giant heart,   , a memory from torquay, when we lived there , he was the giant in jack bean stalk, he was tallest in class, he had 2 say fe fo fi thumb, i was howling ha kev, u were so shy, i loved u 4 that so so good, u were on ur rd 2 heaven and asked me did i remember u being the giant, u were seeing all ur past, i hav never had 2 try so hard not 2 break down, even  thru ur terror of dying, when i said i wld take ur cancer 4 u, ur reply 2 me no mum i wld not  let u, u being u kevin amist ur terrible pain u still said no 2 me taking it off u, kevin i no how much u suffered i was there, ill never 4get our personal talks, and how u said u wanted it all 2 end, i was screaming inside 4 u 2 fight it , so darling kev, i was only being strong 4u, i wanted 2 hold u in my arms tight and tell u i wld save u but i cldent, when i tried it was 2 sore it was in ur bones my darling son, ur my hero a very very brave son, i miss u so much, dont  no how 2 move on without  feeling a bad mum, please watch over cal, noah rose/kat, till we meet again all my hearts lov, my beautifuul kevin lov mum always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxi miss u so much , my baby always xxxxxxxi see ur face b4 me every nite , and always will, u the last face i see when i close my eyes, the most beautiful face and eyes xxxx