Sometimes out of no where you are just so present... So many things have happened in the 5.5 yrs since you've been gone. Steph so wishes you knew Adeline but somehow I know you do - Sarah and Blake are great and you'd be proud of where sheds is - and you'd love Tim !  and of course Blake still talks and talks about Da... he loves sports and always does his best because DA is watching ..he is almost 11 !!! remember we met him together moments after he was born - And Arielle.. She and Alex and an amazing engagement in Iceland and Austrian Wedding!!! fairytales. ours was just not as princess like ..  I know you know what I've gone through - but you've been with me.. i knew you saw it all.. my promise i am trying to keep - just no one compares to what we had.. and how we were.. but maybe this one will.. .. I just know above all id live a life like we imagined... full of laughter - friendships - family - and love - Ali and Trish are there for me as are my girls - I wish you could've met Hollie and Kevin - they know you - because of me... so many others do to - Not a day goes by i don't think or talk to you!  and forever my heart loves you - sending love , and kisses to heaven Kev.. until we are together again - I will always love you

Nov 5th 2010. ❤️ 12 years ago today I met you and my life changed.  Who'd have known what happiness was in store. Wasnt always easy.. thats life.... but that's what made it so special... 2 people looking in the same direction who grew together and individually.. Best friends...loves...partners.... we were each others  soft place to fall.  Accepting of each other's quirks and strengths.  I was blessed to be loved by you.  

"My job in this? To wake up everyday and make your life better"-kevin driscoll

It was our mantra. Putting each other first.   I get sad sometimes thinking what might have been. But then we lived so much happiness in the time we had.  What a gift.  I miss you but know your watching and guiding my steps.  Today is a special day..  The day I met you.  I"m forever grateful ❤️

And so here we are. 4 days away from 5 yrs since youve been gone.   And Im so feeling the absence of you.   Not a day goes by when i dont think of you.  It seems like just yestedday you were here   life felt right.  And i was so happy.   Ive continued to work on afayimg in happiness.  Ive been blessed with friends carimg for me.  Ive made new omes.  Ive met knew people.  Some ive been able to find your qualities in.  And i hoped amd opened my heart again . But it was not meant to be  and ive had to learn again to heal. Let go.  And mend a broken heart. Ofcourse now I am back to wishing you were still here.  I made the promise so ill continue to try.  To live the best life and make you proud. I hold your words and voice and memories in my head and heart now. Afraid to forget. Not quite ever letting go  For then ill realize youre really gone.  Keep watch on Kenzi and I from heaven.  The things i wiah you were here for. Alex and Arielles wedding.  Steph and Neils weddimg.  Sarah graduating and becomkng a med asst. How far theyve all come.  Blake to hear him still speak of you with love and admiration for Da.   And oh youd have adored Addie.  But i know you see it all.   I miss you so.  And will forever.  Ill keep my promise jiust please guide me on the journey.  I love you always Kevin ❤️

So, in 2 days will be Valentines.... a day I did not like for a long time and then I had Arielle.... and it became Arielle's Birthday for me...then I met you - and my memories of all our valentines' dinners at home. cooking in the kitchen  and dancing to Boz Skaggs and our fav wine... laughter and love  Then when you left it became sad again.  But knowing you guide me and had one day asked me to always love no matter what happened.  So I show love to others as a way to honor you   This year I know your guiding me on a new path  And I am allowing myself to feel again  to be happy  to smile  and to hope  and its wonderful  Thank you for showing me what is so important to guiding me.  That love we have brought me here so I can  What a gift you were, are and always will be to me... i miss you every day and speak your name  love you always Kevin - Happy Valentines in heaven

even without the patriots in it - playoffs for football are just a little less fun without Kevin commentary!!! you loved Sunday games... but i think of you and smile.... I am having fun... I am not alone- I know you'd approve...you always told me to live this life and love ....  but I'd be lying if I did not admit that your presence is here and always will be ....and I share the stories and even from heaven you make people laugh and smile...I love you and miss you every day - until we meet again

happy birthday Kevin.  another year we celebrate you.  your laugh. your life. your amazingly big heart.   the memories we share  and the dreams that fill our hearts still.  you are still lived since much and missed.  and i hope today was an amazing birthday in heaven for you.  love you forever  my best friend. my love. 

