hello, my sweet boy. i love you. i'll never stop missing you. you are 50 years old yesterday. how did that happen? in less than 2 weeks i'll be 76. how did THAT happen? i think of my life and how it would have been had you not died. i never would have left colorado. by now, if not sooner, i'd be living with you. i wonder at the children you'd have. i wonder what kind of woman you'd have married. i wonder a lot of things. but, if i have to be honest, life is pretty good now. not great but, not bad. i did tell you i'm a great grandmother now. almost 2 years. you would be an uncle to Blake and a great uncle to Ryder. so many things have changed since you left. a lot of them aren't good. some are but, i'd say most aren't. not so sure you'd like them. wonder what you'd be doing for a career or just plain work now. i guess we just have to take what life throws our way. one of the best days of my life was when i found out i was pregnant. i knew that baby was a boy. the best day was when you were born. oh, i fell so hard in love with you. you were my love, my pride, my joy. loved you so much. more than anyone else. now, i love Blake and Ryder. i sure could use a Jason dream soon. i miss you and those dreams are so comforting. love you.

hello my sweet boy! i miss you so much. if you had lived, i never would have left colorado. i'd probably be taking care of your children. but, i'm in TN working. i'm almost 75 and i'm working! that should not be happening. but, it is and if i want to keep my apartment, i have to continue to work. it is what it is. you would like Blake, i'm sure. a free spirit like you. i've seen photos of his son, Ryder. oh, yeah, they changed his name. not positive why but, okay. anyway, he's so cute. it appears they are feeding him rather well! he'll thin down once he starts walking and getting around on his own.
even after such a long time it still seems so wrong that you're gone. just gone from my life. just like that. gone. i hate it. i miss you so much. sometimes it's hard to think about you cause it hurts so much. ha!!! i hope you and Raymond are having a good time up there in heaven. tell him i love him still and always will. just like i will always love you. i'd so love a dream with you. be good and one day we will see each other again. mom

hi, sweetheart. i got to meet my great grandson. he's so pretty. he's so little. you were born bigger than he is now at 6 weeks. i wonder if you would have married and had grandchildren for me. i wish you could see Jacob. he's precious. he's Blake's son. they weren't sure they were gonna keep him. they were thinking of adoption. i am so grateful that when they saw him and held him they decided they would keep him cause they didn't want anyone else to raise him. i got to hold Jacob. oh, his full name is Jacob Mitchenll Corbit. you know Blake is my favorite grandson. so, of course Jacob is my favorite. right now he's got dark hair, i suppose he could end up with red hair like his mom. you came out with red hair and went medium brown.so, who knows what color he will end up with. his eyes seem to be getting a shade of blue. they were really dark when i first was able to see them. he's perfect. i wish you were here. i miss you so much. it's 2022. boy have things changed in the last 28 years. some of the things i'm sure you'd like. like this small tablet i use and is a coumputer. you'd love amazon. air fryers are something used to cook with quickly. instant pot used to cook things quickly. i hardly use my oven at all. i'm gonna try to the IP and AF more. they use less power. i'm happy about that.. i miss you. i'll be back on the 22nd. i love you so much. my life would be so different if you were still here.

good morning sweetheart. i miss you something awful. sorry i'm late with this but, i had company over the weekend. hard to imagine you at 48!! tell me, what you would have been doing, would you be married, have children, what sort of job/career would you have? we'll never know cause you died at 20 years, 5 months, and 15 days. broke my heart, broke me actually. it's a hard thing to - bury a child. there is a huge empty spot in my heart where you lived. nothing and no one can fill that spot. it was yours from the day i found out i was pregnant with you til the day you died and on into today. while i love Blake beyond reason, no one can take your place in my heart. he has his own special place. i'd really love a Jason dream. its been so long. 

