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"We are such stuff as dreams are made on; and our little life is rounded with a sleep." - William Shakespeare

Hey Mum, 79 this year wow. Happy Birthday xxxx

I found myself listening To Leonard Cohen and that misery Morrisey, they made me think; a ramble really..

If we succeed this mortal coil,
we who walk the soil.
We wonder on,
What follows on,
From flesh and bone.
We hope at least a feeling!

With furrowed brows
of sodden sorrow
We place our hope 
on a sacred trope
And fear nothing!
Feel nothing will follow.

“Oh mother…
I can feel the soil falling over my head”

A dusting of particles,
of things that once were;
leaves from the family tree.
No longer growing.
Grown, and gone

When I depart this mortal coil
Will all I ever be,
is just another tree?
The only life left to live
in memory
of those who still walk the soil
until they become
As I once did,
Just another tree?

I love and miss you mum, more than ever sometimes. I hope you are there, somewhere. I hope that one day our trees will make a forest, our leaves a canopy our roots a network binding all that once was back together.

Another year and I still find myself thinking I should call you

Love you Mum

Morning Beautiful Brenda and I did not forget your birthday you are now 78 as i said to Brenda I wonder if we will reach 80 we will certainly try, We both miss you big sis and you are often in our conversations funny and serious ones we know you are with us . I don't hear from Michael much but he is always on face book so i know he is ok still the same old Michael putting the world to rights. still hold our sisters poem in our hearts..Sisters together forever, never apart.Maybe in distance but never at heart love and miss you xxxxxx

Another year has slipped by, almost unnoticed.. The years drift past mum, that eternal march of time; once it’s gone it’s gone. Eternal, but not infinite…

Your time ended too early mum, too early for someone with your spirit. I hate that this is the way it is and I’m not a hater… But this, I hate.

Often I think to myself, “i’ll ask mum”… and then it hits, and that’s so hard.

I think how you’ll love to see the boys, how I’d love for you to see them… and then it hits.. again.

I so wish I could share the joy of your joy in your 2 grandsons. I miss this, though i never had this… and never will. Such melancholy.

It’s almost past, this years anniversary of the day you were born is almost over. Eternal. March. Of. Time…..

and it’s gone….

another year, past…

I Love you

Miss you..

Happy Birthday?

xxx

I wish they had a Lilly as a flower to choose - is this one a forget-me-not? I’ve forgotten what a forget-me-not looks like, that’s because I’m tired. It’s been a hard day. Silly name for a flower if it’s so forgettable. I’ve not forgotten you, think of you often - miss you always.

I write here because it feels right..

You were with me earlier, I’m sure. William saw you; he told me you were there and pointed to you. Was it you?

Love you mum, I’m so happy you’re no longer in pain - but so sad you’re no longer with us in body. A paradox I wish I didn’t have to live with.

Happy birthday mum. Does that mean anything to you now? Or is it just for us?

Happy birthday my beautiful mum - your beauty shines in the faces of your grandchildren and of your great grandchildren.

Mum, you will endure forever in my memory, and when I am gone and the memory of me has faded, you will endure in the beauty and lives of all your decendants… forever and always.

Always… and forever.
Xxx

Hey Mum, you are never far from my thoughts even more so as today approaches and of course today

Happy Birthday x

Happy birthday mum from Tracey, William, Finlo and me.

I wrote this once on Facebook.. It was on December 14th, you know why.

Dear Mum,
I miss you. On this day in 2009 you left this mortal coil, you did it as you did everything, at your time and on your terms, taking a risk that would either give you dignity and quality of life or would see you bid farewell to a life that was giving you so much pain. Some might think the odds were stacked against you; I suspect you saw it as a win either way.

I feel the burden of loss, I wish you were still here, I long for just one more day, just one more smile, just one more chat as much today as I did 8 years ago. I’ve wept. But I’m happy. Happy that you have no more pain or indignity, this is my cold comfort.

You are and always will be a part of me as I once was a part of you; you grew my body. You guided me and showed me the beauty of the world and of the people while you prepared me for and guarded me against its crueler side. I would not be and I am the man I am today because of you.

