Well my son, another month goes by, another season and still you're not here. i still don't know how this is possible. I miss you more every day and wait for the signs for you to let me know you're here today. Each time I bring flowers and arrange I hear you saying in colourful words- who cares? i know you are in a beautiful, warm, sunny and safe place and you are free now Jared. Be at peace my beautiful boy and I know we will always be together, somehow and some way.
I love you JJ

It is impossible to believe that you have been gone three years now, Jared. I miss you more each day as time passes and as the seasons change. I know you are always present and I know that you are with us whenever you can be.
You are so loved and missed Jared, and I am thankful to have beautiful memories to reflect on. My perfect, beautiful son- I love you and send you wishes of peace, happiness and much love.

I asked you to let me know you're ok and that you're around- I miss you so very much JJ. I walked into a shop and a dime was in front of me by the door. I decided to walk home a different way than usual after visiting you and found a circle of 39 pennies on the ground. Coins are how you mainly communicate with me. The #39 has spiritual meaning of a message to focus on soul purpose and life mission, and connect to higher purposes. My horoscope yesterday said to rely on my spiritual guide for guidance to be with me through a difficult time.
I love you my son! Thank you for sending me this very powerful message.

Happy birthday man. Thinking of you today and how when we were kids we would use cars on our street as goal posts to play ‘the two player game’. Not a worry in the world then. I hope your having fun wherever you are and sending love to Jamie Danny and Dana.

Happy birthday Little Brother. I agree with mum, it's really hard to believe this is the third birthday since you left us. It feels so yuck to think all that time has passed and it's just going to keep going. It's scary. Today I had a cupcake with a birthday candle, played some of your music, and read through our texts which always makes me laugh and cry - I only ate half the cupcake and I know you would have said half a cupcake was absolutely pathetic (you fat shit - you would have just taken a fork and eaten an entire cake yourself without even bothering to cut any pieces). I miss you. Today was tough, it always will be. I wonder what I would have got you for your birthday this year. I thought about you slithering down the stairs on my 5th birthday asking for birthday cake first thing in the morning, and some of your past birthdays like the one at Botany Big Splash. I wish you were here and will keep talking to you every day. Love you Little Brother.
- Your sis

Happy Birthday, son. I recall you blowing out the candles on your 29th birthday and can picture you doing it on this birthday. Hope you took a day off trading and our relatives are with you today. Mom, Dana, and I are with you in spirit. Cheers, mate!

Happy Birthday Jared

I'm certain you were in Sydney yesterday for your celebration there- It's impossible to believe that this is your third birthday away from us but I know you are around.
I bought a cake for you and as I walked to the bakery case, there in front of the chocolate cake was a coin. I asked you to let me know you're ok and there it was so of course chocolate cake it is.
Be at peace my son, I know you have great things to accomplish and I'm watching all of them and will know it's you. I wish you were physically present to celebrate today but you are in my heart and mind forever and will be remembered by many today and always and loved so much.
Happy 32nd birthday Jared- I love you and miss you beyond words.

Happy New Year my son- it's impossible to believe we start another year without you here. I miss you terribly and know that you are with me like I am with you.
I'd guess you spent NYE at the Opera Bar and hanging around Sydney.
With all my love, blessings and peace for you Jared. The world will never be the same without you present.

Another month has passed since you left. So many memories and stories to share about you- you are missed so much, there are no words. I know that you are here with us and only wish I could give you a big hug and kiss and hear your laugh and voice.
Be at peace JJ, you're free now to do all that you didn't have time for on this plane. I'm watching!
I love you my son

Today is a double rememberance of you my son. As a write this a robin is staring at me through the glass- I'm guessing you sent it. Many events have happened with you this week- lights flickering, more glass breaking, coins. Today as I remember you for two events in addition to my every day thoughts, I miss you so very much and wonder often how life could have been so cruel to take you from us when you have so much to offer. I know that you are accomplishing all that you didn't have time for here. As I light a special candle for you today I hold you close as always and think of all the joy you brought into this world. I wonder what you're thinking of this world today. I love you JJ and miss you terribly. The seasons are changing again, more time you've been gone. Be at peace my beautiful boy - you are missed and love beyond words.

