Happy Birthday beloved in heaven.

Happy Birrhday love in heaven. You are missed and still loved. 
Always n forever Robert

My love in heaven. I has been 3 years to this date you left usalone. I pray you have looked done on us to watch what has become. I can't say more. I believe I have found peace since that day you left us. You are always in my heart. There is plenty of room I made. I know you walk among angels watching every we step we take. The paths we cross, the heartaches of continuing on. I will always have you in my heart till my last days here. 

Love Always n Forever Robert❤

My dear in heaven. A lot has happened since your departure and like I said previously I am at the breaking point. Loneliest times ate now. All by myself except for the cats. I find myself talking to them and they look at me strange. What are you saying. They hear noise from my mouth. Ryder n Kruz are with Michelle, but she seems to be falling down again . Please watch over all the kids in her care. Watch over all of us here that is left. For one day we will see you again. You are truly missed and loved . Always n forever Robert

My dearin heaven. I am atcthe point of giving up. As you see what is going on at home, my health etc.. Just feels like the foundation has no longer the strength to carry on. You are missed each and everyday. As you know now uncle Richard will be joining you. Watch over us closely. You are truly missed and loved to this very day. Love always and forever Robert

Happy Birthday my love in heaven. You are greatly missed and never forgotten. Love always and forever. Robert.

Well my dear. As you can see all,I did my best and still getting nowhere. Ryder was assaults me and he is 18 with no plan in sight. Kruz now also has no ambitions except that stupid xbox. He will return to Michelle's and she can except the responsibility of being a mother. I am moving forward and must spend time with my own kids. I failed them before and will not now. Ever since the mid nineties I always ended watching over others and not my own. Plus I cannot go on with someone with no motivation except being lazy and wanting to be led by the hand. They just want without giving back. It s stops now. I will not wear myself out and getting stressed over this. So I leave this one note that maybe you can get through to them and make them realize what their actions are doing to themselves. Love always n forever. ROBERT.

Its 2021 and I still struggle with the thought you are gone. I have tried and still trying to no avail. I am so lost and ready to give up. I pray for an answer and still nothing. I just want to move forward and go on living the moments that lie ahead. I will continue to have faith in fate, I know that you want me to be happy in my endeavors. I will keep praying looking for a sign that things will be better. You are still greatly missed and always loved. Robert.

Well my dear. As you can see Christmas is not what it seems this year. Covid had claimed that. So watch over us this holiday and guide the right way. You are missed dearly. Even though I have moved forward. I am at peace and happy. Love always and forever. Robert

Well my dearly beloved. Today has been 2 years that you passed away in my arms as I took your last breath away. Watch over us and shine a light along the road you've taken so that we may follow. You are truly missed by family and friends. You remain in our hearts forever. Always Robert.

Wee my dear soon it will be two years. It is time that I carey on forwards. I will never forget you. You were a big part of my life. Although I miss you everyday, I must go on. I will never remove you from my heart. But I know there is room to love again. One day we will meet and you will tell my what I am doing is the right thing. I will always loves you no matter my consequences are. You are in my heart till I depart. Always n forever Robert.

Well my love, if you have been watching you know what has been happening. Some are beyond my control. Everyday I think of you. My heart still strongly belongs to you. Even though it has been almost 2 yrs. My heart still belongs to you. I can't even move on with my life. Your spirit is so strong within. I think you are trying to communicate because Boogers surely meows a lot. Sits more at my feet, lays at the door of the bedroom. Besides all that myself and Kruz are ok. We are there for each other. I wish Ryder wasn't so silly in his ways. But a lesson he has to learn. But God I pray to will show him the way and I pray it is soon. Michelle is doing well, the kids are great. Ruby is sure looking like you so much. Time to say good bye for now. I will be back to say more. I love you forever and always will.

Well Love: I am slowly moving on. One thing I will never do is forget to say a couple words to you here. I wish I could hold and hear your voice one las time. As you well know I had to let Ryder go. He has become out of control and figures I owe him. Cameras and guitars missing is only him to help him support that junk Davvid and Michelle, Pedrina showed him. Well tough love is going to him. He has to learn. Other than that Love, walk that road ahead of us. Let us know we can see you again. I miss you so much. Everyday your in my thoughts. Most of us still can't believe how fast you went after you told us how long you had left. Take all of our hands and guide us to you. So we can be together again. Love always n forever Robert

Well my dear. I try n try with some success. Maybe there is a glimmer of hope. I hope one day I will see you again waiting for me to come home. I miss you very much. It drains me almost on a daily basis. I know that you are guiding daily. I love you with all my heart. Love always and forever. Robert J M

Well my dear. I know you are walking amongst us. Please wat h over us all. Saw Michelle this weekend. Saw the monsters as well. All are so hyper. We miss you and still love you in our hearts and memories are still strong. I will never forget no matter what transpires in my life. Love always n forever. Robert

Happy Birthday Love. You are always in my heart. You will never be forgotten not as long as I have breath in me. Lord watch over her please. Things are going the best that I can do. Love you always and forever.