YOU forever   

every year different but the same.. and just as hard .. missing you and knowing the hole that remains in my heart ; never to be filled …..
"God Bless you … you make me feel brand new...cuz God Blessed me with YOU" 

another year and August begins..... 4 years ago today you were here.... we were so excited about the life we planned.... never to imagine it was not meant to be.... but grateful for every moment.....its hard now knowing whats coming... each year is different in some way but still difficult..... and no matter what you do relive every moment.... but i have your words on my phone.... in notes you left... in memories and engraved forever on my heart... you remain a strength in this life for me and for those who loved you ...... love doesn't die.. it lives on through eternity - and one day we will be together again. Until that day I'll try to live a life that makes you proud , celebrates you and honors you.... love is always the connection... I miss you and love you still.... always

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This song reminds me of you ♥️

There you are
A memory of something lost
Or perhaps just left behind

There you are
A feeling not quite complete
Seeking expression in the night

There you are
Watching, waiting
Hoping to be brought back to life

There you are
Wandering, wondering
Will I ever be heard

Here I am
Quietly waiting
To listen to your song

Poem by Christopher F Eldridge
7/2/2013

some days out of no where.. the days that have no special meaning... just an "normal" day - you pop in my head.... be it the way Kenzii will stare off into nothing...…or look like shes watching something walk by and no ones there.. only to then look at me and kiss my face... "give mama kisses" immediately pops in my head.. and I know.. your presence is with all who love you .. family .. friends... and everyone whose lives you touched...  it makes me happy knowing that a part of you resides in their hearts too!!!  Love IS the strongest connection.. and until we meet again I know I will hold you close in my heart everyday !!  Kenzii & I miss you so...

We all think of you every day Kevin but on some days like today a lot more
You always had enough love for all and chose to do just that everyday. 
 HAPPY FATHERS DAY
           With L♥️VE

thinking of you today - and remembered me telling you about "godwinks" those little signs and messages of hope God gives us-  Gods version of serendipity... I got one of those today - I admit I was surprised. I admit in typical fashion I teared up... but it made me see that God works in others and maybe one day softens the hardened hearts.. sees things as they are not what is presumed....it made me happy! There's so much thats changed and is changing and different... especially over this past year. I know Covid would've been hard for you - one because you'd be so concerned for all the loss people felt. Your heart was so compassionate and big.... I know you'd hate how it was initially handled but I know you'd be so pleased that Joe is finally in office.  Masks would've been ok.. I recall you wearing them landscaping so your asthma wasn't as bad... To look and see... there has been so much that has happened over the past almost 4 years.... I know your with me every step … always guiding … you're there for all those you love !! if only we here on earth could let go and just love while here.. how much better life would be... I dont give up hope..i pray for it... just needed to chat with you a bit... I miss you terribly .. but the love remains... and always will....

"Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there; I did not die."
Mary Elizabeth Frye, 1932
(November 13, 1905 – September 15, 2004)

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Kevin the voice over announcer.  Great memory from 10 yrs ago today

thinking of you today - was talking with Steph and Sarah... memories of how you were there for us when my mom passed and you were so amazingly supportive and loving !! 8 years ago you held me when i cried and took such good care.. and the way you were with my father still touches my heart.. you were such a good man - I wish many more could have known that.. but we do.. and always will.. miss you so much .. and love you always

Merry Christmas Kevin - they arent the same with out you !! i miss and love you always

Happy Thanksgiving Kev ♥️  Memories fill my thoughts. You loved making our Thanksgiving feast. And it was so good. The fun we had cooking together. Glasses of wine and so much laughter.  Then sharing all the things we were so grateful for.  I'm blessed God gave me you to love. Love never fails but lives on FOREVER.  I miss you everyday.  

