Thinking of you Jeffrey. Much love to you and miss you so much <3 <3 <3.

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! Miss you much! ❤️❤️

Love love Jeffrey. We miss you so. We miss your little notes and messages.
Dad and Johanna

Dear Jeffrey—I can still hear you laughing. Your joy was always palpable. We love you. -Gretchen

We miss you.
Dad & johana

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! Miss you, love you, always thinking of you!

Jeffrey! Miss you so much. Can't believe it's been 6 years. I miss your smile, your laugh, your friendship and kind heart. You are always with me <3 <3 <3.

Today marks the sixth anniversary of Jeffrey's passing. The memories of his laugh, smile, and kind heart are blessings. ❤️❤️

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! Miss you so much. I think of you often. You are one of the best friends I've ever had and you are always in my heart. xoxoxo <3 <3 <3

Happy Birthday, Dear Jeffrey! I said a little prayer for you on your Birthday and felt that you were with me all day. Hope you had a blessed Heavenly Day. Its so hard to believe that you will have been gone 5 years.
I miss you!

Days going faster each year that i forgot today was a another year .Feeling good for my age. I often think of our phone talks and miss them very much.
I miss you every day more and more as time goes by. By the way, Johanna And I got married last Christmas. David, Gretchen and girls were here, so was Suzi and Johanna's family. Wish you could have been there too and maybe you were. Uncle Pete came to visit in September. Love you forever DAD

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! Miss you so much. You are always in my heart guiding me with your advice and making me laugh with your awesome sense of humor! <3 <3 <3

Still missing you so much Jeffrey my buddy. Very often I think of you in my adventures and wish you were around to share them with you. I can't believe it's already 4 years ;|. Much love to you xoxoxo <3<3<3.

It's hard to believe another year has gone by, and yet it has. Given all the craziness, I'm sure Jeffrey would be leading the charge to call out Trump.

I miss my brother so much as do his friends and family. I wish he could be here to see the girls grow up and for them to have the chance to know how kind Uncle Jeffrey was.

Jeffrey

Loved you! Still do!
You made me feel a special part of your life.

always miss you
Johanna

Jeffrey,
another year has passed. I missed you on my 81st birthday. The past year I have been going to chapel and saying prayers for you and MA.
I've been burning candles for you. Still miss you and our talks. You were a joy in my life and helped me more than you could have known.
Love forever and a day
Dad