morning sweetheart. i just went to raymond's memorial and wrote to him. and that made me miss you. i like to envision you and raymond up there in heaven together. that's about the only thing that gives me any peace and it's not much. life would have been different had both of you lived. i love you more than you know. mom

morning, sweetheart. bit late for Christmas this year. but, i was sick and now i'm better. i miss you. and with me here in TN and Blake in NH i miss him too. but, i doubt i'd be seeing him much cause he's all grown up now and is living his own life. he leads a life i know nothing about but, it's his life and he'll live it as he sees fit. i'd go back in time if i could bring you back to me. i miss you so much. life has been so different without you in it. you'll always be in my heart and thoughts but, i'd so love to spend a few minutes with you if it were possible. you are so missed. 27 years this month. that's way too long for you to be gone. my heart is still so broken over your being gone. it's an actual pain in my chest. i love you. i'll be back to write more. love you always and forever. mom

hello, my sweet man child. after so many years it's still hard on your birthday. I can remember the first time I saw you and held you in my arms. I shouldn't have been awake but, I was and I wanted to see you. they laid you on my chest and I kissed you several times til they took you away to be measured and cleaned up and such. you were my heart, the love of my life. my sweet boy. you still are. I do wish there had been a way to keep you from going that night to that concert with your friends. you know, if you were still alive, I'd still be living in colorado. with Raymond gone, we might have been living together in the house in Broomfield. who knows what would have happened? I just know I'd still be there with you or near you. do you remember telling me that you'd never let me be put into a nursing home? another thing, when Blake was much younger, he told me that if you hadn't died, I'd never have been as close to him and know him so well as I did. smart kid for being only about 9 years old. I told him that things happened the way they did for a reason and we don't always know why they happen. It's been a long time since you visited me. I'd love a Jason dream. anyway, happy birthday sweetheart. I love you more than anyone. I miss you terribly. after all these years, I still get tears. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. i love you to the moon and back a million and one times. mom

well, i made this memorial and raymond's private. didn't like the idea of your sister and your aunt reading what i wrote to you. it's not their business. this place is for me alone. should have made it private when i first set it up then, i wouldn't have had the problem i just had to fix. they can set up their own memorial page if they want to. it's free.

anyway, i miss you and i know now that i can write whatever i chose to write and no one but me and you will see it.

i love you. always will. missing you is something i do every day. it never goes away.

i just reread all the notes i've left for you. at first, it was okay, and then, the tears started. still so emotional. maybe it's cause i'm getting older and the thought of seeing you again relatively soon (probably within the next 20 years) and it's so exciting but, also emotional? i don't know, all i do know is i miss you so much. i stand in front of your picture and look thru your photo album and i remember. mostly good memories. mostly! i've got photos of you from birth until your 20th birthday. i don't remember his name but, the father of the driver of that car brought me a photo that was taken at his house on your birthday. i love that picture. but, i love any and all photos of you. love you so much. just remember mommy loves you so much.

morning sweetheart. this past wednesday you have been gone for26 years. did you know that absolutely no one remembered? if they did, no one said a single word to me. wonder if they forgot or if they just didn't say anything? whatever, as long as i'm alive i WILL remember you! you will not be forgotten. i was, am, and always will be your mother. i miss you so much. really hurts when i give myself permission to think. so, i give you little thoughts all thru the days and i can get thru them without crying. i love you. would love a jason dream. it's been a while. love you alway and forever.

hard to concentrate at work today. i keep seeing your face and all i want to do is go home and curl up in a ball in bed with Daisy. i miss you so much. it hurts, it's so much. i love you. mom

26 years you've been gone. longer than you were on this earth. that is just not fair, it's not the way things should be but, it is the way things are. my heart is aching right now. crying, actually. it hurts to know that you are gone. i miss you so much. times like today the pain is unbearable. hard to breathe, hard to see thru the tears. i don't let most people in to know how much i am hurting. after 26 years most people think i should be 'over it.' well, i just wish they could tell me how to do that! i dont' wish them to lose a child so they'd know but, i do wish they could feel the awful pain i feel. still, i have to go on and make the most of my life.
i wish you could have met your nephew Blake. oh, the two of you would have had lots of fun together. not so sure you two would have had much in common but, i think you'd have found common ground. i love both of you and both of you love me. that would have been your common ground, i think.
you know i moved to TN after 19 years in NH. i love TN!! the climate is more suited to me than either CO or NH. it's much warmer here and hardly any snow. i don't ever have to shovel again!! i love that. i live in a nice little 2 bedroom apartment so, my gardening has to be in pots. i'm getting pretty pots now. the first year, i planted in any pot i could find. now, i'm replacing them with bigger and much prettier pots.
you know raymond died about 11.5 years ago. i hope the two of you are together and have around you zelda, maynard, and merlyn. love on all three of them for me and tell them i miss them, too.
i love you and i always will. i miss you and i always will. i think about you and i always will.
mom

