Ive been thinking about you a lot more lately. Not a day goes by that I dont look up at the stars to make sure your still there. Even on the cloudiest nights you still peek through and twinkle. After a much needed smile, I know all is well. But lately I have felt super sad. I dont know who to confess to so I decided to in you, someone who always listened to my babble. I feel like I let you & Dave down that night. I know I wasnt there but then I think, she wouldnt have wanted me to. She would have wanted me where I was..with your babies. The boys & i stood there, prayed & hugged one another. I tried my hardest not to be scared for them. I will never know if I did the best I can because deep down, i was terrified. The boys did so well in fact, they helped me keep it together. I feel horrible that I wasnt there for you & Dave but I do find comfort knowing I was were you would have wanted me. Thank you for akways being there for whatever I ever needed & sharing your boys with me. I see you everywhere I go. Everytime we do anything, I remember you were just here with us. I know you will always be around. My heart is very heavy, thanks for listening to me. I needed to let that out. Keep shining bright and know you are quite often on my mind.