Jedediah it's been a while here I guess. I talk to you everyday tho and now I'm hoping you and your brother are together and happy. I know your journey was hard at first cuz you couldn't let go of Tysons betrayal, I have enuf angst about it I hope you e let it go. I will always worry about you and Jeremy so please stay together and when you can let me know you're both near. I miss you so much I just ant find my purpose anymore. I love you so , and until can get a page up for Jeremy tell him I love him and I need to l ow what happened. If you guys can show me it's the only way I can hold on. All my love till I'm with you.Mama

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I miss you so much,i wish you could see where i’m at now

Thinking of your mom this week. She misses you badly.

You sure brought a lot of joy into your mom's life, and she misses you all the time.

It's been a while. But I think of you everyday. Tou are so loved .
Love skinny

Missing you extra

Woke up thinking about you big guy , we all love and miss you , you will never be forgotten . JED ON!!!!

Thinking of all the great memories you left your mom, and sister. Hey, I am sure you have had a beer with my son. P.S. what did he say about me.

Your mom sure misses you.

Happy birthday Jed. #40!  I never thought I wouldn’t be able to celebrate with you. I opened the anniversary bottle of Crown and did a shot for you and had your favorite German chocolate cake. I found the penny you sent me so I know you were here. I miss you so much and will never stop. I love you even more!
Love,
Mama

Too many holidays have passed Jed and I post to your FB page and not here. You are on my mind and in my heart every second of every minute so I hope you can read my mind & heart and know how I miss you & love you. Your 40th birthday will be here soon. I’m opening up that bottle of Crown I bought to celebrate that day for you. And then I’ll go thru remembering th 10th when Gramma Jo died and then Valentine’s Day when you had they accident and then the 17th when you said good bye. I have learned to dread the month of February and cant wait to celebrate it all again with you when we’re together again. Until then, stay close son. I need you so much more than anyone can realize. I love you.
Your,
“Dear” Mama

I love the sightings of you. I never knew you, but your mom loves hearing about my sightings. Keep it up Jed!
JED ON!!!

You were included in the 2018 Lantern Floating in Hawaii last night Jed. I was able to write a note to you that was transcribed on a lantern that got sent afloat. I'll put the link here. Although I cant see which is yours I know it is there and know you saw it and my message of love. I miss you so much. All this time has not made it easier at all, each day seems to smack me in the face with the reality of you being gone and me missing you. I still hold you to that promise that you will be there to grab my hand and hug me as soon as I cross over. I love you son. So very very much.
Mama
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I hope you saw the lantern we sent to you tonight. It stayed in sight for almost 5 minutes and then thru the clouds to you. Its unreal to think its been 4 years since you left us. I have to trust you hear me and you see everything here. I miss you honey, so terribly much. I send you hugs and kisses every day.
Xoxo xox
Mama

Jed was a good son and father, loved by many people.

♡

Happy Birthday Jed. How I'd love to be teasing you about being 39! I can hardly believe you have missed 4 birthdays here with us. Most times I still can hardly believe you really aren't coming back. I miss you more than imaginable,, and all that keeps me going is picturing you waiting for me with a big ol' ]ed hug.
I love you honey. 

Mama

Happy Birthday Jed. Geriann and I miss you and we talk about you often. Please watch over our baby girl, and I look forward to seeing you again in my next life. Love you with all my heart and soul

Another year with you not here. All the holidays cant even get us all together anymore....seems we've all fallen apart without you here. I cant stand the thought of it being January already. That means next month is another anniversary I cant face. I miss you so much Jed. I cant wait to be with you again. All my love, your Dear Mama

Well Jed, your brothers' foundation The Jed On Foundation is up and running. I know you were with us yesterday, you could have been a little easier with the breeze I asked for....but you never did listen to me. Lol.  We did so much and helped Mike and his family with funds and food and hopefully lifted his spirits. The next one can only be bigger and better. I miss you so much honey. Every time we all get together and tell stories and memories you are with us and we miss you so much. You are here with us every minute of every hour. But I still cant wait to see you again.
Love,
Mama

My 4th Mothers Day without you here and it doesnt get easier. It's just not fair I cant talk to and see all of my kiddos......you should be here. I'll try to be positive and look at it that its one day closer to when I see you again. But you know Ive never been very patient. I miss you and love you so very very much Jed. I hold you close every single day.

