Dear son, I ache for you today! I haven't been able to get myself together again since I had such a horrible Holiday Season ! I can't seem to sit still or focus on anything but you and Makayden! My heart is forever broken ! I ask God daily to take me from this evil world and let me come be with you and your Aunt May May! I miss you so very much! I still don't understand why it had to be you, that that drunk man had to hit in his vehicle! I guess I never will in this lifetime! I pray that God will explain His reasons for taking you when I get there. If I make it there! I am truly not doing very well at all! I love you Justin! Please come to me in my dreams! I haven't heard from you in a long time! I need to know that you are there for me and that you miss me as much as I miss you! Give your daughter Makayden a hug for me!
   I can't wait to get to heaven and see you again and spend eternity with you!
     Love and hugs,
             Mom

There is a new song out called, (Take This Pain). It is my new favorite song! I hope you can here me singing it out loud when I play it for you. I hope you like it. It is what I wish God would do for me!

Hello,

I live near Linden and Middleton intersection and everyday I am graced with a beautiful memorial of Justin. I may not have known him or his family but everyday I stare with awe at the dedication and love that is poured into his memorial. I love seeing each new wreath placed for the next season, and I've wanted to handwrite a letter but when I want to do it, I noticed the wreath was changed and I have no idea when it will be changed again. I am thankful to have found this site and it is another way to contact his family.

I can see how much you love him, and the dedication to make each of those wreaths makes my heart warm. Whether that be one wreath made 10 years ago and reused each season or if a new one is made every year, it still shows how much you miss him and love him still.

I give my utmost condolences to you and your family for such a loss... I too have a son, while only still young, I could never imagine what life would be like without him. I could only guess at how much pain you must feel with each holiday or birthday that Justin is not physically here. I do hope at least you feel his presence in spirit and relish in that feeling. Hold his memories tight and always laugh at the good times you shared even if there weren't many, they all matter equally. Remember his brilliance both for smarts and curiosity. His bright eyes and smile that light up a room, and the way his laugh made you laugh, but even harder.

I sincerely wish you all the best and do note that if not everyone enjoys seeing memorials, know that I very much enjoy watching his memorial change seasonly. It brings me comfort to know that even if he's been gone since 2008 your love and care will never cease, caring for that memorial is just as much as taking care of his physical presence. I see the love and joy he must have brought to everyone around him.

Have a good new year and enjoy each holiday with a remembrance thought of your beautiful son, nephew, brother, cousin Justin Ryan Hildreth.

All the best,
Zaria

HAPPY 36th BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!! Wishing you a joyous one with all your other angels, with you!! Send your Mom signs-she needs them!! You are deeply missed and wholeheartedly loved by your family, friends and this FB friend, too!!! Send signs-to your daughter-to call your Mom, NOW!!! Watch over all!! You can!   ; ). ^i^.
Have a wonderful heavenly birthday!!
Friends, Khande. ((Hugs))

