I miss you every day since you been gone things been hard with out you many sleepless nights but iam doing better now but I still miss you my brother I try to be there for Brianna as much h as I can but she is her own person now she asks alot about you and she has struggles but she is doing her best we all love you and miss you so much as for mom she not well cancer set in and iam scard I going to lose her she lost weight and eats through a tube now but she is a fighter I feel like I should of done more instead of being selfesh and giving up on life it's been hard with out you and dad now moms sick I do think think I can do this on my own as for the other girls they are doing good but we don't hear from them much my kids are all grown up and graduated from school and both Alessia and Lateesha graduated also my daughter Feedback is the only one left to finish school I listen to some song we use to listen to back in the day back when we were young going to the rolladome to go to dances and roller scatting I remember you saying to me to keep trying a different I did a deep I finely learned to scate same as when you and dad taught me how to ride a bike you were my big brother who I loved and looked up to sure we fight but that was you teaching me to stick up for myself and that I did I have some pictures of us together and one where you put your boxing gloves on me and was teaching me to walk and fight I love that picture and it payed off iam a pretty good fighter I think when it's one on one though as small as I am I can take a hit a d give one back pretty good LoL but I never did like to fight like you but if I had to I kick ass as mom always said LoL aww keV I wish you were here with me and help me with mom it's not fair he took you guys away to early Donnie dad you and now mom iam left alone I will do my best to be there for the kids I promise to make up for all my mistakes I made while I was all fucked up