Our visit on Thursday was beautiful and it was comforting and reassuring to know you are there. I LOVED the glass falling off my desk right before. Thank you for letting me know you were ready and waiting.
Much love my beautiful boy. I miss you each moment and love you so very much.
Be at peace and be happy- you're free now JJ.

My sweet Jared- you are in my heart and thoughts and have been regularly lately. Thank you for letting me know you're nearby. Some powerful signs coming through so I know you're not far- you never are and neither am I, so remember you are never alone.
Be at peace my sweet boy, you have so much to do, so many places and people to be with, just be happy and stay safe wherever you my go.
I miss you terribly - my love is with you and today on Rikki's birthday, I hope there is a big celebration going on - my love to you my son and to everyone. Blessings and peace.

It's been quite a week Jared. Your visit with Dana, and our visit yesterday. I am still in shock after finding eight pennies. Our conversation yesterday about family and what you're doing , who you're with showed me you heard me and you answered.
I didn't understand the significance of the eight pennies until you told me to go back. Now I know that all of you are together- and are ok. Thank you for letting me know, my son.
It doesn't mean I miss you any less but knowing that you are not alone, that you're all together, and you hear me brings me some comfort.
I love you JJ- I will treasure those pennies and think of you all each time I see them.
Stay safe, stay happy and be at peace, and please keep visiting with me. It makes my day. Bless you my sweet boy.

Another month has gone by JJ- I don't want to keep track of the time because it's impossible to think you've been away so long. I miss you terribly and think of your cheeky smile, laugh and what you would be thinking of this world we are in.

Life is never going to be the same without you here but I do know that you are around, I feel your presence and know that you are watching all of us.

Bless you with peace my beautiful son, take care of yourself and know how much you are missed, loved, and thought of every moment.

Today is 18 June, with the dates between Sydney and here it feels like yesterday and today are both significant reminders of when you left, my sweet son.
Your presence has been so strong the past two days. I know you're here with me, Dana and Dad today on Father's Day.
Life will never be the same without you here. Everything brings memories of you being here. Each morning when I open the blinds, I expect to find you sitting at your desk trading. I'm still waitiing !
i miss you desperately Jared, and I know that you are doing all you need to, being where you need to be and taking care of business. We always say- what would Jared say or do? Stay safe and happy and at peace.
I love you my beautiful boy- still can't believe this is all real.

Today is Mother's Day Jared- I miss you so very much and am blessed to have both you and Dana in my life.
Thank you for the wonderful gift you left me at Analog today- not only was it a 1992 penny, but it appeared only as we were leaving. I know you're here with me, my beautiful boy.
I love you so very much, be at peace my son. Until we meet again. Love, mum

I remember when I called you from UW- I was there to see the cherry blossoms in full bloom- you thought that was the most ridiculous thing and couldn't understand why I'd waste my time looking at "stupid trees". Today I've added a photo for you where you are surrounded by cherry blossoms now. It is truly beautiful but a lovely memory each time I see them of our conversation that day.
I love you JJ- I hope you're laughing at this one!

My son, my beautiful boy, my Jared. It is impossible to think that two years ago you left us for another space. Today I reflect on the time we spent together but can't help thinking of your last hours hoping that you were not scared or alone, hoping that you felt nothing but maybe relief. The hole in me grows every day waiting for you to come home. I miss you desperately and hold onto the thoughts, the memories and the visions of you being here with us.
Be at peace my Jared, be happy and be free and do all you want to do knowing that we hold you so close. Remember you told me that you and I have a special bond. That will never change and I know you are close by. I'm scared to start another year without it but know that I must and know that you will be here with me as much as you can.
"Losing a child is the heartbreak a parent has to live with for the rest of their life".
"My loved one is as much a part of my life as the air, food and air that nourish my body. Therefore I shall not fear losing you, have been and are a part of me."

