This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one,
John Michael Barnes, 27, born on October 23, 1973 in Carthage, Missouri
and passed away on May 26, 2001 in Long Beach, Mississippi
We will remember him forever.
Things I have felt more deeply , are the hardest things to say !!
My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
I came across a picture of you and I today .
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
The dust has settled on the things
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son
I know that my son has passed away,
but i will love him until my dying day.
So please listen to my memories every now and then,
family and friends , please allow me to talk about JOHN..
His hair was dark brown , his eyes were brown,
He never ever left without saying I Love You
He never caused us any pain
With his life we had everything to gain.
We gained from him even in death
He brought us to God and there is no greater wealth
Yes , for our son there could be no other ,
I thank God for choosing me to be his Mother..
RIP ..10/23/73...05/26/01
but i will love him until my dying day.
So please listen to my memories every now and then,
family and friends , please allow me to talk about JOHN..
His hair was dark brown , his eyes were brown,
He never ever left without saying I Love You
He never caused us any pain
With his life we had everything to gain.
We gained from him even in death
He brought us to God and there is no greater wealth
Yes , for our son there could be no other ,
I thank God for choosing me to be his Mother..
RIP ..10/23/73...05/26/01
My son the day you left and gained your wings,
my heart just broke into, I wish you could had stayed with me
but heaven needed you. you left me with memories
and I love you dearly still. no matter how much time goes by
you know I always will.you were my very special son
with kindness in your heart, and the love we shared together
grows even stronger now that we are apart I know I cannot bring you back
although I wish it everyday, but a piece of me went with you
the day you the day you went away.
my heart just broke into, I wish you could had stayed with me
but heaven needed you. you left me with memories
and I love you dearly still. no matter how much time goes by
you know I always will.you were my very special son
with kindness in your heart, and the love we shared together
grows even stronger now that we are apart I know I cannot bring you back
although I wish it everyday, but a piece of me went with you
the day you the day you went away.
Hello my darling Angel I know it's been a while since I have been here . I am very sorry for being so late. We have been having a lot going on here. Dad has been in an out of the V. A. having test. run on him . The veteran's owes him so much but is unwilling to pay up , he was in the Vietnam war in the 60s an contacted Agent Orange ended up with prostate cancer , heart problems an diabetes problems but they are still not willing to give him back pay , what is this country coming to ? In the mean time everything is coming out of his pocket , what a crock .
Now we are working on the house , wanting to sell it , maybe. downgrade to a smaller house later , this is to big .
Ashton will be 18 next month the 26th what a big boy he has become..Wish he would come over to see us ..I know he has to have a car by now . You would be so proud of him , I know you will be right beside him when he graduates , if you were still here you guys would look like twins , I Sure do miss you my love .
RIP 10/23/73. 05/26/01
Now we are working on the house , wanting to sell it , maybe. downgrade to a smaller house later , this is to big .
Ashton will be 18 next month the 26th what a big boy he has become..Wish he would come over to see us ..I know he has to have a car by now . You would be so proud of him , I know you will be right beside him when he graduates , if you were still here you guys would look like twins , I Sure do miss you my love .
RIP 10/23/73. 05/26/01
My son I want you to know you are remembered by me an
your mother every day no matter what . We don't what
others do or think . You are our Angel. and always will be .
your mother every day no matter what . We don't what
others do or think . You are our Angel. and always will be .
It's sometimes hard to know
why somethings happen as they do
for so much joy and happiness
was centered around you
it seems so hard to comprehend
that you're no longer here
but all the happy memories
will help to keep you near
you're thought about with pride Son
with each mention of your name
death cannot change a single thing
our love will still remain
We Love You Son
RIP
10/23/73.....05/26/01
why somethings happen as they do
for so much joy and happiness
was centered around you
it seems so hard to comprehend
that you're no longer here
but all the happy memories
will help to keep you near
you're thought about with pride Son
with each mention of your name
death cannot change a single thing
our love will still remain
We Love You Son
RIP
10/23/73.....05/26/01
It amazes me how some one can drop
you out of their life like you never existed
after you shared everything with them ...
Now they have a reminder of the love they shared
to look at everyday....
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
you out of their life like you never existed
after you shared everything with them ...
Now they have a reminder of the love they shared
to look at everyday....
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
I'm sending a dove to heaven, with a parcel on it's wings.