Dear Justin, It is late here and I am emotionally drained. A few more days and it will be your 36th Birthday. Happy Birthday Son! Years have passed since you were a mere 21 years old and I have grown old and tired. Physically and emotionally drained from a life without my precious son. Why does it still make me cry when I think of you and all you have missed since you left this earth? I ache just thinking about all the changes in this life that I have seen and felt since you left. Jeremy has 2 daughters now, Emma and Hannah! He and Macaela his wife and the two girls live in Boise and I see them every week. The girls really are beautiful and would just love having you around to tease them and play with them. Emma is the best little Hide and Seek game player! Hannah is very strong willed and I can just see her little mind conjuring up what she is going to do next. Emma is very good to her little sister even when Hannah gets into her toys and activities. She is very patient with her. I enjoy going over and watching them 2 days a week but the drive is brutal. I am sure you have read my thoughts as I sit on Eagle Rd. waiting for the stop light so that I may enter the freeway and head home. I wish I could fly! I hate the rush hour traffic! I spend most of my time in the mornings and afternoon just waiting in traffic going back and forth to Jeremy's house. I tire easily and have many aches and pains. I am getting and feeling old. I will be 60 in June. Wow, I don't know how I have made it 15 years without you here with me. I have missed out of your whole adult life. I wish it would all go back in time and it was 2007 again and we could do it all over again. Then I could apologize to you for not being the greatest mom in the world. I tried my hardest to nurture you when you were young but I missed a whole lot of your youthful years being a single mom and working two jobs usually to support our little family of you and your two brothers. It wasn't always easy for me. Now as I sit here and wonder what life would have been like if you were still here, I feel I was cheated from the life I wanted for all of us! So many obstacles and misfortune. Can you ever forgive me? I pray to God each day asking Him to forgive my sins and for you to know that you were loved dearly by me. I ask Him to let you know that I did my utmost to make a good life for all of you! I'm sorry if I failed you! Forgive me son! I have tried to reach out to Makayden and see if she would like to meet with me but so far I have not had much luck. I keep praying that she will seek our family out as she gets older and come back to us. I sure do love and miss that little girl! It hurts me more and more each day to not be able to see her knowing that I am getting older and will someday die. I pray God brings her back to us before I die! I have so much I want to say to you and to her about you. I want her to know just how much she was loved by us. Life has taken it's tole on me and I am tired Justin. Forgive me for being weak and breaking down so badly when you passed that I fell apart emotionally and physically. I never knew losing you would take all I had inside me and leave me empty and so unhappy. I miss you son and I wish I could hold you and have you close to my side so I could look in your eyes and tell you just how much I love you and always will! Nothing can take this pain from me no matter how I have tried to let it go. Living without you is like living in constant pain and anguish! I don't know how to get back every part of me that died the day you did. So I didn't mean to write to you this way and tell you how emotionally traumatized I have been, but somehow it just all came out. Sorry about that son. I wish I would have died instead of you or with you so that I didn't feel so horrible inside all the time. I have changed and I don't know how to get me back. I pray that you are living it up, up there in Heaven and that God has shown you great love and joy. I hope that you have a very nice birthday in Heaven! I will be making you some birthday graphics to post on Facebook for everyone to see and know how truly proud I am to have you as my son. I wish I could hug you right now and give you a kiss. I wish you could hug me and let me know that you are ok. I miss your handsome smile Justin and the love that we shared! Have a Happy Birthday son and know that we are celebrating your day with you down here even if we can't see and touch you like we would like to do! I love you Justin!
                      All my love, now and forever,
                                     Mom   

Justin, another holiday season has come and gone and I missed you terribly ! I want you to know that I think about you every day and night. My heart still cries out for you and I hope you know how deeply I love ❤️ you! I got pictures of Makayden this year and she looks just like you. I know where she goes to school at now and plan to go watch her play softball this summer. I really want to see her and get to know her again. life is so painful without the two of you in it. But I know I will see you in Heaven one day soon. So I hope you had a Merry Christmas in Heaven and a Happy New Year too! ✨️ mine was good with all the other grandchildren here to keep me company but it just feels so empty without you with me. Holidays will never be the same ever again ! I'm really trying to keep it together because I know that is what you want of me. I do it for you son. God has me in His arms and I pray that God is blessing you and Makayden and keeping her from harm. For that I am very grateful! Thank you for the support this past year and I hope you carry me in your heart wherever you are. ♥️ I love you Son!
   Teach me to be strong and caring and courageous enough to meet all my challenges this year. I need your love and comfort to make it in this world.
    All my love forever and always ! 
Love, Mom
    XOXO Hugs and kisses!!!
       