good morning, my sweet boy, for some reason, i'm having a hard time this year. not really sure why. but, yesterday i was watching something on tv and i had to change channels, made me think of you and it brought the tears. so emotional now. but, i get this way every year about this time. wednesday it will be 26 years since you left. not sure why that had to happen. maybe one day i will learn why. maybe it was so i could be with Blake til he grew up? i don't know. i think he's the only one that i truly cared about when i was in NH. did i tell you i got to see him for a few days just before halloween last year? i did. and it was so wonderful to see him. he looked good and was in good spirits. i sure do wish the two of you could have met. i'm sure the two of you would have had stuff to talk about. you know i miss you more than i could ever miss anyone else? life for me would have been so different had that wreck not happened. i do have to stop doing the 'what if' game. it really does make me crazy! so much has changed in this world since you left. computers, cell phone, cameras on phones, you can get on the internet with a phone! i've seen some of the video games and they've sure come a long way since you made me sit and watch you play. you know that Blake made me do that, too? music has changed a lot, too. i miss you so much. sometimes, i wonder what you'd be like at 47. i wonder if you'd be married, have kids, your own home, your own construction business. my heart huts, actually hurts. i miss you so much that it's physical pain inside my heart. one day, sweetheart, one day. i love you and always will. tell raymond i said hi, and give zelda and maynard a good head scritch for me. and if merlyn is around, tell him i still miss him. he was the best boy dog ever! love you, mom

Jason, i miss you so much. i love you even more.
my mind still talks to you and my heart still looks for you. but, in my soul, i know you are at peace.
baby boy, you are so missed.
always and forever,
mom

happy birthday! you've celebrated more birthdays in heaven than you did here with me. that, to me, is extremely sad. i miss you. it still hurts terribly when i think of what happened. i still pray that you felt no pain and that an angel was with you so you felt no fear. your nephew, Blake, is on the last leg, last 100 miles, of his 2193 appalachian trail hike. but, i've read and i've heard that the 100-mile wilderness is the hardest cause there's no place to stop and get more food or water. you gotta take it with you. i worry but, i also pray a lot for his safety. i think the two of you would have gotten alone famously! you know, i'd really love a Jason dream! it's been a very long time since i had one. if you think of it, i'd really appreciate it. i love you so much that it actually hurts. i will forever miss you. i believe that one day we will see each again and be together. i love you and i miss you more than i can say.

good morning, sweetheart. i miss you so much. hard to imagine you've missed so much. hard to imagine you've been gone for 25+ years. that's such a long time. my heart hurts, my heart broke when you left this earth. i've got to go, my tears are blurring my vision. just remember, mommy loves you so much.

good morning, sweetheart, 25 years gone. how i hate that! i miss you. heavy heart feeling this morning. sure do wish things could have been different. it's been hard without you. i'd probably still be in colorado if that wreck hadn't happened. you know, i've got photos of you all over my apartment. not so that i'd remember you but, so that other people when they come over would see you and not forget. as long as i'm alive you'll never be forgotten. i love you so much. missing you is just so painful. a huge bit of my heart went with you when you left so many years ago. not a day doesn't go by that i don't think of you. sometimes, with smiles, sometimes with tears. i love you so much. always. mom

good morning, my precious child, in 2 days it will be 25 years since you left this earth and took a piece of my heart with you. tears are forming. i always get emotional around this time of year. i miss you so much. things would be very different if you were still here. i'd probably still be living in CO. i wish you could have met your 2 nephews, Blake and Cameron. i think you'd get on with both of them. i talk with Blake about you so he at least has some information about who you were. he laughs when i tell him about some of your antics and how angry you could make me. but, he also knows how very much i loved you and how much i still love and miss you. one day, sweetie, we'll be together again. you and raymond hanging out up there? i love you. so much. i miss you so much. just remember one thing above all else, mommy loves you baby.

