Jonathan Derek Breeden...
My Oldest Son, my best friend, my baby, my life, my heart! 
The day you where born you changed my whole life... I was just a girl with no cares or worries. You made me a mommy and I had no idea how I could love someone so much that I had never met before. You baby boy changed my life...You where born in the Squad you started your life in the fast lane. You wasnt waiting for the hospital. They took you as soon as we got there and i never got to see you til the next morning. 18yr old who knows nothing at all about babies...but knew when they took you I cried all night because I needed you with me. You gave me hope... when I held you for the first time...I thought Oh God how am I gonna keep this lil guy alive! I was so scared when I brought you home...when you where only 6days old you where sleeping thru the night. i jumped out of bed when i realized you hadnt woke up. You where just sleeping so good. You was such a good baby...everyone had always told me that. I remember telling mom one time...Mom he doesnt cry i want to hear him cry! Very seldom did you ever cry!
But like when I was 18 Im crying now and it never stops because they took you and I need you. This I dont know what to do...I dont know how its suppose to be. I cant handle this hurt anymore.