Dear thamby... I am lost for words and can't believe that you are gone... I will always remember you as a really good boy full of energy and a happy lad... I am very sad to hear that you are not here anymore... I can't stop thinking about you since I heard the terrible news today brother. I remember a lot of things about you that I will cherish in my heart... RIP lil brother...

Theres not a day that goes by where I dont think of you.

Missing you brother.

Three years ago today you stood by my side as we paid tribute to Amma and promised her we'd make her proud. Exactly one year and three days later I lost you too and I'm still still trying to come to terms with the fact that you're gone. I hadn't even had a chance to grieve Amma's loss properly (if there is such thing as grieving properly?) when I lost you too and its all just been too much to process ever since.

As I get through each day one day at a time, my mind is constantly flooded with all the what ifs, memories triggered by the most random things and countless questions that I know will never get answered. I try to push it all aside during the day so I can get on with what needs to be done before they all come flooding back as I lay in bed each night. The guilt and regret eats at me each night and I just wish there was a way to go back and do things differently, make things right, and bring you both back. As much as I tell everyone that the kids are the reason behind my sleep deprived state, they're actually only half the reason. I wish I could text you about it late at night like we used to - before I started trying to fill Amma's shoes and failed miserably. I was only just starting to navigate being a new mum myself and I had no idea what I was doing when I tried mothering you too. You know I've always been protective over you but I'm sorry if I was too hard on you when you already had so much going on. I wish I'd been less of that and more of a friend to you instead - perhaps that way you would've let me in on how much you were really carrying on your shoulders and hiding behind that strong front you always kept up.

The whole time heals everything concept is absolute BS as there's no way of healing when you lose your entire family unit the way I have - you just learn to somehow live with it. Yes I have my own little family now (including a three year old version of you constantly in my face) but nobody and nothing can fill this void - if anything it only make it harder as I'm constantly wishing you were here to share every moment when they do or say something cute or funny or reach a new milestone or do something similar to what you used to do - Aran does it so often! He looks, talks and behaves in many ways just like you did when you were his age. I can't get over how things like certain faces he makes and things he notices and says are as though he's got it from you even though he hardly got a chance to get to know you. It blows my mind at times and I love that a part of you is able to live on through him like that. You would've loved to see his antiques! They both have so much personality and there are so many photos and videos I wish I could share with you daily which would've had you in stitches. I never got a chance to send you that video you asked for of Aran crawling down the stairs backwards. I finally got it on video a few weeks after you asked for it but by then it was too late. I'm sorry you never got to see it. I hate that you can't and won't be around to see them grow up and teach them to break dance like you wanted to and read them the stories you wrote when you were younger (yes, I've kept all your creative writing books to show them later). I hate that you weren't there during those months we spent in hospital with Nila and then to celebrate her first birthday after whats been an incredibly rough ride for her. It breaks my heart knowing that they'll never get a chance to get to know the real you in person.

Aran still sleeps with your blanket every night - in fact he calls it "mama's blanket" and won't sleep with any other quilt or blanket. Its quite cute! He's recently asked me (a few times now) why you don't come over to play with him anymore like you used to when he was a baby. I still haven't found the right words to say in response to that but I'm working on it. Explaining the fact that his Ammamma and Patti both died was hard enough but I'm trying to be more prepared with an answer for when he next asks again. These are conversations I never thought I'd have to have with children let alone my own kids - especially when they're this young. It breaks my heart that its come to this - especially after how much we managed to get through as a family. We always found a way to get through shit and I only wish that had been the case this time as well.

I miss you so much Kumsy. I miss how things used to be when we were all still in Melbourne together. I miss us. I miss our random dnms. I miss our walks to that lookout near our glenny home. I miss having you share new songs with me. I miss going shopping with you. I miss watching epic fails videos together. I miss buying and making you food and feeling that incredible sense of satisfaction seeing you smash it all. I still have some of the stuff I bought for that week you were meant to come down and stay with us. I don't know why but I just can't get myself to get rid of some things - its as though I still have this teeny glimmer of hope that you'll eventually come and raid our pantry like you used to - pathetic, I know! We used to go for long periods without seeing eachother after you moved up to QLD though so thats what it feels like at times. After all accepting the truth and "moving on" (whatever thats meant to look like) is a lot easier said than done.

I'm honestly so thankful for the incredible friends you made during your short life. Some of them have visited or checked in on us since and it was sooo good to hear random stories about you and things you got up to. I was looking forward to hearing more at the memorial we had planned for you last year but we never got a chance to make it happen. Who would've thought one bloody virus would still be screwing us around a year later! I'm so grateful for all the photos and videos your friends have shared though. I've watched them countless times and they always make me both smile and cry at the same time. I just love that I can still hear your voice and even hear you laugh in some of them. You should've had more time Thamby - you should be here capturing more videos and making new memories with us all but instead this is what we've had to resort to. Its so unfair on so many levels but I really hope at the very least your soul is resting in peace now. I'll never be the same without you and no day without you here is easy but the days leading up to your birthday and anniversaries are by far the hardest. I miss you so much and love you - more than Godzilla ♡ Acca

Missing you everyday brother. Not a day goes by where I don't think of you, whether it's a sudden smile remembering the great times we had together or a sadness overwhelms me.. Remembering how much joy you brought to my life and now subsequently less joy I have now that you're gone. It's just not fair, someone who brought so much love and happiness to everyone he met be struck with such tradgey in your life and then for your life to be cut short way too prematurely. Life isn't fair. I miss our almost daily phone calls, man. I could talk to you about anything, something I can't really do with any other friend of mine. You were a special human being, Moosie. Until we meet again my brother.