Well love, as you can see this world is being punished for non obedience to our Lord. I have both Ryder and Kruz at home and doing everything to protect them. Everyday I think of you. Some moments more than others. You are greatly missed in this time in our lives. Comfort and beauty, words and a loving heart. I don't care what was your past but our future we were making. We stood together through thick and thin. As you look down upon us guide us through these difficult times. I am holding on to the strength we had. I will never let that go no matter what. So love I leave this with you. We love you and miss you dearly. Love Always Robert, Ryder and Kruz.

Love, I cannot put into words any more than what I have. In my heart you always remain no matter what is the next chapter in my life. I have tried and failed. I can not let go of you so easily. Memories are mine and I do not want them to fade. My heart still feels the pain. Today is a day that has been reflected on flashbacks. So many thing have came about that triggered many thoughts how things were. I will always love you no matter what is next. My heart has so much room in it for you and always will. Ok love I will let you go. Watch over us my angel and please make Ryder realize the wrongs he is doing.. watch over all your grandchildren. I will oversee as much as I can. One day also I can see Owen. That is one hope I have to make sure I can show him my love as well. Walk amongst us, in my heart you remain. Always and forever, love Robert.

Oh my love, i know you are gone but in my heart and memories you remain. I was asked Sunday at church how you passed away, remember Sandi and Bill. She asked and I had to relive that day all over again. I thought through time it would get easier but it doesn't. I know it has been awhile since i left you a bit to read. Sometimes I don't know who I am kidding. I know you are gone but the last couple days have been trying. I get over the days but realize more how true to the fact I have no one close by to talk to anymore. family and friends are good listeners but you of all people understood me the best. I am trying to put forward a new aspect in life but find myself taking steps backwards. You truly meant the world to me and always will. I know you see from heaven what has been going on with Ryder as well. I lost all hope in him. I pray for him to change but no effect. So i will keep on praying for him as well as others in the family. By the way auntie Gladys and i went to bingo and it felt weird in there. We will go again. Oh I do miss you so much and my love for you is binding and yours forever. till the next time love, I love you always and forever.

I miss you each and everyday. My love for you is yours forever. I always have loved you. I do not have much to say except I am doing my best. You will always be in my heart and my memories until it is my time to leaves this world. Love always and forever, Robert

My love, 2019 was a trying year for us. we faced it with difficulties but overcame the obstacles put in front of us. 2020 shall bring better times as we begin new. Oh how I missed you dearly. Everyday almost my eyes would tear up. I know where you are there is no more pain but everlasting enlightenment. One day we all shall be joining you but not before our lives here make a purpose. I look at the heavens when I am out at night, knowing you are looking down on us. watching our every move. right now we walk the road alone dear o that we can be together again. Happy New Years love, love you forever more. Robert Jan-Michael

Well my love, yesterday was hard to deal with. If Justin wasn't there i would have completely broke down. It has been a year to the date yesterday but it has been a challenging one. As you have seen from above wondering how i managed. That answer you know. Watch over closely over your grandchildren because their paths are unwinding. Watch over your kids also. There still is doubt from myself on them, that is because of their proven paths. I have little faith on that matter. Prove me wrong and I may have their backs. Just watch over them and show them signs of doing the right things not wrong or trying to take shortcuts. Walk close to us, i know you do because I can feel your presence every now and then. Don't think that is wishful thinking on my part because i miss you dearly, it is the fact I know you are near. My love this is my third Christmas without you and I feel so alone. The boys will be with their mom on that day and I am alone. I did see Auntie Gladys yesterday and she was encouraging. I miss seeing here every now and then. But i have always liked visiting her. Ok love my day is beginning here and i must get motivated even though i am in a lot of pain. So sweetie till the next time, all my love sent to heaven. forever yours.

