Oh wow no way it can be 5 years Honey. How can that be when it seems like I just seen you here with me. I just getting on with life the best way I know how. I am still learning it without you and I'll tell you it's not easy. Yes we had our ups and downs, but when it came down to it we where there for each other. I still know you are here with me because you whisper to me how to get one with my life. You are one of my spirit guides that help me. I will always love you. ALWAYS IN MY HEART. Love always your wife

I just wanted to say Happy Birthday and I miss you so much. Until we meet again. Your wife, always in my heart.

Well I tried to stay in bed and sleep all day just to get through the day. I know it's been 4 years but my heart is still broken. Whoever come up with saying Time Heals all wounds. They really don't know what the hell they're talking about because time hasn't healed anything. I still miss you as much today as I did 4 years ago today. But everything going on in this world what the fuck. I miss you so much honey I love you so much. And I know that you would not like what's going on at all from everything the election been stolen and there's proof to whoever reads this I don't care what you think the election was stolen. The tyranny they're trying to take our freedoms away and make it one world order where. And I know that you are still here by my side with me guiding me telling me to pay attention. I will never stop loving you John you're always in my heart and with me I will love you forever. Your wife always Eva

Hi Honey I'm sending you All My Love. When you was over the road and was not with me in person but was the voice on the other end of the phone that was ok because you was there. Now you are still here in my heart always. Sending you all my love on this New Years Day. I miss you. Love Your Wife

My Honey.                    
   Another Christmas that is about to pass without you here with me. Even though you are here with me in spirit it's not the same. Last night in my grief group with David Kessler we light candles in honor of our loved ones that we lost. Today we met up again to be with reach other because the past year and a half we have become one big family across the world. Oh by the way I watched the video that you and David made for me as my Christmas present. You know the one where you ask me to marry you. What a romantic you was. I'm hoping some day I can remember you with more love then pain. I'm trying to find meaning in life again but it's still so hard with out you. You will always be My Honey My Husband, you are always with me in spirit and always in my heart forever. I love you and miss you so much. Love your forever wife.

John,
  Still can't believe your gone. You are so missed down here. You always made me laugh within 3 seconds of talking to you. I miss that. Watch over Eva-your love, Rick and my brother. They all need you right now. Love you always my dear sweet friend.

Hi Honey.                              I sure don't need a reminder that it's your birthday. You know what I've been going through the past couple of days. Happy Birthday I love you always. Forever your wife Eva

John,
 Hope you are watching over me. You would be so proud of the girls. Megan is honor roll, first chair in band, and a student leader. She's going into 11th grade. Shelby is taking care of Ella and she is such a good mommy. I wish you were here, we all loved you so much. You made me laugh within three seconds of every conversation. You were always proud of that! LOL.
 My brother had a heart attack last week and is home from the hospital. I hope you, Mom, Dad, and Mike are all keeping an extra eye on him. He needs all the strength he can get.
 I know you miss your babies and Eva, and if you could have prevented leaving us, you would. But we would give anything for you to be with us and share things with you.
Until we meet again my friend.
Love you Always,
Heather

Happy heavenly birthday brother-in-law. It’s been 2 years Sorry I haven’t wrote but this is hard for me , you was a like a 2nd brother to me you helped me when I needed it. We all miss you more and more everyday... Eva talks about you all the time  Don’t worry it’s sometimes good talk sometimes sad... I hope your and Powder are riding high on you bike for your birthday. Keep watching over Eva ....Love you always and forever.