- Dylan Appleton.

Dear Kuma,

Wherever you went you lit up the room and brought so much joy to the people around you. You're truly a one of a kind and a very special human.

I had the privilege of meeting you back in 2014 when you were travelling in Japan. We’ve only spend a few moments together in Japan but in 2015 and 2016 I was in Australia and have had an amazing time with you. You took me under your wing when I was in Townsville.

We played basketball at your Uni, went for dinner after working out in the gym, talked about our motorcycle passion, you took me to the parties with your friends at Uni and in town and much more.

We’ve spend your last night in the Netherlands together. You're trip in Europe was over and on your last night you called me up to ask if I had some spare time.
I jumped in the car to see you in Amsterdam.

We went out for dinner and had an amazing time. You are such a great loss brother. I can’t believe that you are not here anymore. It hurts my heart really bad and tears are flowing. I have a few pictures of you that I will cherish forever.

You will live on in all of our hearts and hopefully we will see each other again one day.

May your light shine bright.

Miss you

Dear Moose,

I know this has taken me a while to write, but I'm sure you won't mind. The truth is that I'm still processing this loss, as I'm sure many of your beloved friends and family are, too.

I wish we could have stayed in touch more after high school. I will never forget the positive influence you had on my life in those four years at Melbourne High. You were one of the people who could always put a smile on my face, no matter what.

I'm not sure if I ever really told you, but I was going through a flood of mental health issues during school. You were always there to go for a run with me, or go to the gym, or just hang out and talk. You pushed me to become a better person in so many ways, and helped me through those dark times. You always went out of your way to make people feel welcome. I'll never forget your infectious laugh and smile, which would undoubtedly brighten the faces of a room full of people.

I wish we could go for one more run together, or have one more chat. Your birthday falls 3 weeks after mine, so I will always be thinking of you when I reach my milestones. Please know that your influence on others will not be forgotten.

I hope that you are now resting peacefully, my friend.

Love Babbsy.

Hi Kumar,

I met you only for a short period of time, on a medical placement interstate some years ago now. I distinctly remember your cheek and your playfulness which made what might otherwise be a dull experience, fun. You had the ability to make a group of strangers feel like friends. I was glad to have met you in that experience, and even after having only known you for a short period of time, I felt a pang of loss finding out you'd gone. I can't even imagine how your family and friends feel, given I had only known you for a matter of weeks. My thoughts are still with them.

Missing you brother. I'm reminded of you all the time. Little things every other day that I know would've brought back memories or had us laughing hysterically. Hope you're having a blast and continue watching over us. Happy birthday

I remember Kumaran as a friendly, intelligent young man and a very athletically gifted runner.

We met through CanTeen and he touched many lives.

Kumaran,

I don't know what to say... I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't believe this sad news...

We first met in Osaka, Japan. It was a coincidence. After that, You came to see me in Kagawa prefecture, where I live, while you were traveling in Japan! After that, We met again in Oslo!! It was also a coincidence.

You were talking about wanting to be a doctor. You were a very diligent student. We talked about each other's dreams. You always had a beautiful smile. You were like a little brother to me...

You were a great man and it was my pleasure to have known you. My prayers go out to you. Sending much love and hugs to you.

your friend,
Mai

Kumaran, I remember you as a dear little boy. You and your loving family were our neighbours. So very sad that you left this world at such a young age. But the angels in heaven are blessed to have you with them. Thinking of you today and all of my thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful family.

Happy Belated Birthday Kumaran!!!
I was thinking about you a lot yesterday.,though I didn't think about writing you a message here. I was thinking about your 25th birthday and despite everything that happened, you still were cheerful talking about your friends who had made you a chocolate cake. You would have been 27 yesterday. And I know for sure you'd be having a beer or two watching over us.. Probably having more of a life than us in lockdown right now i can still hear your laugh in my head sometimes, it's hard to think you're not here with us. Please keep watching over your Acca and especially over your baby neice, Nila.
Take care and lots of love xxx
Ashwini

Just over a year ago, we said goodbye to you for the last time. We honoured the short but purposeful life you had led and reminisced over times we'd shared - cherished memories that we'll always hold onto.

Uncontrollable tears rolled down our cheeks as we saw photos of you - a bright tenacious little boy full of life and energy who grew into a true hearted young man with an undying thirst for fun and adventure. All throughout you had the same sparkling eyes and infectious smile you had as a child and everybody knew you for.

