we remained at hockley for some years thats where we lived when our brother. "your son" david died aged `18 months , after spending most of his short life in and out of hospital more in than out , i remember him so well one of my memorys were me holding him sat on our front door step , i had my photo taked and its with mom now if you ever wondered what happened to it dad , i have so many memories of that place remember me and you walkong to the corner shop as i skipped along and you were forever telling me not to jump or walk on them covers that used to have coal pored down them into the cellars but once i did and it broke and i fell down a slope into the cellar i was so scared it was so dark down there , you reached in and pulled me out  im sure you laughed (ha ha) it was worth it has the owner oof the shop who,s cellar it happened to be came out annd gave me a big bag of sweets ha :) i had so much fun living there helping you look after the others when mom was at work and hospital i remember we used go out collecting gems and diamonds that would blow out of the air vents along a big wall of a factory with big iron gates and alsation guard dogs , we found a way in < well the skillons did , and they sort of took me under there wing p.ll just put it that way shall i!!! ,, i had no choice back then , they were bullys and had there kicks at often my expense some things id never say anything i was too scared to, i didnt want you to get into trouble .as i know what youd have done you and your best friend "paddt burns" i liked paddy , he always used to visit with sweets for us all :)im telling you something now dad  i didnt tell you when it happened and dont think as i grew up i never did , i dont remember anyway one day with my new dress on collecting these brightly coloured stones which i always handed them over , (i still wonder if they ever were real diamonds , i remember being sent to collect them , most prob the scillons dad i reckon ) anyway back to the dress  <it was a sailors dress one with  red anchors on we me and the skillons gang that is, were in the factory grounds as it run along side  the canal where we,d snwak in not every time we made it has the dogs would come charging at us my  .they were beasts, and i  willl never quite believe how we evaded them as often as we did anyway sometimes we,d drag with us or wed find in the factory grounds   big sheets of corrugated iron or wood and float down the canal , but once a dog knocked me into the canal , i remember drowning the water all dark and murky i kept bobbing up and down and they were all standing at edge laughing at me when a man came over from somewhere and pulled me out , i sayed out till my dress dried , so you wouldnt know , the skillons went not long after as they sat fire to there house and were taken into care i heard , i remember when some boys got my kitten and threw it off a roof agfter half drowning it , r they killed it and you hunted the streets for them i never did find out if you.d found them dad though i always i reckoned you did , you see you would never let anyone hurt us you wouldve killed for us   , we  were your world ,:( i feel so sad when i think back to how lonely and sad you mustve felt when mom took us all and left you for the last  time  , but that was a few years later what i call the kingstanding days but we,ll come to that soon dad 

dad you were a father of 6 children ,me,yvonne the eldest then elaine, jimmy ,david sharon and  last of all darren .                                                                                              i remember my early childhood days so well although id be no more than 4-5 i remember lots of familys that lived on or around clissalls street (not sire of spelling) the scillons were rogues far worst than us , across from where we lived was what we called "the bomb peck" where half demolished houses stood barely up . i remember the scillons making me walk up old crumbling wooden stairs some steps were missing , i was so scared but they had elaine on an outhouse roof an were goin to push her off if i didnt jump from the top bedroom window onto a dirty flat mattress that they dragged from a pile of rubbish , they went to push me as i stood on ledge trembling so i shut my eyes after id positioned in my mind where i would land it seemed nucj higher at that time , but i did it and landed on a dead squashed rat that they mustve thrown on it i never saw it though before i jumped , anyway they still pushed elaine off and i caught her and landed flat on mny back i remember you going mad as you left to confront them , i never got to find out what happened but i know youd most prob have sorted there dad out lol well for now thats it c u soon xx