Be careful when you open it , it's full of beautiful things.
Inside are a million kisses , wrapped up in a million hugs .
To say how much I miss you , and to send you all my love .
I hold you close within my heart , and there you will remain .
To walk with me through out my life , until we meet again..
RIP .John 10/23/73...5/26/01
Be careful when you open it , it's full of beautiful things.
Inside are a million kisses , wrapped up in a million hugs .
To say how much I miss you , and to send you all my love .
I hold you close within my heart , and there you will remain .
To walk with me through out my life , until we meet again..
RIP .John 10/23/73...5/26/01
John, Although I haven't seen you for years, I am your aunt Linda and I love you. I know the hurt your mom and dad have been going through especially your Mom. Not getting to see Ashton and not having you here with them. I know you are looking down on them, but we all will be together again one day soon, probably sooner than any of us know.
My son I am here to wish you a great
Birthday , but I wish I could do it in person
I can't believe how long it's been since you
you have been in heaven ..I only wish Ashton
would come over to see us , I can't believe
he doesn't know who his real dad is , how
can she keep that from him ? One
day he will know the truth , he is 17 now
I know he is not stupid , an he remembers
some things , children don't forget even
if you want them to..It is stuck in their
memory an one day it will come out
the good an the bad things..
Please God take care of my grandson an
help him stop being afraid an stand up
for his rights...
RIP my son
10/23/73...05/26/01
Birthday , but I wish I could do it in person
I can't believe how long it's been since you
you have been in heaven ..I only wish Ashton
would come over to see us , I can't believe
he doesn't know who his real dad is , how
can she keep that from him ? One
day he will know the truth , he is 17 now
I know he is not stupid , an he remembers
some things , children don't forget even
if you want them to..It is stuck in their
memory an one day it will come out
the good an the bad things..
Please God take care of my grandson an
help him stop being afraid an stand up
for his rights...
RIP my son
10/23/73...05/26/01
well now it's Sept. an it's the little man's birthday coming up very soon. He will be 17 years old the 26th , WOW ! can you believe that.? His dad an his dad's family has missed out on all his growing up years..How we wish we could have seen him grow up..I know he looks like his dad an John is watching over him..I hope he gets the car or truck of his dreams for his birthday an comes to see us...There is so much we would like to show an share with him about his dad an us..We love him so very much , Ashton is our grandson an John's only son , he sure does look like John..You might take us out of his brain but you can't take the Barnes out of his blood , a DNA test will prove who his real dad is....only a coward will not have it done...
Happy Birthday Ashton Michael Barnes
We all Love an Miss you very much
Happy Birthday Ashton Michael Barnes
We all Love an Miss you very much
Hey John,
Just a little note to tell you what is going on, first I want to tell you I have kidney disease an arthritis in my hips, guess it's a sign of old age. Dad isn't doing very good, the VA is just messing with him, But hopefully we will get results soon, I contacted the Thad the senator of Mississippi about our problem, an I think he is going to help us.Also Kim is doing good she has a god job an bis buying her own new car , plus now she is buying her first home an she is doing it all on her own, no help from anyone...I am so proud of her an she is only 29.. She is moving to Gautier Ms. which is closer to her work..Beautiful home...I know she would have liked you to see it...
Everyone misses you my Angel..One day we will all see you again, an the ones who did this to you will pay on judgement day...
We have to leave everything to God now...Still haven't seen your son, but maybe one day he will wise up an come see us...She can't continue to control his life..He will find out everything one day...About you an us...
RIP 10/23/73....5/26/01
Just a little note to tell you what is going on, first I want to tell you I have kidney disease an arthritis in my hips, guess it's a sign of old age. Dad isn't doing very good, the VA is just messing with him, But hopefully we will get results soon, I contacted the Thad the senator of Mississippi about our problem, an I think he is going to help us.Also Kim is doing good she has a god job an bis buying her own new car , plus now she is buying her first home an she is doing it all on her own, no help from anyone...I am so proud of her an she is only 29.. She is moving to Gautier Ms. which is closer to her work..Beautiful home...I know she would have liked you to see it...
Everyone misses you my Angel..One day we will all see you again, an the ones who did this to you will pay on judgement day...
We have to leave everything to God now...Still haven't seen your son, but maybe one day he will wise up an come see us...She can't continue to control his life..He will find out everything one day...About you an us...