Our hearts ached as we shared and listened to stories of you and the remarkable ways in which you impacted so many of our lives. We froze and trembled in shock and pain as we saw you lying in a coffin, dressed in clothes I should've got for your upcoming 26th birthday at the time as opposed to your funeral. Your outfit was on point - from your purple printed shirt down to your spingebob squarepants socks - you would've loved it!

The guy who performed your Hindu last rites was an absolute crack pot! I was disappointed that there were no other priests available in Queensland during lockdown, but at the same time, you would've been laughing in hysterics had you heard the BS that came out of his mouth!

Unlike mum, you looked so peaceful lying there but nevertheless, it just wasn't fair. This wasn't how things were meant to be. You weren't meant to leave us like this and have your life cut so short. You still had so many more lives to touch, so many more places to explore, so many more experiences to live, dreams to fulfil, so much more to achieve, celebrate and enjoy in life.

I hate that my last memory of you is of the time I saw you being wheeled into the furnace in your coffin, overwhelmed by shock at the sight of the fiery embers that were about to consume your body and the intense heat I felt as the furnace door opened - along with the realisation that that was the last time I'd ever see you again.

Over a year on and that day still feels like it only happened last week - the pain still so raw, the loss still so overwhelming having not yet had the time and space to even grieve. As I spend each day and night in hospital with your baby niece, a tiny part of me is still hoping I'll see you rock up at the doctors' rounds by Nila's bedside as a new reg who's on for the week or appear around the corridor in scrubs as I go down to grab my morning coffee. The whole "time heals everything" concept is a whole load of BS as there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of you and Amma and miss you both immensely. Milestones and anniversaries intensify the emotions to a another level beyond comprehension.

The lead up to today - what would've been your 27th Birthday - has been painful to say the least. My head has been all over the place - overcome by sadness, guilt, helplessness and the most minute sense of relief knowing you're no longer suffering in silence and darkness after everything we've been through; everything you were going through. I've been flooded with memories of you and past birthdays we've spent together, along with wishful thinking of how you could've spent today had you been around to celebrate. I hate that that I no longer have an address to send you a monkey themed card as I've been doing for as long as I can remember. I hate that we're unable to get together with loved ones to at least honour you the way we would've liked to. I just hate that you're not here.

It's been so lovely hearing from your friends today though and I'm so grateful to have this kind of support thanks to the friendships you forged. Life will never ever be the same without you in it the way you were and no amount of of consoling will mend our broken hearts in your absence - but you'll always continue to be loved and missed more than you'll ever know. Rest in Peace Thamby ❤ Love you xxx

தாய் தந்தை தந்த தங்கம் நீயெ

தங்கம் இழந்த நெஜம் உடைந்தவள் உன் அக்கா தானே

தம்பி என்று சொல்ல துடிக்கும் அவள் உதடும்

தாய் போல் கார்த்த அந்த நெஞ்சும

கண்ணில் ஒரு துளி விழாமல் பார்த்த கண்ணும்

அன்பால் எப்பவும் அரவணைக்க இருந்த கையும்

இப்போ நீ இல்லாமல் எங்கோ துளைத்து தான் தேடிகின்றதே

தினனும் உன்னை நினைத்து ஒவொரு நிமிடமும் எனோ உன்னை

துளைத்தெனின்று தான் தவித்து துடிச்சு ஏங்காத நாளும் இல்லய்யே

பகலும் இரவும் தெரியாமல்  உறவும் உணவும் அறியாமல் உடைந்து தினம்

தன் கண்ணீரை தானே துடைத்து
 
இன்று வரை உன் கைகள் எங்கோ என்று ஏங்காத நேரமும் இல்லயே

நீ சென்ற பயணம் எங்கோ என்று தெரிஞ்சும்

நீ இனி இல்லையே தான் என்று புரிஞ்சும்

உன் ஞாபகம்; தினமும்; நினைவினிலும், கணவனிலும் கலையாமால் என்றும் காட்சியளிக்கின்றதே...

அம்மாவின் திதி செய்ய என் தம்பி வருவான் என்று காத்திருந்த எனக்கு, 
இடி போல் வந்தது ஒரு செய்தி என் தம்பி அம்மாவிடமே சென்றுவிட்டான் என்று,

நொடி பொழுதில் நொருங்கி போனேன் செய்வதறியாமல் திகைத்து போனேன்,

கண்களில் கண்ணீர் நிறைந்து வழிய உன் நினைவுகள் அதிலே மிதந்து செல்ல தவித்து போனேன் உன் அக்கா இவள்,

அம்மாவை இழந்ததால் இவ் அக்கா உனக்கு அம்மாவும் ஆனா‌ள் அவ்வாறிருக்க எனை நீங்கி இப் பூவுலக வாழ்வு வெறுத்து விண்ணுலகம் சென்றதேன் தம்பி,

பிறர் உயிர் காக்க படித்த நீ உன் உயிர் காக்கும் வழி அறியாதது ஏனோ?

அன்பு மாமாவின் அன்பு இல்லாமல் Aran உம் Nila வும் வாழ்வது எவ்வாறு?
அவர்கள் செய்த பாவம் தான் என்ன?

