Hey you x
I wonder where you are and how you’re doing.
Evie and Oliver have been talking lots about you and miss you terribly. It will soon be Christmas and they would give anything to have you here for Christmas, we all would.
I looked up into the sky last night and saw the stars wondering if you were one of them, shining down on us.
I miss you my prince. Life is moving on but you remain unchanged in our hearts.
All my love
Kim x

If our love could have saved you, you would have lived forever!!

Hey you xx
I wish I could ask you how you are!
I wish I could ask you anything really!
It’s our little Evie’s 6th birthday tomorrow and it’s impossible not to feel sad that you won’t be here to share it with her.
We all miss you terribly James, living without you still feels so wrong.
Love you always xxx

Happy 13th anniversary my prince xxx

It’s so hard not to feel sad that I didn’t get long enough with you, we always talked about celebrating our ten year anniversary and we never got the opportunity. 13 years doesn’t sound like a long time but I wish I could have had that long with you.
Thank you for thinking of me so happy for the time that you did.
I love you xxxx

Hey you
So Oliver and Evie are about to finish the school year and it’s been a very strange one for lots of reasons.
Their school reports are amazing and a reflection of what beautiful kind people they are.
Oliver has been upset talking about how much he misses you and wishes he could see you.
It’s the most heartbreaking sight and I would give anything to make his wish come true.
We all miss you dearly James and I would love to be sharing their school reports with you this evening, as with every other part of our children’s lives.
We love you and miss you so very much.
Kim, Oliver and Evie xx

Hello Mate,

I saw the kids yesterday JimBob.
Kim brought them here for a Father’s Day visit.  After being in this lockdown situation for months it was a real treat.
It certainly made my day.

But Father’s Day just isn’t the same for us here anymore.
Kim is a truly wonderful mum JB and she is helping Olly & Evie to become lovely little people. Evie in particular is becoming a real character. She is so bubbly and constantly so happy that she brightens up rooms with her personality— it’s great to be in her company.
I love to be able to see them more often

So, Your family really are very popular JB — everybody who knows them loves them and it shows because they are surrounded by nice folks.

All that’s missing is you mate.

I understand that it cannot happen, but I can’t stop myself from wishing you were here JB.
But wherever you are today mate -
Journey Well My Friend
Love from now.2 xxxx

How can you not be here anymore?
I find myself still asking this question three and a half years down the road. Why did this happen?
Tomorrow is Father’s Day and it’s probably one of the hardest occasions to deal with now you’re gone.
Your birthday, my birthday, Christmas, wedding anniversaries... all of these days carry pain now James but nothing compared to Father’s Day where there is the awful reminder that Oliver and Evie don’t have their daddy anymore.
That is the most painful thing of all!!!
They can’t buy you funny gifts or make you breakfast in bed or spoil you for the day and thank you for being their wonderful daddy.
It breaks my heart every time and whilst they have written you cards and have a couple of gifts to honour your memory it just isn’t enough.
Oh how I wish I could change what happened to you. To bring you back and give you a lifetime with your beautiful children. And give them a lifetime with you!!!
I can’t ever make up for what they lost the day they lost you and days like tomorrow make that so apparent James.
I will think of you and share stories about you tomorrow and hope that they can get some glimmers of what you were like (or would have been like) as their daddy.
I hope that you can see them even if they can’t see you.
We love you and we miss you everyday.
Happy Father’s Day my prince xxx

Hey you
So tomorrow is my 39th birthday and it feels like such a significant age given that you were 39 when we lost you.
I struggle so much with the idea that one day I could be older than you and see a life that you never got a chance to see.
The children grow and change and it breaks my heart that you’re missing it James.
I will think of you tomorrow, it won’t be the same without you, but I have some really special people around me who will help me and look after me just as you would have done. For that I know I’m very lucky and I’m also very grateful!
I love you James and I miss you everyday xxx

Hey you x
You have been in my thoughts a lot this week and I have found myself looking at Oliver and Evie wondering what you would say to them if you were here now.
They miss you so much and they are really thinking a lot right now about life without their dad.
I wish every day that they weren’t living their life without you James, they miss you more than they can possibly explain.
I miss you too. I took down the old thermostat in the hall, filled and painted it and it looks great. My first thought was what you might say if you could see it.
James, I hope you can see us wherever you are. I so desperately want to believe that you’re living on somewhere xx
Goodnight my prince xx

Hey you x
It’s been a while since I wrote to you but you are always in my thoughts.

