Today has been 1 of the hardest days ive had since youve been gone, thinking about you and doug is gonna drive me crazy!! I have so so many regreats,, things i wish i could change, things i wish i had said and so many thing id wish i had done... today makes a year since youve been gone but it feels like it was yesterday.. i thank GOD everyday that we had that last conversation, cause that my brother, is what gets me through every single day.... we had alot of disagreements In our lives, but we were blood and u knew i loved you. Neither u or our baby brother will truely be gone, i will always keep u safe in my heart for as long as i  breath..... I LOVE & MISS YOU JAMES LESTER, and i know things would be so different today if u were here....  so much has happened and changed since you've been gone, and we have lost so much. I just want u to know that i will always have u in my heart and that will never change!!!! U were my big brother then, now and forever...FLY HIGH WITH THEM ANGELS  BIG BROTHER and watch over our mom and dad,, cause their heart will never mend, none of us will ever be the same without you and doug, , i will ALWAYS keep ur memory alive.... RIP

Today makes a year that you have been gone from this world, a long year that you left your family and me. James you are loved and we always be loved. Tab and I will remind everyone daily how great and loving you were. I wish there was away to give peace to your mother and father Tab and Joy , they need it so desperately. I love you and my heart is empty with out you, my heart breaks every day. I close my eyes and see you smile and sometimes i think I can feel your touch. I pray for all the family and friends that are still morning the loss and pray they can find peace again. Rest in peace my love and fly high