Happy Birthday ~ Son

It took me ~ Ten years, ten months & seven days ~
To accept ~ Your passing ~
It is just what it is ~
Am I OK?
Yes, I Am ~
Now what?
I Am ready ~ SumaraMarie

I get to love you ~
It's the best thing I get to do ~
Mom

Happy Birthday Son ~ Jimmy and Mom ~
I can see/feel your halo. It is my saving grace.

Hi Kurkel,
WOW - Ten years ~ Hard to believe. Seems like yesterday. Perhaps it will always seem like yesterday?
I miss you, Love Mom

Thank you for the air that I can breathe
Thank you for these songs you've given me
Thank you for the times I couldn't see
Now we're free
Thank you for this simple life I know
Thank you for the pain of letting go
Thank you for the times I've felt alone
Now we're home

I don't wanna waste
I won't give up
I don't wanna taste
I've had enough
Everybody knows there's only love
There's only love now

Thank you for this holy family
Thank you my beloved Guruji
Thank you for this peace and harmony
Let it be
Thank you for my son you saved his life
Thank you for the suffering and strife
Thank you for the times I couldn't fight
In your light

I don't wanna waste
I won't give up
I don't wanna taste
I've had enough
Everybody knows there's only love
There's only love now
Prem & Sangita — Thank You

I can see your Halo ~
You’re my saving grace ~ 
The walls are tumbling down ~
I ain't ever gonna shut you out ~
I can see your Halo ~
I'm addicted to your light
You're everything you need ~ Thanks

Merry Christmas, Son I miss you.
Love Mom

Happy Father's Day, Dad. Had a dream about you the other night. It was great to see you, even if it was just my subconscious, but who knows right?

WOW - 64 today.
I would love to have seen you at 64 years old.
Happy Birthday ~ 
Love, Mom

Missing you son ~

Hi Kurkel
Happy Birthday Son ~
I thought I would share some thoughts with you today.
Perceiving outside the box
Requires a pyrimidine shift
Requires letting go of physical reality
Requires effort and focus
Archiving non-physical reality
Merging with the Source that is me
Requires letting go of the human, that is me, in profound ways
Celebrating the work I continue to do
Putting the world in a little bit more, righter place
Standing on the leading edge being
Standing alone on the leading edge is fast fading
My new association with who I am has powerfully taken its place.
Tuned in, to Infinite intelligence
Solutions flow forth to me more than ever before
Standing as a clear-minded being
Comfortable in my leadership
Feeling the solutions as others complain
Speaking profoundly from my point of view
Connected to Source energy
Flowing with the stream from inside
It is the intention I set forth, accomplished
I am a creator in alignment with Infinite intelligence
I bless negative emotion regarding the importance of it
It is the indication that I am setting forth, for this Universe expansion
Feeling the solution fast, that the problem has pointed out
New found freedom in the absence of resistance
I love me as They do
I reap the benefit of me as They do
Love You, Mom

Remember that time, tripping, riding our bikes on the plaza at 2AM? There was that cop who decided that the, "No Riding Bikes on the Plaza Rule" also applied in the middle of the night with not another soul around. He hit us with his spotlight, and ordered us in his most practiced command-voice to, stop what we were doing and get over to his car. We glanced at each other for only a split second before we turned in his direction and yelled back in unison, "go f yourself!" Laughing like maniacs we took off and sped away. We sped and looped through back ways and alleys that only bike riders know, until we found a likely doorway where we parked, hidden in the deep shadows, still shaking with laughter. It took fifteen minutes of the cop continuing to tear around the streets, twice screaming past our hiding spot, looking for us, chasing only himself, until he finally gave up and went away in search of donuts I suppose. Good times! Even thinking about it now gives me great a laugh. Thanks.-p

The 'Wonder' Of You
My Appreciation
Worthiness and Faith
Guide me My 'Wonder'
I want to know my Worth
How can I express 'Queen' gracefully, humbly, eloquently, sincerely
Queenly? Queen-like? Queen ~ Silently, it is between me and 'Wonder'
Composure under freedom 
The dignity that I lost 
I feel so unforgiven
Fourteen and destroyed by phone
Seventy two and destroyed by phone
Remember who I Am
Accept what is physically gone, forevermore
I Am safe
Get up
Brush me off
Start again
Allow the years to go by in Grace
Could not destroy me
It's over now
Begin again
Queen-size me 
A feeling of silent failure
I hear that ~ Be gone
Stop it
Expose it for what it is
It is a thought, no more than a false belief ~ My Queen
Let it go
Yes, departed
A somber day today ~ Easter ~ Death
Allow it to disperse, flow away, vanish
Okay
Sadness be-gone 
No more crying
No more pain
No more loss
I will not mention it again
Choosing what feels better, now
I have my own voice
My own well-being
It is freedom ~ That I want
Freedom from what? My 'Wonder'
Freedom from sadness, negative thoughts,
Freedom from old belief systems
Blank-ness, rowing upstream
I want Self-stability
No boundary, floating in freedom, calmness, awareness, conscious,
flowing downriver, with ease, fun, pleasure, inner silence 
Faith is more than I Am
Rest from that inner blah, blah, fear-filled blah
No one is doing it to me ~ No one
Doing it to myself
I forgive
Freedom from that demanding BS of lonesomeness,
Letdown, dissatisfaction, gloom and doom, darkness, and desperation 
Worthiness and Faith are my Freedom
'Wonder' is my beloved 
Joy is my destiny
Divine Creation my purpose
Ecstasy my result
How do I ~ Physically ~ Live this freedom
Help Me ~ Help Me ~ My 'Wonder'
Yes, Indeed My 'Queen' Of Creation
My Daughter Of Origin
Here I Am ~ I Am Yours ~ I Am You
In Appreciation
My Worthiness and Faith
My Promise
I Am Yours ~ I Am Me
My 'Wonder'
Bliss My Goal

