Baby girl 9 years have come and gone yet I miss you just as much as I did the day I heard the news. I love you baby girl.

Babygirl another year has passed and I miss you more than ever. I still remember those nights when you slept on my chest at night. I would give anything to have that back right now.

I remember you singing this song with such passion, see you in Humboldt Heaven,,always,

Sierra

You know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?7

missing u .this lighted candle will stay lit for u .just like u always lit up the room when u come walking in.

Baby girl I still remember everything about the day I got the news you were murdered. I miss you telling me you love me. You were the light to my darkness. The sun to my rain. I love and miss you baby girl

missing you always. and never forgotten..time has gone by so fast. so hard to believe you left us so early. you are with your brother now watching over all of us..u r always with me in heart and soul. loving you baby girl. we will come together in our next life..xoxoxo

7 years have come and gone yet nothing has gotten easier. I miss you sissy. You had so much potential taken from you. You were my sunshine in the darkness. Sissy I will miss you forever and a day.

Its your 28th Birthday Today and its kills me your not here to Celebrate it. I Miss You More Today then I did Yesterday it hasn't gotten any easier for me to deal with. I lost you right after your 21st Birthday and every year since I live with the mind numbing emptiness that Tripled starting every Oct. 31st, the Last Holiday we got to actually spend together. We decorated your Brothers Memorial then went to hang with your Babygirl, Natalia Rose, for awhile. Then I went Home and you want Trick or Treating for awhile. I remember half your face was pink from the kool-aid in Natalia Hair lol. I had the Video until someone stole my phone. I Love You Angel

28 years ago today you came into this world. My baby sissy, my gift. I will love you forever and for always.

Kasandra its the day before the Anniversary of your Little Brothers Death. I remember it like it was yesterday and the pain is still unbearable. But 11/11/12 didn't just take your Brother its also the day I began losing You & your Big Sister as well. I'm sorry I got lost in my own pain for awhile and I tried to reach out but you wouldn't let me. I miss you guys so much I think I needed you way more than you needed me. I know having you guys saved my life a few times and now I'm lost.
I love you, Infinity
       &
Miss You still the day I die.

This was a post from a couple years ago that never posted for some reason???............

Well BabyGirl, it’s Semptember again and the countdown to Winter begins. Yesterday was 9/11 which means it’s exactly 2 mo until the 7th Anniversary of your little Brothers Death on 11/11/12. Which then is followed by the 5th Anniversary of your Murder on 01/13/15. This is when my Darkest Months begin for me, praying I don’t make it to Spring. But as you already know, I’m not there with you guys so here I go again. Your Big Sissy misses you guys terribly and does her best as well to keep moving forward. Your Daughter is Beautiful and smarter than you can imagine. She’s so much like you it’s refreshing. I miss you Sweetheart

6 years have come and gone and I still miss you so much. You were my little sunshine. I will love you forever and for always. Baby girl you will always be remembered and loved. You were my baby girl and always will be. Love you sissy.

Hi little one. Can hear your voice and see your smile. Your pigtail waving as you stomp your foot! I will always love you and I know you and Steven are waiting for us and we will see each other again. Love from Gage and Cende.

I miss you sissy. Today you would have been 27 with such a bright future ahead of you. You will always be my baby girl. The love of my life. The rainbow before the rain. I love you. You are my whole heart.

Baby girl 5 years ago today was one of the saddest days of my life. I miss your smile and your laugh. I will miss you forever and for always

26 years ago today you came into the world and I was absolutely certain that you were my gift. I miss and love you more than words can ever explain

I cant believe it’s been 4 yrs already since you were taken from me. It feels more like yesterday this pain & emptiness never seems to ease up ever. I hate going to sleep because when I open my eyes I have to wait for my brain to catch up so it can realize you & your brother aren’t here anymore. That I will never see you again in my lifetime. I will never see you get married, raise a family, live. I won’t hear your voices saying Momma I Love You (Mommy when you wanted something) I won’t get to wrap you in my arms and hold you tight. I miss you and I’m not gonna lie I’m on my knees and I can’t get up, so I crawl through my days praying that someday I’ll feel less so I might do more. I love you

4 years have come and gone. Some days it feels like just yesterday and other days it feels like a million years ago. Baby girl I miss you so much, I wish I could have helped you. I love you with all of my heart and know one of these days I will meet your baby girl.

Happy Birthday BabyGirl, I Miss You So Much

25 years ago today you came into this world and changed everything. Baby girl I miss you more than you will ever know. I love you and wish I could just hug you one more time.

