ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, James Updegrove Jr, 22 years old, born on October 28, 1995, and passed away on June 10, 2018. We will remember him forever.
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on December 4, 2020
good morning lil man, I hope you and Doug had a good thanksgiving. I know ya'll did cause everything up there is awesome I'm sure. I miss you boys so much and everyday feels like a struggle to be happy because I feel like I'm not suppose to be since you left because i feel like I should have done something. i don't know exactly what. maybe if we would have called the parties off than you would still be here. but regardless your not here anymore and that is really hard for me to accept. most the time I put in my head you boys are just off on a job. its easier that way. well lil man I'm gonna start a book about the life I had and how my babies changed it all. I thank god all the time for the chance to have you and your sister as my children. I love you and miss you so very much. you will forever be my lil man.
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on October 28, 2020
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LIL MAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. I so wished you were here to be able to call you. i wished you were here to celebrate your day but your not so i have nothing i care to do. People keep saying it will get easier but thats bull cause this is the 3rd birthday without my baby and it feels worse by day. i am trying so hard to be the way everyone expects but this life is so much harder now that one of my most precious babies are not here with me. i really hope everyone up there are throwing you a huge 25th birthday party. your sister is doing something today for you. she missed you so very much. You just dont know how much of an impact on her losing you and doug. She is trying to be strong for you boys so please watch over her. we love and misws you so very much lil man and cant wait for the day to see and hold you in mommys arms again but until then i love you so very much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL MAN, MOMMA LOVES YOU SO VERY MUCH. 
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on September 12, 2020
good morning lil man, i hope you and doug are ok up there. hope your still playing games with doug and still making music. i miss you so very much. everyday i try to figure out what i could of done to change things. since y'all left it changed everything. it is so hard to keep living this life knowing i will never see your beautiful smiles or hear your silliness again. i cant seem to get my self to get over it. i know you boys arent in pain anymore but life down here is so much harder. your sister made sure you guys gave me a birthday. she got a thing of frosting for me from you. she includes you in everything. i love and miss u lil man.
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on August 29, 2020
good morning lil man, i hope you and doug are doing great. i see the last few days you guys must be acting up and pissing god off. lol.. i miss you boys so very much. i would give anything to back and still have you boys here. everyday its very hard to get through knowing you guys are never gonna be here. i wished you guys were here for sissys birthday. i didnt think we would pull it off since it was a last min thing but we did. EVERYTHING is different now that yall arent here. well lil man i love and miss you and you boys better behave up there.
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on August 15, 2020
good morning lil man, i hope you and doug are doing good up there. i miss you guys so much. i really dont understand how im supose to keep going with u gone. it is really hard. i feel completely different without u. i get through each day putting on this fake person so eveyone thinks im ok but deep down im dying. i have so much hate and anger now. i truely understand why u and doug drank so much. it sorta drowns out most things for a min. i dont even want to leave the house anymore. i sit and think back over the years of being a mom and i finally realize i should of done so many different things. maybe if i was a better mom u would of never left me. i can sit here and try to blame someone else but in reality, its me to really blame because im your mother and i should have done alot of things different. im so very sorry lil man.  i just really hope you and doug are as happy as possible. i love and miss you boys so very much. :(
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on July 18, 2020
good morning lil man, i miss you guys so much. i wished you were here to do the stuff we have been able to do. its not the same without you. Bryan and Lilly miss you a lot too. we are taking Bryan to swings and thing today, was taking Lilly but her grandma once again made an excuse to not let her. You were right when you said this would happen. i'm just glad you don't have to go through it. i hope we are making you happy even though we cant do for the other kids. i miss them so much and wished we could see them and i hope you see why. i bought a bunch of stuff to put in the yard for the kids. i just wished i could of done this stuff for you kids growing up better yet you should be here to play with the babies and your sister. well lil man i love you and hope your watching over us like i think you boys are. i love you so very much
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on June 24, 2020
good morning lil man, i miss you so very much. i hate that u and Doug left us. i want to be mad at both of you because you both knew what you were doing and now our family isn't the same. but then i cant be mad at y'all cause i love and miss you so much. i just don't understand why. u promised me and left me anyway. this pain is horrible. i try to stay strong for everyone but it is so very hard. well lil man i guess i have no choice but to keep doing what i'm doing till i cant anymore. i love and miss you boys so much..
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on June 10, 2020
its been 2 years today you left me. its no easier today than it was the day u left. mommy misses you so very much lil man
Posted by Tabatha Smith on December 29, 2019
Hay lil man, mommy misses you so very much. it is so hard with you being gone. your sister is dealing with it the strongest for me and dad. u gave her a beautiful gift when you left us. i hope your so much happier there than you were here. i'm so sorry i couldn't save you that morning. i will never forget your beautiful smile and the sound of you saying i love you momma. hope your flying high baby. i love you always mommas boy
Posted by Tabatha Smith on January 19, 2019
i miss you so very much lil man i cant for the day to see and hold you in my arms again. mommy love u baby boy

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Posted by Tabatha Stevens on December 4, 2020
good morning lil man, I hope you and Doug had a good thanksgiving. I know ya'll did cause everything up there is awesome I'm sure. I miss you boys so much and everyday feels like a struggle to be happy because I feel like I'm not suppose to be since you left because i feel like I should have done something. i don't know exactly what. maybe if we would have called the parties off than you would still be here. but regardless your not here anymore and that is really hard for me to accept. most the time I put in my head you boys are just off on a job. its easier that way. well lil man I'm gonna start a book about the life I had and how my babies changed it all. I thank god all the time for the chance to have you and your sister as my children. I love you and miss you so very much. you will forever be my lil man.
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on October 28, 2020
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LIL MAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. I so wished you were here to be able to call you. i wished you were here to celebrate your day but your not so i have nothing i care to do. People keep saying it will get easier but thats bull cause this is the 3rd birthday without my baby and it feels worse by day. i am trying so hard to be the way everyone expects but this life is so much harder now that one of my most precious babies are not here with me. i really hope everyone up there are throwing you a huge 25th birthday party. your sister is doing something today for you. she missed you so very much. You just dont know how much of an impact on her losing you and doug. She is trying to be strong for you boys so please watch over her. we love and misws you so very much lil man and cant wait for the day to see and hold you in mommys arms again but until then i love you so very much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL MAN, MOMMA LOVES YOU SO VERY MUCH. 
Posted by Tabatha Stevens on September 12, 2020
good morning lil man, i hope you and doug are ok up there. hope your still playing games with doug and still making music. i miss you so very much. everyday i try to figure out what i could of done to change things. since y'all left it changed everything. it is so hard to keep living this life knowing i will never see your beautiful smiles or hear your silliness again. i cant seem to get my self to get over it. i know you boys arent in pain anymore but life down here is so much harder. your sister made sure you guys gave me a birthday. she got a thing of frosting for me from you. she includes you in everything. i love and miss u lil man.
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James lee was one of a kind. he would do anything for anyone even if it took from him. he loved his kids so much. he loved his family and hanging out with them. He was an awesome friend, son, brother, cousin, nephew, uncle, and father. he will be forever missed by many.

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