything, I was the best mother I could be to you, I gave everything for you and got so many compliments on what a great job I did with you, I guess God has his reasoning, but two years later, I still don't quite understand why. I talk to your sister about you all the time, but when i start crying, I stop because I don't want her to see me cry. I gotta get back to work, but I just wanted to write you to feel as if I am writing to my son rather than just the everyday conversations I have with you in my head. I love you with all my heart My babyboy Jair, and I will forever be your mommy.

Jair my love today it's been 2 years since you've got your wings , we miss and love you so much down here . Your everything my sister and dad could ask for . We know your looking down on us please tell God to shine his light on our hearts today . I will be singing to you all day . We love you soo much , until we meet again baby boy . Love auntie Nora .

Hey Muffin,

Its been a long 2years without you. I miss you a lot, been thinking about that smile and you singing. I can just hear your voice in head. Your little sister looks just like you. Thank you for getting your daddy back focused and on the right track. Today is going to be a hard day for the family so can you ask God to keep some of his best angels around us (you, Janaha, Gma Calhoun, Todd and Gma Pat) I love you Godson i could only imagine how big you would be by now. But i understand that you completed your mission here, and Im glad you got your wings for a job well done.

Love always Roshun

Hi my Angel. Just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas. I know your having the best Christmas with God n your Auntie Janaha. I'm blessed to know you we're there to greet her into heaven with your dimples n beautiful smile. She loves you so much n now you have another angel looking over you in heaven till mommy gets there. Tell her I love her n miss her so much. Your baby sister is 1 week old now son,she resembles you so much. I know you n auntie Janaha met n played with her before us, n that makes me so happy. I know together you both will look after her n protect her. I get sad thinking you would have been the perfect age n here holding n kissing your sister. I even caught myself pretending you we're here n talking to you n her at the same time. N picturing you running around the house with your cousins this morning. Daddy's being so strong tho, mommy loves him so much. We love you son n are thinking of you all day everyday. We're so thankful for the blessing of your sister Jazèllia Amirra Ransome. Love you son.

I love you son.

Today is a good day son. 5 years ago today is when mommy n daddy began our life n created a love so deep that led us to you. I'm so thankful for that day, cause because if it wasn't for daddy smiling at mommy I wouldn't have you. I love you both with all my heart. Mommy can't stop thinking of you, now that your little sister can be here any day, it's getting really hard on me son to the point where I feel I can go crazy. I close my eyes and imagine myself holding n hugging you. Then I reminisce on your voice, smell, n touch. Its truly hard trying to act strong all the time with everything else that goes on in life, but I know you are always with me. I pray for you every morning and night still as if your still here. I love n miss you son. Always n forever -mommy

I love and miss you so much son. I pray your always with me. I feel you so close at times, I can blink my eyes and your there. I thought it'll get a little easier on me getting closer to the arrival of your sister, but it's just getting harder for mommy. I try to pretend I'm strong, but it's hard son. Mommy loves you so much, and when I hold your sister for the first time, it's going to be as if I

going to be there today spiritually as you always have been. Just know that everything mommy and daddy do is in your name and honor son. Your little sister kicks all the time, especially when mommy and daddy talk to her and rub my tummy. I know she will have so much of her older brother in her and this is the greatest blessing we could ask for. God is good son. I love you -Mommy.

I know its been a while papa. I've missed you more than i can bare lately. Daddy is launching his clothing line today and I cried al last night wishing you could be here. I know your with daddy and he wouldn't be where hes at if it wasnt for you. Your always looking out for him, Daddy's angel. I pretended to hold you and imagined kissing as i went to bed and cried last night. I know your

Hey Muffin, happy bday godson, its crazy its been two years since you've been gone. I miss hearing your laugh. Love you

I love U Son.Happy Birthday I miss U Muffin

Love Dad

Happy birthday baby boy, I miss you so much & can't believe its been. This long without you Here. I love you very very very much ..happy birthday muuuah *mishay*

I know you were in the room with mommy and daddy today Jair. I felt you and God's comfort hugging me as tears rolled down my eyes. Daddy is very excited even tho he misses his son like crazy. But all I could hear is you saying, "No ma, girl". We bumped into an angel today, he gave mommy and daddy comfort and we all prayed together. It was an amazing feeling. God is real. I love you son.