RIP 10/23/73....5/26/01
Here it is another year gone without you here. I miss you so bad baby brother. But I know you are in a better place smiling down on us and watching over us and keeping us safe. I love you with all my heart and waiting for the day that we can be together again as family. You are always on my mind and you will always have a piece of my heart. I love you John Michael Barnes.
Your brother
Tony
Your brother
Tony
Wow ! How time flys... your anniversary of your passing is coming up soon..I just can't believe it has been 16 years..That means your son will soon be 17 yrs old...old enough to make his own decisions , so he could actually come an visit us if he wanted to. No one can tell him what to do We sure hope he decides to come see us..Bradley also graduated this month, we are so proud of him....
I Love You
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky !
but rather openings where our loved ones shine down !
to let us know they are Happy...!
I Love You
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky !
but rather openings where our loved ones shine down !
to let us know they are Happy...!
John, I know this is crazy an I hate it, but I guess Ashton has disowned us as family. I am sure it was not of his doing, I am sure her family has something to do with it, so we have been talking an your part of inheritance is going to be divided among the other kids..since Ashton doesn't want to come around he will not be getting your part or anything else of yours , I hate it but that's what it going to be..
RIP 10/23/73
5/26/01
RIP 10/23/73
5/26/01
My darling "Angel," it's Christmas time an I sure am missing you more am more..! Wish you could be here with us, like ole times..I have a card you gave us an it is so weird cause you signed it from your gone son instead of Love your son....Thing just haven't been the same around here since you left..It's like you took all the love our of the house with you, it's sad to say , but I believe that...I mope around a lot an cry at the mention of your name , still don't get to see your son Ashton an she hasn't even told him about you , as far as he knows you never really existed , that is terrible...one day that is going to come back on her, cause it will end up driving him away..I know she get a social security check on him every month from my son only not sure Ashton knows that...If she put it in a bank account for him like she should he would have a good amount , enough to buy a nice car or even go to college, I love my grandson more than you know, only she has brain washed him so he doesn't want to have anything to do with his dads side of the family..but thats ok he is still a Barnes no matter what she does...she told me to stay away or she would have me put in jail , see what kind of person she is..?
Ashton Michael Barnes I love you no matter what name you go by..
you born Sept. 26, 2000 to John Michael Barnes an Latisha Heather Gilland,,your dad passed away May 26, 2001 you were 8 months at the time..
one day when your older you will find out the truth about the death of your dad..what really happened....who was responsible..
RIP my "Angel"
10/23/73...6/26/01
Ashton Michael Barnes I love you no matter what name you go by..
you born Sept. 26, 2000 to John Michael Barnes an Latisha Heather Gilland,,your dad passed away May 26, 2001 you were 8 months at the time..
one day when your older you will find out the truth about the death of your dad..what really happened....who was responsible..
RIP my "Angel"
10/23/73...6/26/01
Happy Birthday my sweet baby boy I sure do miss you... I can't believe your 43 years old today, seems like only yesterday you were just a youngster an I was changing your diaper an wiping your nose...You grew up so fast then you were gone...I know we will reunite again one day an it will be a glorious day in heaven , just keep the door open an wait for me my sweet 'Angel' I Love You
RIP ...10/23/73...05/26/01
John Michael Barnes
RIP ...10/23/73...05/26/01
John Michael Barnes
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BROTHER!!! It's hard to believe that time has gone so fast. I just turned 48 and here you are turning 43 today. I just want you to know how much I miss you and wish I could see you and just tell you how much I love you! In time, we will see each other again. Until that day, I want you to know that there isn't a day that doesn't go by that I don't think about you and wonder what life would be like if you was here. Rest in peace baby brother. I love you John Michael Barnes.
Someone's birthday is coming soon can you guess ? You guessed it right son.. Its Ashtons he will be 16 ....WoW ! Can you believe it ? Boy
how time buzzes by ...I can't believe it seen like only yesterday he was just a little tot..Now he is all grown up , an probably driving a car.. He should have a car of his own with all the money you give him every month, if his mom puts it in
a account for him..He looks so much like you son, I hope he never forgets you son , Cause I know how much you loved him John...
Now I want to wish Ashton a Happy Birthday from all of us including his dad
John Michael....