உனது புன்சிரிப்பு, குழந்தைப் பேச்சு, மழலை முகம் இனி எங்கு காண்பேன் 

அர்த்தமுள்ள வாழ்க்கை வாழ நெடுங்காலம் தேவையில்லை, சொற்ப காலம் வாழ்ந்தாலும் பல சாதனைகளை செய்து விட்டாய், பல இதயங்களையும் வென்றுவிட்டாய்,
ஒரு மருத்துவரும் ஆகிவிட்டாய்.
உனை போல் ஒருவன் இப் புவி தனில் இல்லை.

தம்பி! நீயும் அம்மாவும் நலமாக இறைவனுடன் வாழ இறைவனையே பிரார்த்திக்கிறேன். என்றும் எம் நிழலாய் நீங்கள் இருவரும் இருப்பீர்கள் என நம்பி நகர்கிறது என் வாழ்க்கை 

Dear Kumaran,

I had the pleasure of you attending at the clinic earlier this year as a 5th Year Medical Student and I was impressed not only by your exuberance and zest for life but for your passion you had as a Medical Student and always a beautiful smile on your face. I know you would have been an excellent Doctor in any field you chose.
Sadly you were taken too soon and may you rest in peace. Fly high and free now soaring with the angels.

Dear son,
I have seen you and spoken to you just once when i was attending an event at the Misdion in Springfield Lakes, but that one moment was so special. You were respectful, polite and so gentle and I thought to myself how wonderful young man you are. Your lovely, beautiful and kind hearted mum invited me for the event as she was actively helping me in every way as we moved to QLD. When she introduced you to me, you spoke to me with kind words. i saw your mum's enormous love to you and i could see clearly that you made her proud. Dear son, you have left this world to join your beloved mum. As per my religious beliefs, may you and your mum attain the supreme bliss of Nibbana! Nanditha Aunty, Brisbane.

I remember first meeting you as you moved in with Varun and myself. We hit it off straight away and within a few hours you trusted me to fix up the back of your hair with the hair clippers because you couldn't see. This was a mistake...
I took advantage of this rare opportunity and cut a line up your head. You ran to the fridge and started throwing eggs at me, it was all over the house, inside and out. It was absolute mayhem!!
From the moment we met you made each day a memorable one, not knowing what mischief we would get into. I am so grateful that I got to know you and proud to call you a best mate.
You were always willing to help out anyone in need which was the type of guy you were.
I love you mate and what has happened is an absolute tragedy <3

Kumar,
My dear friend. This has taken me many days to write, not because I didn’t know what to say… but rather because I couldn’t believe that it was all real. My heart is filled with so many beautiful memories of our time together. The thing that shines through so brightly when you come to mind is your infectious smile. Even just saying that now lifts my spirits a little and makes me smile too… I’m sure everyone feels this.

You had a heart full of so much goodness to selflessly give to those around you. You were always able to see the good in everyone, and this is a quality I always admired about you. You made me feel so much less alone in the world of medicine, that there was someone who viewed the world in a similar way to myself, and I thank you so deeply for that. You were such a good friend to me in a time that I really needed it… when I felt like I didn’t have many other people to rely on you were there… with unwavering support, genuine kindness and a heart to listen from. I will be forever grateful for that. When I think about our friendship, I also chuckle at the memories I have of us having a great time together! You will always be the life of the party – so full of energy, you had such a vivacious approach to life that enriched everyone’s experience with you. You had such a way with people, you made everyone feel important, valued and heard. You held space for people in such a unique and genuine way. You were an incredible friend and I have no doubt that you would have been an incredible doctor too. My only regret is that I didn’t have the opportunity to say this to you in person. Despite that, I feel your energy around me every time I feel the sun. That warmth reminds me of the feeling your friendship gave me. All the wonderful memories and love shared on this page and amongst all those who knew you is a real testament to who you were as a person. I can’t wait to see your smile up there, please walk alongside me throughout my journey… I could really use a friend like you to turn to.

Love you always,
Georgia xxxx

Kumsy/Moose

I remember meeting you on the first day of med school, you were so friendly and outgoing you treated me as if we’d been mates for years. You were always the life of the party and a friend to everyone. I have so many good memories of mucking around between classes, you hooning around on your little cbr125, parties and pub crawls, impromptu freestyle sessions and breakdancing. Unfortunately life steered us in different directions and I didn’t get to see much of you over the past few years. I hope you’re at peace now mate, the world is poorer without you in it. Rest easy

Phil

My deepest sympathies to this loving and caring family. I feel very sad for your loss.

When I was much younger, I remember playing with Kumuran and his sister. Their family was always very welcoming and kind. In fact, I remember feeling very excited about visiting their place (which was from memory, very near our house, at that time).

Then as time swiftly passed by, we lost contact due to distance. I still cannot help feeling that it was a shame that our close friendship had to take such a strange halt. I very much wish it was otherwise. However, I was overjoyed to see them at a birthday party and just like old times again, we talked. I still have soft and sweet memories of us that I hold very dear.

Sending love and peace to the family. You are in my prayers.


