7 years baby. Your absence is still so very painful. I have been told by numerous people that I should concentrate on your beautiful life instead of your death. Very hard! First of all, if I had known you were going to have such a short life I would have done more to make it beautiful, and done more to prevent you leaving us. Second of all, you are not here physically. Sometimes I can feel you, and I so appreciate your visits baby. But what i would give to hug you and actually see your beautiful smile. Melly does a good job of recreating it, and all your girls give me bittersweet memories of your beauty and the light you left in this world. I thank God for them every day. You are so missed by so many. The bottom line for me baby, is I was supposed to leave before you. The world no longer makes sense to me and I don't know if it ever will again. I will forever love you. Always and after that, Mom

Hi Ness Ness,How I wish I could hug you and look into your beautiful eyes once again. That would be a big enough Christmas present to last me for life. Your daughters are growing and thriving and turning into beautiful women like their mother. I have so much to be grateful for but somehow it never seems enough without you. I never realized how blessed I was until you were gone. I will never take life for granted again.You are still very much loved and missed by many. Your cousin Kiefer joined you in April. You already knew that,I know. Ypur Aunt Mary is suffering and trying her best to come to terms with what is truly unthinkable. You and Keifer were not supposed to go before us. I love you baby.Always and forever,your mom

Hi Ness,its your auntie mary, it's been a minute since I wrote to you. Well as you can see your cousin is with you. You two might have ran into each other. I hope you showed him around and told him what the rules are,lol. Your mom has been a big help,getting me through this. You have such an amazing mom and she is so awesome. How don't know how she has made it this long with out you,but she is one strong woman. She hurts on the inside since you've been gone. Your babies are getting sooo big. We all miss you,its not the same around here without you. Us as moms have our world turned upside down since our babies left us. You are always in our hearts and we miss you lots. 

Happy 32 baby! I am still here missing and loving you. That will never change,except the still here part.

Hi baby,it's been a minute since I've written. You have been gone from my sight for 72 months now, but you will always be fresh in my heart. Your girls are growing and thriving and I know you are so proud of them. It's not right what happened to you and I am still struggling with the horrific reality almost 7 years later. I still wish there was a way to go back in time and save you. I will never stop loving you,missing you,or remembering you. Always and forever,mom♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

Nessa,
I think about you all the time and even more when I have your necklace you gave me on. Thank you for being my friend in elementary school and for your kindness/sass. I’m sad we fell out of touch but I never stopped keeping up with you and your girls. I wish your girls the best life possible and I hope you smile down on all your family with that beautiful smile of yours. Rest easy Nessa. 
Love
Julie

Hi Baby,six years ago today you left us. I can't stop wishing that you come back. So many things I should have told you. I have a feeling that you know what they are now. Can you hear me when I talk to you? I hope so, but I am going to keep doing it anyway. I hope you know how loved and missed you are. You were such a beautiful gift. I can understand how God would want you back,but I still don't think it is right. My arms are too short to box with him but they are not too short to hold you forever in my heart. See you soon baby girl♥️

Hi baby, Merry Christmas. I wish you were here. This time of year is even worse than usual without you. You were the life of the party.. Your children are doing well. I am worried about your sister. I love you and always will. No matter where you are and no matter where I am. always and forever, mom

Happy Birthday Baby! Another one without your earthly presence. Not really liking that, but I don't really have much say about that. Never the less,you will always be loved and never forgotten.Crystal,Jaide and me are at Denny's celebrating you and Crystal is ordering the super bird in your honor. It is still hard living without you. I know it will never be easy. I wish God would send you back,even if only for a day so I could look you in your beautiful face and hug you tight and tell you all the things I didn't get a chance to tell you. I hope you already know how proud I am of you and I know you would have accomplished amazing,wonderful things. I hope your soul is at peace baby. Love you forever,Mom

Almost 5 years now, and I am still constantly thinking about the if onlys and what ifs. The missing you is increasing. Your children are growing and thriving but they miss you too. You will always be loved and never forgotten. This world is getting crazier every day, and it was truly a better place when you were here. Love you forever Janessa Jaclyn Smith♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

Happy Birthday RIP love and miss you bunches

My dearest Janessa,
Happy Heavenly Birthday This is not how I planned to celebrate your 30th birthday. Any birthday. I love and miss you so much. Life is just not the same. I just want to tell you what an honor and privilege it was to be your mother. You were not supposed to go before me. I am trying to live a life that would make you proud,but it is hard to appreciate when something so precious and special has been taken from me. I am doing the best I can Ness Ness. I hope you like your cake and flowers,and know you will never be forgotten. You are in my heart always. I feel you,and I know that's what is making get thru the day to day. Love you forever and after that, Mom.
P.S. Please help your sister if you can

Happy birthday beautiful! I miss you so much! I'm falling apart without you, I really really miss you! You would of been 30 and we probly would been in Vegas. Id do anything to see you smile or hear your voice. I love you lil girl! You will be forever missed!

Hi Baby,Oh how I miss you!!!! Some things never change. Another Christmas without you. The good news,Your girls are growing up to be beautiful,amazing people just like their mother. The bad news,they miss you as much as I do. Merry Christmas in Heaven baby. I love you and always will. Forever and after that,Mom

Happy Birthday Beautiful I was thinking about you the other day and I said to myself wow like it’s still unreal, your daughters are growing into beautiful young ladies, they are loved, you are loved we all miss you, 29 living it up in heaven continue to watch over your family they miss you and love you so much happy birthday 

Happy 29th birthday Ness! I miss you so much and wish we could celebrate together. I see you so much in your girls and I know you are watching over them. Love you!

