Bless you, Jed. I think of you often and miss you. Rest in peace, dear brother.

This year was different, I didn’t call out of work to drive multiple hours to visit your resting place. The past 8 years every time I would come out to connecticut and shed tears for hours on end to a stone with your name on it. That’s not where you are; you’re in my heart. It took a very long time sitting in darkness to finally let the yellow you loved so much radiant through me. I am a mini you and I will forever respect those around me by doing my best to put smiles on others faces as you once did. Thank you for giving me this beautiful life, wish you were here to witness my achievements.

Jed, you are still so alive in my heart. Peter and I have been digitizing some of daddy's old super 8's and I must say you were pretty damn cute. In fact, you were the world's most lovable little rascal, and we miss you so much. You made us all laugh so many times, especially when the chips were down. If only we could have laughed together a bit longer. Still, I will always love you for what you gave us—and we are still smiling from the warmth of your love.

Hey, kiddo. We still miss you. Sorry I missed so many birthdays over the years, but I really treasure the time we did spend with each other. Happy birthday little brother; many happy returns on the day, wherever you are. When the heavens send vaulted skies of blue, I think of you.

Another year round the sun without you. Never seems possible, no matter how much time goes by. Happy birthday friend.

I will play some of your music today and think of you. I will come visit again this summer and sit for a while.

May love fill the souls of everyone who thinks of you today. The positive light you gave off to those around you will forever live through me. I hope as your son I can shed the same amount of love to those around me. You were everyone’s favorite and I wish you saw that more. You will forever be my superhero.

Jed—Shaun and I miss you so much. I am thinking of you on this sad anniversary of the day you left us eight long years ago. Peter and I will come to visit you and Mommy today and just watch the world go by for a while. And miss you.

Jed, it was amazing to walk down the street with you. "Hi Jed," "Hi Jed," "How ya doin', buddy?" Everyone knew you, and you knew everyone. I was always so impressed with that. I only wish we could walk together again and feel the sun on our faces—and I could watch the love you radiated to everyone, and the love and smiles they gave you back. Happy Birthday, kid. You were a truly magical person, and we miss you so very much.

Sorry, little brother, I was out of touch on the anniversary of your death. I very nearly joined you recently. You wouldn't believe some of the stuff happening down here, my dear old friend. Abide in grace, dear, sweet Jed. People always really liked you and I miss you terribly. So tragically young; I will always miss the world that had you in it.

It's snowing here today, but I'm still going to visit and plant some flowers if I can break the ground. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that you are gone...seven years now. I hope there really are parallel universes, as I will look for you there. I know your heart was broken when they took out that old tree that gave some shade to Mommy's grave (and now yours). Maybe I can get them to plant another one. Shaun and I miss you so much. He could sure use a guardian angel right about now in Australia...

merry christmas my beautiful father i might be spending the holidays alone this year but i feel your presence with me. thank you for being the light on my gloomy days. wish you were here to bring the family together again. thank you for everything. always and forever. do not worry do not fear.

Happy birthday, old son. On days of vaulted skies of highest blue I think of you. Today is such a day, Jed, your fifty-seventh birthday by our lonely reckoning. The world is not the same without you in it; I sorely miss the comfort of knowing you are here with us. Rest easy dear friend and brother and know we love you.

Jed, it's your birthday today and I'm remembering how Mommy and I would drive to Wawokiye camp to see you on your day so many years ago. We'd stop on the shoulder outside camp to tie the balloons on our antenna. You were the sunniest kid on earth and it was so sweet to see you so happy! I miss you and love you always my dear brother. You left us too soon.

Happy Father’s Day to the best father a son could ask for. I write here to express my love for you with tears rolling down my face wishing I could just have one more sunrise with you by my side. I love you forever. Thank you for life and everything that comes with it You were my only blessing.

Dear Brother,

I miss you, Jed. I miss knowing you are in the world, that I never knew what you might say or do, that I would feel your warmth and love the moment I saw you or heard your voice. I wish I could have a whole day of memories of you when we were all kids. Warm, sunny summer days of backyards and daredevil bicycles. I wish I could reminisce with you for hours about things you remember and I have forgotten.

When I stop and think about it I am still devastated that you are gone.

On days of high skies and vaulted blue I look for you. God bless you, my dear friend.

Every night is a late and the gloomy rainy days are harder with you not around. Thinking of you extra tonight; I miss you a ton pops. I wish I felt your presence more because life is getting hard. I love you dearly 

Happy birthday, my dear brother. May you be in peace and joy wherever you now abide.