Love you ...Mama

Oh my sweet boy, Yesterday was too painful to write. I relived the whole nightmare all over and cried all day. 3 years is a long time but it doesn't seem like 3 years. Everything is so clear and fresh in my mind yet its like it was really yesterday. I feel the love so many people have for you and it helps me knowing they wont forget you. I am sure hoping that what Ive believed all these years, that when we die we see our loved ones again. I cant wait to see you. I need a hug and to see your smile.
I love you Jed. I hope you do know how much I miss you.

Love you so much
Your dear mama.

Sure sorry you're gone; your mom sure misses you.

You will never be forgotten. Everyday at any given time someone is always thinking about you. You live on in our hearts but it sure would be wonderful if you were here just a little bit longer. We love and miss your laugh your smile and the way you always looked out for your friends and family. Love you always

I know it's late.wouldn't be me if it wasn't.. I think about you often. I miss your face! You send positive vibes all the time. Thank you. I love you JED. Stay crazy! From Sabrina Westbrook on 2/1/17 on FB.

Happy birthday sweetheart! Thanks for visiting me often. I miss you terribly.

I know you looked down on us....All For You!!!...I Miss You!!!...Love You Bro!!!!....Happy Birthday!!!!!...m/!!!  From Chief on FB 2-1-17

Happy birthday Jed

Happy Birthday my friend. On FB from John Tyson 2-1-17

Happy birthday love and miss you brother On FB from Ken Spike Coffey. 2-1-17

Love and miss you Jed! On FB from Manny Ortega 2-1-17

missing you On FB from Floyd Smith 2-1-17

Happy Birthday my brother. Love and miss you everyday homie. On FB from Ricky Stitch Von Wiegen 2-1-17

Happy birthday Jedediah i love you always On FB from Tash. 2-1-17

I know you looked down on us....All For You!!!...I Miss You!!!...Love You Bro!!!!....Happy Birthday!!!!!...m/!!! On FB from Chief 2-1-7=17 after the balloon release we did at yours and Jeremy's house.

One more month and you will be gone 3 fucking years. Still unfair, still hurts, still makes me sad, still have anger. Will it ever go away? I still wait for you to just so the fuck up. The hardest thing a sister must go through is living her life with out her snot nose, brat of a baby brother. Real pain for sure. I miss you Myers. I love you  From your sister on 1-17-17

Happy Friday the 13th! Last time we kicked it was at this devildriver show Dec Fri the 13th 2013! Love and miss You!  On FB from Anthony 1-13-17

I picked this picture because in this when you were 19. Tomorrow I turn 19 and it breaks my heart you won't be there! I'm so thankful you saw me turn 16 but I wish you could've been there for my 17th 18th and now my 19th. I wish you could see me driving and meet my boyfriend and be here for all the milestones to come! I miss you so much!❤️ On FB 1-1-17 from Ariel. The picture wouldn't attach but it was on you and Anthony in Flagstaff at yours and Amy's wedding.

I could prob sit here for hours trying to figure out what to actually type.

Me and my uncle never really got along always seen different ways but he was always there if i needed someone 2 just chill n chat with. I'm not one 2 actually say how i feel or show my feelings torward's anything but its been so long since we sat side by side in ur trunk just chatting I miss those little things. if there was any possible away for you to come back would be great right now. Anyways Happy Birthday Uncle
I lovee you

Happy birthday honey. 38!!how can this be real? Why aren't you here with us? Why didn't you just stay home that night? You know when I see you ...after the hugs, I'm gonna yell at you. :-) it's been too hard for me to come here and post and I'm sorry. I have some things to upload so I will do that soon. I miss you and love you so so much. Please stop by in a dream or a sign,.,,they mean the world to me. Until I see you again....carry on....stay crazy. P.S.  Im sure you had a hand in the balloon release we did at the house. You formed those balloons into your own constellation that hung over us for quite a while. And you were there with us that love you so much. I sure hope you were smiling. I love you. Mama

In remembrance of my little brother Jedi...
Happy Birthday! !!!
Much Love!

