When you’re a little kid you kind of feel like you’re invincible and that your parents can protect you from anything and everything. Even as much as everyone wants this to be true, this idea just isn’t realistic. Life happens, the good and the bad whether we like it or not.

Nobody will really understand what you were feeling or what was going through your mind when you found out. One second you were doing everything right, leading an ordinary life with your ordinary friends and ordinary family. Then, at the blink of an eye everything changed. Life as you knew it was broken and just didn’t make sense anymore. Anger, confusion, and sadness envelop and suffocate you until you can’t really feel anymore. “Why? Why did this have to happen to me?” is a question that flows through your mind on a daily basis and never seems to get answered.

When you lose a child it’s like a piece of you has gone away. It’s hard to come to terms with the fact that you will never get to see this person again, hear their voice that one last time, see them smile or even fight. Imagine having a dream where they’re still alive; everything is perfect, and then you wake up and realize it wasn’t real and they are still not apart of the physical world.

Imagine walking down the street and you see someone that looks like or reminds you of you of them and for a split second there’s a sense of hope that this entire mess was just a bad dream. But, then you snap out of it and feel completely immobilized and as if the wind has been completely knocked out of you. Sometimes you can even see them in your actions and through your words and that’s kind of scary because you can almost feel them in the room, nodding their head in approval or smirking at you for making the same dumb mistakes that they did in the past.

There is so much more to Wesley than just his death. He was a kind, caring, goofball. Everyone loved Wes, vices and all. Let us remember him, let us remember him for Tracy. 

Unfortunately, Tracy has unwillingly become a member of a club that nobody really wants to be apart of. You have to know that even though you may feel so alone and trapped, that there are people out there that understand what you’re going through. They get that the pain never goes away and how important it is to honor and respect the memory of your baby. Taking this all in you have to trust and believe that wherever you go, your angel is right by your side.

SO... light a candle, lay a flower, leave a note... this website will forever be up for you to utelize, to remember Wesley.

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