You are missed Justin. I will never forget you and your positive, fun-loving spirit. I will forever cherish our time together. Please shine down on your mother. You were right, she is an incredible Mama and I am so blessed to have gotten to know her. You will never be forgotten ❤

Dear Justin my precious son! 14 years ago you were taken from my world. I have never been the same since that day . I miss everything about you! I miss your hugs and your kisses! I miss our talks. I still haven't been able to contact Makayden. She will be 16 years old in November. I pray that she will seek me out now that she will be able to drive. Lead her to me! I miss her so very much ❤️! Please watch over her and keep her in your loving arms! I will forever keep you in my thoughts, heart and prayers ❤️!
  I love you Justin and I hope you know that I will always keep your memory alive! Hugs Justin! ❤️!!! Forever your loving and heartbreaking  Mom
XOXO XOXO XOXO XOXO XOXO !!!

Happy Angelversary Justin. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. You will be forever missed. Fly high sweet Justin ❤️❤️

Thinking of you Justin, your family and your heartbroken mother on the day of your Angelversary xx

Hi Justin!! Happy Day to you!!
Reading your Mom's tributes, face book posts and all, helps me to know you. You definitely are loved!! Send signs, to your Mom~she'll love em!! Keep having fun, in heaven. Have Makayden get in touch with your folks!! They really miss her, too!! ((Hugs)) from this friend, also. Peace ^¡^

Happy Heavenly birthday Justin xx 2022

Dear Justin, here we are again, another year passes and now you are 35 years old. Happy Birthday Son!!! I hope you have a wonderful day! I love ❤️ you so much son and I ache all over from missing you Justin ❤️!
    Shine down on me as we launch your balloons this evening! I will be thinking of you and lighting candles in honor of your day! Bless you son! Watch over Makayden and give her hugs from grandma and grandpa!
Love mom
XOXO

Happy Heavenly Birthday Justin!!! Have fun there!!
Send signs, to your Mom and Makayden!!
You are SO missed!!
((Hugs)) from Khande, a FB friend

Happy 2022 in heaven, Justin!!
Keep a close eye on your Mom, Makayden and all. You are loved and missed very much and by us FB Friends, too!! Hugs~sweet Angel ^¡^

Dear Son,
  Happy New Year! The holidays have now passed and my heart can now beat again and my mind can somewhat come back to reality again. I mean I always know you are gone but I like to think that you are holding me tighter through the holidays because you know I am more fragile at those times. During the rest of the year I can go through the motions and work through and deal with your loss aside from your Angelversary and that day brings with it many horrible memories and much  pain and grief . Anyway, I feel I did pretty good this year and managed to enjoy Christmas day with the grandchildren. The only problem was that Makayden was not with us to celebrate and spend time with. :( I still put up the little Christmas tree that she and I put up together on our last Christmas together and placed it on the corner table in the living room for all to see. Emma really enjoyed seeing and playing with it. Makayden would just love her little cousin Emma! This past year was full of ups and downs for me but I am learning to deal with your loss a little better. The loss of missing you Justin will never go away . I still miss you every day! I wish you were here to help me go through this chapter of my life. It is a tough one.
   I cleaned and reorganized your private window where your Urn and special memorabilia are and placed a red liner under everything so it would be nice and clean for you for Christmas! I hope you like it.
  Jeremy and Macaela are having another baby, "Hannah" in February, I think I already shared that with you but I am not sure. I am excited and nervous about how Emma is going to take the new little one after being the only child for 3 years. She loves little babies so hopefully she will love her little sister and not be jealous. I hope we are all able to continue to give her our undivided attention as we did before Hannah arrived. She is such a sweet and loving precious little girl!
   So Makayden is 15 years old now, I feel like she has been 15 forever. I keep waiting for her to turn 16 and get her license to drive so that hopefully I may get the chance to run into her somewhere sometime and get to see her. That would be such a truly blessed gift from God. In 3 years she will be of age and Autumn cannot keep her from us any longer. Oh how I pray for that day to come swiftly! I love our little Sissy Makayden and I have waited and worried about her for so very long. I just pray that she remembers her daddy's family and her grandma and grandpa Drake and finds her way home to us!!!
   So my New Years resolution is to be the best wife, mother and grandmother I can be and to have a closer walk with God! That's it!
   I love you Justin Ryan! I pray you will watch over your family and especially your daughter Makayden as this New Year begins ❤! God bless you son! Hugs and kisses !
    All my love, mom
              XOXO XOXO