We are experiencing a very strange time right now with a global pandemic and have been placed in a lockdown situation which prevents us from leaving our home. We have been at home for three weeks and have been watching the world news as people lose their lives to Coronavirus.
Every time I hear of a tragic death I think of you and the pain of your tragic death stings me again.

Life is so strange because we are taught that the one certainty is one day we will die. We know this and assume it will be one day when we’re old and we’ve watched our grandchildren grow and we’re blessed with a full and a happy life to look back on. We never think it will be when we’re young and have two small children to raise and a million experiences still to have.

I think of those poor souls who’ve lost their life to coronavirus and I can’t help but think of you. How sad it is that you’re gone. How unbelievable it is that you’re not with us anymore! It’s been 3.5 years and I still struggle to believe it’s really happened James!!

We’ve just had an Easter weekend. We should have been spending it with your mum and dad but instead we are at home because of the lockdown. I’ve spent time reflecting on my life as it is now and I can’t help but wonder what things would be like if you were here with me now.

What would you make of our two children? What would Evie think of her amazing daddy? A man she never had the chance to know? That thought, above all others breaks my heart James! I wish she could have known you and I wish you could know her! You would be so proud of Oliver and Evie, I’m certain of that!

I just hope that somehow you are still able to see them and smile at wonderful little people they are.

My heart is with you as I live through this strange and uncertain time. Living through your death has taught me that no matter what happens, life carries on and I know this situation is no different.

The future may not be as I imagined it would be, I imagined growing old with you! But the future will keep coming and we will face whatever it brings.

The one thing that will carry on with us is you and your memory. We will always love you and miss you and mourn the tragic loss of a wonderful man.

I miss you my prince. Wherever you are I hope you’re happy xx

All my love

Kim xxx

I miss you xxxxx

Happy birthday James. Hope your having a good day wherever you are today. Miss ya mate x

Hi James, happy 43rd birthday wherever you are, hope your looking down on us and remembering all the good times we all had together, we love and miss you every day, but we keep the memories alive for Oliver and Evie, love you lots Gwen xx

Happy Birthday my Prince!
You would be 43 today and if you were here with us we would be celebrating what an amazing man you are!!
We miss you terribly but we hope wherever you are that you’re happy xxx
All our love
Kim, Oliver and Evie xxx

Missing you never stops being a really really hard thing !!!!!!!

Hello Mate,

2020 begins !!
Christmas 2019 is over, and now we enter into 2020.
New Years are always a time for folks to reminisce - and it's impossible for us to do that without thinking of you.

We bring you into our conversations often JB - especially Kim, Olly, Evie but also myself -- and in my case never more so than on Christmas Day.

Kim & the kids don't spend Christmas' here with us since you left - so I always prompt conversations as we share gifts and then again as we have dinner, and we all share our memories of you around our dinner table.

Libby spoke well this last week.

Libs talked of how times she had spent with you sparked her interest in photography - which in turn led to her going to University to study - and subsequently she gained her Masters Degree in Photography.
Which was very relevant on Xmas day as LIbs had made a personal gift for Gwen & I - which was a set of photo's of our children and our grandchildren. 

Libs arranged day earlier in 2019 in which she got all our family together and did a "Photo Shoot" involving group shots plus individual pics.
The resulting photos were beautiful.
Libs was feeling proud (rightly so)

Unfortunately you were not in there - but your influence certainly was JB and Libby's acheivements and the efforts she put into making this gift made me proud of BOTH of you.