I love you Jared- be at peace always
mum

i'm missing you my son- there is so much snow now- I hope you are skiing and I wish we were doing it together.
Enjoy the sunflowers my beautiful boy.

So much love for you and may you be at peace always, Jared- please stay close!

Happy birthday big fella! Still so sad not knowing you’re here. You’re legacy and memories live very strong in all of us and we will see you again one day ❤️

Happy Birthday “old man”! 31 yrs old and another year gone by so quickly. Hope you liked the balloon and the music we played today. Chocolate cake coming up too. Missing your loud voice, jokes, and pranks! Very blessed to have had you in our lives, son. Love you.

Happy Birthday my beautiful boy- 31 years old. It's a double celebration for you, Sydney yesterday and today in Seattle. You are so loved and missed my son.
I wonder how this can possibly be real but I know you are with us and I know that you will remain with us forever. I feel your presence every day.
I think of all the birthday parties, Botany Big Splash, Centennial Park, our backyard, pirates, Power Rangers, so many memories that bring smiles and joy. Today I will call on those memories as we celebrate you.
Happy Happy Birthday Jared, let the party continue today.
I love you my son

Hey Bro. It's your birthday in Sydney and almost your birthday here in the US. Another one you should be here for. I wish I'd spent the past week trying to find something to get you that you'd like or laugh at even though you hated getting presents. I know exactly what you'd be saying from up there today - "do a line for me."
We all love and miss you. I hope you're celebrating today (and tomorrow) with everyone else you have over there. Happy birthday.
Love your sis

It's New Year's Eve Jared- how could it be possible that this is the second one without you? Our last one together was in Seattle, just you and I, your first NYE in the cold and away from the heat and fireworks of Sydney. It's hard to say Happy New Year because it means another year begins and you're not here.
I think I've used every word possible to describe how much I miss you and how empty life feels without you here. Dana has seen your mates in Sydney, and I'm sure you joined in the reunion! Everyone misses you so- you are always with us, so many beautiful memoriest to share and reshare. You are one of a kind Jared- thank you for bringing so much joy and love, not to much surprises to all of us.
I love you dearly my beautiful boy. Join the party tonight wherever you are- in the Jared fashion. Peace and blessings my sweet son.

Never thought id have to live life with out you in it brother . Miss ya so much bro can’t explain the mark you left in my life your a true brother and to real for this world love you always my brother

It's 21 months since you left, Jared. It's impossible to believe but I know that you're still here and watching over all of us. I miss you more than I could ever say or imagine. Be at peace my son. I love you and hold you so very close in my heart- forever.

Today is Thanksgiving, the day we're meant to give thanks- difficult to do when a big part of you is missing. I am grateful for you and Dana, that I am fortunate to be your mother, to share in your life and hold so close the beautiful person you are, all you did and said while you were here with us, the cheeky smile and witty remarks, No big celebration today but lots of reflecting and thinking of my beautiful son and all you brought to me.
I miss you Jared, be at peace my sweet son. There will be cornbread here for you so come and get it!
I love you JJ

Well my beautiful son, yesterday was another month gone by snce you left us. You are missed more every day but I know you are here with all of us.
Today is International Suicide Survivors Day. I went to get a coffee before the presentation and was listening to my music.
On the ground was a quarter which I picked up becasue I was talking to you about today and I know you left it there for me. As I stood up, Siri cut into my music and said "You are the wind beneath my wings". Then my music went back on. I checked my texts, emails and everything to see where it came from but was nowhere. That was the song Mark played at the end of our session. I know it was you my son, and I love that you sent me that message. It only confirms that you are with me and watching, guiding me. I can't wait for the next message to come.
I love you Jared, as you told me in a visit, you and I hace a special connection.
Be at peace my son and know how much I love you, miss you and hold each contact deep in my heart.