I love you son. -Mommy

My love, mommy misses you so much. I sometimes imagine you running around the house still. I hate this part of life. I still always pray for you and pretend to kiss you good night before I lay down to sleep every night. I love you so much son. I see you in your daddy so much everyday and am so thankful he's never left mommys side. You are our hearts my love. Muahs

of the day, I can't think to hard about you not being or what you went through because then I just break down hard. As daddy said, its as if you were just a beautiful dream. Its still hard on me to put your pictures up in the house, but I promise, I will build up the strength very soon to do so papa. I love you with all my heart. I remember your touch and love everyday to make me smile.

Hey papa, it's mommy. I know you knew of the news before we did, but we are blessed. I pray that maybe somehow God is giving you back to us this way, it's been my prayer from the last time I kissed you. If not, it gives me comfort to know you met and played with your little sister/brother first. They say as times passes it gets easier, but it hasn't. Even though I think of you every minute

All my heart papa. Sometimes I cry when I look at daddy because I see his hurt from missing you, I've never seen a man love his son so much like daddy loves you. I pray you hear my prayers for you and daddy every night. I love you. -mommy

Your lips. Its still very hard on everyone. I try not to think to hard on it cause when I do I go crazy in my head. It's amazing how I can think about you every minute of everyday, I thank God for not erasing our memories from my head, it's how I get through the day. Uncle yassine is doing very well in basketball, he calls me sometimes n cries tho cause he misses you so much. I love u wit

Son, I know it has been a while since I wrote on your page, it's just been very hard to look at your pictures. I've been very moody lately and still cry everyday. I think it's just getting harder for mommy to cope with the fact I can't physically hold you and kiss you. When I feel alone, I close my eyes and remember the last Time I kissed your you, n it brings me comfort, I can still feel

Hi Jair, its Mishay...I just wanted to say hi and let you know that not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind... I still cannnot believe you truly are gone and that it has been a whole year.. march28th was hard for me this year but I remembered that you are in a MUCH better place and I continued to pray for your mommy anddaddy and your grandparents from both sides. ILoveYouSoMuchJair

I love you baby boy continue to whatch over your momy and daddy. I love you,Mishay

Hey Muffin, it has been a long time since the last time i got to see, just seeing your videos took me back to all the wonder memories you left with me. It seems like it was just yesterday when i got the call from your dad that you were born, and i couldn't wait to see my God-Son. Your smile lit up the room and i miss it very much, going to see you today was hard. I love & miss you muffin

We bought you your first hightop red chucks since you always wore low tops like daddy. We got an outfit for you to go take pictures in. We never got the chance to take those pictures. Mommy and daddy still have your shoes and clothes we bought that day folded up exactly the same way with the shoes we left them with you. I love you with all my heart son and mommy misses you like crazy.

ht and fought until your heart couldn't beat anymore for us. You did it for mommy and daddy's sane, and I will forever hold that in my heart until the day I die. This day last year mommy and daddy took you to the mall and got you your yo gabba gabba Muno backpack with your cookie monster hat! We tried getting you the shoes but they didn't fit, I regret that though.

t then take him away. I get mad a lot. I still feel as if life is so unfair. The only comfort I have is knowing I will see you again in Heaven, but I wish that time was here already. Today is mommy's first day of her March Calender. It is now the month of giving to me in your name and memory son. I feel you could have gone when they gave you only 24v hours to live, but you didn't! You foug

you were still here. I miss hearing your voice and the way you sing. Yesterday i caught myself trying to mimick he way you hummed Flower Bomb with daddy, but I couldn't get it right. Your voice was so beautiful. I think to myself all the time, How can God bless a child with so many talents, love, smartness, gifts to such loving parents who did everything they could to put their child firs

I know mommy hasn't been on here in a long time son. It just seems as if it gets harder on my heart, not easier. I cry every morning on the way to work and listen to disney songs thinking of you. I cry on my way home too. It was really hard on daddy and mommy when we moved. I became so depressed. all day everyday I think of how beautiful, smart, tall and loving you would have been today if

Missin you Muffin like crazy.its almost been a year and your always on my mind in the morning, during the day and before I go to bed I just lay and look at the window thinking bout you. I really miss you son and can't wait to be with you again. They say time heals all wounds.They need to reword that.
love you Muffin

Hey muff. You've been on my mind everyday like always. I miss you so much. I just sit here and think about how smart you would be now, how would you look, how would you act. I just miss you. Nothing or no one could ever replace you Jair. I love you son

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like you son. I know you had the best Christmas ever with God and the other Angels. I wish you the happiest new year baby. Mommy and daddy will forever live our life in your name making you proud of us, loving one another unconditionally as you loved to see when you were here with us, as I promised you the last time I lay next to you.... I love you son. Jair Khayree Ransome -Mommy