My heart is heavy tonight as tomorrow is the 9th anniversary of Jim's sudden death. We loved each other something fierce and our life was good and about to get better. In that awful moment I was forever changed. I mourn Jim, l mourn my life that was taken from me that day, l mourn the very being of me that is forever gone, l mourn the me that used to be, l mourn what should have been, I mourn the future l will never have with him. I mourn and grieve for the life Jim was denied, l mourn the loss of his brilliant mind, l mourn the loss of his irreverent, attitude, l mourn the loss of a really good guy who was loved and admired by many, l mourn this and so much more.
I give thanks for the love Jim had for me in this world and in the next.
I give thanks for his dream visits that have guided me in my time of need.
I give thanks for the many signs he gave me in my most desperate time of need.
I give thanks for the strength he has given me to be me, changed forever but still me...
I am thankful for the gift of feeling loved again. I am thankful for for the love a man that knew Jim and loved him before l even knew him.
I am thankful for Love and second chances. ❤