So a new decade starts.
This time we don't have you here beginning this one with us.
Especially Kim, Olly & Evie, who even now are still learning how to be a family without you.

If you could have been here you would be so, so proud of them and the people they've become JB, which gives us confidence that they will thrive through the 2020's

Do you experience time now JB?

Obviously we can't know .....and none of us can know how this new decade will unfold either - but I do know that we will miss having you here JB, and we'll always hope that out there in the great beyond, you are happy and experiencing all the wonders of the next life.

Wherever that may be.....

Journey Well My Friend
Love from now.2 xxxx

Hey you x
It’s New Year’s Eve and it’s been a day when I have thought about you lots.
We have had a quiet Christmas including spending time with your mum, dad and sister. I love being with them and feeling close to you but it always opens up emotions that are hard to contain. I went out for drinks with Pete and Chris too and it was great to catch up with them and remember you.
Oliver misses you terribly and Evie is starting to learn more about you. Life just isn’t the same without you James and when Oliver asks me why this happened to you I am completely unable to answer him.
Why were you taken so suddenly? How do I make it ok for our two beautiful children to live a life without their dad?
How do we start a new year without wishing you could start it with us.
I hope that wherever you are you’re watching James, as our children are amazing and I would give anything for you to be able to enjoy them.
I don’t know what 2020 is going to bring but I know that you will be here with us in our hearts and our memories and everything that Oliver and Evie do.
Happy New Year my prince.
Love always
Kim xxx

Getting ready for Christmas just isn’t the same without you here x

Hello JB,
Not a day goes by when I don't miss having you around mate.

But I find October & November the hardest times of all. So I've been missing you even more lately.

Love from Nos.2 xxxx

Hey you x
It’s the evening before Oliver’s 9th birthday and my mind is full of memories of the night before he was born.
I remember how terrifying it was and how strong you were sitting next to me and holding my hand promising me that everything would be fine. And you were right, after a bumpy couple of years his strength and determination shone through and now he is the bravest, most determined boy I know.
He is the most amazing young man and a total reflection of his dad and I will be forever grateful to you for the love, support and character you gave him.
We will be celebrating tomorrow at the National Space Centre. He spends a lot of time looking into the night sky trying to find the star that he thinks you have become. His birthday is bittersweet for me as I cherish what a fantastic person he is but I mourn that you aren’t here with us to see it.
I don’t know what Oliver’s future holds but I do know that you in his heart and soul and give him courage and for that I am truly thankful.
I hope that wherever you are you can see your son and smile with pride.
Love you and miss you,
Kim xx

Hey you xx
Can you believe how amazing our little girl is??
Love you x

Hey you xxx
It’s a dark October evening and I’m thinking of you.
Evie had her first school disco tonight, another occasion you couldn’t be here for.
It makes me so sad James that you aren’t with us watching our beautiful children grow up.
Sometimes it’s the smallest things that hurt and tonight is one of those nights, putting Evie to bed and listening to her talking about all her new experiences.
I can imagine you sat on her bed like you did the morning you left us and it hurts so much that you’re not.
We miss you everyday my prince xx

Hi James.

Hope you’re well today. Wherever you may be, and the weather is better there than it is here. It’s been naff all week. Winter is coming I guess booo.

i thought u might like to know that I went on a driving experience earlier in the year. I Really enjoyed it too. You would have been in your element. Ferrari’s, lambos, maclarens, Aston martins. I felt a bit like James Bond in the Aston Martin haha Although I did prefer driving the lambo. It Was good fun.

Kim, Oliver and Evie are doing well. Oliver beats me on all the games now. Especially the racing 1s. Evie is a right little chatterbox and winning medals for her dancing. Just like her mom did when she was younger haha.

Can’t believe it’s been 3 years now though.

I Miss you mate.