Happy heavenly birthday sweet Justin xx

Happy Heavenly Birthday Justin. I pray you have met my boys Carl & Martel and you all our dancing with the angels on your birthday. Please keep watching over your beautiful Mother. Love you Michelle big hugs beautiful

Dear Justin, I can hardly believe you are 34 years old now. I miss and love you so very much ! I will never know why it had to be you that day that God took and not me. !!! I love you Justin! Happy 34th Birthday in Heaven son! Hugs ❤ !!!

Justin I hope you have met Jamal ,I like to believe you 2 have brought your mom and I together. Please watch over her and protect until you are united once again. Happy Birthday !!

Dear son, I have had an emotional week full of tears and emotions. But you know that. So now your 32 years old. It is so hard for me to believe that you are really 32. My precious son. Forever 21. I hope you are watching over Makayden and making sure her mom does not continue to fill her head with lies. She is going to be 13 this year. My precious little side kick is almost all grown up. I pray that when she is 18 that she will come back to us. I love and miss her so very much! By now you know that Jeremy and Macaela have finally made me a grandma. They have a baby girl named Emma Ryan. They named her middle name after you. I think that is so awesome, it makes me cry every time I think about it. That really means the world to me. Justin, I am so very tired of the pain I am in without you here with me. I miss those big doe eyes and the smile on your face. You always brought laughter where ever went. I miss your jokes and your sarcasm and also the prankster that you always were. Do you remember the snowman you brought me home to put on our front porch? I sure do, we laughed so hard about that! It was so funny.
you always cracked me up. Justin, I am trying to make you proud of me and I hope I do a great job at it. I only want to have your approval. Nothing else seems to matter at this point in my life. I love our family and our grandchildren Makayden and Emma. I live for Darren, Jeremy and those who love me. I don't care about anyone else. Ever since May May passed away, things just haven't been the same. She loved you lots! Justin, I pray you meet me at the gates of heaven when I get there to give me a huge hug and kiss. I love and miss you son!

Justin!!! Did you get my message? I figure by now it should have reached you. I hope you are as excited as I am. Love you bro.

Hello again son! I am in such despair these days that I could really use one of your bear hugs right about now. Tomorrow we are having a BBQ Celebration in your honor with a group of our close friends. I wish you were going to be here to hold me up but I know you will be here in spirit and that will have to do. Justin, do you know how very much you are loved and missed by me? I mean how deeply my body and mind ache for you?? I can't ever seem to get you off of my mind. A person would think that after 10 years that the pain would lesson but it hasn't been that way for me. On some days, I can't even mention your name without breaking down into tears. Oh how I wish we could go back to 10 years ago so that i could hold you one more time and take in your scent and hug and kiss you one more time. If only I would have known that you were never coming back that evening when you left the house that dreadful evening. Tears... I love you to the moon and back and then some! All my love, mom! XOXO

I will forever remember and honor Justin's memory .I thank God every day for boys bringing us together .I love you Michelle .Please know that you are in my every thought and prayer.

Justin, I wish I had wise words to make your family feel better, but I don't... all I can say is that I also lost a son, Humberto, my firstborn, October 30, 2016. My hope is that you two have met and if you have there can be nothing else between you than love for Heaven is about perfect love. I pray that your mom will be comforted by her faith because she comforts many of us with her beautiful art work. Until I meet you in Heaven, Justin, be joyful

Let your light shine bright, dear son. Your sweet Mama loves you and misses you, but she knows you are right there with her. ~~~

