June 22, 2014
June 22, 2014
my dearest Jeff, you completed me and was and will always be everything to me. no we were not legally married but you and I had our plans we just had to get thru the things we were dealing with before we took care of the other things. You have my heart just as I know I have yours. Its so unfair. I honestly cant see my days let alone my nights w out you, I ache for you, your every touch, your smell. everything I do,i see, or I go I see you. I miss your holding me at night, the I love you...mores, the wake ups to tina and itty bitty bang bang all this. lol We shared a love most people only dream of yes we had our arguments , yea I know there used to be only one person who could make you angry now theres two... me and laurie. I do know you were different you were faithful to me and our love. I always knew how much I loves you, and I could never see a day of my life w you not in it, but dear god the emptiness I feel is beyond imaginable. we had so many plans left to follow thru with. you and I know what those were that's all that counts really. I keep thinking its a nightmare im gonna wake up at any moment and see you beside me as always, just as the night you passed. I tried so hard to save you babe. you have the most genuine heart of anyone I know, never speaking a harsh word of anyone, although you would make excuses for several. at the drop of a hat you would help anyone at anytime no questions asked. I love you... more. You have my whole heart for my whole life, today tomorrow and forever.we will be together again until then I will forever keep you close in my heart my thoughts my dreams! Michelle aka "your favorite gwyndolyn"