April 11, 2020
April 11, 2020
It has been two years and the pain is still so raw, still cannot put up photos without tears instead of memories. But not a moment goes by that I don't thinkg about your way of having fun with people, loving me, squeezing me, talking me through things, and playing around with the boys. I'm sorry to say that you were correct that earth was ripe for a pandemic. Once again, you knew a lot about alot. I still am using everyday all the nuggets of instrucitons you taught me. You are right, flagstone IS a high-maintenance flooring and a sink in the garage is awesome. You were amazed how you can learn how to fix everything from you tube, so I show Rowan that that's where can learn, too, though you're gone, and that it's ok. Remy is currently poking my nose with a lego, but I must say these boys and the joy, sweetness, and fun they bring are the only reason I am doing ok. My dad cried last week as the boys played out front because he was so so sad you aren't getting to see them grow up. They're really wonderful boys. I hope you are a spirit, watching over us, protecting us...with us. The only good thing about dying one day is that I"ll maybe get to see you. Love forever, your baby.