John would have loved to be able to say that to his son , cause he loved him
very much...
how time buzzes by ...I can't believe it seen like only yesterday he was just a little tot..Now he is all grown up , an probably driving a car.. He should have a car of his own with all the money you give him every month, if his mom puts it in
a account for him..He looks so much like you son, I hope he never forgets you son , Cause I know how much you loved him John...
Now I want to wish Ashton a Happy Birthday from all of us including his dad
John Michael....
John would have loved to be able to say that to his son , cause he loved him
very much...
Last night I had a dream about my grandson it was so real.. We was all there together he was having fun an he had his arms around me. Told his mom he wanted to go home with his nana. I told him int time she would let him come see us.. He didn't want to let go ani. I didn't want to leave him, but in time it would work out.. I woke up crying..I love him so much there isn't anything I wouldn't do for him..God please help me be able to see my grandson..
I will love him forever...
May his dad rest in peace
I will love him forever...
May his dad rest in peace
came across a picture of you and I today,
the tears just started falling, but I couldn't turn away..
I closed my eyes an I was there, that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright, alive an so aglow.
I'd swear I heard your laughter, as I gazed upon your face..
That golden an contagious sound,that nothing can replace..
It brought back such sweet memories, of how life used to be..
Each picture is now a time machine, that brings you back to me..
R I P My Angel
10/23/73 5/26/01
the tears just started falling, but I couldn't turn away..
I closed my eyes an I was there, that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright, alive an so aglow.
I'd swear I heard your laughter, as I gazed upon your face..
That golden an contagious sound,that nothing can replace..
It brought back such sweet memories, of how life used to be..
Each picture is now a time machine, that brings you back to me..
R I P My Angel
10/23/73 5/26/01
I can remember all the times we spent together. One time that I can think of right now is when Lennox got loose out of your back yard and the cops picked him up. I remember you were so mad at him and spanked him. Then dropped down to your knees and loved all over him cause you just couldn't stay mad. You always had a kind heart. One day we will meet again brother. Until that day comes I will always keep the memories we shared close to my heart! I love you!
Today marks the 15th anniversary of the loss of my baby brother. Hard to believe it has been 15 years that you have been gone. I think about you every day and miss you so much!! You were my best friend and baby brother. You will forever live in my heart.
I wish you could be here to see how happy I am. I have found the love of my life, Rickey Patterson. We got engaged on Christmas morning and I am so looking forward to becoming ONE! He makes me very happy and I know I have found what I have been searching for all my life.
I love you John and will be seeing you again one day.
Your brother,
Tony
I wish you could be here to see how happy I am. I have found the love of my life, Rickey Patterson. We got engaged on Christmas morning and I am so looking forward to becoming ONE! He makes me very happy and I know I have found what I have been searching for all my life.
I love you John and will be seeing you again one day.
Your brother,
Tony
Hi baby...didn't want the day to pass without talking to you.
I miss you so very much, how I wish you were here, I can't believe its been this long, seems like it was only yesterday.. 15 years is a long time to be with out you, I know one day I will see you again, just please wait for me... I love you so much..
R I P 10/23/73. 5/26/01
I miss you so very much, how I wish you were here, I can't believe its been this long, seems like it was only yesterday.. 15 years is a long time to be with out you, I know one day I will see you again, just please wait for me... I love you so much..
R I P 10/23/73. 5/26/01
I dreamed last night you held my hand
but woke and you weren't there
and as the teardrops filled my eyes
your presence filled the air.
I tried again to reach for you
but found you to far away
so I began to cry again
waiting for the day.
When I see you once again
I know just what I'll do
I'll gently grab you by the hand
To make my dream come true..
R I P 10/23/73..5/26/01
My Beautiful Angel
John Michael Barnes
but woke and you weren't there
and as the teardrops filled my eyes
your presence filled the air.
I tried again to reach for you
but found you to far away
so I began to cry again
waiting for the day.
When I see you once again
I know just what I'll do
I'll gently grab you by the hand
To make my dream come true..
R I P 10/23/73..5/26/01
My Beautiful Angel
John Michael Barnes
I am a griever,
That doesn't mean I have a disease..
It means I miss an Love someone who has died..
Let me grieve at my own pace..
My reality is forever changed..
Do not judge me, nor feel it is your obligation to tell me..
" move on " or " get over it "
Getting over it is not a option..
With time , I will do my best to move forward one step in
front of the other..
They might be baby steps , but it is better than none at all..