My Love, soon it will be one year when you left us to go home. I pray you are walking amongst the angels.It is so hard to continue on, but I seem to do so even losing myself in the moment to feel something missing. It isn't right but you left us here and myself empty. Feeling the burden of loss. I hope one day I will get to see you amongst the rest of the loved here left behind. You were a great part of my life and I will always love you till the end of my days and beyond. Love Always and forever Robert

Oh my love, It has been awhile, I have been busy trying to establish a home for us, work things out all the while working in pain. Pain in the body and pain in the heart. I try so hard but my mind comes back to you. Even a social life is not what i want. I wish you were here my love. I miss you so much. My life is empty without you. As you have been watching i have to convince myself that it will be ok. It has not been, there has been issues with some family members that i will not say but you have been watching. I pray every day that you are walking beside our lord Jesus. Honey you were a big part of my life and always wiil remain in my heart. I love you so much no matter what i try it is not what I want. Until my next message to you love, we here love and miss you dearly. Love Robert, Ryder, and Kruz.

I wish that life handed roses instead of thorns. But the good Lord said that it was time for you to walk on rose petals. Life is not the same. I struggle emotions since you had been taken. Financially I am ok still struggle but it's ok. It is Ryder that figures he could do what he wants and laughs about it. Well he is in for a Reality check. Life will not be easy if he continues listening to nonsense.. Kruz is special. He tries. Al least he will be the good one. Now Michelle that's a lost cause. I will not help her as long as she is with the idiot. I just don't know that drama. David is another one that cannot tell. He says but who knows if he does type of thing. Oh well Pedrina is back on course and pray she does but slips back. Matthew is somewhere god knows. Anthony is lost to me. He is on his own and has not a care in the world. Carol does her own thing and is hard to follow.. oh well but that is my story to tell you now. Majesta and Justin have reconnected and that is also the focus of my life.  I miss you a lot and know you are watching. I want to find love again but I find myself tangled in a web of three. One doesn't count and that is just fun which is right. So I have my sight and heart towards one. I don't want to play the field but maybe it is the right thing to do. See which one captures my heart truly. Well time will tell. Okay my love I will sign off here. Just watch over us closely. I still have my heart that needs jesus to guide me. Until next time love, you walk with the Lord and say hi to all in heaven. Love always and forever Robert.

Well love, all has just about fallen apart. So far trying to keep what is left together. One day at a time. There isn't a day that goes by when I remember all the memories and thinking of you everyday. Your smile and laughter. Your joking around. Your heart that was mine. I miss everything about you. I will never forget anything about you. You are in my heart forever and will remain there till my time has come. Love always Robert

My love, though you are not here in body but your spirit still lives within me. As you can see I am struggling with many things. Sometimes I wish we had more time together. We shared lots, hard times ,trying times and many good times.  It it was your time to go and make way for all of us to follow. Just wait for us as we, one day will be together again. I miss you laughter,sweet smile and your jokes. My love I want to move on but try in the wrong way. I have in my heart a place that belongs to you only. But people are saying to move on, be happy. Many are trying but I only have a place for another. She reminds me of you in some ways but unique in others. I am in no rush. The only thing I want is our family to be under one roof. Ryder and Kruz. I hope that I can get a place soon. I pray that I will. Well soon the crew will be here and work will start. Watch over us my love. Love and miss you, love Robert.

To my love, today I start looking at life differently. I really started a couple weeks ago. But it moves forward from this day on. I want in reality to find someone like you but unique in their own ways, I guess similarities to an extent. I feel lonely and I don't want to stay this way. I may or may not be ready but time will and feelings will be tested true. I will always love you forever more until we meet again. I know you see the struggles but I put my faith in our lord to lead me through. I also pray that all members of the family would find faith. The test is today. You will be watching love as you have been before you going to heaven. Till the next time my sweetness I love you still, you will remain in my heart forever. love Robert

Oh my love, the pain is still there just as the day you left us. I love you so much and always will. Don't have much to say except feeling a bit under the weather. But you know me I will overcome and continue on. So my love I will leave this note. My heart will always belong to you.   Love Robert xoxoxoxo.............

Well love, been six months already. Slowly moving on. I have my moments but overcome in moments. Its usually a site or sound that brings it on. Grieving has no limit on time. It is when God has a plan to make changes for you. Well went to church today hoping catch Michelle there, but she was never a person that kept her words true. Last weekend had some uninvited guests and unexpected. Davey and Dyronne showed up here, what a mess. Apparantly David has them at Sioux Valley. But Davey stole the two matching M rings you bought for us. So maybe they will be better there, who knows. By the way love we got a new vehicle without bs. That little fiesta is now good at all. I remember you stating you disliked it and I totally do. Kruz is doing good in school and will be in Grade 10. Ryder is unreachable. The people where he is at dont answer phones. Something fishy is going on. Now that CFS is involved who knows what is next. I talk to someone tomorrow. Every now and then I visit Auntie Gladys which helps me not to think to hard about you being gone. You know Alex passed away and maybe you will see him. But in the mean time say to our parents we all will be together one day. I love and miss you greatly. Always and forever. Robert xoxo

