This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one,
John Michael Barnes, 27, born on October 23, 1973 in Carthage, Missouri
and passed away on May 26, 2001 in Long Beach, Mississippi
We will remember him forever.
My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son
but i will love him until my dying day.
So please listen to my memories every now and then,
family and friends , please allow me to talk about JOHN..
His hair was dark brown , his eyes were brown,
He never ever left without saying I Love You
He never caused us any pain
With his life we had everything to gain.
We gained from him even in death
He brought us to God and there is no greater wealth
Yes , for our son there could be no other ,
I thank God for choosing me to be his Mother..
RIP ..10/23/73...05/26/01
my heart just broke into, I wish you could had stayed with me
but heaven needed you. you left me with memories
and I love you dearly still. no matter how much time goes by
you know I always will.you were my very special son
with kindness in your heart, and the love we shared together
grows even stronger now that we are apart I know I cannot bring you back
although I wish it everyday, but a piece of me went with you
the day you the day you went away.
Now we are working on the house , wanting to sell it , maybe. downgrade to a smaller house later , this is to big .
Ashton will be 18 next month the 26th what a big boy he has become..Wish he would come over to see us ..I know he has to have a car by now . You would be so proud of him , I know you will be right beside him when he graduates , if you were still here you guys would look like twins , I Sure do miss you my love .
RIP 10/23/73. 05/26/01
your mother every day no matter what . We don't what
others do or think . You are our Angel. and always will be .
why somethings happen as they do
for so much joy and happiness
was centered around you
it seems so hard to comprehend
that you're no longer here
but all the happy memories
will help to keep you near
you're thought about with pride Son
with each mention of your name
death cannot change a single thing
our love will still remain
We Love You Son
RIP
10/23/73.....05/26/01
you out of their life like you never existed
after you shared everything with them ...
Now they have a reminder of the love they shared
to look at everyday....
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
Be careful when you open it , it's full of beautiful things.
Inside are a million kisses , wrapped up in a million hugs .
To say how much I miss you , and to send you all my love .
I hold you close within my heart , and there you will remain .
To walk with me through out my life , until we meet again..
RIP .John 10/23/73...5/26/01
Birthday , but I wish I could do it in person
I can't believe how long it's been since you
you have been in heaven ..I only wish Ashton
would come over to see us , I can't believe
he doesn't know who his real dad is , how
can she keep that from him ? One
day he will know the truth , he is 17 now
I know he is not stupid , an he remembers
some things , children don't forget even
if you want them to..It is stuck in their
memory an one day it will come out
the good an the bad things..
Please God take care of my grandson an
help him stop being afraid an stand up
for his rights...
RIP my son
10/23/73...05/26/01
Happy Birthday Ashton Michael Barnes
We all Love an Miss you very much
Just a little note to tell you what is going on, first I want to tell you I have kidney disease an arthritis in my hips, guess it's a sign of old age. Dad isn't doing very good, the VA is just messing with him, But hopefully we will get results soon, I contacted the Thad the senator of Mississippi about our problem, an I think he is going to help us.Also Kim is doing good she has a god job an bis buying her own new car , plus now she is buying her first home an she is doing it all on her own, no help from anyone...I am so proud of her an she is only 29.. She is moving to Gautier Ms. which is closer to her work..Beautiful home...I know she would have liked you to see it...
Everyone misses you my Angel..One day we will all see you again, an the ones who did this to you will pay on judgement day...
We have to leave everything to God now...Still haven't seen your son, but maybe one day he will wise up an come see us...She can't continue to control his life..He will find out everything one day...About you an us...
RIP 10/23/73....5/26/01
Your brother
Tony
I Love You
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky !
but rather openings where our loved ones shine down !
to let us know they are Happy...!
RIP 10/23/73
5/26/01
Ashton Michael Barnes I love you no matter what name you go by..
you born Sept. 26, 2000 to John Michael Barnes an Latisha Heather Gilland,,your dad passed away May 26, 2001 you were 8 months at the time..
one day when your older you will find out the truth about the death of your dad..what really happened....who was responsible..
RIP my "Angel"
10/23/73...6/26/01
RIP ...10/23/73...05/26/01
John Michael Barnes
how time buzzes by ...I can't believe it seen like only yesterday he was just a little tot..Now he is all grown up , an probably driving a car.. He should have a car of his own with all the money you give him every month, if his mom puts it in
a account for him..He looks so much like you son, I hope he never forgets you son , Cause I know how much you loved him John...
Now I want to wish Ashton a Happy Birthday from all of us including his dad
John Michael....
John would have loved to be able to say that to his son , cause he loved him
very much...
I will love him forever...
May his dad rest in peace
the tears just started falling, but I couldn't turn away..
I closed my eyes an I was there, that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright, alive an so aglow.
I'd swear I heard your laughter, as I gazed upon your face..
That golden an contagious sound,that nothing can replace..
It brought back such sweet memories, of how life used to be..
Each picture is now a time machine, that brings you back to me..