Five years on, my brother, and you are still gone. Saw the most beautiful rainbow the other day while thinking of you; just a grand, whole big one from hill to hill across the whole valley; it made me smile, you never did things by halves. Bless you, Jed. You are sorely missed by me.

Hard to believe it’s been 5 years. You pop into my mind at the oddest times. But I am always happy when you do.

Fifty-five, little brother; so sad here without you. God bless you, Jed, I will miss you always. On days of high skies and vaulted blue I look for you.

Happy 55, my friend. You are missed by many.

Hard to believe you would have been 55 today. Seems like only yesterday we were 18 and didn’t have a care in the world.  So many times you cross my mind. It would be so nice to be able to pick up the phone and hear your voice. I hope you’re at peace wherever you are.

Jed, it's your birthday today, and we miss you now as always. We'll stop by in the afternoon and watch the world go by.

You left so soon. I miss you. Thanks for teaching me so much about brotherly love and loving me so well. You will always have a place deep in my heart for as long as I live, Jed, and I wish you Godspeed on your journey. Bless you and those who walked with you.

Jed, it's been four years since we lost you, and yet you are still with us. I'm going down to the cemetery again today to visit you. It's still so strange that you are gone, and so hard. Still it is a gorgeous spring day today, and the birds are singing. I miss you so much.

Another year, old friend. Another year has passed along for both of us, my dear brother. Not very many days go by without me thinking of you my dear, old friend. Peace be with you wherever you are; I will keep you ever bright in my heart and thoughts. Happy birthday, Jed; may God bless your eternal memory.

You are still alive in our hearts, Jed. Not a day goes by that we do not miss you. Hope it is somehow a happy birthday for you out there. I love you always.

My dear brother,
The cemetery looks so beautiful this spring. Peter and I took some amazing aerial photographs of where you and Mommy are resting. I miss you so much. Hope you are happy there in the other dimension. I love you always.

Dear brother,

I miss you every day. I pray my eyes can see some light and blue sky for you; I will always keep my heart open for you, through the familiar, warm connection we shared in our lives. God bless you, brother. The world seems less like home since you left us; I miss you. So sad.

Please I would like to hear from your boys too; if they see this.

God love you Jed. I miss you so much. Thanks for all the love and music.

How is it 3 years since your passing? I still see you and feel your presence at random times... songs on the radio, someone’s voice who reminds me of you, a piano riff ... hoping you’re in a better place. Miss you my friend.

It's your birthday today, Jed, and I wish I could call you. I'm still getting over that you are truly gone. I'm gonna come over and see you and Mommy before sunset. I miss you so much.

The deep snow is finally melting away from your stone. Grief mercifully turns to sadness. If only I were there in the morning two years ago today. If only I could have helped you find a way out, or just a place where you could be a little happier. Instead I helped you buy a gravesite next to Mommy. I never knew you would occupy it so soon. I'll join you guys there eventually. The years are flying by.

Bless you, Jed. Another Christmas rolled by here on Earth. I miss you so much; your love and affection unlike any I have ever known, dear brother. I look for you in the sky but I hear you when I laugh. I love you, Jed.

My dear little brother. Three years ago today Today's the day I called to tell you about Mommy. I know the unbearable grief of our loss drew you toward her. If only I could of held your arm and pulled as you stepped over. If only. I'm so sad today without you. And so glad you are sleeping there forever beside her where we stood together in amazement wondering how we could live without her. I can see why you wanted to just stop wondering and just follow her. She loved you so very much.

No it's your 52nd birthday! Where do the years go?

Happy birthday my dear brother. It was so hard to not hear your voice today, your 51st birthday. The world still turns, but it is not the same down here without you. If only I could have been more helpful to you my dear, sweet brother. Maybe I could have protected you from this sorry world. I only wish I had another chance.

Hi, Jed. Happy Birthday. I hope you can run into my son, Philip, where you are. I think you and he would share a quirky sense of humor and enjoy one another's company. Thinking of you. --Steve

The funniest things make me think of you Jed. I'll be driving past some place or hear a song and all the memories come flooding back. It was such an important part of my life...those years we walked together. Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you today.

Dear brother I miss you. I have been thinking of you a lot lately and just want you to know that I will always hold you dearly in my heart. I was just trying to remember this morning some time we spent together when you were a kid; a walk to the train station or down to the shops together. Suddenly it was cold and snow was on the ground and I was beside you again. We shared something really special and I have never had a friend like you in my whole life. I love you, Jed. Peace be with you. Say "Hi" to Mom and Dad for me.