My dear Love, yesterday and today tried having a yard sale with very little success. It was a cold long weekend. Honey you left me with so much to do and I feel so overwhelmed it's so frustrating I really want to give up. You know I am not one to do so but it is your memory that I continue to make sure your story is share and my thoughts. Some day Love I want to just sit down, hear your voice and feel your touch. But deep down it will not happen, but I must stop and look to the heavens and believe that I will see you again. We may not know it but the feeling will be sensed. Joyce, I love you dearly and truly miss you. I try to move forward but I am failing at it immensely. So I will do my best to continue on. I have to make sure also the Kruz and Ryder also start a good life. But as you watch from the heavens above you know that is not the way it has been going. For now Ryder at least communicates, Kruz I have to push slowly. David and Michelle are on their own and not very open about much. Anyways Love watch our footsteps and give us signs to stay on the right path I will always have you in my heart and will continuously look up to the Heavens.

Well love tomorrow is Mother's Day and also what would have been your 59th birthday. I am saying Happy Birthday Love and also Happy Mother's day from all of us. We love you and miss you dearly. I will never forget the love we shared, good or bad I was there for you when you needed me.
                 love Robert, Ryder, and Kruz, Michelle and Kids, David and kids, Carol dawn and kids. Many family members.

Everyday my angel is getting harder and harder to deal with. I feel so lost but yet manage one day at a time. Soon work will start up and can finally get back on track. I have struggle so much and yet manage to help Michelle with things. I have been the morale support for all except myself. David has some change but not enough in your books. But is coming around. As for Michelle no change still with Elton and so controlling. I give up on her. Ryder doesn't seem to care about nothing but smoking weed and still drinking. he has gone beyond my reach. Kruz is now more and more slipping away. I have to get on top of him constantly. I guess my hands are full. I signed up for heartaches and downfalls I take it. But with help of prayer and hope, I will not give up on all of them till I am ready. So one day at a time is all I can do, it is my best but it will get better with time. When you left us our world became a turmoil so i am doing what I can to prevent more. So my love you watch over us closely and take note and let me know some how to make it better. I will always love you no matter what happens for me. I truly loved you and you thought I never did. So my angel I leave on this note, one day we will be together.

Well my love at least for now I was able to save what really matters. You. My love I feel so lost without you. But I know I have to move forwards. You will always remain in my heart no matter what changes for me. That will never be taken away. Until my end of days here I will always look for signs from you.

Today is Ariel's, Vicki's and Kim's birthday. I wished them all happy birthday greetings. I only wish you were here to do it. You always were on top of this. You spent a lot of time on facebook. Today also Kruz would not wake up. Like he ignored me calling his name and try shaking him up. Well my foot has come down. No more wifi after a certain time anymore. Also he was doing homework on a Sunday night at ten pm. I gave as much slack as I could, no more. He has to learn not be a stickler in his ways and think of games and swearing. So one way or another I look up to heaven for answer I know that I may hear from your voice but a sign that you can give me. it is so hard, life never gives us a lesson in grief, we learn as the time comes upon us. I have been strong so far but in silent a million tears have fallen from my eyes. I keep it to myself because they are for you. I never thought you would go as you did, not in a million years. For me to walk this road alone until my time has come. I will carry this torch in my heart for you always and forever.

Oh honey , today I just upset with Kruz not waking up and took away his controllers for his game system. After telling at midnight to go to bed he stays up and still continues to play. Well no more, he has school and it is important. I managed to get him back in this semester instead of the fall time. He does well but this internet has him messing up and staying up late. So until he can wake up without me having to push him to get up this decision stays. I already failed at one, now CFS is investigating, Michelle I don't trust. Her and Ryder both can lie. I almost want to surrender everything to her and wipe my hands clean. But it is not me, really feel broken as it is. Now this plus all the worries that are piling up. I feel such a load and don't want to carry on. Sometimes I feel that I want to make myself known to god and slowly fall apart at the seams. But no way I say, I have to stand strong and continue this fight in life. For I know that is what you would want me to do. I look up for a sign and I did get one. That was Justin calling me. I knew that it was God that made it happen and you watching. There are some battles love I feel I cannot fight alone. So I will do my best what is right to continue. Thank you for listening. Love you forever more.

My love, I have no words to tell you how it feels. As you can see from above not all is well. I try to move on and carry forth with life. Its so hard to do. Some days I feel like giving up and just slip away. You know as well as I do I am not ready. Feels like I still have a purpose here to make sure our kids and grandkids chose the right path.  I pray for all everyday but I forget about myself. I know you said to me that if you went and I walked the road alone to make sure I was happy. I don't know if I can. I will try but no promises. All I hope for is to see you once again and to live forever more with each other side by side. I will always love you no matter what this path has been set for me. One thing I know for sure, my love will never fade in my heart. Until my last breath here I will have that special place in my heart for you no matter what lies ahead.