I'd like to share the letter I wrote to Jeffrey (or to his soul) right after he passed...
Dear Jeffrey,
I have been beating myself up the past couple of days for not having had the chance to tell you some very meaningful things to me. I know you wouldn't want me to feel bad because you were such a positive person. I am saying these things now and hoping you can hear me. Jeffrey, the first time I saw you, I was standing outside of the Monday night Burbank meeting, one of my first meetings ever. I was crying to Sharon and Colette about some stupid boy (shocker, right?) and I remember seeing this adorable man with a killer jacket and a rockin haircut walk by. He turned to me with an empathetic smile and said, "I know how you feel. It hurts but you'll be okay." And that was my introduction to you Jeffrey. I smile quickly spread across my cheeks and I was instantly drawn to you. I knew you were someone I wanted to get to know and that I did. Jeffrey, you are truly one of a kind. I have never in my life experienced anyone quite as quirky and unique. Your enormous smile and contagious laughter are just two of the characteristics that make you shine. I remember when you asked me at a meeting on my bellybutton birthday, if you could be my fairy godfather. I laughed but you kept a straight face and said, "No, really, I feel like I am your fairy godfather," and that you are. I mentioned to Gagik that I can't help but picture you with fairy wings looking down on us. I feel your presence deeply and will forever carry your spirit with me. About a month before you passed, on our drive to the hospital, you looked at me with tears in your eyes and said, "I know this sounds silly but If I had a daughter I'd want her to be like you." Those were probably the most touching words ever spoken to me. You then kept repeating how dumb a thing to say that was, and hearing you say that broke my heart. I told you it wasn't dumb at all. I told you it was so sweet, but what I wish I said is, "Any girl would be lucky and blessed to have you as a father." Just as a father teaches his children, You, Jeffrey, have taught me some invaluable lessons. You have led by example in your constant expression of gratitude. I have never in my life met someone who is just so grateful to be alive. You also taught me how to be honest and accept others as they are. When you missed my birthday meeting you profusely apologized and shared with me the honest truth for why you weren't there. You were doing something that you weren't proud of, yet you told me about it and expressed your deepest apologies. If it were the other way around, I may have hidden the truth and made up a white lie saying that I was sick or something. Because of your honesty, I strive to be more honest. Sometimes I lie because I think I am doing the other person a favor or protecting their feelings, but you've taught me that honesty is the best policy an in your honor Jeffrey I will make strong efforts to follow in your footsteps. In my step work with Shaimoom, we read the step four booklet and I answered the questions about qualities I admire in a friend and how I compare my qualities to those I admire. I shared with him that I love how you, Jeffrey, are able to love and accept people even if you do not particularly like them or agree with them. That's a tough one for me but your ability to just exude love is incredibly inspiring to me. How can I forget your vibrant, fiery passionate shares, which all your shares were, but in particular those that were aimed toward individuals in the rooms who upset you?? Rob and I giggled about that yesterday. Your shares inspired the hell out of us. You expressed yourself graciously and with so much confidence yet at the same time, humility. Even last week, in your weak physical state, you called me to express your concern over a fellow member's behavior toward another member. You are a fighter Jeffrey who doesn't give up on anyone but more importantly, on yourself. You appreciated all you had and were so very loved and admired. You talked about how good it felt to be loved. I'll always remember driving up to Oxnard with your dog Boomer and the dogs I was dogsitting, having a picnic with Joel and his dog Ginger at Doggy Beach...and getting my hair cut by you...definitely a unique experience, standing up for a haircut. Jeffrey, you possess this innocence and purity that is unmatched. And your sense of humor - it is my favorite kind, because you have no idea that you're funny, and that's what makes me laugh the hardest. I value our long conversations where we could open up and share secrets and tell each other things we felt ashamed to tell others. I also admire your ability to stop yourself from gossiping - what growth! I know you loved it, as many of us are guilty of, but through your recovery, you would always say, "I don't want to gossip anymore." Thank you Jeffrey for opening your heart to me. I don't know what I'm going to do without you. You are by far in my top five favorite people ever! I miss you terribly. I'm glad I was able to hold your hand and kiss your forehead yesterday and I'm sorry I didn't come a few days earlier to bring you the orange soda you were craving. Your face when you tasted mine last time was priceless. Sadly it was too late for you to drink it yesterday. You have changed my life in more ways than you can imagine and I am forever grateful to have had you in my life. Last night I went to my parents house and cried in my mom's arms. She wants to make a donation to a cause you were passionate about. I was thinking AIDS/Cancer research, but now I'm leaning toward GA, because I remember you telling me that GA saved your life and that without it you'd be on the streets using drugs or dead. Jeffrey, you will always be my fairy godfather. I love you.
Love,
Sara

I miss you so much Jeffrey. Your in my thoughts and prayers everyday. I played some U2 for you today and your love for music always made me smile! I miss your big heart and kind, inspiring words to always keep fighting being a survivor. I’m sending you love,faith, hope, hugs and kisses. Someday soon we will be together again! ~ Love Suzanne

Happy Birthday, Dear Friend!!

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! I miss you so very much and think about you every day. Im sending you kisses and hugs and miss you dearly! I love you always and you are forever in my heart! Love, Suzanne

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! I miss you so much! Sometimes I can hear you in my head making some sort of joke or commentary about something I am experiencing in the moment and I love that you are still with me making me laugh and smile. xoxoxo

Dear Jeffrey,
We talk about you and miss you always.
Love you dear one.
Johanna

We did alot of special birthdays and they are what I remenber today. Miss you more as time goes bye.Have you seen Ma lately. Yes I am taking my medicine.Turn 80 this year. Feel good other then the pain I have for the pass 60 years. Love you Jeff LOVE DAD

Jeff A little late computer was in for repair.Each day that goes buy I still cannot come to terms with myself you joining Ma. We had time to visit before the 17th and all that pass time goes over and over in my thinking each day.You have all the data going on down here. So just have to say I hit 80 years and I feel good.I don't like taking my medicine ,but after all your help about that subject I will take them with a smile.Not doing much. Most of the day I sit in my chair and elevate. Johanna takes very good care of me. We both miss you very much.When I go to chapel I burn a candle for you and Ma. Do you ever see Sabrina. I love you and only wish I could have been able to do more for you and your brother and sister, but 59 years of this condition took away many things from Ma and Me You all have given up many things because of the problems. Thank you for all your help. LOVE DAD

Jeffrey
Remembering you always as a special person who made a big impact on my life. I loved and love you.
Johanna

It's been two years to the day that Jeffrey died. Not a day goes by when I don't think of him. You know, it's true what people say about good memories lingering while the others fade. I see him from time to time in the faces of strangers who resemble him in some way...perhaps the way someone walks or carries themselves. That said, I've never heard anyone laugh the way he did...that full on happy laugh that got other people to laugh along with him. I wish he still with us to lead the laugh we really need now.