X x x

Hi JB.
You are the only person I know of that has a tribute site like this devoted to them.
There are lots of lovely messages written on here, some of which are very, very moving.
Which is a testament to how we all thought of you.
Everybody !!
But by crikey, how I wish this site didn't exist, and you were sat here with us - chatting together, and flashing your lovely smile.

Three years have now gone by since you passed - but you will never be out of our lives mate.
We speak of you often, and you live on in the beautiful family, and the home that you & Kim made together.
Kimberley does a truly impressive job of being mom and dad to Olly and Evie.
She is an inspiration to many.
It does give us all heartaches that you are not here to see that in person, but we gain comfort in the hope that somewhere you will be watching and smiling.

Wherever that may be - "Journey well my friend"
Love as ever from Nos.2xxxx

Hello James, can't believe that three years have passed since you were taken from us. Time goes by so quickly, we all get older but we never forget you, you are always is our hearts and thoughts and we often talk to Oliver and Evie about you and of course Kim, who misses you dearly. Hope you look down on us every now and again. Love you always James, Gwen (mom 2) xxx

Hi mate. I can't believe its now been 3 years without you in our lives. Really miss you. Thinking of the whole family on this day.

I miss you x

Hey you,

Today is a massive day. Evie has her first day of school today and she is so excited.
She has come so far in the last few months and you would be so proud of her James.
Her teacher asked her to draw a picture of her family to take to school and she wanted to make sure that you were in the picture. She drew your smiling face in heaven and it brought a tear to my eye.
Evie is off on her next big adventure in life and it breaks my heart that you aren’t here to share it with her James. I hope you can see her and you are smiling and beaming with pride.
I’ll hold her hand extra tightly on the first walk to school today and I know you’ll be holding her heart too.

All my love, we miss you so much Daddy xxxx

Kim, Oliver and Evie xxx

Hey you x
It’s a lovely sunny evening and I’m sat at your graveside thinking about you.
Life sometimes seems so hard without you in it James, and missing you sometimes seems so unbearable.
I try to hear your voice and remember the things you would say to me when we had finished work and were discussing our day.
I miss that!
I had a lovely day today decorating someone’s house. It’s a simple job but I really enjoy it and I would love to be sat talking to you about it right now.
I guess that’s why I’m here. To feel closer to you, to feel somehow connected to you.
It will soon be our daughters 5th birthday and I would give anything to have you here to celebrate it with her. You would adore her James, she’s incredible!
I would give anything to have one more chat with you! About anything!
I love you and miss you more than I can ever say.
My darling prince, I hope you are happy wherever you are xxx

Hi ya mate. Happy anniversary! What a great day it was 12 years ago. So many happy memories for everyone to cherish. Miss you loads.

Happy Anniversary my prince xxx
I remember 15 years ago today we got chatting around the poolside and 12 years ago today we became man and wife.
It was an honour and a privilege to call you my husband and I wish it could have been for a lifetime.
I will always love you and cherish the wonderful time we had together xxx

Hi James
It’s Friday evening and I’ve just sat down to read Oliver’s school report. I was so impressed by the fantastic report I read and the first person I wanted to share it with was you.
I wish you could be here to read it in person James and I pray that you can see what a remarkable boy Oliver is.
He’s so much like you in every single way and when I kissed him goodnight a few minutes ago I saw your smile.
It’s so hard to believe you’ve been gone for nearly three years now, time passes so quickly, but the memory of you never fades from our hearts.
I love you so much my prince and I miss you every day.
Days like this remind me of what a wonderful partnership we had and what a happy life we would have had, if only you hadn’t been taken from us.
Our children are truly beautiful people and I couldn’t be prouder, I tell them about you all the time and Evie loves hearing stories about the short but precious time you had together.
Wherever you are, I really hope that you can see your wonderful legacy James, I know you would be so proud of them xx

