Nothing works and God I have tried but I guess it wasn't meant to be cause he didn't love me the way I loved him. I remember the day before you passed you looked at me so strangely and said that you loved the way I was aging and that I was always so pretty in your eyes then you said "I love you Con" always have then you washed a shirt for me and hung it to dry and I didn't know why but I came to understand later that you were leaving me and saying goodbye, well I got married again but it wasn't the same he left me to soon and never returned again, you knew I loved you and he didn't understand how love was supposed to be between a woman and a man! I don't know why this happened and I really don't understand cause I was in it for a lifetime but he just didn't understand how love was supposed to be between a woman and a man. So now it's all over and lonely once again, I'll never have what we had together between a woman and a man. Love always, Con