Hey dad wanted to say happy birthday to you today.. also kept momma safe I am away trying to better myself for the lil ones in my life.. you kno who they are .. all yeah Bonnie still b having dreams of ya dont think that will change lol man she's growing up so fast you would b so proud of them john they truly miss you so very as do I wish i could ask your advice because you never lied to me one time and for that I am grateful you was my dad .. love you sir

I can't believe it's 2 years today Honey. I never knew a person could cry every day for 2 years. I do now because that person is me. Everything going on here is so messed up. I've been writing this all day trying to find the words to tell you how I feel but you already know don't you. The pain is still so sharp and deep and yes I still have widow brain and I am still on this damn told coaster ride. It's also like being in the middle of the ocean and a wave takes me under and I'm trying to get back up and ride the wave but it had me held down and I'm drowning but I keep fighting to breath. I'm walking this journey down this long dark road trying to find light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know if the light will ever be there because you won't be there.. I'm still trying too find out who I am with the other half of me gone forever. It's raining just like it was 2 years ago. Hopefully some day I will be on here posting good things not all sad. How can I not be dad John. I miss you and will always love you. You will always be my everything. Your Wife

Oh Honey I can't believe in 12 hours will be 2 years since you took your last breath in my arms the 1st time. Life has not been easy for me as you see every day I struggle with the loss of you. I miss you so fucking much and I'm still having a hard time as you know coming to terms that you are gone. I'm still trying to figure out who I am with out the other half of me and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Love you forever miss you a lifetime. Your Wife

Oh honey here we are coming up on 2 years since you left this fucked up world. You would not like what's going on one bit. With the virus and the protest that some had turned into riots. I won't post here what you would have said about because you know as well as I do it's all not what it seems to be. You not here with me through this all is just not right it's not right you are not here John. I still have a hard time with it. It still seems so unreal. You will always be in my heart and no one will ever be there but you. I just wish I could wake up from this nightmare. ❤️

Honey this world is so fucked up and not having you here with me is even more fucked up. I miss you more and more every day. You will always be my forever. I love you and miss you always

  My Honey how I miss you.                  I grieve and honor the roll you played in my life. As you also know today is our 23rd wedding anniversary and you see how that went. I think you told the cook at Texas Roadhouse to burn my ribs. That's how you liked then. My SUV as you also see is buried in the backyard. And some stuff I ordered from Amazon for us of course it's too late on being shipped so my day sucked as usual without you here. But I wear you around my neck always in my heart loving you forever I miss you so much honey love you your wife always. Happy 23rd anniversary.

John,
 So many things have happened since you left. I wish you were here so I could talk to you. Mom will be with you soon, she is not doing well. I always had you to make me laugh and smile when things were bad, and I'm really missing my buddy right now. I heard Van Halen and the Goo Goo Dolls the other night, and I instantly thought of you. You will be forever on my mind and in my heart.

John I miss you every second of every day. I still can't believe your never walking through our front or back door again. This just can't be it. There has to be more to life then this.

Hey My Honey in the realm where you are. It's the 1st and the 1st day of the new year. A new year without you. I ask how can that be? I spent it alone with just our 8 furbabies and at the stroke of midnight didn't even care. Life as I knew it is far from the same as it once was. Life now I'm just trying to find who I am with the half of me left behind. Maybe one day I will have something to to tell you. I no you see how things are going every day. I miss you more and more as the days go by. I love you. Forever yours. Your wife.

Another holiday without the love of my life from your wife.                               
                       Waking up this morning was really sad because you used to get up and put the turkey breast in the oven and cook them one slow for a few hours. Then you would go into the kitchen pulled out of the oven and make your gravy boy was it good. I had to stay out of the kitchen until you got done so you had room to make your gravy. And then what you were stud that I would make the rest of the stuff that would go with it what I didn't make the night before. How I miss those special moments honey I don't know how I'm getting through this I just am l. I will always love you now and forever your wife.