11-05-2020!  Today would have been another milestone, 10 years of the day we met! 11-05-2010 was the day I met you was unexpected and little did I know until later our eyes had met a week prior.. not until we spoke of it weeks later! - the story is fun to tell but so is our entire story - we faced so many challenges some unnecessary some part of life but through it all we grew stronger and closer -we shared everything and knew everything - our thoughts our opinions our hopes our dreams.. many ask me how we did - its because like you told me once - we woke up everyday asking how we could make the others life better - we loved beyond our flaws and differences, we didn't keep score - we took everything on together as a partnership - standing side by side facing one direction .. but with each step dedication , trust, respect , commitment, friendship and LOVE  I will always cherish and remember this day when God Blessed me with YOU ..I love you still.. always will and miss you beyond words.. blowing kisses to heaven !!!

Adeline arrived... she was due on your birthday and i know you were watching and will watch over her.. instead she arrives on Tuukka's Birthday !!! you'd have loved that even more !!  She looks like Arielle everyone says - Neil is so cute with her and Steph yes Stephanie is so calm... its beautiful to see and i know you're watching - Talking with Steph the other night she was so aware of your presence and of missing you and of course wishing you were here for this too.. Our special angel we know will be watching over her.. and Blake and nd all of us.. Blake already said he will make sure she knows all about DA!! You may not be not with us in this physical life but you are so very much in our hearts and definitely still a part of all of us and all we do.......love is the footprint on our hearts that never dies... . loving you and missing you as I do everyday........until we meet again Kevin

another year without you - today will always be special - i wish you were here so i could give you a kiss.. hug you so tight and make your cake for you !!  As we have done for the last three years Kenzii and i will light a candle on a cupcake for you !! and will celebrate you everyday !!! we love you Kevin .. love is a bond that will never be broken !! Happy Birthday my amazing love

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you are with me always !! <3

Losing you was the hardest thing to accept. Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday. Missing you is the heartache, that never goes away.

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loving you forever Kevin <3

Yesterday 8-9-2020.  35 months.  Feels so long ago but then like yesterday.  You’re still so strong a presence.   Almost 3 yrs.  so hard.  But memories are vivid. And yiu will always be loved and remembered.    ♥️♥️♥️♥️

July 9 2020 34 months ago now.. time has in ways gone so quickly but then so
slow.... either way you are missed so very much …. .... some think its silly to count... many say its time to move on .. and in the ways I need to I am ….But that will never mean the hole in my heart has been filled.. that I wont think of you .. remember things about you and our lives together.. and it surely wont mean I will ever stop loving you …. where there is grief great love.... to honor you I forgive - I am grateful - I am kind - I continue to spread the love and giving and care you did with your amazing heart... There are still
so many things that are hard for many of us.. some I cant speak to , I just dont know .. and thats ok.... so many things you are not here for …Steph and Neil celebrate their 1st anniversary in 2 weeks.. and then we anxiously await the arrival of Adeline - the first grand daughter... due on your birthday !!!!  Blake is so excited.... he speaks of you all the time...ready to take care of her... He is
so charming and so smart and kind and tells me not to be sad... he says he will make me laugh like you did so I can be happy and that would make you happy!  .. what a impression you made on him !!!  Arielle and Alex's wedding is coming along. with the plans for next June  yep the decided to elope and get married in Austria.. the location beautiful -- you know them they do things big... engaged on a beach in Iceland last year and now this! the adventures they have.... Her dress breathtaking .. Sarah- you'd be proud of her as well .. graduating the first step and now working in the medical field.. next stop nursing school... shes done amazing..  But no matter where life goes your name is a part of it -  we laugh at things you may have said - we enjoy oh so many memories.... and above all we continue to love you !! and always will... I miss you - it doesn't go away or get easier.. but you learn that each day that passes is one day closer to seeing you again....until then I live for both of us!

just got home from visiting where you rest... I left beautiful flowers.. Blake last week told me what colors … Happy Fathers day Kevin .. I know you cross the minds today of all who love you -  your presence is missed...your laughter... your heart... someday we will see you again .. until then safe in our hearts and memories you live on …. I love you !!!!! always -

today is the day I wish you were here. 
Steph and Neil's baby reveal !!  I'm so excited for them.  And having the baby born near your birthday I know you'd have loved that.  You were and still are a great Da to Blake and will be to our new little one.  I love and miss you so much.   Forever in our hearts  - its a girl.. her name will be Adeline Jessie!!  another AJ!!!  <3

