My heart physically hurts. When I found out, that, in fact, I was not able to have Jennifer text me while I travel or follow my uber ride anymore to my destinations. She was there with me last week.
Jen was sick and now that sickness has taken her away from all who loved her.
I have been struggling to find the right words to describe my friend – to explain why this loss is so tragic. And I cannot seem to find them. Any death of someone is a tremendous loss, I know.
Jen was special. Dare I say extraordinary….
How do I describe the most selfless person I know? How do I explain the multitude of ways she made me better, or how she never missed an opportunity to encourage me, tells me she loved me, or supported what I was doing? How do I begin to recount the many times we worked together late at night to complete a report, a project, or just talking about her illness? This is a woman who donated her time and energy to taking care of others, even when she herself needed to be cared for
“How can I help you?” I cannot be the only person who heard Jen say those words over and over again – no expectation of anything in return. To call her a ‘giver’ does not do her justice. Giving was simply part of her nature, a portion of her soul
When we Communicated day the before she died
This is one of the things that is comforting me right now. She told me she was having a hard time but hanging on. I told her I was there with her in spirit holding her hands. She told me “I love you”. I did not see her, as I had hoped, because of COVID, and Canada borders closing but kept contact with her through Sarah, late Monday night. Sarah told me she was smiling, so I will remember that. I did not want to believe that we would not talk again and that when I return from work on Wednesday, Jennifer would not be tracking my travel, until I reach inside my house and then say. Go get some rest, you must be tired.
I still have the texts on my phone she sent, as we talk practically every day
You were a treasure, my friend.
I am better for having known this beautiful soul. I will always miss you. Sarah and family, my heart and prayers are with you right now. I know you and Les must be hurting, but Jen has a host of persons who loved her and that love has been extended to you.