I miss you so bad. Even though you gave off big brother vibes, you were the best stepdad ever. You didn't play about me and my sisters. we used to love when you'd bring Rayshawn and them over and we'd have game night and watch anime and scary movies. I remember when you bought me this Ring set that came with a necklace and earrings and they had pink and white diamonds in them. I wish I still had that set because that was one of my favorite birthday gifts. Can't no one ever replace you on bro. It doesn't even seem like it's been 4yrs without you, but I guess it really has. I wish you and my mom would've gotten back together before you left us. If y'all got back together I feel like you'd still be here. I cry just thinking how goofy you were and how we sometimes argued because you used to play too much. I miss when you used to race in the car. Lol it's your fault that I love to drive fast now. I should've wrote to you a long time ago, but it just all seem too unreal for me. I have so much to say, but it'd be better if you were here so, I could tell you. I love and miss you a lot. I ain't claimin no one else as my stepdad because you my stepdad for life. I was so happy to here you were coming home, but I was hurt to here that we'll never be able to see you again. My mom was so happy with you and we never had to worry about you changing how we eat or when we could eat because we ate all of the time. Being in the house was fun because we always had something to do. You never made us suffer in no kind of way. Life was way better when you were here, now that you're gone, we've been going through the worst. I will always remember you. I wish I still had my old phone so that I could have our old pictures and videos. I remember when I was wearing this yellow plaid shirt and I had took a picture in the Livingroom and I said "eww I look like you in this picture" and you said " I told you you're my daughter" and we both just laughed. I really hate that you're not here. Mom talks about you almost all of the time. I really wish you were still here.

Joshua 4 years has gone by so fast. One thing is for sure, your always thought about. You are greatly missed. Continue to rest in Heavenly peace ♥️

Its hard to believe that a year has passed since Joshua left us. You may be gone. But you are Never Forgotten!!! I pray you have the Peace that you longed for. You will always be in my Heart. God Bless

Losing josh is hard to accept He was always full of life fun to be around all the kids loved him their faces would light up every time he came around in fact he was a big part of my house hold he lived in every house I ever lived in its going to be hard to not get anymore phone calls from him driving me crazy and me saying what do you want boy I remember my last words to him was to be safe out there and stay out of trouble

Man i been dancing around wondering what to say . You knew me better than i knew myself , never allowed me to go to bed angry, tho you was super petty you was the king of the castle nobody can ever replace you in our lives

The first time I saw your face you were laid in my arms by a nurse the world finally made sense. Big brown beautiful eyes looking up at me for security and comfort not knowing that you were doing the same for me. Now that I look in your eyes for the last time I pray the Lord gives you the same security and comfort that we both looked for one another to. God bless, I know you are in a better place. Love always and forever mom.

Jmac jmac jmac I cant believe u of all people, u had to leave us ssssooooo soon. just know Ray'Shawn is good and will forever be. Brittney got him so u don't have to worry. Please stay watching over my niece and nephew.

The memories and bond we share will never be forgotten. I will continue to be the best mother to our son Josh! Please watch over us