You're deeply in my thoughts Jared. Another change of season- autumn is here and hard to believe this cycle repeats without you here. Stay warm and safe my beautiful boy. Snow is starting to fall and you and I should be planning our next ski trip. I know you're around and I only want you to be at peace and happy.
So Elon Musk took over Twitter- I'm sure you have a lot to say about that!
I love you son

A wonderful tribute ..
Jared was special, unique .. his photo on my desk at work, that smile & his cheekiness is missed. ❤️

Today is eighteen months since you left and exactly the time that the phone call no one wants came.
I know you're still with me, my son. I feel your presence every day.
From a book I'm reading called Aftermath- "I heard that it will get easier with time. How much time? How long? I miss you more each day and I can't imagine that changing. I know I must live on, but I do so with a large part of my heart missing."
I love you JJ- my beautiful boy . Be at peace my sweet angel.

I miss you Jared- thinking of you always and I know that you are around. Life is not the same without you here my beautfiul boy, but knowing you're at peace and happy pushes me through each day.

I love you lots JJ-

Thinking of you a lot lately man. Reminiscing on how frequent park kicks arounds and street competitions. Cut your mullet!
Love oscar

Thank you JJ- you know what I'm referring to.

I love you Jared- Be at peace my beautiful boy

Today is Mother's Day- not a big thing for you, I know. You always said holidays didn't mean anything. Today I think about our last Mother's Day together- just you and me. We went to Green Lake for a walk, which I know you didn't want to do but did it for me. We walked around the lake, watched all the people and took photos of the baby swans and geese so you could share them with Sara and Sophie.
To me it was the perfect day. Thank you for going along with me. Mostly thank you for letting me be your mother and sharing those moments with you for the short time that I was able to.
i miss you my beautiful JJ- be at peace my sweet boy. I love you.

My brother jared !

It hasn’t been the same without you, it’s been just over a year since you left us and there hasn’t been a single day we don’t think about you. We love and miss you so much, there’s been afew off days where your sense of humour and cheekiness was well needed.

You were always there for us bro, everyone here in australia misses you, we put a little cake and candle out for you to celebrate your 30th aswell.

All the boys miss and love you so much, we are still sharing and watching your videos missing the times how you made us laugh and even to this day we are still laughing

We still feel like it isn’t real, to me it feels like your in America and one day gonna message and tell
Us your coming back again, but as real as it doesn’t seem I do hope you’re at peace, I do hope you’re not suffering and I hope you’re not in pain

The news of you leaving left a big hole in our hearts but the memories we made will live with us forever, we have not and will never forget about you, we love you forever and will forever love you brother

Rest Easy

Jimmy ❤️

I miss you my JJ- I still can't believe you're not here but I know that you're still checking in- coins, feathers. You're favourite chair is back outside now, waiting for you to sit in the sun and watch the squirrels.
Be at peace beautiful boy, no words can describe the emptiness inside. I hope you like your garden!
I love you Jared!

Well it’s impossible to believe that a year has gone by since you left- JJ. I miss you more every day and think of your beautiful smile and how you made me laugh. Life will never be the same without you. Be at peace beautiful boy and know you are in my heart forever.
I love you
Mum

Missing you so much Jared- today is my father's birthday. I hope you Rikki, dad and mom are all together having a good time.
Wish you'd come back JJ-
Be at peace my beautiful boy. I love you and carry you with me everywere.

Tomorrow is your 30th birthday- I know you'll be celebrating in style! How soon you left us my beautiful boy, so much ahead but I know you're taking care of what you need to whereever you are now.
You will be here tomorrow with us as we remember and celebrate your short and wonderful life. Thank you for letting us share it with you.
I miss you so much JJ. Happy Birthday my sweet- a new decade! You are forever with me in my heart, my thoughts and my memories.
I love you Jared- Cheers!

