The dreadful time.
At 37 plus 6 days. I was having terrible back pains, i was concerned so i called the midwife, mine was on annual leave so i spoke to another who said the pains could be indigestion, she told me to take some antiacid tablets but i didnt. That was on the saturday, on the sunday i felt better but on the monday i didnt feel right but i dont know why i guess it was a mothers instinct, i tried to phone the midwife again but i couldnt get through everytime i tried it kept clicking off, i thought maybe i was just being paranoid, but i felt the same on the tuesday so i tried again and again it wouldnt connect, on the wednesday i finally got through to my midwife, she asked me when i last felt you move i couldnt remember, so she sent me to the day unit. I phoned daddy who was at work and i told him not to worry, grandma took me to the day unit and daddy met us there. we didnt have to wait long to be seen, i was taken to a bed where they then but the heart monitor on my tummy but they couldnt find anything so they took me to a room where they did a scan, the midwife i saw then was called Christian he was lovely, he couldnt find anything then he thought he saw a flicker so he took my pulse while scanning, he still wasnt sure so he went and got the consultant who couldnt find anything. Thats when we was told you had gone. They gave me a tablet to thin my cervix, they were going to send me home and to go back on the friday but i refused and said im not going anywhere i need to have this baby now, so they admitted me to lyndhurst ward, it was the longest night of my life, listening to other babys crying when i knew that you wouldnt be making that sound or even taking a breath.
Thursday 22/08/2013 at 10.30 am i was taken down to labour ward at 11am i was given an internal tablet to start the labour, My nan your great nanny came and saw me and at 1.40pm i went out for a ciggy with grandma and nanny jean with me. we sat on a bench and i started to rub my knee, nanny jean asked why i was rubbing my knee i said its because i cant rub where it hurts. the contractions had started. at 2pm i was given an oral tablet which really got the contractions going. After a little while i felt like i needed to push but the midwife said no dont push, she checked me and i was 6cm dilated, 12 minutes later i really needed to push so i did and out you came. we still wasnt sure what your sex was so i asked what is it and they said a girl i asked for them to pass you to me and i sat there and hugged you, Daddy cut your cord he did a good job of it.