whitey was fill of pain. many times we wept together.he felt it was him against the world. i knew it was coming because he left me a letter,but i was too late. he also left me a goodbye letter. stop blamjng meth. it was his solution. pain was his reality. he just didnt want to hurt any more. it was a well thought out plan. thedate,time,and place have signifigant meaning to the both of us. he was more than my boyfriend,he was my partner. we were doing it all alone. me and him. i spent everyday,all day, with him from the day we met until the end. he had specific request which i have carried out for him. i left a memorial for him at the spot as well as our doorway. he will never b e forgotten here in pdx. he touched many lives both good and bad. he went peacefully,knowing he was dearely loved and that he will never be forgotten again. i have a few words for some of you when i am ready. i am also grieving the loss of someone very special to me. HE WAS ALWAYS TELLING ME .............DONT QUESTION IT........................................JUST ACCEPT IT.................HE HAD A LOT OF GUILT AND REMORSE HE WAS LIVING WITH DAILY. he wept often...............i knew his heart.i will share more later. he is smiling down on us aLL NOW.......free at last................i love you whitey,my forever friend.you will live on through me......I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT YOU TAUHGT ME...............AND MAKE SURE YOUR WISHES ARE CARRIED OUT...............kiss ray,zack and nicole for me..........................forever yours                  JENNY