R I P My Angel
10/23/73 5/26/01
I wish you could be here to see how happy I am. I have found the love of my life, Rickey Patterson. We got engaged on Christmas morning and I am so looking forward to becoming ONE! He makes me very happy and I know I have found what I have been searching for all my life.
I love you John and will be seeing you again one day.
Your brother,
Tony
I miss you so very much, how I wish you were here, I can't believe its been this long, seems like it was only yesterday.. 15 years is a long time to be with out you, I know one day I will see you again, just please wait for me... I love you so much..
R I P 10/23/73. 5/26/01
but woke and you weren't there
and as the teardrops filled my eyes
your presence filled the air.
I tried again to reach for you
but found you to far away
so I began to cry again
waiting for the day.
When I see you once again
I know just what I'll do
I'll gently grab you by the hand
To make my dream come true..
R I P 10/23/73..5/26/01
My Beautiful Angel
John Michael Barnes
That doesn't mean I have a disease..
It means I miss an Love someone who has died..
Let me grieve at my own pace..
My reality is forever changed..
Do not judge me, nor feel it is your obligation to tell me..
" move on " or " get over it "
Getting over it is not a option..
With time , I will do my best to move forward one step in
front of the other..
They might be baby steps , but it is better than none at all..
When I need you , Just be there...
I have taken a step forward now...I have went through Ashton's toys an kept some of them an given the rest to children who need them, they were like new, even his books I have given to my nephew's little boy..Yes it hurt , but Ashton is still in my heart..
when peace can't be found on this earth, I reach out for your hand.
when your hand wraps round my own, a strength pours from your soul.
it brings to me a quiet calm, til once again I'm whole.
a peace beyond all reason, a rest there in your touch.
Something in your quiet words,my heart yearns for so much.
If I but rest my worries, upon your should there.strength that pours forth from your soul.will wash away each care.
Like a cool sweet taste of water, for a tired thirsty man.
My heart finds peace,my soul is calm, when I reach out for your hand..
RIP 10/23/73 5/26/01
Your brother,
Tony
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
I know your watching over Ashton an seeing how big he is getting, I so much want him to learn about you.. I am making a album about you so he will have it one day..He needs to know about his real daddy all children need to know that no matter what..You never keep that away from them not ever or one day it will bite you in the butt..He looks so much like you my Angel not sure how he acts but looks he can never get rid of of...I Love You so much John I think about you every day somedays I cry a lot wishing I could bring you back an wishing it was different...It wasn't fair ...guess life isn't fair...
Please wait for me...I Love You your mom
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died..
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place, no one else can fill..
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone..
Part of me went with you, the day God took you home..
I Love You my Angel
you are my sun my moon, you're my words, you're my tune,
my earth, my sky, my sea..
you're everything to me
you're my light in the darkness
you're my peace and happiness
my hope..my forever Love
I hope this time everything works out for him, he has needed someone in his life for a very long time.he has turned his life around and is a different guy now.maybe age has something to do with it who knows, I know he is happy.I know you are proud of him now..
RIP my sweet angel..10/23/73 .. 5/26/01
Oh wait until I get up there to see you! I am gonna throw a huge fresh horse patty at you!!!
things are sort of different around here and Kim got a divorce from Adam this month, I know one day she will find that perfect someone..
...RIP..In Memory of John Barnes 10/23/73...5/26/01
RIP 10/23/73..5/26/01
with you, time sure does fly by..These past years has went by so
fast it just doesn't seem possible it has been that long..Seems like only
yesterday you were here teasing me..miss you so much
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
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My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son









Tony
John here I am today,an it's time to tell you about Tony,I believe he has found his match..I am very happy for him..I do believe this is the one this time...Very caring an seems to be all up front , haven't seen anything negative in the relationship so far, an I love that...We really like this guy a lot enough to call him family..Hope he feels the same...Just thought you need to be introduced.. His name is Rickey this is him...
mardi gras time
Well its Mardi Gras time here an Daniel an Sheila came down from Texas to spend some time with us. They have never been to a Mardi Gras parade so we decided to take them , they had a ball an they got a lot of throws..I danced around like a silly nut, I really needed to get out an do that, I haven't done anything really since you have been gone, so it felt good...We watched movies an acted silly, enjoyed a great meal...just like Thanksgiving....It never lasted long enough, cause before you know it the day came for them to go, such a sad day..It was like they just got here an then the visit was over..Maybe before long they will be back to visit longer an we will do more than we did this time...I hope so cause it was really fun...We all enjoyed it.....I know they wish they could have met you my darling "Angel'"
RIP 10/23/73 .... 05/26/01
Missing You At Christmas
Every day without you, since you had to go. It's like summer without sunshine, and winter without snow. I wish that I could talk to you, there's so much I would say. Life has changed so very much, since you went away. I miss the bond between us, and I miss your kind support. Your in my mind and in my heart, and every Christmas thought. I'll always feel you close to me, an though you far from sight. I'll search for you among the stars, that shine on Christmas night.
I Love an Miss you so much John
RIP 10/23/73----5/26/01