Today it is the 12th anniversary. It was a really rough week for me. It seems like the days go by, the harder it is to go on without you! It doesn't seem like it was 12 years ago today! I do my best to keep busy these days, I'm in a rut and some days I don't know how I can get out of it! I know that I'm dealing with depression right now, I just seem to be really sad all of the time. I hope you know that not a day goes by that I don't think about you, you are on my mind always! Love you and miss you always!

Happy Birthday John,
You are forever missed and always in my heart!

Ten years ago today my life changed forever. It has been a difficult journey, one that I was never prepared for. My thoughts of you complete my day and there are times when I am scared and I don't know how to deal with difficult situations that I still speak to you to help me get through it. We shared 30 beautiful years together and I was the lucky one to have had you in my life , we brought 5 beautiful children into this world and maybe one day i will be united back to my children. I love you and miss you more than you will ever know. xoxoxo