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Leave a tributeI wait, always looking for signs, until I finally get to see you again. Miss you with all of my heart. Love you always❤
Grief over the loss of a child is like no other pain. I feel my heart is exploding and shards of glass are ripping thru my body. It does not get easier, in some respects its harder as you realize the pain of missing them will be there for every day for the rest of your life.
Please dont tell me he is in a better place or that God has his reasons. Walk in my shoes first.
Today I relive the most horrible day of my life. Missing you down to my very soul. I would walk through the fires of hell for you, but I am sure you would tell me to pull up a chair, grab a beer and play some poker with you and grandpa, and ask if I remembered the Cuban cigars.
I wait for that day when I see your face and outstretched hand saying come on mom, let's go.
Love you my baby.
There is a huge hurricane headed for Florida today. I wish I was on the beach in the middle of the storm. It matches how I feel without you. Raw, intense and life threatening.
I miss you with all my heart and soul. There is no greater pain in life.
Please don't ever stop sending signs that you are here, I can not go on without them. I hope you, grandpa and Drew are together.
One day, I will close my eyes and you will be there. I will know then that it is time to go. I wait for that day. All my love, mom.
You both will be always in our hearts and thoughts for the rest of our time here. Sometimes the pain, is overwhelming, but as long as you continue to poke us, it makes it bearable and we are able to smile at what you might have said or done in a particular situation. So please stay close, and know that I love you no matter where you are and if I can see you or not.
As everyone rings in the New Year and looks forward to a better 2015, I know for me there is no more happy New Year. The weight of your loss is unbearable at times, unlike any pain I have ever felt. I miss you so much and long to hear that obnoxious laugh. :) Stay close so I know you are near, it is all that keeps me going at times. You are forever that sweet child of mine. Merry Christmas my baby, hope you and grandpa had a blast.
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Five years
Today was especially hard. I cant believe it's been 5 years. Not sure how I have survived, dont know if I can make 5 more. The pain is the same like you just left. I miss you with every ounce of my being. I feel myself aging at a rapid pace, every day is hard. You are always on my mind not a day goes by I dont miss you. I can only wait til that day when I can see you again. I hope you will be there to sneak me in. My love stretches thru time and space to find you. ❤
Happy Birthday
Today was one of the three happiest of my life. Now I dread its approach, saddened by the ache in my arms and my heart. Most days I muddle through, managing to mask to the outside world the pain inside. But on days like like today, the tears just come. Uncontrolable. I wish I could relive every second of your short 26 years again. I know you are still there, the signs are all that keep me going. I hope you know, wherever you are, how much I love you and that not a minute goes by that I don't miss you.
Today I gave you life, then it was taken from me.... I am forever changed from who I was before. Wherever you are, please be happy and know that someday I WILL find you. ❤️
Happy 28th Birthday
You know, I've said it before and I'll say it again... Some days are just harder than others. I mean, every single day I think of you and have little reminders at every corner that you are absent. But on days like today it sucks more.
This is only the second birthday we are celebrating without you, but at times it truly feels like an eternity. Trying so hard so far today to focus on all of the things about you that made me smile, which of course is making me cry. I look like I was punched in the face and it's only 9:30AM. I can just hear you making fun of me now... But I honestly can't put into words today how I am feeling. I can't even describe to you how much I long to hear your voice- even if it was just to hear you say something totally asinine. I look forward to those tiny little pokes that let me know that you're still there... They truly mean the world to me. Thank you for telling me you still love me. It's the only thing that makes this any easier.
I miss you. I love you. Today I will eat some bacon for you. And I will keep going because I know you'd want me to.... Happy Birthday Fatness. <3