 

Kumaran,

It was hard to write this but I've finally brought myself to. When we first met back in 2013 starting medicine together at James Cook University in Townsville, I knew that I had a friend for life. We clicked instantly and from that moment I have never looked back. Even though I moved universities and cities, our paths remained entwined. We never lost contact and we saw each other regularly for seven years since.

Throughout those seven years I was privileged to share with you memories in: Townsville, Sydney, Brisbane, Byron Bay, Lisbon, Portimao, London, Bournemouth, Porto, Barcelona, Munich and Lagos. We had some amazing times both meeting other people and when it was just us two. I got to know you as closely as friends can possibly know each other. We had talked about things that not even our families had knowledge of. That was because you were such an open person and I felt as though I could speak with you in total confidence. You understood me, you were always insightful with your advice and you made me feel that I was looked after. Your caring and gentle nature put me at ease through the most trying of circumstances, for which I will be forever grateful.

Over the seven years that we have known each other, we have grown as people. Fortunately, we did not grow apart. You are the same sparkling, intelligent and positive man as you were when I met you. I have known you almost all of your adult life, and I have seen you endure setbacks along the way. You found light in situations where I saw only darkness, and you soldiered on unwaveringly. The strength you have mustered to do this beggars belief. Your stout resilience helped me to put my worries into perspective more than once, and that is something that has changed my personality for the better.

A year ago you lost your mother. In fact, the world lost your mother. She was kind, affectionate and caring proportional to you. It does not stretch the imagination too far to see the qualities passed from her to both you and your sister. I spoke to Aunty independently of speaking to you, and she treated me like a son too. I know that you made her proud, and that you continue to make her proud. I also know that you made your sister very proud. You were in a lot of pain since her departure but you passed that same year of university. When I found out the news, I was ecstatic! It truly made my year. Kumaran, that was a victory won through hard work, focus and determination. These are qualities that you were more than capable of exuding, and they were three facets of you I admired greatly.

Now that you are gone, I have mixed emotions. On the one hand I am sad that I will never have the opportunity to see your grin, share a beer with you or confide in you again. On the other, I am relieved to see you released from your suffering. A world without you is a really difficult reality to come to terms with. It is something that everyone around you will have to work through. You've touched so many lives my friend. I have had countless calls, messages and even people at work sharing their condolences with me over the past few days. All of these people are feeling your loss at the moment. I know that this would not bring you any comfort since you never wanted your problems to become others'. However, I want you to know that everyone will work through this and be strong for you. It is what you would have wished for.

Goodbye for now my friend, and say hello to your mum from me. There are many words that I have yet to say, but I know that one day I will have the opportunity to speak them when we are reunited. I will have had a lifetime to think about them when that day comes. If there is anything our friendship taught us, it was that distance makes the heart grow fonder.

Your mate,

Andrew

My dearest Kumaran, you have been robbed from us at such young age, by beautiful angels to keep you close to your mother! You were the oldest and the best nephew I cherished. You were so handsome, intelligent, athletic, articulate, humble & kind. I’m ever so grateful for your presence in my life and always will be!!!!

It was in 2017 when you were here, I was able to spend some golden time with you and was waiting for you to graduate to have a big bash. My boys (Yadu and Gobi) always ask for you, they still play with the table top football game that you bought for them. It is still in our living room and we’ll always keep it there forever.

“you are very special to all of us and will miss you forever”

“You have touched the hearts of my family and we owe you a lifetime of gratitude”

“We pray for you to find peace and rest wherever you are”

Love you forever and ever
Suthar mama, Auntie, Yadu and Gobi

Kumzy,

Grew up together too late and in random doses but once my thambi, you became a true brother to me. You had a family that loved you dearly and you will always be the baby in our eyes. To anyone I brought you near or around, you were a smiling, genuine and pure human. Cannot fathom what’s happened and i wish we had the opportunity to grow up together, be good brothers and mamas to your sis/rak and kids and one day, support each other’s families - if we convinced The right people!

Love from the bottom of my heart,

Niru

Aww it's such a shocking and heartbreaking news ..I remember you as a young kid, who will always tag along with his sister on outings as a little guard who never wanted to be there. And how your Amma would stop you to not to go running in dark and you won't listen and still go ...

It's just unimaginable to even think how all family is going through this loss...sending you love and hugs in this tough time

Wow, really shocking and sad news. I remember meeting you in first year uni. One of the nicest person, always smiling and joking around.

Thambi,

We are terribly shocked and saddened to hear that we have lost another loving, charming, caring person in our family. You always made the people around you happy. Your memories will be treasured in our hearts forever.

May your Soul Rest In Peace.