When I need you , Just be there...
I have taken a step forward now...I have went through Ashton's toys an kept some of them an given the rest to children who need them, they were like new, even his books I have given to my nephew's little boy..Yes it hurt , but Ashton is still in my heart..
That doesn't mean I have a disease..
It means I miss an Love someone who has died..
Let me grieve at my own pace..
My reality is forever changed..
Do not judge me, nor feel it is your obligation to tell me..
" move on " or " get over it "
Getting over it is not a option..
With time , I will do my best to move forward one step in
front of the other..
They might be baby steps , but it is better than none at all..
When I need you , Just be there...
I have taken a step forward now...I have went through Ashton's toys an kept some of them an given the rest to children who need them, they were like new, even his books I have given to my nephew's little boy..Yes it hurt , but Ashton is still in my heart..
When my world falls down around me, and the ground is sinking sand.
when peace can't be found on this earth, I reach out for your hand.
when your hand wraps round my own, a strength pours from your soul.
it brings to me a quiet calm, til once again I'm whole.
a peace beyond all reason, a rest there in your touch.
Something in your quiet words,my heart yearns for so much.
If I but rest my worries, upon your should there.strength that pours forth from your soul.will wash away each care.
Like a cool sweet taste of water, for a tired thirsty man.
My heart finds peace,my soul is calm, when I reach out for your hand..
RIP 10/23/73 5/26/01
when peace can't be found on this earth, I reach out for your hand.
when your hand wraps round my own, a strength pours from your soul.
it brings to me a quiet calm, til once again I'm whole.
a peace beyond all reason, a rest there in your touch.
Something in your quiet words,my heart yearns for so much.
If I but rest my worries, upon your should there.strength that pours forth from your soul.will wash away each care.
Like a cool sweet taste of water, for a tired thirsty man.
My heart finds peace,my soul is calm, when I reach out for your hand..
RIP 10/23/73 5/26/01
Happy Birthday dearest brother. I think about you every day and I always have memories going through my head of how much fun we used to have when we were kids. I wish you was here to see me happy. I have finally met "The One" and I know that you would be very happy for me. I know you are watching over me and keeping me safe. I love you baby brother and miss you.
Your brother,
Tony
Your brother,
Tony
Happy Birthday Baby... Wow how time flys by.... We will celebrate your birthday today, an wish you were here with us... wondering what you would look like today..a grown man of 42 , I am sure you still would have dark hair like your dad cause he never got gray hair an nether did your grandpa..I know your watching over everyone cause I feel you every day..The little things you used to do so I know your still here with me..Please, help Ashton find his way to talk to us, we are family an we love him...
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
RIP 10/23/73...05/26/01
Hello my Angel ! This month is Crusing month , but it's also your birthday, boy how time flys by. Wish you were here to celebrate with us.
I know your watching over Ashton an seeing how big he is getting, I so much want him to learn about you.. I am making a album about you so he will have it one day..He needs to know about his real daddy all children need to know that no matter what..You never keep that away from them not ever or one day it will bite you in the butt..He looks so much like you my Angel not sure how he acts but looks he can never get rid of of...I Love You so much John I think about you every day somedays I cry a lot wishing I could bring you back an wishing it was different...It wasn't fair ...guess life isn't fair...
Please wait for me...I Love You your mom
I know your watching over Ashton an seeing how big he is getting, I so much want him to learn about you.. I am making a album about you so he will have it one day..He needs to know about his real daddy all children need to know that no matter what..You never keep that away from them not ever or one day it will bite you in the butt..He looks so much like you my Angel not sure how he acts but looks he can never get rid of of...I Love You so much John I think about you every day somedays I cry a lot wishing I could bring you back an wishing it was different...It wasn't fair ...guess life isn't fair...
Please wait for me...I Love You your mom
I love you son an I know all the kids love an miss you to..yesterday was your birthday an I know I would have been proud of you as always..A grown man now of 41, I know you would looked more an more like your dad , an your son like you..I know your watching him grow up..I Miss you so much sweetheart...
A million times I've needed you, A million times I've cryed,
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died..
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place, no one else can fill..
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone..
Part of me went with you, the day God took you home..
I Love You my Angel
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died..
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place, no one else can fill..
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone..
Part of me went with you, the day God took you home..
