Hi Kim,
I haven’t written since your birthday . I was sick for quite sometime.  I didn’t think I would ever  get better.  It was over two months and I still don’t have my voice back yet  from all the terrible coughing I did. It was so awful.  I was at Urgent care twice , then I went to the hospital per ambulance on October 6 th . Your brothers birthday.  I didn’t want to go in the ambulance but I had no choice.  I was able to come back home after some hours of breathing treatments & meds. 
I didn’t have a ride home so the hospital paid for my ride home with the Lift driver. I didn’t have Thanksgiving  this year. I just was home.  It’s not a good feeling to be alone on holidays.  Very lonely. 
Heather was at Randi’s around Halloween but I didn’t see her. 
Your granddaughters Blake and Parker are really getting big. Blake is in kindergarten now and likes school.  Parker will go to preschool  this coming new year. She was here with me on Wednesday while Randi went on a field trip with Blake for school.  It was a field trip to the zoo. 
Parker said she wants to go to school too.
We had fun here . I enjoyed her here. I fixed her eggs & she  ate two of them. The girls are really cute.  I know you would want to be by them all the time.  I don’t see them like I use to.  I miss them. 
I don’t hear from Kerry & Gina or the rest . Kevin I did but he is off & on.  The rest I haven’t seen for a long time. I guess that’s the way they want it so I just leave it alone.  I don’t think  they realize I am 
still around.  They have become strangers to me anyway.
i see Juanita on Fb now & then.  That’s really nice. 
I think of you all the time Kim. I still can’t believe you aren’t coming home.  Randi looks just like you.  If you were here I know everything would be so much better.  I am not doing well at all. I am in kidney failure and my legs and back are so painful.  It hurts to walk.  I guess my whole body is in my pain now. Gets worse every day. 
kerry is also in kidney failure. I feel really bad about him being in kidney failure.  I know it bothers him as it does me. . Always wondering when it will go higher and totally fail. 
It’s been 16 years you’ve been gone Kim but to me it seems like yesterday.  I can’t believe it’s been 16 years.  My life was destroyed when you weren’t coming home.  I wish I could’ve seen you like the rest went up to EauClaire to see you at the funeral home but they never told me they were going.. I found out they were up there some time later. I was very hurt that they didn’t tell me & I couldn’t see you.  I don’t know why they did that to me. 
I went to the store today & got a few things.  It was  cold out. 
I sure miss you Kim.  I love you & you are always with me.  I wish I could take a magic wand & bring you back home. My life was forever changed when you were taken.  It’s never been the same without you!!  I find pennies all the time & I look up and tell you thank you and I love you!! 
They appear a lot where I  get out of my car  & walk towards the store  or go back to my car! 
I love you Kim. 
Always my daughter and I am always your Mom!

Yesterday your two granddaughters with Randi were here. It was after Blake got out of school. 
It doesn’t seem possible that Blake is in Kindergarten already.  She loved preschool but is having a little hard time adjusting to going in another class.  She will be ok though. 
The girls are so darn cute. Very smart too. I love them coming here which doesn’t happen very often.  Heather was coming on Wednesday but she hurt her back again so she will be here in October.   Her & Oscar love living in California. 
Heather loves her job in Huntington Beach. They moved to Huntington Beach which is close to her work.  
I don’t do much of anything except doctors & lab.
I have a hard time with my back and legs but I still go to the stores when I feel like it.
So many people off for vacations this summer .
Not me. I don’t go anywhere.  I would love to but I have no place to go.  
Kerry & Gina are doing ok I guess. Melissa & her husband built a new home & are living in it now. 
They have two children. Thela is one years old & Brecken is 2 or 3. I don’t remember as I don’t see them.
kevin and Kristine are still living in Illinois. Kevin is quite the garden grower.  Everything he shows looks so nice.  I don’t see any of their kids. 
I don’t even know where Melissa & her husband live nor have I ever known where Kelly & her husband live.  I don’t see any of my great grandchildren. Haven’t for years!! 
I know how much you would love Blake and Parker. They are such sweet little girls. 
I’ve been in this apartment for over 12 years now & I don’t like it. It’s lonely here.  
If you were here everything would be so different. It would be a much closer family . 
I miss you Kim so much. The years have passed but it’s hard for me!  It still seems like yesterday to me. 
I love you Kim! 
Always with me 
Mom

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON THIS DAY SEPTEMBER 8 th, 2023. I wrote you and I thought I said Happy Birthday but I don’t see it.  It was telling me error for some reason! 