Just wanted to send my love and prayers.
God bless
Much love
Michelle Hunsinger

Hi Son, As I sit here in tears listening to some of your favorite tunes I am reminiscing over all the things we used to do together. Remember that tiny motorcycle you had that you would stay up till all hours working on so that it ran faster? You had so much fun taking turns with your step brother Derik riding it up and down our street. Funny thing is I got just as much fun watching you guys as you did riding it. I would give anything to have those days back and laugh like I used to at the grin you would have on your face when you got done for the night. :) Justin I can still faintly smell your scent on your clothing and I long for more of you. I need you Justin. I wish you would come to me in my dreams so that I know you are safe in God's hands. I feel as though if I knew for sure that you are okay... I would not be so depressed all the time. I have so many questions I want to ask you about the night of your accident and I feel as though if I knew the answers to these questions I could live without so much depression dragging me down all the time. I am going to close for now because I can't see through all my tears. I love you son! I will talk to you soon, lovingly yours, mom

Dear Son, it has been a long while since I have written you. I am so sorry about that. I have been in and out of severe depression for the last year or so. That is no excuse. I think about you each and everyday and I yearn to feel your touch, see your smile and get one of you hugs. Justin, how much longer do I have to be separated from Makayden? Can you tell me? Do you know? If you could just let me know somehow, I would not be so sad all the time. This nightmare has gone on long enough and I don't know how much more I can take without the two of you here with me. There are so many firsts that I have missed that Makayden has had without me. I have missed so many firsts of her childhood years. It just isn't fair. Hasn't our family been thru enough turmoil and pain trying to live here without you?? I love you so very much and I truly miss you with every fiber of my being. If only I knew you were up there in heaven and that you could see my tears and here my prayers, then maybe I would not be so miserable all the time. I love you to the moon and back!

Dear Son, as your birthday rapidly approaches I can't help but think of the many that you would be today if your were still here with us. You were robbed of living a full life. A life with your precious daughter Makayden Roquel. She needs you in her life. I pray she can somehow remember her time together with you as she was still very young when you passed away. I love you Justin and not a day goes by that I don't cry out in pain over your loss. My heart aches for you! However I know we will see each other real soon when I reach heaven. What a glorious day that will be! I love and miss you so very much Justin, now and forever! Bless you son!

Hi Justin. Just a few words to say hello again and remind you to look over your momma. She's had a tough few years 2016 hit her pretty hard. You stick close to her let her feel your comfort check In on your Lil girl Cas as u know her mom's not making life great. Say hey to my son Lil Ernie you'll know him great personality funny as all get up and protective. Well stick close and know many think of you often. Your mommas the best. She's so humble and sweet ,I've found a great friend in her as I hope you will my son. Wish life did it differently but beyond our control.Hug your mom n daughter she will remember you. And look for my son. Love ya. Vicky Rodabaugh

I drive by this man's memorial almost every day. I have been meaning for a long time to look up Justin. It is clear from the way his roadside memorial is tended to that he is very much loved and truly missed. Rest in Peace, young man.

Dear Justin, this has been a really long emotional week for me. I know you already know this because you are watching me from Heaven. As you know, your daughter and her mom and step husband seemed to have moved right down the block from us, in our same subdivision. I need your help son, please help me stay strong and to continue to keep my distance so as to not cause her mom and step dad to move out of our subdivision and go into hiding again. Please watch over me and please ask God to help me get through the horrible pain I have been in for over a week now since I found out they had moved 2 blocks down from us in the very same subdivision. I love you Justin, and I just need to know that you are watching over the situation with loving care. I could really use one of your big hugs today. I have been in tears for over a week. I wish I could see Makayden, but I am going to keep my distance.I hope I am doing the right thing, please help me son. All my love, Mom