A year ago today, I felt like if I was home with you that I could've saved you. I was in complete shock, I couldn't believe it was happening. A week before hand we took a trip into New Jersey so I could buy seats for the 350z. I remember you getting out of the car to go use the bathroom as I got gas. I never thought that ride would be the last. I try and remember all the good stuff I can. Countless tailgates at Shea Stadium for the Mets. Those hour drives of just talking back and forth from Travis' House every other weekend. Family bonding at Candlewood Lake. We had so many plans to do so many different fun things including go carting and exotic car driving trip to the grand canyon. The night before on March 27th I talked to you with no clue that it would ever be my last. We had a conversation about my car and how cool it looked. Nothing seemed different, I followed you home to make sure you got back safe. Reliving it all kills me every day. It really seemed just like any other day. The next morning I woke up and went to Speedworld in Baldwin to get the decals for my car made up. As I was there I got a call from mom saying that she couldn't find her keys. I told her to go up and ask you as I was bringing them home. As soon as I walked in mom was screaming and crying that you weren't breathing. I ran upstairs faster than ever and then I knew right away you were gone. Every single day I think about it. I just wish you were here. I miss your presence like you wouldn't believe. It's not only that, it's the thought that you never saw me graduate or you won't be there whenever I get married and raise my own family. I don't talk to anyone like I did with you. You were definitely not only my father but my best friend. This year has been the hardest ever and time isn't healing the pain. Every single night I have a dream with you in it. The more time that passes the more stuff I have to look through. I sold almost all your stuff already including his car some know as the yellow submarine or some called it the banana, his 34ft Silverton that was his project boat behind the house and his beloved dream motorcycle the VMAX. And the countless hours going through old photos and sitting down by the water listening to some James Taylor. Every day is a drag even more so that you aren't here with me. Maybe one day I will actually connect with you again. I am coming up to the Church to visit you today. Plant some flowers and some solar powered lights for you <3 I love you and miss you so much..

Hard to believe it's been a year. I think of you at the strangest times... a song comes on the radio, an image comes into my mind, I see someone who reminds me of you... and then, there you are. It makes me happy to be reminded of you. You impacted so many. I feel like one of the lucky ones to have had you a part of my life. Missed dearly.

Hi, Jed. A whole year! Ouch! Just wanted to say, "Hi, little brother" and let you know I am thinking of you. Wishing you peace.

It was a year ago yesterday that you left us Jed. I swung by the cemetery to see you and mommy--so quiet in the moonlight. She loved you so very much. So do I.

Thank you so much for your kind words JoAnn. Jed loved his Portchester days and always remembered you with a smile. Best wishes to you and yours. xo

OMG, I am stunned, shocked and sooooo saddened to learn of dear PortChester neighbor has passed away. Amy and family, Sarah and family I am so very, very sorry for your loss. Ily JoAnn (Smallwood) Giampa

Hey Dad, it's your son checking in. I miss you more and more everyday. I have dreams every single night that you have just one more day on this earth with me. All different scenarios that I wish were real. I am trying the best I can for everything but its all really hard, having to go through all of your stuff and needing to get rid of stuff I wish I could hold onto forever. I really want to go back to work but I don't have the strength to. Everyday after work I would come to see you at the Roadhouse and spend the rest of my nights with you as much as I could. I wish I would've done more to help you not be so sad. I have a strong hate for alcohol and pills now. That is sadly the main reason I lost you and I just wish this was all easier but it's not. I do my best not to think about you being gone; that maybe just instead you are still on a business trip and when you get home I can tell you everything that has happened. None of it has been good besides I am working to open up my own business. I want to be something and I just wish you were here to witness it because you are the only person I really cared to tell anything to. I just turned the big 20 and Christmas is coming up and the only thing I want is one of your hugs. One day I hope I can have one of those again. Hope your Chillaxin' as we would say! I love you and miss you. <3 I will make you proud. By the way I'm trying to get the big J.T. to sign your headstone.

"Don't worry about a thing, because every little thing is gon' be alright."

Jed, I know you are out there somewhere; maybe even where you can see Mom and even touch her hand. She died 2 years ago on Tuesday and it seems like just yesterday that you joined her. They say that there are parallel universes right here where I sit and I can almost believe you are still here with us, doing your thing, spreading love, and celebrating life. I miss you so much.

Happy birthday Jed.
What a beautiful boy with such a wonderful smile.

I am so sorry you are not here to share your birthday with your family.

Thinking about you, Jed, on your birthday. Still hard to believe that you are gone.