Hi handsome, thinking of you every single day! I love you so much John. Thank you for the beautiful life we had together. I wish it had been longer. You gave me so much happiness and love, and though there was a lot of turmoil(not always by our doing) it was the best years of my life next to the birth and life I had with my son. We would have been together 32 years this March. Life can be so unfair, but I know I will be with you again. Papa, I suffer so much about Michael, and I am so very sorry. I know you are watching over him and keeping him safe. Please forgive me. My life ended after first losing you and then losing Georgie. I have been living such an unhappy, and sad, life and the only thing I look forward to is being with you, George, and my parents. Of course also seeing all my family and friends in Heaven. Keep looking after Mom, I miss our talks so much, she is my last link to you(here). My heart is hurting so much John. I truly miss you and I hope to one day make you proud of me. Please guide me on what i should do with the house. I don't want to leave here, but it is too much for me(financially) I know my memories are here in my heart and I will always carry them with me, but it is hard to do this alone, without you. I know that if you were still here this house would have been sold already and we would have moved to a better climate for you with the pain you suffered. Anyway, please know that I am sorry for everything, especially Michael. I could not even take care of me anymore, it was not fair to him. Until I see you again, I will hold you close to my heart. xoxoxoxoxo I miss you :'(