3 days before christmas 2018. i miss you so much, Jason. seems unreal that you've been gone so long. do you remember the christmas when i got you all that hockey equipment and then, you never used it? you wanted it but, for some reason, just never played hockey or learned to ice skate. ah well, it made you happy and that was all that mattered to me. in fact, christmas was always about you. i wanted you to have the best one ever each year. after you died, christmas never meant the same for me. without your smiles, there was no christmas. 25 years, next month, you will have been gone. when i allow myself to think about it, i hurt just as much as i did when it happened. i love you so much. i'd love a Jason dream soon. i miss you sweetheart.

good afternoon, my precious man-child. 45 you would have been today. breaks my heart to think of all you've missed these past 25 years. i miss you so much that it hurts my heart unbelievably. don't think i'll ever get over that damned car crash. i miss you. i love you. a Jason dream would be nice. just remember, mommy loves you.

good morning, sweetheart. i miss you so much. it's hard to believe it's been 24 years. you have been gone longer than you were here. and to me, that's so terribly sad. i miss you so much. i love you so much. it's so wrong that you are gone. gonna be a rough day so if you are able please be with me today to make it a bit easier. i love you so much. it's hard to comprehend you are gone even though it's be been 24 years. i love you. mom

again, good morning, sweetie. not sure why but, this year i feel pulled to be here to write to you. guess i'm missing you so much. please do me a favor if you can. your nephew, Blake, is 20 yo, his birthday is 2 days before your's, the anniversary of your death is monday. please watch over him and don't let anything happen to him. keep him safe. he's so close to the age you were when you died. please don't let anything like that happen to him. watch over him. keep him safe. i love you so much. it still hurts so much that you are gone out of my life. not living your own life, working, having a family, and having a good life. as long as i'm alive, you'll never be forgotten. i love you. mom

good morning, sweetheart. i miss you. it's 2 weeks til the anniversary of the day you left me and this world. it hurts just as much now as it did then. don't think i'll ever get over losing you, i may adjust to you being gone but, maybe not. still get a hurt in my heart when i think of you but, i can also smile sometimes. remember when i'd get paid and we'd go out to dinner to some fast food place of your choice? some of my best memories are the ones spent with you. do you remember the time my vw ran out of gas on the way to your flag football practice? you were so mad at me but, i didn't have money and thought we could make it. we didn't!! you know i love you and miss you terribly. a dream would be nice. i love you so much. mom

Christmas is a hard time for me because you are not here to celebrate with me. i moved like i told you i would. there are more reasons than i wrote but, they really aren't appropriate for here. you know the real reason i am in tennessee. that being said, i'm happy here except for knowing you aren't here. it's been almost 24 years since that wreck but, it doesn't get any easier to know you aren't here. i'd still be in colorado if you were. my heart still aches and i still cry when i think about you. i miss you so much it hurts. i love you dearly. a Jason dream would be nice soon. i love you. mom

ps. for anyone reading this, there are now comments under each of the photos, just click on the photo to enlarge it and you can see my comments about it.

good morning, sweetheart, woke up missing you. do you remember before raymond and i got married how i'd take you out to eat every saturday after i got paid? i loved doing that with you. then, you got to making more than me and you'd take me out. life sure does change, doesn't it? sometimes, the changes are good, sometimes, not so good. i have complete faith that one day, we'll see each other again. baby boy, my heart is breaking right now and it's coming out in the form of tears. i love you so much. you are so missed. there's no one alive that knew you like i did. we'd fight but, that was okay cause we knew the other loved us so much that fighting didn't matter. i wish i could give you a hug once more and have your scent inside me just one more time. i love you.

