Today is the same pain the same emptiness and the same anger that you aren't here. Life goes on but only half of mine because half of me left with you. Nothing is the same. I love the two new baby girls and you would have spoiled them rotten by now. Austin and Brittany are due soon with baby Scarlet Lynn. Honey I need you to keep me grounded and focused like you knew how to. Brandon is doing super and our relationship has grown. I know that you are where you are safe and happy but I can't shake it out of my mind that you didn't have help leaving us. Too many things aren't right in the picture. You're the one who could give me the answers I need. I won't rest until I am sure. I love you more each day just like I have both of you boys since the day you were born. It's almost been a year since our wedding ride in the El Camino I was thinking about that since I am helping Dawn with her wedding the 16th. Honey I miss you even more than I did yesterday. All my love mom

It's been 3 long and agonizing months since I talked with you and laughed about whatever it was, my heart only misses you more each day. I have so many memories popping in to my head and there's funny ones, sentimental ones, yes and even a disagreement or two but, in everyone there's lots of love. I was remembering you and Beebee dog out on Moser Dome and how you two raced to kill a mouse and who ever didn't get it pouted. You two protected each other so much. I had that feeling of security you gave me because you always protected me and especially the night. You always reassured me to sleep well because  you had the night. You and Camaro guarded me. Honey I know that you are still here in my heart and mind never leaving me. I'm so grateful for that. Getting closer with Brandon has been a blessing in disguise.  Its definenately kept my sanity.You willbe forever missed and always loved. I will see you again but it can't come soon enough.               


It's been 2 months since I kissed you for the last time here on earth. If I had known that then  I would still be holding you so close and tightly I would not be in this pain. I would have been with you and known when you needed help. Johnny my heart will never heal no matter what anyone says I'll just get better at hiding the tears and pain of life without you. Brandon and I are drawing closer  and I love it. I miss your good night and good morning texts. I love you so much. I hope you are dancing with the angels and waiting for us to join you someday. I loved all the people and respect⁹that  was shown to you.  I can't believe that I have been without you for 2 months. I don't forget you for 1 minute of every day.

Where does the time go my friend?  It’s been 3 months since we had to say see you later.  Your friends and family have been watching out for your momma the best we can.  I feel horrible that I’ve been working so much, I feel as though I don’t get out to see her as often as I would like.  I know you are watching over her from above though.  There is still a pretty big hole in all our hearts, not sure that will ever go away.  Every time I hear a loud, fast car — you are the first thing that crosses my mind.  Johnny, take care of my beautiful friend Lori Bray, until we are all together again.  Not goodbye—see ya later.

It's been 3 long and agonizing months since I talked with you and laughed about whatever it was, my heart only misses you more each day. I have so many memories popping in to my head and there's funny ones, sentimental ones, yes and even a disagreement or two but, in everyone there's lots of love. I was remembering you and Beebee dog out on Moser Dome and how you two raced to kill a mouse and who ever didn't get it pouted. You two protected each other so much. I had that feeling of security you gave me because you always protected me and especially the night. You always reassured me to sleep well because  you had the night. You and Camaro guarded me. Honey I know that you are still here in my heart and mind never leaving me. I'm so grateful for that. Getting closer with Brandon has been a blessing in disguise.  Its definenately kept my sanity.You will be forever missed and always loved. I will see you again but it can't come soon enough.               


It's been 2 months since I kissed you for the last time here on earth. If I had known that then  I would still be holding you so close and tightly I would not be in this pain. I would have been with you and known when you needed help. Johnny my heart will never heal no matter what anyone says I'll just get better at hiding the tears and pain of life without you. Brandon and I are drawing closer  and I love it. I miss your good night and good morning texts. I love you so much. I hope you are dancing with the angels and waiting for us to join you someday. I loved all the people and respect⁹that  was shown to you.  I can't believe that I have been without you for 2 months. I don't forget you for 1 minute of every day.

2 months ago I held you and kissed you for the last time here on earth. If I had known that then  I would still be holding you so close and tightly I would not be in this pain. I would have been with you and known when you needed help. Johnny my heart will never heal no matter what anyone says I'll just get better at hiding the tears and pain of life without you. Brandon and I are drawing closer  and I love it. I miss your good night and good morning texts. I love you so much. I hope you are dancing with the angels and waiting for us to join you someday. I loved all the people and respect⁹that  was shown to you.  I can't believe that I have been without you for 2 months. I don't forget you for 1 minute of every day.

The thing I loved most about Johnny was his hugs!! He could hug ya, and you  just could feel the love. I will miss the hugs, and I expect a big one when I see you up there in heaven

2 months ago I held you and kissed you for the last time here on earth. If I had known that then  I would still be holding you so close and tightly I would not be in this pain. I would have been with you and known when you needed help. Johnny my heart will never heal no matter what anyone says I'll just get better at hiding the tears and pain of life without you. Brandon and I are drawing closer  and I love it. I miss your good night and good morning texts. I love you so much. I hope you are dancing with the angels and waiting for us to join you someday. I loved all the people and respect⁹that  was shown to you.  I can't believe that I have been without you for 2 months. I don't forget you for 1 minute of every day.