I see your legacy in my sons, they are a part of you and you of them. I see your fire in the eyes of your children, of your children’s children and of your great grandchildren; I know your strength and beauty will endure.

So on this bleak anniversary I take my time to reflect on the happiness and love you so readily shared and I smile and I laugh and I shed the odd tear; I’ll tell you that I miss you and through all this I thank you.

My strength comes from you.

Jeff x

Happy Birthday Mum..... x

Ten years today Mum.  

Thinking of you every day of each of those years

X

Happy Birthday Mum x

Another year and do much has passed. You would love your great grandson to pieces. XxxxX

Oh, what land is the Land of Dreams?
What are its mountains, and what are its streams?
Oh father! I saw my mother there,
Among the lilies by waters fair.

Among the lambs, clothed in white,
She walked with her boy in sweet delight.
I wept for joy, like a dove I mourn;
Oh! when shall I again return?

Miss you mum. X

Another year since you went away. It never gets any easier mum.


Big changes have happened, Beechwood Road has been sold and Dad has a bungalow up here now.

Roy is living in his own place now

Last Saturday I passed my 1St Dan Black Belt

I miss you I love you - can you see my candle burning for you?

Always in my heart xxx

Hi Janet won't believe it but l am going over to see Heather and Andrew to day staying til Friday l am really looking forward to my stay. it is a shame l lost contact with our cousins l know you kept the family together you were a wonderful sister darling miss you xxx

Hi Janet l know it has been a long time since l wrote here but you know
l have been thinking of you because "We are sisters forever Never apart Maybe in distance but Never at Heart" and that sums up our whole lives You Brenda and Me love you Janet miss you xxx

Well my lovely, another year another birthday. Your birthday celebration is going to be here in Skegness - a Picnic on the Beach! Everyone is looking forward to it. Your children, grandchildren, sisters, cousins, nieces, all getting ready. We miss you, always will, so come and join us.... xxx

Today's is you birthday my beautiful mum, not a day goes by without you coming into my mind... Happy birthday Mum x

Happy Birthday Mummy xx

My tears are like the quiet drift
Of petals from some magic rose;
And all my grief flows from the rift
Of unremembered skies and snows.

I think, that if I touched the earth,
It would crumble;
It is so sad and beautiful,
So tremulously like a dream.

Xx

Hey mum,

Finlo saw your pictures for the first time today, I was looking at them on this site; it was as if he knew you all along, his face lit up and with a great big smile he said "Nana - nana, look daddy, nana!" I was a little lost for words or explaination, but should I be?

6 years mum, seems like yesterday.


Oh, Finlo wants to say something:

B ,lbb b. Nbhlppl

Xxx

I am looking forward to Christmas this year. We are going to see the grandchildren, all having Christmas day at Pat's. First time for many, many years that Christmas dinner has been cooked for me. Never did understand how you did it all in a microwave!! Barry is well, putting on a little weight at last.  Love you and miss you, always will xxx

Hey Mum

Another year since you have gone
I know you just could not hang on
Life goes on, as you know
It's not the same, since you had to go
So I light my candle and it burns bright
Lightning up the crisp, cold night
I hope you see it, from where you are
So you know how loved and missed you are.


Xxxxxx

Hey Mum, thinking of you today...

Well my lovely, things look better. I feel Debbie with me all the time. It's a slow journey but Barry is healing, Jackie and Nina are coping somehow, stay with us darling we're still hurting. They say laughter is a good healer, did you see the family BBQ? it was so good to have such a happy 'gathering', this time next year we will all celebrate your birthday in Skegness! Happy birthday, try to behave, I love and miss you xxxx

Happy Birthday mum, it's been a hard few weeks for me and I've spoken to you lots. I'm sure you can hear me. I hope you're having a lovely day up in Heaven today... always in my thoughts mum, love you and miss you xxxx

Hello Mum,

Another year has passed and so much has changed
But then, you already know that.