I miss you JJ- I know you're with us and I know that these holidays will remind me of the space that is empty with you not here physically.
You're in every thought and always in my heart. It's getting cold sweet boy, stay warm and safe. Be at peace my beautiful boy and know that you are loved and missed more than could possibly be expressed.
Love,
mum 

It's been eight months since you left us for your next journey. It's hard to believe that you have been away so long but you are always with me, always in my heart, my thoughts, and all that I do.
I miss you beautiful boy- be at peace and I know you have found peace and happiness that you deserve so much.
Love pours out to you forever- mum

My beautiful boy- it's six months since you left for your new space. I know that you're still with us because I feel your presence, hear your laughter, and see your face.
I miss you more each day. Thank you for leaving us with so many wonderful memories and your sense of humour that still makes us laugh. Each time Dana and I go for a hike we think of how much you disliked hiking but always had a comment to the photos I'd send you of trees and logs.
Life is not the same without you here, but you are forever with me in my heart, my dreams and my every thought.
Be at peace sweet JJ. I love you and miss you more than is possible.

Miss you every day, bro. I wish you'd come back already. We found some funny videos of you laughing at dad doing tai chi and creeping up and scaring him while he's meditating. We miss your hilarious laugh so much. Mum & dad have had tradies at the house almost every friggen day since I got here - you wouldn't be too happy. New friends for dad to play with. Mum has been as hyper as ever and was sweeping the ceiling at 11pm the other night. Wish I could have sent you a video. Love you, little bro.

Thank you for creating this Jamie. So many wonderful memories of Jared as a child and teenager. The best was how he would make jokes with Grandpa and half the time Grandpa had no idea what the joke was, but would laugh anyway because Jared was just SOOOO FUNNY!

My sweet Jared,

You are always my main thoughts. I miss you my beautiful boy. I wish you a peaceful place now without worry and stress, only happiness, love and peace. My heart aches every day without you here.

Not sure where to start, to be completely honest we hadn’t seen each other in a few years but the memories from when we were growing up as kids and the memories and moments created are still like as if it were yesterday!
I remember every school holidays heading to Rawson St on the bus or getting dropped off by mum it was the highlight of my holidays, we’d go play knock and run on the neighbours house. We would try to beatbox to the Joel Turner song, play basketball, football any sort of sport we could play or you locking Dana in the pantry!

I remember going to watch Dana play at David Phillips and we would be playing soccer tennis underneath the grandstand for hours or we’d have a juggling competition!
Also when we went away for football trips to either Bathurst or batemans bay we would use my phone to prank call everyone I think I ended up with a Phone bill of about $800 that day!
The first time I went to a night club was with you, I was 17 and you had already turned 18 but that was no excuse to not go out ahah! I definitely missed those times!
I definitely regret that we drifted and we definitely weren’t as close as we used to but also am grateful and feel pleasured I was a part of your journey and vice versa brother!
Sending my love 

There's not a day that goes by without thinking about you. The reminders are everywhere from the food you liked at the supermarket, clothes you wore, tv shows like Shark Tank, etc. You were an individual that listened to the beat of a different drum. Speaking about beat, I remember how you liked rap music and 50Cent (aka Curtis Jackson III). So much so that you wanted to go to Compton in LA when you were around 16 years old (I think). Well I called you on it and drove you through the alleyways in Compton. It scared the daylights out of you seeing all those people hanging around and security bars on the windows of houses. And there's more about 50Cent. I will remind you and Oscar of the time that Phillip Lederman and I took you guys to see 50Cent with Tony Yayo! What a great night that was! Thanks for introducing me to rap music! There's a lot of music in that genre that I like thanks to you! Love you always, son.

I miss you my beautiful boy. I hope you are at peace. Every day is one day more without being able to see you.
Thank you for being my son, for bringing me joy, laughter, and teaching me so much about life. I love you forever in my heart.

I love you, Little Brother. You've made me who I am and I'm so proud to be your sister. You had an impact on so many people, and are so missed. You'll always be a huge part of us. I hope you're at peace now. And I hope Johnny Cash at your memorial service made you laugh, wherever you were watching from.