My Honey,                                              
 Another special day that you are not here to kiss and hug and say happy birthday to. It is also 13 months since you spoke your last words to me. I don't know howI I'm surviving I just am. People ask me how I am doing and I will say( I'm ok with nott being ok.) Enough about me this is your day. So at 1st I was going to go to a bakery and buy someone's birthday cake in memory of you. Then I thought we never did the birthday cake thing. I thought I got it we always went to Texas Roadhouse becase we loved thier ribs so later tonight I'm heading down to you guessed it Texas Roadhouse and buy a dinner for someone's birthday and give them a birthday card that says....  I would like to wish you a happy birthday in memory of the love of my life My Honey my husband John. John passed away last year Suddenly at home in my arms on July 29th/30th 2018 it's been the most painful hardest journey I have ever traveled I'm okay with not being okay because I have true love please enjoy your birthday dinner in memory of my wonderful husband John Fambry. Again Happy Birthday I hope it's filled with great memories you can look beck on.                    
                                   
              Sincerely,                         
            John's Wife Eva.                Ok I hope you like what I am going to do in your memory. I know you will. Yes I know you share a birthday with Michael Jackson. I miss you so much I will love you forever. True love never dies. I love you Honey. Love your Wife.

I knew waking up, what this day would mean. A day that I couldn't call you up and sing happy birthday, to hear your voice, and you make me laugh within 1 minute of a conversation. I miss you John. I love you always.

I can't believe it's been a year since my world came crashing down on me. When I had to let you My Honey go for the second time.  It still hurts so much and I'm still on this emotional roller coaster ride called grief. I still can't believe you will never walk through our door again. How can this be? I miss you so much. My heart is still crushed. Forever in my heart where no one will ever be. I didn't post here at 1st I'm in a daze. I did post on my widow support group. I hate the word widow grief bereaved late Husband all of the above it fucking sucks Honey I miss you so much. I always thought I would spend the rest of my life with you, but it was you that spent the rest of your life with me loving me forever and I will love you forever. Love Your wife now and forever.

I can't believe it has been a year today. I miss you always making me laugh. You have always been so special to me. Things we shared are always in my heart. I love and miss you.

                        Hi Honey I can't believe it's been 9 months since you left forever. There's not second that goes by that I don't miss you. I also wanted you to know that 2 men age 35 and one age 61 have had Thier sight restored because of the gift you gave to them. I miss you so much. I will always love you forever. Until we meet again your wife Eva

My Honey you will always be missed. I created this for you so we all can come here when we think of you. I think of you every second of every day. The pain of losing you is unbelievable , I still walk around in a daze. You will always be in my heart.                                 
             Your Wife,                    
                Eva.

My uncle John was the fun uncle when I was little. He would throw me into grandma's pool, let me climb on him like monkey bars, and make me laugh with his silly accents. I always felt safe when I was with him. As I grew up, he came to my rescue many times. He never judged me. He loved me and I felt it. I love him so much, my hero, my light house, my uncle John.
Candle kid

My dear brother john,thank you for the time we had......I will miss you deeply for as long as I live, your brother jerry

I loved John from the first time I met him. He was my big brothers friend and always was joking around. I miss his laugh and the way he could have me laughing within 3 seconds of talking to him. I will never forget the Van Halen concert and how much fun we all had that night. My life changed forever when you walked into my life and made things so much better. I will never forget you my friend. I will love you forever.

My Honey My Heart . The loss I feel with out you is something I never wanted to feel my heart hurts so bad I'm so lost . I know you would not want me to feel this pain because you did say that if I was to go before you, you would not want to walk this earth with out me. Now I am walking with out you how am I to do this please show me I'm so lost and alone here please walk beside me to keep me going. You was such a romantic sweet guy you would ask me if I fell from heaven because I look like a angel or the only thing that you would hold against me was you. The way I looked at you, You said I made you feel like a Rock Star that's because you was everything yo me my rockstar and I know what I need to do but it is so hard. what man would do what you did leaving the hospital to be at home when you past and keeping that from me so I would work and come home wait on you and watch you go through all the pain you did and pass away in my arms not once but twice I am so proud to be your wife and feel the love we had for each other now you are not in pain only if you could be at rest that's what I want for you now. I will miss you so much it hurts but with you by my side showering me what to do I will make it. I look at all you did before you past I can't quite I have to keep going for us.. I love you so much Honey I never though a person could ever feel the pain I do Mr heart is just shatter into a million pieces and broken. You will always forever be in my heart. I love and missi you.