Tomorrow is Easter.  And all I am craving is your Ham with pineapple scallop taters and fresh asparagus !! Ams my lemon cake!!!!!  I remember is shopping for Kenzii easter basket lol.   I love our memories.  I miss you so much

April 9 2020.  31 months.  Seems like forever.  But only yesterday. I miss you. Sending love and blowing kisses to heaven
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

"Grievers use a very simple calendar. Before and after." - Lynda Cheldelin Fell

Missing you.  Its times like this your words now have to be what helps me thru "to me you are what grace do-everything you do is done with the best intent for others and with love- that's what I see is grace"  so with that I courageously deal with what life has in store at this moment. For this day.  You always said also "you always land on your feet"  and I will.   I miss your humor and laughter right now. That was a gift. But yes I have kevinisms that come out. Or your words whisper in my ear.   I miss you so Kevin.  But am at peace you're in a place of never ending joy and love ♥️

sure could use to talk to you - you always knew how to help and make everything ok

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.

Sending my love to you in heaven and carrying your love inside my heart ♥️

Love you my best friend my soulmate my love ♥️. Happy Valentines day Kevin ♥️

I woke up this morning
And reached over for you.
You weren't there, I remembered.
Now what will I do?

As I remembered the events,
I started to cry.
I lift my eyes upward
And scream to the sky.

Why did you take him?
What did we do wrong?
We were finally making it.
We had tried for so long.

As I lay there and think,
I remember the times we had.
The memories flow.
I'm no longer as sad.

A warm feeling spreads through,
Like sun on my face.
I feel light in body,
Like I'm floating in space.

I lay there and wonder,
What could the warmth be?
Not something I can touch
And surely not able to see.

I picture his hand on mine.
Warmth spreads to my fingers.
I smile and laugh some.
The feeling still lingers.

The warmth is him
Letting me know
Everything will be okay.
I am never alone.

On those cold winter nights
When I long for his touch,
When I feel so desperate,
I haven't wanted anything so much.

He will be there to lift me up,
To show me I still have his love.
I still have the memories
We always spoke of.

As our children grow and learn,
They accomplish new things.
I can feel his joy.
Oh, the warmth that it brings.

My memories are great,
But his touch is better.
When I can't feel it,
I just write him a letter.

For I know he is watching.
He's helping me learn.
How to live in the world alone
And for him not yearn.

I have felt his touch less
Over the last several days.
I have met someone who
Is like him in many ways.

He will always be with me;
This I've come to believe,
But now I have found someone,
A new love to receive.

I look to the skies
And raise my voice.
Is it okay, I ask,
And hear a joyful noise.

I feel the warmth on my skin
And know that he is near.
Not just on the outside
But from somewhere within.

He's telling me it's okay
To move on with my life
And not to let it create
Any emotional strife.

So, now when I think,
The memories are clear;
They don't hurt anymore
Because I know he is near.

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/moving-forward

I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time. - Piglet to Winnie the Pooh

You don’t get over it, you get through it. It doesn’t get better, it gets different. Everyday just like me, grief puts on a new face.

Someone asked me if I missed you. I didn’t answer. I just closed my eyes and walked away and whispered ‘so much’.

“The darker the night, the brighter the stars, The deeper the grief, the closer is God!.” – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

its the 9th of the month again - and there we are again - its not easy ….. 28 months... 112 weeks 784 days 18,816 hours … without you … I wonder sometimes where wed be by now... and still no answer why .. why it was your time but then I remember your voice and what you asked... that Id be happy no matter what happened in life... and so I try … somedays easier than others... but I want you to know that not one of those 18,816 hours didn't have a thought of you in it.. or a mention of your name or a shared story - I love you Kevin and always will .. until we meet again my amazing man !! <3

I have come to the realization that nothing in life prepares us for losing someone we love & If tears could bring you back, you’d be sitting right here with me.

another new year... I spoke with Lisa on NYE and she remembered us from that night 10 yrs ago!!  She remembered you offering to help the bouncers incase of any "trouble" … she said you were one of the "different" ones who she knew would always step up - and she LOVED & could tell there was something perfect about us - so happy that we found each other and her place had part in it- she's also so sad you weren't there - we raised a glass for you - toasted in the new year - and then yesterday Kenzii and I spent all day watching movies and snuggling just like we all always did -  I miss you everyday …it doesn't get easier - you are in every thought and thing I do - your presence still so important to us all.. Love you Kevin - Happy New year in heaven <3 <3

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Christmas in heaven <3

You Are My Everything
by Cinnamonkisses


You are my sweet dreams at night
When I'm sleeping next to you
You are my freshness when I wake up
Each morning, feeling all renewed.