Hiya Jimbob,
It is June 13th - kim’s and paul’s birthday.
Bertie became 40 today - a milestone that you were unable to reach.
I know that Kimmy would have made plans & arrangements to make it a special day for you.
Sadly today reminds us that it didn’t happen, and we are left to wonder and dream of what it would be like to have you here today.
Missing you still hurts JB.
But we are consoled by the joy and the fun that your children create.
Olly and Evie are wonderful - and together with Kim they brighten the lives of so many people on so many days — it is a joy to see them
i hope that an “after life” or a “spirit world” really does exist - and that you are somehow aware of them for yourself.
Kim has become a very impressive person JB - and you certainly played a part in helping her - but I gotta say that she deserves great credit for the way she is raising your children.
If you were here sharing this day you would be very, very proud of her.
Wherever you are Jimbob -
Journey Well My Friend .........
Love from nos.2 ❤️

Hiya JimBob,
It's Wednesday afternoon 24th April.
I'm at my desk, working, and iPod has just played a tune that reminds me of you - it prompted me to log-in to these pages and view some of the photo's and the messages that are posted here. ... just to give me a way that I might spend a little time with you (at least in spirit) 
Sitting here looking at all this stuff about you takes up quite a lot of time, & is more than a bit hard on the emotions bud --- (we miss you more than you could ever have imagined mate) -- I guess I should get back on with my work, so instead of writing more, I am gonna log-out now.
Wherever you are; "Journey Well My Friend"
Love from nos.2  xx xx

Morning Mr Merritt
It’s a beautiful sunny day in Wiltshire and I’m thinking of you.
I met up with Chris and Fiona last night and we talked about you lots. Chris has pledged to take Oliver out when he’s older to tell him all about you and the things you all got up to in your youth, it made me smile.
It’s Easter Sunday tomorrow, a time that always makes me think of you and the lovely mornings we’d have hunting with Oliver. I feel so sad that we won’t be hunting with you tomorrow my prince but I hope you’re smiling in heaven watching Oliver and Evie.
We love you and miss you every day xxxxx

Hey you xx
We said farewell to Aunty Lystra today, couldn’t help wondering if you have found her and given her a hug xxx

Hiya JB,
I just read Kim’s post - and by coincidence you were in my mind.
Gwen & I are inOrlando today JB - and in my heart I felt you there alongside us.
How lovely it wud be to have seen you walk around here with Kim, Olly & Evie.
I bought gifts here to take back and give to the kids for you mate — I hope you are able to take a peep at them JB,
But wherever you are ...
Journey Well My Friend.
Love from nos.2.

Hard to believe it’s been a year since we laid you to rest at St Michael’s my prince.
I miss you so much and would love to know where you are and how you’re doing.
I look into Oliver’s eyes and I see you so clearly, he really is your double. You would be so proud of Oliver and Evie James, they make me proud every day and keep you alive for everyone to see.
I loved you yesterday, I love you still, always have always will xx

Missing you lots but Happy Birthday mate. Thinking of you as always.

Happy Birthday my Prince!!
Oliver has been counting down to your birthday for two weeks and he talked fondly about how we would have celebrated with you today.
He said he hopes the angels are helping you to celebrate, I hope so too xxx
We love you, we miss you, always!!!!!

HI James - today is your birthday but you are not here to share it with us. It should be a happy day when we have fun celebrating you becoming another year older, but you were taken from us too soo.
But we will not forget this special day, we will remember all the happy birthdays that we shared with you, we will always love you dear son-in-law and keep alive the wonderful memories we have, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES, love Gwen xx

Morning James
It’s a cold Sunday morning and I’m sat in your old bedroom thinking about you.
Yesterday was Simon’s 40th Birthday and tomorrow is your mums birthday.
Both events highlight that you’re not here with us and that makes us all feel sad.
We’re going out for lunch today to celebrate but no doubt we will all think of you and wish you were sat there with us.
Always in our thoughts and hearts
Love you x