Well BabyGirl tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2018 and its the 4th one without you and the 6th without your brother. And as all my Holidays now seem to go, im surrounded by loved ones yet still feel all alone. I miss you guys so much i can hardly stand myself these days. I wish i had something witty or sarcastic to try and cover the pain. But i just cant seem to put anything together as my tears fall down like rain. Ive Loved You both so very much i pray this much you see. And i hope when my time comes to pass youll be waiting there for me. Until then fly free my Angels Happy Thanksgiving

Yesterday marked 3 years since you have been gone. I want you to know that you will never be forgotten. I have some news for you sissy, I am going to be a mommy. I am adopting my best friends baby. The baby is due in April not sure yet I it is a girl or boy though. Baby girl I love you with my whole heart

thank you for taking me in when i had no ware to go.for making peace with your grandmother.for shedding light from certain darkness....LOVE .LOVE IS ALL U NEED.

Hi Kassie. I thought you should know...not one single day has gone by without thinking of you and your brother and your Mom. If I have failed you, please forgive me. I am with you girl!, and Steven and Kristie. I really suck at keeping in touch with the people I love and care about, but my soul and it's prayers don't. I am with you and yours, every single day and will be till that day when I see you again. Forever here, Mom CC.

Baby girl,it's so hard to believe two years have gone by. I miss the hell out of you. I'm sure your laughing at me watching me and this crazy love I have from Turkey. I promise often of the angels above us watch over myself and family.yep, that's you my love...Since when we ever thought of us as angels? Right? Lol. I love you and miss the hell out of ya.. your in my thoughts and prayers.always and forever. Until we meet up on the other side, I'll say by for now..Missing you Cassandra...!!!!

2 years have come and gone but nothing makes it easier because I will miss you for the rest of my days. I love you always and forever baby girl.

Merry Christmas BabyGirl, this is my second Christmas without you and it's the 5th without your little brother, we all miss you so much. Things just aren't the same without you around. The days are way to quiet and the nights way to long. Natalia is absolutely beautiful sweetie, just like her Momma is. She's gonna be a handful, but she's so smart, and Bubba he's doing a fantastic job. He's really been everything you said he'd be for your daughter. He gets worried he's messing up from time to time, but he's really not, he's a great Daddy. He loves her very much and every decision he makes his first thought is her well being before making up his mind. He's big and tough you know and he hates to show it, but he misses you and yes he loves you he always will. Let him know your not far and that your right there watching him raise a beautiful little girl and that you are so proud of them both. Now I'm rattling on but I just miss talking to you BabyGirl. I Love You My Angel

I actually came on here the day of your birthday but couldn't find the words to say that you are missed more than words can ever express, one day I hope to meet your little princess Natalia Rose..... I love you sissy for all time

Keeping that candle going for you baby girl. Sure do miss the hell out of you. I know I will see you in my later life...I love foralways I love you forever forever and always my friend youll be.

Hey kid funny enough I kinda miss your off the hook self. Surely glad I got the opportunity to get to know you. Light just isn't the same. But my mother is on that side and if you ever need any advice she I'm sure would help you out. See you when I get there. Till then take care. Luv ya always.

I cant believe tomorrow will mark a year that you've been gone. I love you always and forever, i miss you everyday. Your always on my mind, just how you liked it right my love. Always just out of my reach and now your completely gone and im completely lost.

I'm racing around buying old lady wrinkle cream and grey hair cover-up. Yikes. But you my girl will never have to endure such things. And we truly miss your pony tails. The colors of your hair no weave artiste could match. Even your eyes changed colors sometimes. And I will not forget you throwing back your head and laughing. One of the very last things you told me was "come on, who cares", "...in two hundred years none will know we were even here" "cheers!!!" A shot for each. You will be 21 forever. Forever young..... Do they let you have crown royal up there? You better be good now......!!! Miss you littlest one ..momcc

I Love you forever, I Like you for always, Forever and Always My Friend You Will Be!! You are and will be missed. The good times too remember, my little sister. Your beautiful smile and your laugh i will never forget. We will meet up together again, in a later time. you will be with me in my heart and soul. luv you for always and enternally!!!

Kasandra I will always miss u but to get threw these hard time with u no longer be here is remembering all the memories I have with u. My favorite memory with u is when I came to visit u and steven and mom in Vegas and everyone was picking on steven and u told everybody they better Stop cause ur big sister was coming to town and she'll kick ur ass. As soon as I got there u and steven had to walk me around the development to show me off to everyone. I love u always and forever u will be missed never forgotten. Remember ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten.

Kassie you will be surely missed, the times we had together was a joy both in Washington and Vegas... I wish I would have known you as a teen and adult. Lov an miss you very much... Will see you when the time is right..

Sissy, I can't believe you are gone......it just doesn't seem real, I will miss you everyday until we meet again baby girl.......even though you were only my baby sister when you were born I finally knew what real love was, I love you always and forever Kasandra Jean Hillaire