HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL

Mom you are my best friend, not having you here is so hard to deal with. I need you, I don't understand why he chose you. I feel like I will never know why. I know you aren't in pain anymore and that's part of what keeps me going. I hated seeing you be so strong for us, but in all reality you just wanted to quit. I don't know how to go on without you. I talk to you every day. Can you really hear me? I even smell you at times, like the Perkins smell lol, the nursing home smell, your funky cigarette smell. I just wish you were still here. I NEED YOUR GUIDANCE, I NEED YOU TO PROTECT US.