I Love You my Angel
John I miss you so very much
you are my sun my moon, you're my words, you're my tune,
my earth, my sky, my sea..
you're everything to me
you're my light in the darkness
you're my peace and happiness
my hope..my forever Love
you are my sun my moon, you're my words, you're my tune,
my earth, my sky, my sea..
you're everything to me
you're my light in the darkness
you're my peace and happiness
my hope..my forever Love
Michael my darling "Angel" just can't help but think about you time just seems to fly by, somedays are good and others are not so good, I know we are blessed with everything we have, but the thing in life we want most that is in our reach we can't have or see,We just have to leave it in Gods hands and maybe one day we will be blessed and get our wish. Love an Miss You so Much
Also I want to say I think Tim has found the Love of his life
I hope this time everything works out for him, he has needed someone in his life for a very long time.he has turned his life around and is a different guy now.maybe age has something to do with it who knows, I know he is happy.I know you are proud of him now..
I hope this time everything works out for him, he has needed someone in his life for a very long time.he has turned his life around and is a different guy now.maybe age has something to do with it who knows, I know he is happy.I know you are proud of him now..
My darling "Angel" here I am again talking to you as you know today is Kim's birthday an she is a whole 25, I know she wishes you could be here to celebrate with her.I know your watching over her tonight an keeping her safe as she is out with her friends...She is having a hard time deciding which way to go here lately, I know in time things will turn around for her. "She Misses & Loves You
Tonight was thinking of you again as always,some days are worse than others..I know one day I will be able to reunite with you and I will feel much better ..I just wish I was able to see your son, he means the world to me..I just hope he wants to learn about you and your side of the family..
RIP my sweet angel..10/23/73 .. 5/26/01
RIP my sweet angel..10/23/73 .. 5/26/01
My "Angel" today marks 12 years of your passing although it seems like it was just yesterday....The years seem to just run by so fast and I dont know where they go..It has been years since I have seen your son, Ashton I know he is growing up an will be a man before long, I do hope he looks me up, he does need to know your side of the family, as well as hers..
Good Morning my baby brother! I woke up this morning thinking about you and wanted to leave a short message with you this morning to tell you that I Love You! I Miss you so much! You are always on my mind and will always be in my heart!
Oh wait until I get up there to see you! I am gonna throw a huge fresh horse patty at you!!!
Oh wait until I get up there to see you! I am gonna throw a huge fresh horse patty at you!!!
Just wanted to drop in cause next month is the month you went to heaven, you are missed so very much there is not a day that you are not thought about...
things are sort of different around here and Kim got a divorce from Adam this month, I know one day she will find that perfect someone..
...RIP..In Memory of John Barnes 10/23/73...5/26/01
things are sort of different around here and Kim got a divorce from Adam this month, I know one day she will find that perfect someone..
...RIP..In Memory of John Barnes 10/23/73...5/26/01
Angel I am here today because as usual I am thinking about you.I wish everyday that you were here with us. Like me Kim wishes you were here cause you were her best friend as well as brother someone she could talk to when she needed you.Sometimes life turns us a raw deal but we know in time it will turn around, we just need faith...We Love an Miss You Very Much...
RIP 10/23/73..5/26/01
RIP 10/23/73..5/26/01
Darling this will be the first year since your passing that the family will spend Thanksgiving together..well minus a few, you and of your son how we wish we could see and visit with him.When we ride in the car we talk about old times and things that happened.Sometimes its funny and sometimes its not.I cry sometimes cause your not here with me I guess its just me.I love you my darling
Happy Birthday my darling I wish we could actually celebrate it
with you, time sure does fly by..These past years has went by so
fast it just doesn't seem possible it has been that long..Seems like only
yesterday you were here teasing me..miss you so much
with you, time sure does fly by..These past years has went by so
fast it just doesn't seem possible it has been that long..Seems like only
yesterday you were here teasing me..miss you so much
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
My sweet "Angel " you will never be forgotten we think about you all the time... we do wish we were able to see your son as it has been so many years since we have seen him.. we do hope he never forgets us...He will be 12 years old before long and we have missed out on his special years since he was 3 yrs old the last time he was at our home. In Memory of John 10/23/73..5/26/01
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Things I have felt more deeply , are the hardest things to say !!
My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
My dearest one ,I loved you , in a very special way !!
If I could have one life time wish !!!
One dream that would come true ,
I'd pray to God with all my heart , for yesterday , and you !!!