Hiya JB,
It’s 6.00am Christmas morning here.
Our house is quiet.
I am sat here listening to music and comtemplating the day ahead - and find myself thinking of what today might be like if you were still here with us.
I Just selected “All You Need Is Love” in rememberance of xmas day 2010 - when we visited Olly in hospital, and I placed headphones by his tiny little head and played the 1st song he would ever hear.
It was a special moment.
One of many we shared together.
Such a shame that we won’t share more.
I miss you loads mate.
Wherever you are today JB - journey well my friend.
Love from Nos. 2. xxxx

Dearest James,
It’s Christmas Eve and my thoughts naturally turn to you. It’s been three years since our last Christmas together and I have such wonderful memories of that Christmas, we had our beautiful family and a bright future ahead of us after experiencing some tough times.
I remember our one year old Evie hiding in a Christmas gift bag on Christmas morning and you capturing her laughter and smiles on camera, you had such a talent and I always cherish the beautiful images you captured.
Evie’s 4 now and everyone comments on how beautiful her smile is. You would have been able to capture that like no one else and I hope that you can see her smile and how incredible she is.
We have had an enjoyable week, Oliver, Evie and I had a few days with Mum and Dad at Disneyland Paris and it was magical. It was nice to create some new memories for them and for me, and to wrap ourselves in a bubble of happiness for a few days.
The next few days will be busy with lots planned but I will think of you as always and hope that wherever you are you can see your wonderful children and smile as they celebrate Christmas.
The pain of losing you will never leave my heart but the joy of seeing you everyday in Oliver and Evie will make me smile forever. I talk to Oliver and Evie all the time about you James and they will always know what a wonderful man their Dad was.
I miss you my prince and I would give anything to wish you a Merry Christmas. Our last Merry Christmas was so special and whilst we may see many more Christmases without you, the love we feel for you will always be there.
Sending you my love, now and always.
Kim xxx

Hey you,
Oliver has celebrated his 8th birthday today and whilst he has had a lovely day with lots of gifts and family around him, the one thing he wished for was to celebrate with you!
When he went to bed tonight he looked up to the stars and I know he was looking for you.
I tell Oliver and Evie all the time what a special man their dad is and I know they believe it and love you dearly James.
You aren’t here in person but you are here in our hearts, today and forever!!!
We love you and are so proud of our daddy Merritt!!!
I am so thankful to you for blessing me with such a beautiful boy and I am privileged to help him grow into a wonderful young man who is every bit his fathers son.
Wherever you, I hope you are happy my prince.
Love you xxx

Hi mate. Today marks a sad day for us all. But trying to think of all the good times over the years. Miss you lots and always thinking of you.

Because One We Love Is In Heaven .....
How little we knew that morning,
That God would call your name.
In life we loved you dearly James,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
A part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.
You left us fabulous memories James,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you now,
Your always by our side.
Our Family Chain has been broken,
And nothing feels the same.
But as God calls us - one by one,
The chain will link again.
Two years since you passed JB, but not a single day without thinking of you.
Journey well my friend.
Love from Nos. 2 xxxx

Two years ago today our world was shattered, you were taken from us without warning. We couldn't hug and kiss you goodbye. We love you today, we will love you tomorrow, we will love you always, you made our world a better place. We have many treasured memories to hold onto and share with others. God bless you James, forever in our hearts, love Gwen xx

Well, two years have passed now since that awful day and we all miss you just as much now mate as at any other time. Been thinking about you this last week and wish you were still here with us.
Would love to show you the DIY work I’ve finally started doing myself, and get a few tips from you. You were always great at those kind of jobs mate and knew what to do. Kim is doing a great job for us too, and I know you’d be so proud of her and how she’s thriving in her new career. She is amazing.
I miss you loads big brother. Always will. You’ll always be an inspiration to me and I’ll never forget you. Love always
Johno xxx

If my love could have saved you, you would have lived forever x