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His Life

Joshua

June 4, 2021
I met Josh when we were 16 years old. We worked at Generation Systems on Columbia St in Fall River where we were selling Kirby Vacuum cleaners. Quickly myself, James Hay and Josh became inseparable. What a crazy boss and place lol. James quickly became top salesman of the vacuums and Josh Quickly became top salesman of the weed lmao. He was selling to the employees and the boss I don't think he ever even sold 1 vacuum. Eventually me and James got together and got an apartment. Joshua couldn't keep himself out of trouble so he got locked up. I always worried about Joshua, being the girl in our little group, I always mothered James and Joshua. I wanted them to do good in life because I loved them. We all had the same fucked up upbringing in this hellhole of a city with addicts for parents. So we looked out for each other. Joshua had a court date after being in Dartmouth house of correction for 30 days. I was so worried about him in there josh was only 17 years old at the time but he looked like he was 13 years old. He was a little thing and I didn't know if he'd be ok in there. Josh had always been a troubled kid, he was thrown out of school and had special teachers that came to his house to ensure he got an education but he typically blew that off. The judge decided to that if Joshua wanted to get out he'd have to forfeit his bail money otherwise he'd do another 30 days. It was $400 which was posted by 3 different people myself and James, Josh's mom and James mom. Not everyone wanted to forfeit their share of the bail money. I remember this so clearly because it was the first time I really was worried for him but we really couldn't afford to forfeit ours AND throw in more money. Seeing the disappointment and sadness on his face knowing he would have to go back to jail hurt me. We gave all our money that day to get him out of there. After we posted bail we went to the corner store while waiting for them to release Josh and James bought a $1 scratch ticket. He actually won back the money we had just put up for bail. I knew that day that karma was real and that we made the right decision by using that money to help our friend. I had a talk with Josh after that and I let him know that I cared for him and wanted the best for him in life. James and I had just gotten our own apartment and Josh had been having problems at home. He talked about not getting along with his mom's boyfriend and how he wanted to get a real job and stop selling weed so he wouldn't end up back in jail. We told Josh he could live with us until he figured out a job and had money to get his own place. James worked at a car dealership so he was working from 9 a.m. to 8 p.m. so Josh and I spent alot of time together and it did cause jealousy issues for James. The guys at work would tease him about me spending so much time with another guy and at 17 years old I bet it really made him wonder. In the beginning they both had crushes on me and I chose James because Joshua was a wildcard and I knew that, I didn't want that street life and I wasn't sure Josh could straighten out. There was always that thought in James head after that and the teasing only made it worse. Nothing ever happened with Josh, it wasn't like that, even when Josh had a thing for me he never crossed that line and never made me feel uncomfortable, which was more than I could say for almost all of james' other friends. We just had a true blue friendship, we would hang out, blaze up and talk and we had alot in common. Josh would wake up early and go make his rounds walking or riding his bike all over the city selling bud. He started making it a point to come home right before 2 o'clock so we could smoke up and watch Passions lmao he would say " If you tell anyone I'm watching soap operas with you I'll deny it". I can remember it like it was yesterday, but it was so long ago. I miss you my friend and I will continue the stories of our friendship on here because 1. I love remembering these stories and 2. In case I forget or something happens to me I want Aidionna to know the truth. I want Aidionna to know you as much as she can, through my eyes, I want her to know you, Josh, they real you before addiction got it's grip on you and had you doing all the crazy things you had to do to feed it. I want her to know my friend with the big heart and the funny personality, the only one that always came around and cheered me up. I miss you and I will keep your memory alive.