There have been so many times I have thought about you over the years. Always asking Noelle how you are doing, hoping you had found some peace and happiness in life. You are one of the most talented people I have ever met. Your food was off the hook. I was always amazed and intrigued and impressed with how adaptable you were in life. You could just go any where and do anything as if you had done it 100 times before. You always found a way to fit in. Always made do in any situation and this was something that we had in common. You didn't really fear anything and nothing ever stopped you from doing what you wanted.

Your smile and laugh were infectious. You always had something nice to say. You saw me for exactly who I was inside and I saw you in the same way.

I have so many memories of you but what I remember and Cherish most are the days long DEEP conversations we would always have about life in general. One of the things I loved most about you is how, for a guy, you had no problems talking about your feelings...to me anyway. So tough on the outside but so very soft on the inside. Caring, compassionate and loyal!

I can't lie though, some of the memories I have of you haunt me to this day. I can never forget years ago when you tried to take your life. I remember pretty much every word you said to me that night and I just knew that you were in deep trouble. I knew it was a cry for help! I will never forget the sound of your voice, the desperation and the sadness. You called me though, you called ME, not to say good bye like you told me, but because you knew I would know. You knew I would come to you and that I did. I only wish I could have helped you more. Helped you in a way that could have maybe prevented this from happening. I have seen you in some dark times and I hated every moment for you. I knew you did not deserve to feel the way that you did. Rest in peace my friend!

Noelle- My own Brother Lenny suffers from depression and is at this very moment in treatment. He has been begging for help. He does not want to suffer any longer but he gets turned away constantly because he has not tried to hurt himself yet. Sad! The fact that you are doing something to bring awareness is really awesome. I am so sorry for your loss.

my mom is right, it did mean the world to me. i always held that time in my heart so special, that and when you used to come  and grab a dog biscute and eat it, how me and joey used to laugh, but secretly we wanted to do the same thing. i still remember that day we went fishing, and you walked me down the street on your shoulders and to the pond at the neighbors house and tried fishing there...and then throwing some bread in the water. it was so nice to be able to spend that time with you. i wish we could have had more time to spend like that, then and now. you always had a big heart, i never heard a bad word said about you, but you stood your ground against scott, which made me so proud. i never thought i would know anyone who had the guts to do that. but then again you would do anything to protect the people you love. and i am sorry i never got to talk to you that much. when you called me from New Orlenes, i so wanted to go and visit, i always wished i had.

Jonathan i love you and miss you . you are by far one of the nicest people i have met, and have, by far one of the biggest hearts.

 i will always remember Jonathan as the funny silly little brother who was forever smiling all the good time we shared growing up trips to Vermont with the flying pennies,the crazy ideas we would concoct  the free for all fights in the car when we would hear those famous words you four wait here we will only be a minute so many memories  i not sure what happened i wish you had called i would of done all i could to help you you were there for me when i needed you when Jeffery died gave me a shoulder to lean on you didn't have to come to the hospital that night at 2:00 am but you did and you stay till he left this world and showed me that you had a heart of gold .

  there are so many things i remember from growing up it not many little brothers who would let his sisters dress him like a girl ( you sure looked cute) you certainly were a trouble maker but you had a good heart and even though your time with Kimberly and joey was short they will never forget you Kimberly still talks about the time you put her on your shoulders and took her fishing she really looked up to you bet you never thought you would here that one sometimes the smallest of our actions effect people life's in a big way that simple fishing trip meant the world to Kim.

 i always saw the good in you even though you tried to hide it last time we talked  i told you after all you have been through and are still alive God must have a great plan in store for you maybe its meant to happen from the other side.

                                              miss you

                                           Tina