On this day you would be 38. I try not to be tearful and sad but rather try to remember all the things you said and did to make me laugh. You absolutely loved to make people smile and giggle. Your sense of humor was amazing. I wish you were still here on earth to tease me about how old my boyfriend is. You would have had a really good time with that! I know Dad does!


When I see someone driving fast on a crotch rocket- I think of you.
When someone drives by with loud music bong bonging- I think of you.  
 When I hear certain types of new songs that are played on the radio that you have never heard but I know you would have loved- I think of you.                        
 When I watch a really mind bending movie with lots of action and twists and turns- I think of you.   
 So many triggers but these are just a few. You will always be in my heart and I will miss you til the day we meet again in heaven. I love you my brother and I cherish the memories we had.
   

We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly.  In death we do the same.  It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone; for part of us went with you, the day God called you home.  You left us precious memories, your love is still our guide; and though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.  Our family chain is broken and nothing seems the same, but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

No farewell words were spoken.
No time to say goodbye.
You were gone before we knew it.
And only God knows why.  

Jason,
   You were so loved and cared about by many! I don't think some of us ever know how much and how many people care about us, maybe we know but just don't believe it.
   Just a few of the things I know people had to say about you after you passed:
'He was a good friend and had a good heart; sweet, caring, considerate, well mannered, funny, a gentleman, a good worker, he was a great man.' 
    Jason, you were a kind, loving, gentle and respectful man. Your heart was honest and great and filled with passion. When you believed in something you were passionate about it, maybe not everyone knew how deeply passionate you were. But I knew... 
   Your love for your family was amazing, you would've done anything for them. You had a wonderful love for children and animals, you were a protector.
    I knew you more than I think I have ever known anyone...and I loved you with all my heart from the beginning! 
   I loved that you hated mowing and would rather have rocks in your yard than grass for a lawn! You would get out of a day's work if you could! You couldn't stand to paint - although if the price was right you would do it! I loved that you drove fast and listened to your music loud! Your brutal honesty. You certainly were a great man and I mostly loved that you were who you were, you were your own person and didn't try to change to be someone you weren't. I came to love that the most about you. I loved all that you were.
Rest In Peace...be free...be happy! And I will see you again someday...
April

"You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed" Psalm 139:16