i know i'm a day early for your birthday but, i was thinking of you and wanted to talk with you. i'm leaving new england in 2 weeks. i've hated it ever since the first winter here. didn't realize snow came and stayed all winter... so unlike the snow in colorado! anyway, i just wanted you to know i won't be here anymore. tomorrow is gonna be hard for me. actually every birthday of your's is hard for me. i miss you so much. even though it's been 23.5 years since that awful wreck, i miss you like it was yesterday. how i wish i could have kept you from leaving that afternoon. you know how much i love you and miss you. a dream tonight would be really nice. i've missed them. love you so much. happy birthday, baby.

good morning, sweetheart. woke up this morning around 2 thinking of you, missing you. wishing somehow i had been able to stop you from leaving the house that night 23 years ago. i will never stop missing you no matter how long it's been. so many things have changed in the last 23 years. you should see how video games are different now. even angie plays one! the two of you would have so much fun playing together. i love you so much. i have photos of you in several rooms. talk to you often. i do wonder if you hear me. my heart still hurts that you're gone. there's an emptiness left where you lived in my heart. i love you so much. mom
ps. hey, i'd love a visit in my dreams soon. it's been way too long.

over 22 years you've been gone. my heart hasn't stopped hurting yet. probably never will. mommy loves you, baby. happy 43rd birthday. wish you were here to celebrate.

Good morning my sweet baby boy. tears again. been kinda emotional for about a month now. thought it would get easier the longer it was but, I was so wrong. seems to be worse as the years pass. my heart hurts. tears fall. I miss you so much. 22 years is such a long time for you to not be living your life. wrong. love you so much. mom ps I'd love a visit in my dreams

good morning, jason. 42 huh? getting old? i often wonder what you would have been like now. wife? kids? career? can't do that anymore today. so close to tears now. nope, at tears. one just fell and my eyes are clouded with them. can hardly see the screen. i love you so much. even after 21 1/2 years of you being gone i still hurt so much. you'd think it'd get easier but, it doesn't. my heart hurts. just know i love you and always will. mommy loves you, baby

Jennifer and Sandra,
I just want you to know that I have the picture you sent to me on my desk and think of Jason every day as I sit at the computer. He is missed very much and never forgotten! May God heal your hearts each and every day. My heart hurts right along with you.

good morning, sweetheart. 21 years. that's a long time for me to be without my baby boy. not a day goes by that i don't miss you and wish you were still here. i love you so much. you've been gone longer than you were here. that just seems so wrong. would love a dream visit. love you.

good morning, sweetheart. today is your 41st birthday. wow! you've missed out on so much these past years. you'd be amazed at the gaming systems there are out there now. you'd love one of those phones that are phones and can play music and can get you online. oh, you don't know what i mean by online do you? things have really changed a lot since you left. jason, i miss you so much. i love you so much.

miss you so much. i often wonder what you'd be like now. would you be married, have kids, what would you be doing as a career? hard to believe you've been gone for 20 years. how can that be? how can you be here and then just not be? it's so hard to comprehend. so many things have changed. i wish you were here to see them and enjoy them. missing you is so hard. don't think that will ever get any easier. love you. miss you.

Happy 40th Jay! Wish we could celebrate in the flesh, but in spirit will have to suffice for now. Miss you dearly brother! Can't believe it's been 20 years since i saw you last. See you soon, save me a seat!
Thoughts and prayers to your family, especially you Sandy! God be with you today and always!

good morning, sweetheart. so, you're 40 today. wow! it's been a long time. i miss you so much. seems like just yesterday i saw you for the first time. you were late getting here. guess you were comfortable? lots has gone on since you left. wish you were here so you could have enjoyed them. tell my mother and raymond i miss them, too. would love a hug tonight after i go to sleep. love you.

Jason, you were like a little brother to me. Small in size but big on ideas and determination. You gave me allot to smile about in the years I needed it most. I miss you dearly and think of you all the time, especially when the Broncos play the Raiders! The last few times the Raiders won I could feel you smiling from heaven. Can't wait to see you again little brother! Miss you!

19 years ago you were in a great mood as you left with 2 friends to go to colorado springs for a concert. for some reason, it felt important for me to tell you that i loved you. i got a hug and an i love you too mom from you. that was the last one. i heard from your friends that you had a great time. that pleased me. i miss you honey more that you can know. i love you so much.