Justin, I never had the oppertunity to meet you in person, but I feel like I've know you all your life. First of all, I'd like to say Happy Birthday to you yesterday!! I sent you a birthday card on FB to your mom. I'm so sorry you had to leave so young. It's hard to deal with losing a child, too soon, but with us mothers, any age is too soon. I've seen many pictures of you as a newborn, and on up. I've also made several pictures for your mom of you and your beautiful daughter. You would be so proud of her right now, as she's growing up so fast. It's really harder on your mom than it is you though, because you're with your Heavenly Father!! My daughter Candy, is also there with you too. I think it's harder losing a child at the age of 21, than at my daughters age. She is forever 41 and has two children. One son Braxton, who was 21 when she left us, and a daughter Micah who was only 12 at the time. It's really hard on the ones left behind. I bet you and Candy are "Dancing In The Sky" and "Singing In The Angel Choir"!! One day your mom and I will see you and Candy again, along with all your family members!! We just hold on to the PROMISE that, God, He Knows What He's Doing!!


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I don't know anything personally about Justin. But having the mother he has and his daughter I'm 100%sure he knew great love. I love his momma my sister in angel mom's ,she's one of a kind full of love ,pain ,memories sorrow but you Justin. We're lucky enough to have a wonderful mother who's love is never ending and I know someday your daughter will be back home with grandma where she belongs a real home of love....

I did not know Justin personally but I lost my son at 22 to car wreck almost 2 years ago and Michelle has talked to me a lot and helped me through some dark days. Just through her I feel like I know him and his gentle personality. My heart still goes out to the family. (Hugs)

Dear Justin,
   Today you turn 29 and I am hoping that you are singing and dancing up in heaven with the angels! Happy Birthday Justin, I love you and cherish the time we had together. I sure wish it would have lasted longer. I wish you and I both got to see Makayden grow up to be the beautiful young lady she will someday be. I know you arare watching over your daughter from heaven and I know you keeping her safe. I sit here and wonder what kind of man and father you would be today. I know you were such a good father to Makayden while you were alive and I bet you would be an even better father now. You are the best father in the world in my eyes. You always put her needs first. Justin, I miss you so very much and I hope that you are proud of the person I am today. I know you are watching me from heaven and I know you can see my daily pain and tears. I just miss you so very much son and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier as time goes by. Anyway, it's your birthday and I put up some beautiful flower baskets on your cross and I am hoping they will not die out there by the side of the road hanging from your cross. They sure do look pretty out there. I hope you like them. I am sorry it was so windy that 2 of your balloons blew away and the other two deflated. I brought them home with me today and saved them like I do everything else I bring home that I put on your cross. Happy Birthday in Heaven Justin! I love you with all of my heart!
Love, Mom

Hey Bro, just wanted to drop in and let you know I was thinking about you, anytime I have to do repairs around the house, I can't help but think how great it would be if you were here, despite being your older brother, you taught me a lot when it came to things like this, miss you.

To the family of Justin,

It is unnatural and heartbreaking to lose a loved one in death. The good news is that God's purpose is to resurrect the dead to live on earth again. This was demonstrated in the Bible when several people were resurrected to life on earth. One example is that of Lazarus. (John 11:11, 38-44) I hope that these verses give you hope, just as they have given me.

Justin I didn't know you but I hear alot of great things about u rip

Justin.. I never met you .But the impact you have left with your family you must have been a great person .... Keep a look after your mother she misses you....

Dear Justin, my precious son, forever 21, the memory of the day you passed is embedded in my memory forever, like a reoccurring nightmare that just keeps haunting me daily. Not a day goes by that I don't replay that memory through my mind. You were and still are an amazing son, father, brother and friend to all who had the opportunity to meet you! Justin has a beautiful daughter named Makayden Roquel whom is forever going to have to live her life without knowing how much you loved her, and without your guidance. Makayden was and remains your one true love! Your love for her was shown in every moment you shared with her, and I pray that due to how young she was when you passed, that she has some recognition in her memory of the love and time the two of you shared with one another. I also pray that through this memorial site that his family members and friends will take the take the time and be able to share with his daughter Makayden, and also with his other family members and friends the memories and stories they have about Justin that they can post on this site so that we can keep Justin's legacy alive and be passed on and remembered forever!