Priya Acca & Senthil Anna

Kumar,

I'm in absolute shock and disbelief. I can still see your beaming smile from across the room. You were honestly one in a million, the life of the party and the most selfless, beautiful person I have ever known. I remember starting med school with you, it was such a treat to find someone up there in FNQ to make jokes with about the little things back home we missed (even that shitty Melbourne High/PLC social which, we hated to admit, wasn't too bad) You made me feel at home instantly. Even more, your kindness and genuine interest in others made everyone you crossed paths with feel special. You helped me come to terms with my decision to defer and eventually leave med school. Thank you. I can't even put into words how difficult and heart wrenching that decision was, I felt so lost and embarrassed with no-one to talk to. You reached out to me when I needed it the most, you offered support through an incredibly difficult time which you honestly didn't have to do. But that was the kind of person you were. You noticed when people needed help and you didn't think twice about how it might put you out, you just did it. Kumar, I owe you everything for that. I cannot believe you are gone. I wish more than anything I could go back and offer you the same support you did me. I know you would have made an incredible doctor. I miss you. Thank you for everything. Rest In Peace.

Dear son Kumaran,
We are still recovering from the shock after learning of your mother's departure and today we heard more very sad news.
You were about 10 years old when our families came to know each other. We have seen you grow and prosper through all your honorable achievements. Your name would rise in every discussion we had with your mother . You were a bright student and a pre-eminent role model for our children. We remember you would practice for a cross-country competition around our block, waving at us every time you see us when passing our house.
We reminisce your beautiful smile, one we will never forget. Although we haven't seen you since Mayurika's wedding, the joy you expelled that day along with your family retains within our hearts and will be something we will cherish.
May your soul rest in peace,
Udeni Aunty, Deva Uncle and children of Morocco court.

Moose,
You were such a fun-loving, kind soul! I will never forget the copious amount of milk you could drink after a sesh and you attempting a backflip but actually breaking your foot. You laughed your way through the whole thing. Absolute trooper. You will be dearly missed❤️ Forever Young ❤️
Nicole xxx

Moose,

You will be missed. I will always remember you as my Melbourne High cross country running buddy, one of the greatest runners in high school, my year 11 formal date at Mac.Rob where we won King and Queen! and one of the kindest souls to have walked this earth. The selflessness, generosity and immense support you extended to me when I was in hospital for my eating disorder will forever be etched in my memory and heart. You were taken much too soon. May you rest in peace and my deepest sympathy and prayers for your family and loved ones.

Jasmine

Thank you for being a beacon for positivity, hope, cheer and determination. I remember you making such a large impact on me during my years in high school despite being a few years junior and never really talking. I called on you for a hand with some stuff post school and to this day I am so appreciative of the support and encouragement you gave me to pursue my own dreams (to an almost complete stranger). You’ve touched my life and I’m sure countless others. Thank you. Hope you’re resting easy.

Kumaran is loved by all people he touched. Thamby did many great things in his short life. He made you and the comnunity very proud. One of my workmates - he is a marathon man, english guy - told me "one of your mob came 1st or 2nd in his division - 14 years old or closer at the Run Melbourne annual event. It was Kumaran and I was over the moon on that day. Many in Uni found him to be a gem , a rare human being. Many are shedding tears in many corners - silently for eternal peace. Many cherish thamby very dearly for he touched them genuinely and made a difference. I still remeber his ectastic face when he was running towards your parents with his gold star assesement from James anne tutory at highvale school. I pray for thamby. I pray for you Mayurika. I'm sure many are for you and your young family. Kindest regards, Ganesh uncle, Vasanthi aunyy, Agilan, Theshi and Theva

We remember Kumar as a lovely smiling boy always happy when we returned his tennis balls over the fence and how his face would light up when telling us of his successes with his cross country running.
What great neighbours we had, always there to help us.

It is our wish that heaven is wonderful to Kumar & Thevagy and they will be so happy being together forever.

Your loving ex neighbours
Margaret & Doug.

Moose,

It is very sad to think that we will not get to hang out again. We had a very healthy and fun friendship, revolving around socialising, rowing and running (lots of running). I will miss our rapping/beatboxing/running sessions we had with Hari at cross country events. I will miss running around and working out with our friends before and after school. I will always admire how you never lost your youthful positivity and always reached out to include everyone around you in the fun you were having.

I'm sure you are seeing the silver lining of the clouds and making the most of wherever you now are, as you always have. You will be missed immensely.

Love from Donna

Kumaran,
You stayed with us for a few days, but that was enough for me to see the kind soul you carried within you. Although it was the very first time we had met, you almost immediately made me feel comfortable and had me in fits of laughter. I will never forget all the shows you recommended I watch, you begged me to message you as soon as I watched even one episode but I never got around to it. Starting a few of them now and even the most comedic have me in tears. I wish I could have known you for longer and we had stayed in touch.
Thank you for touching everyone’s life like no other. I hope you are at peace in heaven, reunited with your mother. You are dearly missed. Rest easy ❤️

Moose, your exuberance will always stay with me and the lives of those that have been blessed with your spirit.

I was so lucky to see you in a capacity as a leader, fellow breakdancer and friend to so many brothers at high school. This world is a better place for having you had in it.

Extending my heartfelt condolences to your family and closest loved ones.

All my love,
Daniel

Sending love and condolences to all and Maya!
Samantha O’Neill

Such a sad time. Thinking of you all
Hope you have the support of your family around you
Debbie Anderson xxx

Dear Kumaran,

I was shocked when I heard the sad news. Young, energetic, sportive, brilliant student gone too soon. I still remember your smile and the time spend in my VCE class. May your soul rest in peace.