You are my sunshine
On every sunny day
Making me happy-always in a delightful way
You are my warmth on a cold, dreary night
Your arms wrapped around me, holding me tight.

You are my protection
Keeping me safe from harm
You are my four-leaf clover...
My sweet lucky charm.

You are my lover
Baby, there could be no other
I'm so glad that you are a part of my life
And I pray that someday
You'll ask me to be your wife.

You are my blessing in each and every way
And I pray to God above
That our love will forever stay.

Today’s a hard day  Missing you.  You always made me feel loved especially on this day.  Blowing kisses to heaven

its beginning to look a lot like Christmas...and you are in my head every moment..... its hard without you - but I when I recall decorating our home and baking and watching the Christmas shows ( I know you watched them with me this week smile) it brings some comfort... We shared so much and there was so much laughter and love … you were the best gift I ever received... Going to Boscawen on 12/14 for the wreath ceremony - I always make sure you have one - its hard that there aren't enough donations etc. so that everyone there can have a wreath..so I bring one for you so that someone else can have one - you'd have done that so I do too! I'll also be bringing one for Mike so that Jamie & Michael will know he has one also- its just how we always did things so I continue you to … sending love and kisses to you in Heaven ! love you Kevin today and always

As we go through this week of thanksgiving - you are with me every step- we have so many beautiful memories - we were thankful for so much .. the good times - even the struggles taught us something and what normally would push people apart strengthened what we had... I am so grateful god blessed me with you !  Thanksgivings are not the same... but your presences is felt everyday !! IT was and never will be a goodbye, my darling. This thanksgiving I want to say thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But now most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go because one day we will see each other again .. love is infinite and is not eliminated by death. . I love you Kevin - yesterday - today - tomorrow and always <3

Veterans Day 2019. As always I remember all those you love that served.  Your best friends Frank and Mark.   Classmates.  Brother in arms.  Fellow veterans especial Mike.  Your brothers Bob and Paul.  Your Dad and mine.  My grandfathers.  What a beautiful service in Boscawen. I spent time with you. Chatting.  I left a rose and flowers.  As always.  I’m going to be meeting with the senators va liaison to work on veterans programs.  Something we talked of doing.  You were so humble. And appreciative. But always thought others more deserving.  It’s what I love about you most.  You are an amazing man. Brave loving courageous and dedicated.  I miss you especially on these days but remain so proud.  Happy Veterans Day Kevin   I love you♥️

11-05-2010 -
the day we met
neither knowing what a wonderful event was taking place
so many times our lives came close to crossing paths but
it wasn't time . 
Not until 9 yrs ago - 
we shared so many things - there was such love and affection but also trust and respect 
each day was set to making each others lives better
I am so very grateful to have been loved by you - and to love you in return
I miss you every day - every moment but know you are with me
Happy Anniversary Kevin  -


I can't swear that I'll be here for the rest of your life
But I swear I'll love you for the rest of mine

Don't Cry For Me
© Deborah Garcia Gaitan more by Deborah Garcia Gaitan
Published: September 2015
Don't cry for me.
I will be okay.
Heaven is my home now,
and this is where I'll stay.

Don't cry for me.
I'm where I belong.
I want you to be happy
and try to stay strong.

Don't cry for me.
It was just my time,
but I will see you someday
on the other side.

Don't cry for me.
I am not alone.
The angels are with me
to welcome me home.

Don't cry for me,
for I have no fear.
All my pain is gone,
and Jesus took my tears.

Don't cry for me.
This is not the end.
I'll be waiting here for you
when we meet again


Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/dont-cry-for-me

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you