My Lubby. It just so happens that I came across this memorial for you. Funny thing is, once again, for their own ignorant & selfish reasons, I have been completely shut out by ur family, ur "mistresses" & that's the nice way to put it, everyone has s*** on taking from me and I'm not talking about physical property I'm talking about even from the time that you passed I should have been the one that was at the hospital when you pass I'm the one that should have your ashes I'm the one that should have said you would have cremated or not everybody took everything away from me all the b******* that I put up with you and everybody else and it's like I didn't ever exist and insert in my heart and I know from my dreams you are not happy about this you don't love any of these other assholes are b****** you love your wifey I'm just found last night picture of you and I and some other things that you wrote me a card that you sent me and it's ironic that I came across this tonight I love you so much and I think about you all the time I miss you so much I was already broken heart when you were here but I'm 50 times broken heart and I know you're not coming back I love you so much I'm so worried you left me with a plane crash but that's alright I know we both know that and wobble but they don't fall down I just hope that in some way and your spirit you let these people now who you really left I know you love everybody but who did you really love your wife it's just crazy how I should act like I never existed or anything that's right they're all going to hell I'll Always Love You I cry about you everyday still has almost been a year rest in peace my love least one of us is getting peace