Dear Jeffrey,
I miss you dearly so very much and think about you every day... your always in my heart FOREVER strong...Im sending you love, gentle ,big hugs and kisses... You are my Super HERO Jeffrey touching so many stars reaching out to others " Dust in the wind" Forever strong" I played some of you favorite songs" music" today and celebrated your life with some of the students at school today... Jeffrey you will be FOREVER in our hearts...Give mom big hugs and kisses from me and a HIGH FIVE to David BOWIE~Peace, Love Suzanne,Yazzi, Dani, and Faith

Jeffwee! Happy Birthday from Mikewee! I miss my buddy. I think of you often and dearly miss our times together. You always had good advice on everything and helped me see the bright side of things. I miss your jokes and sense of humor and your laugh. I miss you so much! *hugs and love* to you, wherever you are.

Happy Birthday son Johanna taking good care of me. Taking my medicine like I promise you. David and family doing good Sue was able to sign a contract. Johanna and I planning. to get married. I gave her a ring and we are very happy.Things down on earth not good at all.We miss you. Say hi to all. Love Dad

"Happy Birthday" Jeffrey        6-12-2016
         
          Today is the 52nd anniversary of Jeffreys birth          

         Treasured Memories on your Birthday Brother
            
                I thought of you today
              But that is nothing new
             I thought about you yesterday
               And will tomorrow too

               I think of you in silence
              And make no outward show
              For what is meant to lose you
              Only those who love you know
               Remembering you is easy
                  I do it every day
             It's just the heartache of losing you
                That will never go away
                            
                                 Love, Suzanne XOXOXO
                                     "Sweet Dreams"
                 Jeffrey LOVED U2~ BONO:-)

     " Whenever you see darkness, there is extraordinary opportunity for the light to burn brighter" ~ BONO

"My heroes are the ones who survived doing it wrong, who made mistakes, but recovered from them.~ BONO
                                    Jeffrey your my "HERO"
                                     "FOREVER LOVED"Suzanne;(

Happy Birthday Jeffrey, You're not missing out on much. It's a shit show here on Earth. You are missed.

Oh Jeffrey! Happy Birthday. I have saved your voicemails and am looking at our photos. It is a sad day here on earth. Gun violence is out of control. I know it is better in Heaven.

Happy Birthday Dear Jeffrey.
I miss you and your little jokes. As much as I miss you though, your dad really really misses you and the gab sessions you guys would have that could go on for days. I miss that little toss of the head before you would say something and then the smile.
Love
Johanna

You loved parties so much and birthday parties especially. How I wish you were here so we could share this beautiful spring day and celebrate what would have been your 52nd birthday. The world needs your big heart, humor, and honesty more than ever and we miss you, I miss you, so very much.

Dear Jeffrey, I miss you so very much and think about you every day... your caring, BIG heart, gentle kindness, smiles and positive ways to help others reach their fullest potential is endless... Im sure your playing music,dancing and singing with the angels with our heavenly father up in heaven... Love suzanne

We are all of the nature to grow old, have ill health, and die. All that is dear to us and everyone we love are of the nature to change. And I know there is no way to escape being separated from them. But Jeffrey died too soon. They say our actions are our only true belongings and we can’t escape the consequences of our actions. Jeffrey did many positive things for the people in his life. He practiced uncommon compassion and generosity and he had a joyous (and somewhat twisted) sense of humor. The people who knew him benefited immensely from his kindness and love. And with all the suffering in the world, we need Jeffrey and people like him more than ever. May we all think and act in ways that benefit one another—like he did. I miss my brother so very much.

Well Jeffrey my son one year has passed. I had David put a picture of your Urn on this web site. Johanna and I had a mass said for you. Jeffrey some days this pass year I cry and some days I laugh but most of all I think of you and all the wonderful things you have done for all the people who came into your life. All the people you helped and took care. God has open the gates of heaven just for all this kindness you have given here on earth. I am working on something for the homeless to put in your name Say Hi to Ma and Sabrina We LOVE Dad

Jeffrey most of day is gone but I waited until this hour to write you about Ma. You helped me so much and time passed away so fast when she was sick. You were always there helping me and then somehow I knew she was going to leave us at 12.15 am Aug 4th,1997. Dave lived out of town. We called him and he came Aug 3rd. Sue was living in town. After a rough day with all her pain, I told you and Dave to go to bed and Sue went home to sleep. I sat up in bed with Ma and she pointed to me and said hold me I love with all my heart. I held her in my arms and she just looked at me and said again I love you and she went to sleep. I started to close her eyes and started to tell her and thank her for all she done for us. David heard me yelling. I told him to stay with her and I went and held you in my arms and we went to her bedside all holding her with Sabrina. We called Sue and she came right over. God gave me this special time to be with the person I love so much and my family. Nothing in this world could replace those minutes, Jeff. Again, I want to thank you for doing all the work and helping me. I love you and I thank you for the kind words about Johanna and me. I love her more each day, Jeff. She takes good care of me. I only wish I could give her more. David and Sue Dave took care of all arrangements for you and Sue did her best. At this present she lost her contract. She had much to handle at this time. Jeffrey, I couldn't have taken such good care of Ma if you where not with me Please ask the Angels to watch over all of us LOVE DAD