Happy Birthday Jed, Keep a watchful eye on your mama....

OH my dear son....how I miss you.  Things have happened but I know you know.

I always liked Jed from the day he said, "hurt my mom and i'llf119172@yahoo.cn cut off your head and ship down your throat". He was honest, sincere and to the point. What you saw and heard from him is what was what he was really thinking and feeling. Gotta love a guy that is true to himself and his family. God bless you Jed

Looks like I'm getting like everyone else and not writing to you.my "Jedercoaster" "" rides have been bad this past month and I've been missing you so much. You'd be proud of things I am doing tho, like volunteering with my grieving parents group and finding a job! It's a start. Life was changed forever when you died and moving on is so much harder than I could have ever imagined. It seems we are all doing good....no ones sick or in jail, lol. I'm going tomorrow to finally donate blood in your honor. I promised I would and now I can. I'm waiting for a dream visit from you..it's been awhile. I love you baby. And I'd do anything to have you home.
Love forever,
Your..
Dear Mama

I couldn't write yesterday, I missed you too much. I'm happy about how you sent Jess and I signs at almost the same time....you are further from me it feels, but you still manage to send me a hug now and then. Mother's Day will never be the same but Jeremy MONICA and the kids were there to celebrate with me. All that was missing was you. I still can't see G, but I hear she's doing good and is happy. You'd like Ariels new boyfriend I know. She's happy for the first time in a long time. It seems silly telling you things I know you see, probably more than I do! But hopefully it'll be a timeline of sorts for the kids later on.  I miss you so much, it's crazy how everything is so different with you not here. I love you my baby boy....I take comfort in knowing I'll see you when it's my turn. 
All my love
your
Dear Mama

I am missing you more so last few days. I hope you were there at Jeremy's pig roast. You would have had fun, although it was an AA group haha. They'd love you anyway.

I decided to write a story, maybe a book at least for me about you. I'd like to think you'll be over my shoulder editing the things I get wrong, and spark memories for me I've forgotten. I've named ....And then there was Jed. I've got the introduction and chapter one done. Definitely won't make the best sellers list, but it will be therapeutic for me. 

I love you Jedediah. The missing you never goes away and I don't want it to. Stay watching over us. I wonder sometimes if it's you Jayden sees..he'll stare off and tell Nicole there was a man. He's never scared, so I hope it's you.

I'm one day closer to seeing you again my baby boy. Then my heart can be whole again. Give gramma no and Nonnie and gramps and Les and my dad, Matt and Jeremy hugs from me. Please......(

Oh Jed....this doesn't get easier. Almost 25 months since you left us. Well you really didn't leave us, we just don't get to see you, hear your laugh, get your hugs, see your smile. What I wouldn't do for one last day with you. Our trip home from Vegas is s clear in my mind, I'm so glad we had that time. I feel bad I couldn't honor some of your wishes that you told me you wanted when you died, but I know you know those ones were not in my control. I just miss you so damn much. 
Tomorrow is the 2nd annual tapping of BRIs special brew for you. Matt and Greg have made this honor to you a fundraiser for Jeremy's foundation. So many people love you still. I'm sure the brew will be too much for me, but will have a pint of Dirty Jesus ale for you. Stay near please, sometimes your energy is all that gives me strength. Send me a dream so I can see your smile and I will get through another day. I love you Jed...with all of what's left of me that didn't go with you so many months ago.
Love, your "dear mama" ❤️

Peace be with you little brother, in Christ Jesus!!! You are surely forever missed...

So many hearts, dear Jed.
So much love.
Shine bright "little hulk".