We miss your smile and laugh, your passion and when you are on the war path,
But then this all lives on in each of us four and your beautiful grandchildren


Love you Mum, sleep well

Xx

Happy Birthday mum. Finlo says hello... You'd love him so much mum, so much. I wish he could have known you. He's my joy, my life. Xx

Oh Mum, 5yrs passed since you left.
The Angels saw you struggling and they knew
There was no more hope left for you
So they wrapped you up in their love
And took you to a place above
Full of peace, calm and love,

Miss you, love you, send us Angels mum, we all need you now, I'm so poorly, Uncle Barry is fighting Cancer, Auntie Jackie needs healing love... Xxxxxx

Oh Jan....5 years and we need you more than ever...so you'll know that Barry is fighting cancer for all he's worth - the next 2 years are critical. Did you see that I had a fall - what an idiot, first member of the family to impale a limb?! We need angels Jan, send us angels - we need protecting! Jackie and I told you before that we'll always need you. Now more than ever, love you, miss you,  xxx

I think of you; I shed a tear,
I wish that I could build some stairs,
To take me up to where you are,
To see you near; not from afar,
You smile and wipe my tears away,
Gently whispering 'it's ok'
Telling me 'go on your way, until we meet again, one day.'

My precious Mum, I hope so much you had a lovely day yesterday for your 70th Birthday. I remember you love to dance and I hope you danced all day and all night with freedom and joy...I miss you, I miss so much it really hurts, I thought of you all day long. Look after our loved ones who are there with you, I bet you all had a super day.... I love you Mum xxxx

You were in my thoughts yesterday, Ewan was having a great time and I knew you were watching him, as often you watch us all. So you know how alive and energetic he is, how questioning and inquisitive his mind is. I know this because that is how I remember you. Love you Mum. X

Mum, happy birthday. 70 today... But that means nothing where you are now. Love always from the three of us. We miss you mum xxx

Missing you sweetheart. Have fun today, jump from cloud to cloud, race around like an idiot, play hide and seek with our loved ones. Be totally free and laugh enough for us to feel your joy. love you forever xxx

...oh Jan, I'm hurting, I'm having a very bad day, I miss you, I miss Mum, I hurt for all the pain Jackie is dealing with. And now we have one of those heartbreaking 'anniversaries' It's been two years since I asked you to take care of Deb, I'll go to her on Saturday, take some flowers, talk to her, I need to be there, it's such a gentle and peaceful place.
Times like this make me so sad, so empty...... xxxx

Rest in peace mum, your little grandson is so beautiful you'd be so happy xx

Dear Mum, time has flown so fast since you left, not a day goes by when I don't think of you and miss you. Love you xxx

My lovely sis, we were recently threatened with severe flooding and the ferocious sea actually had the cheek to thrash and thunder over your rock. The sea was higher and mightier than1953 but it didn't break through. I laughed at myself when I imagined you standing at the top daring it to come any further.
I'll be on the rock today, we can chat about old times,  love you xxx

A moments reflection in a world that moves so fast. xx

My darling mum, thinking of you on your birthday, I miss you so much. Xx xx

My darling sis, I wish I could call you and sing Happy Birthday, but with my voice that would be cruel!!! Better than that, I wish you could see your kids, you would be so proud. AND, it's perfect BBQ weather and the British Grand Prix is over. I so, so wish you were here, wish we could cuddle one more time.  sisters together........ I love you.

X

I just wanted to say your memorial is touching. I pray God will continue to strengthen you. I hope, you can also take comfort in Revelation 21:4: "[God] will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more…the former things have passed away.""

I miss you x

Throughout the years I've thought of you, and once in a while I cry.
For although you're gone, it was much to soon for us to say goodbye.
Some day we'll meet again when we shall smile and reminisce and Heaven will fill with the laughter of me and my big Sis. Love and miss you. xxx

And so again the seasons come and go
but yet as aways there is one thing I know,
you may no longer be with us here,
but your memory will always keep you near.

Miss you Mum xxx

Dear Mum, How can it be 3yrs since we had to let you go? The time has flown but for me the sorrow remains. I wipe my tears and I remember your smile, your loving hugs and cuddles, your sense of humour and your determination never to give in. I think of you all the time you are in my heart and always will be. I love you xxxx