Today is Jeffrey 51st Birthday! Im sending you BEAUTIFUL flowers, forever gentle BIG hugs and kisses... xoxo! I miss you so very much down here on planet earth and some day we will all meet in the kingdom of gods heaven... I think about you every day and pray you and mom are sipping on some tea, dancing a Hungarian dance, smiling,laughing,in peace and comfort with our heavenly father... you are my hero Jeffrey! I feel each and every day your spirit and presence with us. Today during your 51st birthday and during my workout" remember the " orange weights" yep, you INSPIRED my marathon workout~ OH BOY, OH BOY," thats a SHOCKER " pillsbury DOUGH boy, TWEETIE! and I gave disneyland a shout out for you! your loving sister,
Love suzanne, yazzi, dani, and faith, meow,meow

Happy Birthday Jeffrey! I miss hearing your laugh, your stories and your jokes. I still can't believe you're gone and I'm waiting for the day when you call me and say that you just got back from a long vacation and were excited to tell me all about your travels. I miss you so much and I hope you are celebrating your special day somewhere out there...

It's still hard to believe that Jeffrey is not with us anymore. Today, on our beloved brother Jeffrey's birthday, I feel his bright presence with me and it helps bring a smile through my tears. I miss my one of a kind friend, hairstylist and brother Jeffrey. Jeffrey, know that I think of you often. I have some of your crystals in my car, which makes me feel closer to you. I hope that you are in a beautiful place of peace now. I will love you forever and ever!
Love,
Sara

Jeffrey, today would have been your 51st birthday and knowing how you loved each of your birthdays and celebrated each one, we are trying to celebrate this one for you. I know if you were here, this would have been a special day so we started it out by going out for breakfast and we will do that every year from now on. We miss you every day. I light a candle for you at church. I think of you all the time,wishing you were still here. Sometimes a song on the radio or a commercial or any number of things will bring you to me and it hurts,Jeff
We love you
Dad and Johanna

Dear Jeffrey,
I'm sending you a flower on your birthday. I miss you. You were a big presence.
Love
Johanna

Today is Jeffrey’s birthday. I bet he would want us to celebrate—no tears, no sadness. I remember Jeffrey’s knack for encouraging people. In line at a store, he’d say “you look really pretty in that dress” to a woman he’d never met—he threw a mini party for the person on the spot. Jeffrey was kind and generous—he made people smile and feel good about themselves. So here’s what I’m going to do to celebrate. I’m going gift-wrap something useful and beautiful and then emanate Jeffrey by giving it to someone who could use a little extra love. I think he’d like that. ;-)

Jeffrey six months your in heaven and I am still working on a urn I thinking about tweety bird I have a company that could make up the empty urn and add tweety bird I will add your ashes Then you will stay with Johanna and I in Sun City and then we will go to Pismo beach What do you think about all that LOVE DAD

I am writing this with my Mom. Jeffre's Aunt. I have so many great memories of you Jeffrey. We had so much fun with you and watching you grow up. I loved hanging at your parents house. It was a blast. I loved going to the Grand Canyon with your entire family. I thank God for the memories we made. Our true home is in Heaven. Love you Uncle Dick, Suzanne and David. Hope to see you, before I go Home.Love Your Cousin, Terry

We love you Jeffrey! Uncle Don and Aunt Mae..

I am writing about my nephew and how much I loved him. He was a beautiful boy. I loved the way my sister in law Betty dressed him. I loved his curly hair and how my three children played with him. I remember our trip to the grand canyon with Don,Therese, Bob, Suzanne, David and you Jeffrey the baby of this group.We have so many great memories of you. We will cherish those beautiful times as a family growing up together. Love Always and forever. UNCLE DON AND AUNT MAE..Donald Jr., Therese, Bob, Jacqueline and Beverly.

Jeffrey,
I can't believe you have been gone so long already. I really miss you popping in at different times. You always brought so much excitement with you. You were a wonderful breath of fresh air.
I Love you
Johanna

As time goes buy my life becomes more difficult with you not here missing you is one thing but your voice and kind words and good deeds are missing and its very hard you are not being there for all of us to share life with Jeffrey who love each of us a special way have your angle friends be present for all of us and watch over us I love you more then words can express and yes I am taking my medicine and tell ma lttmty love dad