Well !! son I come to you to talk to you about your daddy,
he has stage 4 cancer , an we are trying real hard to save him !!
If we can't Please wait for him at the doors of Heaven ,
he will be so happy to see you , an we will be so sad t lose him..!
Believe me I don't want him t go , I love him so very much ..!
I don't know what I'm going to do with out him , I have never done
any thing with out him !!I I was so young when we were married
an he done everything !!
I hope things will change , we all pray that change ...!
If it don't then , then I guess it was meant to be .!!
R I P..My Darling Angel 10/23/73 ...5/26/01
I came across a picture of you and I today .
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
The tears just started rolling , but I couldn't turn away .
I closed my eyes and I was there , that day so long ago..
I saw your eyes still shining bright , alive and so aglow .
I'd swear I heard your laughter , as I gazed upon your face ;
that golden and contagious sound that nothing can replace .
It brought sweet memories of how life used to be .
Each picture now a time machine that brings you back to me ...
Happy Birthday My Angel
Today you would have been 46
had it not been for some certain people...
R I P 10/23/73 .....05/26/01
The dust has settled on the things
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son
That I have stored away
A favorite toy, for little boy
A jar of dried out clay.
A photograph when you were young
Sits quietly on the shelf
Thoughts of you come drifting back
I just can't help myself.
A drawing that you made for me
When you were very small
Is framed within this heart of mine
And hangs upon the wall.
A scrapbook lies within the room
Where you once laid your head
Your favorite book, a model car
The pillow on your bed.
I miss you coming home from school
"Hey mom, "it's me, I'm home"
I miss the little words and hugs
The special times we've know.
A part of me just disappeared
The day you went away
An empty space now fills my heart
There are no words to say.
A closet filled with memories
Of happy days gone by
A baseball cap and souvenir
Why did you have to die?
The trophies that you won at school
Stand proudly on display
Your many friends can't understand
Why God called you away.
I hear your voice within the halls
It echoes in the night
I see you in the evening mist
And in the morning light.
So many things you left behind
Are now a memory
But little arms that held me tight
Will always stay with me.
An empty space now fills my heart
My boy, my child, my son
You've gone into another world
Where golden dreams are spun.
I do not know the answers
It's not for me to know
But I will know the truth one day
Just why you had to go.
My turn will come to leave this world
I'll gaze into your eyes
God's perfect plan will be revealed
Up there in paradise.
RIP 10/23/73....05/26/01
We Love an Miss you son
Gallery
our son Tim when we lived in Missouri
Your daddy ( John's daddy ) when he was in the army
this is you our son ( John on the beach ) we sure miss you
this is you John ( at theyoung age of 1 month ) how sweet an adorable you are
omg this is a very young picture of your mama
your dad when he was in good health
My Angel's resting place
Tisha's note that was on grave site
My "Angel"
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Tony
John here I am today,an it's time to tell you about Tony,I believe he has found his match..I am very happy for him..I do believe this is the one this time...Very caring an seems to be all up front , haven't seen anything negative in the relationship so far, an I love that...We really like this guy a lot enough to call him family..Hope he feels the same...Just thought you need to be introduced.. His name is Rickey this is him...
mardi gras time
Well its Mardi Gras time here an Daniel an Sheila came down from Texas to spend some time with us. They have never been to a Mardi Gras parade so we decided to take them , they had a ball an they got a lot of throws..I danced around like a silly nut, I really needed to get out an do that, I haven't done anything really since you have been gone, so it felt good...We watched movies an acted silly, enjoyed a great meal...just like Thanksgiving....It never lasted long enough, cause before you know it the day came for them to go, such a sad day..It was like they just got here an then the visit was over..Maybe before long they will be back to visit longer an we will do more than we did this time...I hope so cause it was really fun...We all enjoyed it.....I know they wish they could have met you my darling "Angel'"
RIP 10/23/73 .... 05/26/01
Missing You At Christmas
Every day without you, since you had to go. It's like summer without sunshine, and winter without snow. I wish that I could talk to you, there's so much I would say. Life has changed so very much, since you went away. I miss the bond between us, and I miss your kind support. Your in my mind and in my heart, and every Christmas thought. I'll always feel you close to me, an though you far from sight. I'll search for you among the stars, that shine on Christmas night.
I Love an Miss you so much John
RIP 10/23/73----5/26/01