As Christmas comes and goes I miss you! I miss you every day of my life! And it feels like their is an empty stop in my heart. But every year it’s the same I celebrate your birthday hopeing and praying that one day you will come home and this was all just a terrible dream. No matter what I can’t get my heart to let go! And my head to believe that you are gone! I will hold on to your mementos and memory’s! Until the day I go or you come home! I hope you had a wonderful birthday where ever your at Johnny! You mom 

I remember when we where dating back in 2011,when you snuck in the house just to watch movies and hang out in my room and suddenly my dad knock on my door and you hid in the closet,so easily to notice you there cause I didn't have a door there and could see your half of your body and your face between the clothes smileing so hard,my dad began to see what was goin on cause he notice your shoes next to my bed lol he told you to come out or he'll kick your ass,you came out and he sat and talk to you ad you where the nicest you could be and my dad turned to you and said I like you,and for you to come around when he was home tho,and when he went back to his room you turnd to me and said that honestly went very well lmao,it's crazy how we stayed in touch all this time just before your passing we had just talk outside my house and everything and then poof your gone I just found out your gone just 2 months ago all I ask you is to watch over your mother,sister,nephew and grandparents they miss you so much I can feel there pain so much

So as I sit here thinking of you today like everyday.

I know your in a better place, i would do anything to bring you back home with us.

But only time will bring us back together. 

So until we meet again, my son rest in peace, for I can still see you in my dreams. 

Forever loved and miss! John C. Mancillas