Senti Senthilmohan

Dear Kumsy,

You were taken from us way too soon. When you lived in Sydney I was at your house so often and you were this skinny teenager who had boundless energy and always cracking jokes. I'll always remeber how you used to call me Abi Akka and like the rest of your amazing family make me feel like I was part of your family. You were such a kind and caring soul even as a teenager. I'll forever remeber you this way.

Love
Abi Akka

My little Kumsy,
Gone too soon...
But you will always be in my heart forever....
I take comfort in knowing that there is one more angel in heaven.... 
Rest in peace my dear child.

Love
Manju acca

Hey Kumaran,

I can't believe I am writing this. Thanks for being a light in our lives - no matter what was happening in your life you were always smiling and made life look easy. You really knew how to live life, make the most of your time with loved ones and party!! One thing that consoles me is I am happy you could travel the world for a year and see all the beauty on Earth before leaving us.
Even though we couldn't spend a lot time with each other, especially living in different states, I am glad to say you are my cousin and someone very special to all of us.
I still remember my 13th birthday you had come to.. All my friends were telling me how cool you were and wanted to get to know you more. You were just the type to click with just about anyone!
My most recent memory is hanging with you last year where we went to the gym and you showed me how to use the bars properly on leg day and we had some laughs together.
I am going to miss talking to you the day before my birthday to say happy birthday to you! August buddies..

You are very loved and cared for and taken too soon. Hope you are resting easy with Mami.

Love,
Ashwinii

Lil Kumzy !!!

Every single time we crossed paths I saw a smile on your face. People knew you as an amazing dancer with your crazy moves... I was one of the lucky ones to witness what happened on the dance floor at your sister’s wedding :) you are the life of the party brother.

Your an amazing sole and you have left holes in our hearts with your departure from us.

You will be missed by many, rest well thumbi.

From
Praz

Dear Thamby
You left without warning
Gone so fast to see your mum
Now we all have our memories
of your past.

Rest In Peace Thamby
Love Chelvi and Kumaran

Dear Thambi,

Some of my fondest childhood memories are of visiting you and your family in Glen Waverley. You have always been such a kindhearted and enthusiastic friend. The world is at a great loss without you.

Your bond with Mayuri and love for your family has been so prominent as we’ve grown up from little kids to bright young adults. Although we were not as close recently, you and Mayuri have and always will be close in my heart.

You’ll be missed dear brother. I hope you’re at peace in heaven now.

Xo
Vishaka

We're still having trouble coming to terms with your Amma's passing, the news about you is something we still haven't even begun to process. We've known you since you were in primary school, your many, many achievements in sport, leadership and academics was nothing short of inspiring to witness - your cross country record can still be found in the Melbourne High school diaries. You were such a kind and humble human being, always smiling and radiant, and you'll always be remembered as a bright star. It's not easy to say goodbye to you but we hope you're with your Amma now and in peace.

- Siva Ratnanesan

Moose , I’m going to miss you alot my friend. When I heard the news I just couldn’t believe it. All I could think were all the good times we had together in Brisbane. Meeting you at Friday’s when I first arrived in Brisbane ,you were such a nice guy and I still remember your awesome smile dude. We all miss you bro.

Moose,

Although this loss will never feel normal to me, when I think of you, I will always look back fondly on all the memories we shared and how much of a better person you made me.

In high school, we were inseparable. And we wanted everyone to know it. From rocking the same running gear, to etching our names into trees, the pavement and the ticket machine in Heyington station, we relished in being known as ‘Moose and Haz’. I remember first meeting you and being in awe of your friendliness and athleticism. It is what made me want to start running and become more like you. I remember school term holidays; when we would meet up at school 7AM sharp, run for 2 hours, chill at the beach or in the city until dusk and repeat that every single day.

I was always envious of your determination. Whether it was to win a race or when we were stuffing our faces with a box full of maxibons, you were relentless when it came to a challenge. I distinctly remember the one time that I barely beat you in a 500m sprint. You were very disappointed even though it was just a drill, but within a week of training, ensured that it would never, ever happen again… And it didn’t.

You always encouraged me to get out of my comfort zone. I’ll never forget when we dressed as “White Chicks” for Muck Up day and when we missed the Year 12 school photo. We were so upset but you were determined to uplift our spirits. So we pulled that watermelon stunt, a memory that I'll never forget.

I’ll miss chilling at the lagoon in Springfield Lakes, laughing and chatting away exactly how we did 10 years ago. I’ll cherish all the ridiculous phrases and inside jokes we made about anything and everything, both in school and into our adult years; a habit we did not seem to discard. I’ll cherish all the boys’ trips; the roadtrip in the Echo to Townsy, the many link ups in the Goldie and all the fortunate times when we were all reunited in Melbourne. I know you’ll be there with us too at all the future getaways.

I am so, so grateful for the special bond we had for over 10 years. They say that it is rare to experience a friendship like that. The unique thing about you is that you had a special bond with everyone you met, and it didn’t take long for it to form either. I loved that about you and I'm so proud to call you my friend. I have never met anyone so loving, kind and selfless. And I don’t think I ever will. I am so blessed to have known you.

