I always adore butterflies, I feel no one will harm them, they are free spirit, In February 2020 while attending a birthday party l saw a butterfly just in front of me flying around my Son and landed on his shoulder, in some countries they believe that black Butterfly is a symbol of death, I didn't see it as a warning as I believe that there's powerful, God that holds the future, but this incident crosses my mind over & over again, 11 months later, my son died January 19, 2021, but earlier than that his wife had a miscarriage, September 24, 2020 her name is SCARLET HEART she is 11 months today, Father & daughter together for 7 months (I didn't see those coming)

40th remarkable day since the unimaginable, unforgettable end of you, as we both trusted your Oncologist, on 14th January 2021 your last operation your wife Gaye sent me your video, you waved saying " Hi! Mama I love you" then Gaye said "tell Mama you're ok" You said you're ok with a thumbs up, I was so happy that day. On the 18th January your elder sister & elder brother told me we need to rush the hospital as one of the doctors informed you that there's no hope we're all crying, but your Oncologist came, he said "Why all of you cry? I haven't said anything, the effect of the chemo takes 15 days" I believe in him that there's still miracle, but had false hope as you died the following day, January 19, it's like my life ended while talking to your elder sister Joni over FB messenger informing me about your death that was just 5 days after your last operation, very sad that I haven't seen you in 24 days since Christmas 2020, because senior wasn't allowed to be in the hospital, my life would never be the same again without you, wouldn't be the life l wanna be, but you are good with your incredible joyful memories with us & within our hearts the pain we're experiencing would be lessened we love you beyond forever RIP with God's Love ♥️

I Love You Both Forever ... Our lives would never be the same  with out you. We both sacrificed to be away from each other for many years, but I'm happy because you're with someone that you love very much strong & alive, finally you married Gaye & that's the most exciting part of your life in March 2015, l came back to see you (Family) & for the 1st time your beautiful wife in April 2017 the day I landed back home, it's all fresh in my mind, but now you were gone sad that I just had a very short time with you both, the pain in my heart is immeasurable, like incomprehensible agony, I believe all of us you left behind having a hard time, especially the love of your life “Gaye”, l hope this would subside, what is letting go or move on? Is the pain would really go away, is that really existing? Oh help me God & All. Please forgive us feeling like this, please give us time. Please continue to keep JR Loison & his daughter Scarlet Heart in your loving care.