It's hard to believe you've been gone 14 years now. I wish you were here today to celebrate your birthday. You would have been 36. It's hard to describe how it feels still waking up realizing that you're not here. I am grateful for the time that we had with you and you were here with us but it seems so unfair that you had to leave us way too soon.. when you left you took a part of me with you. I like to think that you're watching over us like our guardian angel.
I know we'll be together again one day.
Until then
I love you eternally
Mum

I miss you so Jonathan, I wish you were here celebrate your birthday with us,
It's hard to believe you've been gone 13 years now but it only seems like yesterday.
Part of my heart and soul went with you that day but the parts that remain remind me of the great times that we had and the great memories we made.
Till we're together again, you're constantly in my heart and soul
I love you so
mum

Feel no guilt in laughter, he knows how much you care.
Feel no sorrow in a smile but he's not here to share.

You cannot grieve forever, he would not want you to.
He'd hope that you would carry on the way you always do.

So talk about the good times and the ways you showed you cared.
The days you spent together, all the happiness you shared.

Let the memories surround you, a word someone may say,
will suddenly recapture a time, an hour, a day.

That brings him back as clearly, as though he were still here,
and fills you with the feelings that he is always near.

For if you keep those memories, you will never be a part, 
and he will live forever locked safe within your heart.

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"Expectation, postponed or denied, makes the heart sick"

I'll never say goodbye to you Jonathan, there's only "till we meet again"
I love you and miss you more than mere words can ever say, my heart breaks every day for you, all your hopes and dreams that will never be realized.

Till we're together again
I love you
mum

They say if you share your grief it will lessen your pain, but no, it does not, not when you try to talk about him, you get a hard lump in your throat, the words fail to escape, your wind is knocked out of you, like a gut punch, no, they cannot understand...

Jon, these last 12 years seem as 12 days to me, I miss you as much today as I did then, more so if that's possible.
Till I'm with you again, I love you infinity
mum

This is for my son Jon who was loved as much as anyone could ever be loved.
To my son
Life is so cruel and unfair when it tears the heart in two
And there's nothing in this world compared to the pain of losing you.
Of all the special gifts in life
be they great or small
To have had you as my son
was the greatest gift of all
Special times, your special face,
My special son, just cant be replaced
With my heart torn so deep, and my whisper low
I miss you son=And love you so."
mum

Dear Jon,
I brought you into this world 33 yrs. ago today. It is heartbreaking that 11 yrs. ago today, we laid you to rest.
I wish you were here to celebrate Jon.
I love you and miss you so much, it NEVER gets any easier.

Missing you so much Jonathan...
Thinking of you on your favorite holiday,
till we're together again
all my love

If I could glimpse the heavens, if I could have a view
Of all its glorious wonders, I would only search for you.
I would listen for your laughter, it was music to my ears
To gaze into your hazel eyes is what I've missed all these years.
If I was granted a look at the smile that’d melt my heart
I'd hold that gift within my heart, through the time we’ll be apart.
Everywhere my footsteps lead, I search for you for signs
Sometimes they come and then they're gone, was it only in my mind?
Has so much time actually passed, can it really be
It still seems as it was yesterday, that you were torn from me.
But I love you so much and miss you, more than I can say
And I would give just anything to hold you again one day.
I pray that you can hear my words and know my very thoughts
Wherever my lifes journey takes me, please know I've not forgot…
4/20/18
K.F.
I love & miss you so much Jonathan
Till we're together again..
Love,
mum

To Jon

I sit alone in such dark despair.
I cry my silent tears,
My heart is shattered into little pieces.
The silence ringing my ears.

The darkness sometimes makes me scared,
with shadows climbing walls.
I think I hear your footsteps,
coming down the hall.

And the loneliness engulfs me,
It takes my breath away,
This is the pattern of my life,
Since the day you went away.

I had no hint, I had no idea,
Of what was going to be,
You were gone so suddenly,
You were torn from me.

Till we're together again..


I love you & miss you so Jon,
mum

Wishing you were here Jonathan to celebrate your 30th birthday..till we are together again, I love you & miss you so
mum

with all my love till we're together again...

mum

I still search for you in crowds,
In empty fields in soaring clouds,
In city lights in passing cars,
On winding roads and wishing stars...

I love you and miss you so...

Happy Birthday Jonathan~ I miss you so much..seems like you left just yesterday, not 7 years ago-funny how time plays tricks on the mind...
till we're together again,
love eternally
mum

This is for my son Jon who was loved as much as anyone could ever be loved.

To my son

Life is so cruel and unfair when it tears the heart in two
And there's nothing in this world compared to the pain of losing you.
Of all the special gifts in life
be they great or small
To have had you as my son
was the greatest gift of all
Special times, your special face,
My special son, just cant be replaced
With my heart torn so deep, and my whisper low
I miss you son=And love you so.

I love you & miss you more every day that passes, if that's possible. There's such a huge void in my life , all our lives, without you and your sweet smile and twinkling hazel eyes. I look forward to the day we can be reunited and be together forevermore.
I know I'm late wishing you a happy birthday it's hard to when you're not here, I wish it any way.

Happy 26th Birthday Jonathan♥♥♥
I miss you so much and wish you were here to celebrate-you always found the joy in the most simplest things in life and the joy would bubble forth from you and radiate to all around you..
you are my sunshine forevermore
I love you