Hi Kim, Today is July 24 th, 2023.  I am just sitting here this morning thinking of you. 
its been really warm here . The hot weather never bothered me but it has been lately for some reason.  I haven’t been able to take it even with the air conditioner  on. I have a fan going in the bedroom. I know you always liked a fan on. You liked it for  Heather & Randi when they were little  bcause they slept better. 
I have it on sometimes so I don’t hear noises here  at night . There is a  pump under my bedroom & it kept me awake all nite.   I think I got use to it or something bcause I really don’t hear it as loud. 
I went to the zoo with Randi &  the little girls 2 weeks ago I guess it was. It was nice but it cost alot of money.  The little girls , your granddaughters, love it there.  They are growing. Blake will be in kindergarten come this fall. She loves school. 
Then Parker will be in Preschool next year. .
I don’t see anyone  living here. I have been here for 12 years . It hasn’t been that great for sure. 
Nobody comes around.  I spend my time alone. i use to see Randi & the girls pretty often but not anymore.   I don’t mean anything to any of them I guess.  That’s how it goes these days I guess. 
At 81 years old perhaps my time is pretty limited. I don’t  feel good & haven’t for quite some years now . I keep struggling with health but it doesn’t seem worth it anymore.  I’ve had enough of  being sick. 
You always said don’t get old Mom.  Well I sure am there.  I tried to keep up looking decent that you liked but I am tired now.  I have a hard time taking a shower . I can’t take a bath cause my back & legs won’t let me get out.  I can’t keep my hair up like I always did. 
I had injections in both my knees on July 14 th but the injections don’t last but a few months I am told. 
You never wanted to get old Kim.  I sure wish you were here with me.  My life would be so much better.  I miss you every day but it hits me hard when I am alone so much. 
I have things I need help with but I have nobody. 
I get hurt by that.  I did whatever I had to for all but   they forget that. So today is Monday & the start of a new week.  The time is really going fast but I guess that is good.  Les time for me to be here. without you .. 15 years you have been gone &  it doesn’t seem that can be.. 
Its like yesterday to me. 
I love you Kim . I miss you so much. 
Always 
Mom  

Hi Kim
I thought I would feel better if I talked to you today on June 3rd, 2023. 
Its real warm here  and I have stayed home. I don’t have any place to go  anyway. 
it gets lonely here.  I don’t like that feeling.  I have been here 12 years now and  I can’t believe the time has gone so fast.  
I turned 81years old in May Kim.  That stings! 
I remember you always saying you didn’t want to get old  and you said Mom don’t get old. 
It doesn’t feel good that’s for sure. 
I  heard from Anita this week. She called me. That was nice of her.  She lives in Tennessee. 
She had a heart bypass . Golly I was shocked to hear that.  She had it when she was 50 years old 
My health bothers me so much but when the time comes it will be over. 
I don’t see anyone except when I go to the doctor, get lab work or groceries.  Grocery shopping is real hard on me.  My back & legs hurt so much . 
I don’t see Randi & the little girls like I use to . That hurts me.  I love them so much.  Your little granddaughters are so cute. I know you wouldn’t want to stay away from them . You like little children & these are yours so I know you would be by them all the time. 
Heather was here in February but I didn’t see her as I wasn’t feeling good . I missed seeing her. 
I guess she will be back for a visit in September. 
Your birthday perhaps.  
I sure wish you were here Kim cause things would be so much better.  I’m too old to care about I guess. .  
I just  get so alone here.  Terrible feeling. 
I don’t know what to do but walk around or lay back down after getting up so early . My cat starts giving me trouble with meowing around 4:00 AM & he won’t leave me alone . 
I love you & miss you every single day Kim! 
Time has passed so fast but it doesn’t  matter how long it’s been I still cry for you. 
I still find pennies when I am out & about.  I look up & say thank you  cause I feel  they come from you. 
Much love sweetie.  ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Always Mom! 

Hi Kim,
I was going over to Randis for Christmas Eve but there has been a snow storm and it’s terrible weather.  It’s another holiday of my being home by myself.  It is a lonely time.  I always looked forward to holidays when the family all got together. I enjoyed it so much but it’s been so different  since you have been gone.  
You are missed so much.  I think of you all the time.  Holidays get me down  without you. It’s been 15 years but  it still hurts. 
I wish you a Merry Christmas in Heaven Kim. 
I love you  and I miss you every day. 
Always  
Mom

Hi Kim, 
I spent Thanksgiving this year 2022 with Randi & Kenny . It was really nice to be with them & the little girls Blake and Parker. It was such a nice time. 
I have spent holidays by myself  mostly so I was happy to be with Randi’s family. I miss all our gatherings at the house for all those 30 years. 
You always stayed and helped me clean up after Thanksgiving and Christmas.. 
Here at this apartment for the past 11 years has been lonely.   Nobody comes.  I don’t blame them tho as I don’t like it here either. 
I had Carpal tunnel surgery on November 28 th this year . It’s uncomfortable all wrapped up and have had a lot of pain but it will get better.  I know you had Carpal tunnel surgery years ago.  You never complained tho.  You took a lot in your life as an adult . I constantly think of how you came to the house  &  I loved every time you came. I would come to see you & I loved being able to come over to see you .  I could drop in anytime I wanted. 
Your dad did too.  He is doing ok I guess. 
He’s very good  to all the kids for birthdays  , anniversaries & Christmas.  He’s 83 now. 
I don’t know how I got to 80 years old.  
I know you always said you didn’t want to get old. You would tell me not to grow old. 
No stopping time. It goes really fast. 
I miss you every day Kim.  I love you . 
You are still with me in my heart.  
Love  Mom

