Still Missing You!!!!
March 5
17 freaking years and it still feels like it juss happened man I get so mad at life sometimes and see people with brothers makes me angry why cudnt I have kept mine he didn't need to leave so early I still needed my brother I wasn't ready to let go and I'm still not my mind blocks out the day I lost you and I forget that I'm never going to see you again in this life and it hurts me everyday I see mom have her days and I kno she's trying her best everyday to stay strong but when everyone is asleep I kno she cry's and misses you terribly and I wish I can take some of mom's pain away but I kno I can't cause my pain is almost the same and it's so hard I always tell you goodnight and that i love and miss you everyday and night and it's juss not the same when your voice doesn't respond back. I love you brother and I kno your always with us and we will see you in paradise but I wanna see you now and hug you so tight I juss love you so freaking much and miss you more then that. This life is juss hard sometimes and I wish you were here with me, us to go thru it.