Rest in peace brother,

Haz

Moose, my man...

When Harin told me what happened, I didn't want to believe him. You were one of the most resilient and positive guys that I've ever known. So it really just did not make sense. None of this makes sense at all. How could you not be around anymore? You're one of those guys that always made your time available to your friends. You'd always show up. So honestly... it's really hard for me to accept this.

You know every time I think about you, one memory sticks. It's of those times we used to go play basketball at Glendal together. You, Harin, Tom, and I. We were just a group of tough ass teenage dudes, trying to make it to the NBA, we didn't have time for emotions. It wasn't "cool". Yet you were the one guy that made us stop our play, grab the ball off our hands randomly, put it on the ground to sit on it. And you'd say: "Alright, let's all have a DnM".

At the time we were all just like "Oh hell no, get out of here! DnMs are LAME". But you'd force us, and we'd talk. Talk about our feelings, talk about what we were struggling with. We'd talk about girls, we'd talk about our big dreams. You and I, we'd talk about our parents. We bonded over the pain we had to deal with growing up. It wasn't easy, but we made it through.

And as we finished up high school, we went on to chase these dreams. Obviously, the NBA never happened. But you'd move to Townsville for Med School, and I'd go to Canberra for Law School. We joked about being Harold and Kumar. God, I took you for granted.

The past 7 years, we didn't talk much. I mean, we caught up a few times, but I don't know man, you were just one of those guys that made it easy for me. We didn't need to always catch up, we've been friends for so long, I knew you were always gonna be around if I ever needed you. Or you needed me. And we were supposed to go on that Sydney trip - you, me, Tom, and Harin. We kept delaying it, life and all that came up, and we just kept on pushing it back, years and years. But it would've been alright, because we'd get around to it eventually.

So honestly, my man, I feel kind of robbed.

There were so many things we were supposed to get to. You're one of those friends I just thought would always be around my life man. Our kids would be friends, they'd hear of our stories growing up in our neighbourhood. We'd tell them that they'd be lucky to be able to find friendships like the one we shared, being able to just rock up at each other's houses, chill out, sleep over, play Monopoly all night. Next morning I'd be like "Yo, my dog's being a pain in the ass in the backyard digging up all these holes, can you go take him out for a run?" And you'd come over within like 10 minutes and give her the work out of her life. Then we'd grow old, and I don't know man, I never brought up the idea with you, but I always thought it'd be so fun when we're like 100 or something, to go chill out at a nursing home together, go piss off some nurses you know? You and I, we'd walk behind some old fool, we'd scream "GET HIM!", and go give him a heart attack or something. Just like the good old days, yeah?

I'm seriously going to miss you man. Two nights ago I was driving to my girlfriend's house and "See You Again" came up on my playlist, and I just started crying. Pretty lame huh? But you'd probably like that, me being sensitive and all that. You'd probably go "alright how about we have a DnM now?"

I'm sorry I took you for granted, and I'm sorry I didn't hear about what happened to your parents last year. If I knew, I would've reached out. I would've made sure you were alright. I don't know, I wonder if I could've helped... just thinking about what you've gone through, how you must've felt for the past year, just breaks my heart.

Thank you for all the good laughs, the life lessons, the great chats. Thank you for inspiring those teenagers back then to be better people. I'm sure many of those around you can agree that we've all learned a lot from you, on kindness, on hard work, on how to have a lot of fun whilst riding along on the journey of life.

You've gone too early, but I seriously hope you're in a better place now. Tell your mum I said hi, tell her that every time I have papadums I think of the ones she made for us once. They were my first. And wait for me yeah? I'll join you there eventually.

In the meantime, you better wipe the dust off your ukulele. We never got around to making those AJ Rafael covers you know? Let's pick it up when I get there.

See you again Moose.

Rest in peace and paradise,
Tom Xu

Kumaran, Moose, Kumsy Lala, all the other names I ever called you.

We were six years old when you were the new kid at school, when we became the closest of friends, when I understood this before I had the words to articulate it: that you lit up every room you were ever in, but always carved more light for everyone else.

I am so grateful that the universe decided to thread our lives together over and over again — from Glendal, to Glen Waverley, to MHS and Mac.Rob. So many of these memories are blurred at the edges but these are the things that I will remember with vivid clarity: You made me laugh so much; you were always unapologetically, exuberantly silly. You always gave me the benefit of the doubt. Everyone who ever met you adored you. I remember on Grade 6 camp, when you got the nickname Moose, when we were discussing whether it was Mousse or Moose, when the whole year level chanted it out loud. You were the first person I ever met who cared about people in the way I wanted to care about people. You always insisted on walking me home, of taking the long way back so we could spend more time talking. You’d always save me a seat on the train. From you, I learned how to bring joy into the world, how to laugh endlessly at complete mundanity, how to love graciously, extravagantly, without judgement. We grew up together. There are, and will always be, refractions of you in my life.

You’ll be missed <3