Hi Kim, 
Today I was over by Randi and Kenny as they went to teachers conference for your granddaughter Blake. Blake is now 4 years old and in Preschool. 
Blake loves school. . She has two little boyfriends named Eli and Mark.  She told me about them today.  She’s really growing.  Such a sweet pretty girl. 
Parker is two . She is so cute too.  She is learning quickly . She goes to the bathroom by herself. She’s talking pretty good.  The girls get along most of the time.  Just have disagreements once in awhile. 
You would love your two little granddaughters. They are loving and they would cover you with lots of love. 
Heather is coming tomorrow.  She will be here until November 8 th.  It will be so nice to see her again. Her husband , your son in law , Oscar won’t be coming.  They are very happy.  They still are in California & love it there. 
I sure wish you were here Kim.  I miss you so much
Those 15 years have gone by so fast but to me it still seems like yesterday.  
On this day November 3rd  is so hard for me. . 
I dream about you so much.  
I love you Kim. 
Always 
Mo

Hi Kim , 
Today is the 1st day of September 2022.
Your  birthday will be here soon.  Another year has gone so fast .
Yesterday the news came that Walter had died due to  him hitting a car who went thru a light I guess .. It was a sad day . Randi heard it first &  told me . .Randi & Walter broke up in 2013 I believe. 
Walter was engaged to a gal named Erica. 
I am so sorry for the families loss of Walter. I know the pain of losing you .  I know his Mother Debbie is suffering as I do you. 
I will write on your birthday September 8th.  It’s a hard time without  you . 
Randi , Kenny & little ones Blake & Parker are doing fine. Blake starts preschool today . You would love your granddaughters so much . Both Blake and Parker  are the sweetest little girls. Blake is 4 years old and Parker is 2 ..Heather & Oscar are fine living in Huntington Beach , California. 
Heather was here for a week in June. It was so nice to see her . She is doing well & loves her job. 
I love & you &  miss you every day Kim. 
Always , 
Mom

Hi Kim. Today is August  15th,  2020 & like every  day I am thinking  about you. ❤ 
I want you to know you about your two beautiful  granddaughters Blake & Parker.  Blake is 2 yrs. Old now. Parker is 3 months.  They give me such happiness  Kim. You would love them so much. I am teaching Blake to call me Nana for Grandma is you. I hope i can enjoy more time with the little ones. 
Randi & Kenny are a great family.
Heather & Oscar  live in California  now & are very happy. 
You would be so proud of Randi & Heather  Kim. 
We miss you  so much. We keep you in our hearts   always.
I love you & miss you so much. It will be 13 years  since you were called away & that is so hard for me to believe as it seems  like yesterday. 
Your dad is doing good I understand  although he is up there in age now as am I.
Kevin & Kristine  I don't  see much but they have a big family  now.
Kerry & Gina  have a new grandson. Brechen  is a month old now.
With this virus going on it is difficult  to see anyone. I see Blake & Parker  as much as I can. They are so adorable. 
I am going to send you pictures. 
I love   you
Always , Mom.



 

Hi Kim. 
I remember  this day on September  8th , 1964 when  dad & I brought  home this beautiful  baby girl. I was so happy to have your brothers Kevin and Kerry see their new sister. My Mom , your Grandma, was here too anxious to see you.  
You were such a joy. My wish came true to have a sweet little girl & you sure were.
Today as always but not just today, I miss you so much. 
It has never been the same here without you. You are always on my.mind. I look at all of your pictures everyday. You see I have them all together  on my bedroom wall. My heart aches & yes i still cry when I think of you. 
You would be so happy with Randi married to Kenny  & the two beautiful  granddaughters  you have. Blake and Parker.  They are the sweetest little baby  girls. 
Blake is 2 years old now. She is so much fun. Cutest  little girl. Parker  is 3 months old. She is an adorable  baby. Laughs & coos all the time. She sure loves her mommy. 
Heather and Oscar are happily married living in California  & have been for quite a few years now. You would love Oscar. He & Heather are such a great couple. You would be proud of both your girls.
Your brothers are doing fine I guess.  Kevin & Kristine  live in Southern Illinois. I saw them last July 2019 when  they came for your cousin Melissa 's wedding. I hadn't  seen them in years. They all look real good. I was happy to see everyone. Grandchildren which I hadn't  seen in a very long time .Now Kerry & Gina are grandparents too. Kerry & Gina are so happy with their new grandson Brechen.  He's  a sweet little baby boy. 
I am doing ok. Your dad is  too i guess. He looked real good last year at Melissas wedding. Randi goes down to Kenosha with the little girls to
see him. He really loves them. 
 My heart hurts at this time of the year. I wish you would've  let me go with you on your road trip that weekend.  I feel I could've  saved you  from that semi. I would've  looked out for you. It is always on my mind. If only I had been with you .
Children shouldn't  have to leave this earth before their parents. 
I love you Kim. A Heavenly  Birthday  for you today.  I will write again. 
Love Always, ❤
Mom