Today my love I woke up with a new sense of being. A purpose has come over me to carry forward with you in my heart as always as I have. But someone did say to me that life goes on and that you will want me to be happy. I don't know if I could. Even in time my torch has been lit by you and I will always will carry it. Looking down you will want me to carry forward and be happy in my days here in this life. Because I know no matter what I hope I can see you waiting for me at heaven's gates. My pain runs deep and I keep it inside me letting all that ask if I am alright. You know what that answer will be but deep down you know what really is going on in my heart. I made myself a promise that I will see you once again only to be with you forever. I love you and miss you so much. I try to be strong on the outside shadowing what is truly on the inside. So I shed my tears in secret with no one to see. I have to be strong for all that is here now. So my love you will know our faith here and I pray that we all can be with you one day forever more.

Oh my sweet love, I feel myself draining slowly. I try to keep going. No matter what I try is failing. So I turn tour lord for help. I know that just asking will not work, I have to have faith in him. I feel like there is no hope. I was doing fine until these last two weeks. Every day I think of what was and what could have been. I will try to move on, but I cant. Sometimes I just want to give up. You know that I wont, its the feeling of emptiness and loneliness that now has truly hit me. I know that god is by my side and that you are watching my every move. My heart truly aches.

I woke up today reflecting of what was and what was to become. All that is now a memory that I will take in my heart everyday. yes the good lord took you away from me and from family. I try to be there for all but I myself am not well and feel myself slowly slipping. But I pray that one day I can hold your hand and walk through the glorious gardens in heaven. This is what buoys me on to seeing your beautiful face and hear your voice. I know you are watching carefully over all of us. My sweet love continue doing so that we all can see you once again but this time I want it to be forever. I continue to struggle with the loss, but I know deep down that you want me and everyone else to follow what you have started. The second journey in life everlasting. So I do my best , I may fall a couple times before I truly get it right. I made a promise to you in silence that I will do what is right. For one day I will be besides you. This is so hard to type through tears, sometimes I think of them as joy and others of the pain I feel in my heart because you are gone. Like the poem I had read for you, Should you go first and I remain to walk the road alone, so be it. I feel the emptiness in my heart. But in all honey, you are not suffering from health issues or pain in the heart to what has happened in life. you are in a better place and you are greatly rewarded. Walk beside our lord and guide us so that we can join you in peace and harmony. I will always love you. R.I.P. my love.

Mommy i cry into your nightgown everyday...i miss u soooo much...my little bird

I will always Love you

I will always love you. Everyday I try to stay strong but I find more and more I am failing at it. When Kruz is in school the place is empty just like my heart. I try to find the strength but I am failing at it now. I was in the beginning to satay strong but lately find it very difficult to stay focused. So I remember a lot that were good in us together. Pull those two together to carry on.

This my love will always be our song. In our own way I was your body guard. At some point in time I did fail you and cannot forgive myself for it. You will always be the love of my life. Like your kids would say " Dances with Wolves". I will always love you forever more. Sometimes I have that feeling I never did enough. There are days sweetie I have a hard time coping with you being gone. I truly miss your wise cracking jokes and your beautiful eyes, your sweet smile. They are in embedded in my heart deeply and your memory lives on in me. I ask that you watch over all of us. Let us know one way or another if we go off the forbidden track. Guide us my love so that we may join you forever more. I love you so much and miss you evenly. Walk with God and so shall we here on earth.

There isn't a day that goes by that I shed tears. I miss you so much. I am slowly slipping into a dark place which I do not want to go. So your memory is what buoys me on with hope. Gathering hope that one day we will be together forever. I am trying to be happy but it is not the same. I find some strength bby going to church. But it will take more than that. I will put my faith in god that I will see you again. Rest in Peace my love. I will be coming home to you one day. As we all will. I had to give Michelle a loud talking to. She has fallen into that dark place. I ask God to help her in her journey as well.

i miss u soo much...even your little grandbabies....the pain started when yours ended

To the angel in my life. Watch over us my love. I am trying my best to cope and deep down in my heart you remain my one true love. You are truly missed by all that you have touched along the way. I pray I can do the same. You may be gone to the great house in the sky but here you remain in our hearts. I try to be strong but I know one day it will catch up, so I remain vigil and keep my posture as the pillar for those you have left behind. We love you always and forever more. Love always and forever Robert Jan Michael Myskiw