March 11, 2020
This is a song Janet and I listen to when she was in hospital in private. Today however I didn't want to play the song but use the words of Maxwell to reflect on the last moments Janet and I had in private.......If you call I'll stand outside. This woman's work, this woman's world. It's hard on a man. Now it's parting of souls for us. Now start the craft of the father! I know you have a little life in you yet.I know you have a lot of strength left. I should be crying but I just can't let it show, i should be hoping but I can't stop thinking... All the things I should have said and all the things we should have done that we never did. All the things I should have given but I didn't.... Oh my darling!! Give me, give her back to me!!!! Give me that little kiss, give me your your pretty hands where ever you be give me you hand... I know you have a little life in you yet, i know you have a lot of strength in you yet..... I should be crying but I just can't let it show. I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking of all the things that wr should have said that were never said. All the things we should have done that we never did. All the things you needed from me. Allthe things I should have given but didn't....Oh darling make it go away so you can rest in peace. Big love !!