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you! Rest easy angel.

Happy 29th my beautiful Ness Ness❤ How I would love to see your smile when I sing you happy birthday!! Maybe I can't see you with my eyes anymore but I can still feel you in my heart, and that will never change. I know one day Jesus will let me see your beautiful smile again, but until that day I will celebrate your beautiful soul on earth, along with all the many who also love and miss you. I am so proud of you and I hope I am making you proud. It is such an honor to be your mother. I will love you forever and after that. ❤❤Mom

3 years baby. It is not getting any easier. I miss you so much. Your children are loved and thriving but i know they will always miss you. I will love you forever and after that mom

Ness,
I miss you so much. The memories we made will last a lifetime. I know you are our angel now and watching over your loved ones.

Ness
U are so missed today as we find ways to honorr u and wish u a happy birthday.,.it is not the same without you....I love the way u would try to make people smile...I miss u..happy birthday!

I will always remember you and life has not been the same with those who love you. God created such a beautiful person when he breath life into you. Forever missed but never forgotten you are child of God! love your aunt Lena Johnson❤

Hi Ness, I miss you baby. I will love you forever and after that. I feel your spirit with me and wish so Much that I could have had more earthly time with you. I am so sorry for all times I didnt let you know just how much I loved you. I was so blessed to be your mom and I still wish I could have saved you. Your girls are doing well but still loving and missing you of course. There are some things that even death can't change. If you do find a way to talk to me, I will be listening. Always and forever, mom

Rest in Heaven Janessa!
It’s crazy how it’s been to years since u been gone. Life is crazy nd it will never feel the same. Continue to watch over ur family, continue to rest peacefully. I love u!!
-Nette

You have been gone for 2 years. I swear I miss you everyday. But I feel you with me, even tho everyday is so hard with out you I try remain strong. Please you and dad look over mom, cuz I cant be with her every day. We all miss you so much. I love you sissy. I love you so freakn much!

Ness,
I miss you every day. I see you in your girls so much. I cherish all the memories I made with you but most importantly how if I was in a bad mood you would try so hard to make me happy. I miss our drives and our nights in watching movies. You will be forever missed and never forgotten. Love you ness!!

I miss you so much baby girl! you will always be in my heart.. I’m so glad you came into my life... I’m so glad I get to be in your families life to keep you memories living... I love you baby girl

Wow..two years have gone by...I think of u everyday...when I am with your girls I see you in their mannerisms and beauty...I wish I would have had more time with u...u r forever missed...i love you

Dearest Ness,
It's so hard to put into words how much we miss and love you. Your girls are growing so fast and they are so BEAUTIFUL. I see you in them ALOT. R.I.P SWEET NIECE.

You've been gone from this earth 2 years now baby, and the pain of losing you is still with me. You will never be forgotten . I know you hear me talking,to you and I feel you in my heart. Your children are growing up happy and healthy but they will never forget you. I look at them and see you. You did good baby. I wish I had more earthly time with you, but one day I will have unlimited heavenly time with you. Loving you forever and after that,mom

Beautiful, Janessa, I missed getting to know you in person, but feel like I know you well through your wonderful Mom. Thank you for the gift of Her friendship. She means the world to me.
Your girls are precious and continue to reflect your beauty. The family is loving them and taking good care of them.
You shine through each of them. Someday I will be so glad to meet you in heaven. Till then....

Your smiles, your love, your trusting heart. How I miss you. I miss that sweet voice saying "Yes Aunt Ann," I will. Miss you talking with Mom your grandmother and how you could make her smile. Miss so much. Love you forever, rest in peace.

Rest in Peace you Beautiful Angel. May God continue watching over your babies. You are truly missed.

I sure do miss you and think of you every day. your Walmart mom I see you in the pretty little girls and I know you and your heart will live and thrive forever

I love you miss you will always remember you I still enjoy waiting for you to come to Philadelphia with your father my brother I will forever love you! We will keep your memories alive and yes I am fighting against The Domestic violence "Janessa Safe Haven" Your aunt Lena love you!

You will live forever in my heart my beautiful daughter. Rest in peace and know that you are loved and missed by many.

I love you ness. It's not fair you were taken, it's not fair you are gone. It still don't seem real. You were my everything. I miss your laugh, your smile, your jokes, you calls, your voice, u touch, your presents.. life Is so hard without you. I miss you so much sissy. I'm lost without you, and i really miss you everyday, even just buggin you, or hanging out. I love you Janessa and i don't think I said it enough, but i love you now and always will.

it sucks now that all i have are memories.... i promise not to let them die. cousins that were more like sisters at least in my eyes. you were mine and i yours.... still hard to swallow and this song that's playing right now is making it sooooo hard not to cry and i know you'd laugh at me being all sensitive but girl, i miss you just that much... its never goodbye it's a see you later.. whether it be in my dreams or at the gates of heaven ... i'll see you later.

Ness
I am so happy to have had you in my life. I will cherish all the memories we had together. I love and miss you so much.