3 years  gone without you here you've missed so much. Your grandbabies are getting so big. Your nephews and nieces are growing larger then life. I sometimes sit and look at your picture and wonder why you and not me? Why ??? Why did you have to leave us?? Nothing in my life has made sense since the day you went away. I've struggled more then anyone ever will. Why you and not me?? Every day I pray you are at peace. When I dream about you, you are perfect in every way. So much love to give. The day you left you took it with you. When??? When does it get easier to accept we are here and you are not? How will we ever understand that love wasn't enough to keep you here? When do the tears and emptiness end?? I miss you so much. 3 years. 3 very long years. Our life's are changed forever.  Our trio is broken. When?? When does it get easier??  Cause right now all I feel is broken. Love you always and forever big brother