The world is the worst it has ever been ~
And ~ In contrast
It is the best it has ever been ~
I get to choose the world I play in ~

This is my Freedom ~ Or not ~
I am a creator
The purpose of my life is ~ 'Joy' ~ This is my mission
As I Am thinking ~ I Am vibrating
As I Am vibrating ~ I Am attracting
I always get back the essences of what I Am vibrating ~
Creator ~ That I Am
Sumara Marie ~ Mom

Happy Birthday ~ Son
We all choose to come here and experience what we are living.
You served me well.
Job well done.
You are so beautiful ~
I Am so happy to have been your ~ Mom
Thank You ~ Love You ~ Miss You

Hi Son,
Thank you for assisting me on my path of feeling good, without conditions.
That I am in charge of me and how I feel at any given moment.
That I choose to be happy and satisfied living my life, or not.
And, in my knowing, that I do want to, feel good, happy, loving, and satisfied, no matter what the conditions may be ~
Thanks for spending physical time with me. It was my pleasure ~
You are my 'Champion' ~ Son
Love You, Miss You,
And I do know you are with me always ~ Thanks Little Buddy ~
`
Mom

We spent a lot of time laughing: being out late on the Capitol ramp, maybe 2 AM watching the stars dance? Riding our bikes to the plaza for no good reason, only to end up making fun of an overzealous cop as he tried to enforce the "No Bike Riding on the Plaza" rule? Glancing at one another and taking off in two different directions? Meeting up around a corner and pausing, in plain site, in a doorway. Laughing doubled over, tears streaming down our faces, while the rabid patrol car screeched and zoomed back and forth, tires burning circles on the freezing winter pavement. We waited, not another human being anywhere around, until he gave up his fruitless chase, and then rode over to the all night coffee place and planned more mischief. Still laughing...

Hi Kurkel,
Just sending my thoughts to you.
December 25th, 2018
My joyful life experience from this point and beyond
Living happily ever after
Defining what I want
Believing what I want ~ Can be
Every moment I Am guided to where I want to be
I Am at peace with what is
Where I Am ~ I Am satisfied
Where I Am is perfect and evolving
Where you are is perfect and evolving
My evolving is creation at it's best
It is the gas in the car
The vibration of swirling momentum
I continually look for things to be improved/evolved
Everything is always working out for me
My intention is to never stop reaching for more
It is my purpose
Everything is always working out for me
Everything is always working out for you
What else can I define ~ That I want
Since things are always working for me
Go on have a blast ~ Buchanan ~
Go right ahead ~ Have a freak-en blast
Crystal Magic with Great Mastery
This is how I did it then ~ This is how I Am doing it again
No Big Deal ~ It is the plan
These desires are only things to focus upon ~ So I can ride this amazing river of life ~ in joy, fun, to love, being the creator that I Am
To be who I came here to be ~
Merry Christmas ~ I miss your physical self ~
I know you are here with me now and forever
I love you Son
Mom

Hi Son,
What is my life like allowing myself to feel good, free, and fun
No overlay of something is wrong, things will go wrong, feelings of fear
What does that feel like?
Being relaxed and free to enjoy my life
To believe in what I want
I am here to turn thoughts, desires, into things, meaningful outcomes, places, relationships, abundance in all matters
I came for the thrill of the manifestation of what I desire
To allow my vibrational frequency to match up with my Source 
To witness the evolution of continuous new desires
'Creators Must Create'
It's What I Do
This is who I am
That’s the plan
I am fulfiling, fulfilled, and satisfied, in alignment
When I am not creating – I am bored, stagnate – unfulfilled
My emotions let me know where I am
Law Of Attraction is a powerful matter of reality ~
It is consistent, stable, certain, dependable, reliable, trustworthy,
rock-steady, honest, safe, secure, authentic, stable, permanent, lasting, abiding, enduring, forever guidance
Feeling ready to go
Feeling invincible
A whole lot of fun ~ Baby
I am a vibrational being
I live in a vibrational Universe 
In a dominant state of well-being
That's it
Let The Lion, The Bull, and The Dragon Loose
Dang ~ What could be better
Thoughts to words
Thoughts to things
Love You Son,
Mom
By the way, I know you are here ~

Hi Son,
Just wanted to share what I have awakened to.
The journey of grief is the deep feeling of how much I have loved and been loved.
Achieving open ways of grieving is essential to my well-being and alignment to the mastery of my life.
Grief will come to all of us. Those we love will die, love relationships change, pets we love will pass on, the loss of a home, and then, we too will die.
Great loss or great change and open grieving have the power to awaken wisdom and deep compassion for the self within.
It contains the choice to freely love ourselves and others without conditions.
Love Mom

Hi Kurkel,
Just wanted to connect ~
Love You,
Mom

Never Will I Say, Goodby

Look on down from the bridge, son
You’ve got the best of both worlds
There's still fountains down here
Look on down from the bridge
It's still raining here, son
So far away and so right here
Everybody just wants to be free
Look away from the sky
Feel you inside my heart
It's no different when you're leaving
I can't be the same to you now
You’re just gone, just gone
How could I say goodbye
I can't say goodbye
I feel you right here
Maybe I'll just place my hands over you
And close my eyes real tight
There's a light where you are
And you know ~~ Oh yeah, you know
Look on down from the bridge, son
Are you waiting for me
Mom

Hi Son,
Happy Fathers Day ~
Guess what ~
I Am EXACTLY where I want to be ~
Allowing the Universe to cooperate with my desires ~
As it has always been asked of me ~ Co-creation at it's best ~
Thank you for being a part of that~
You were amazing and you continue to be amazing ~
Thank you so very much for being who you are ~
Love You,
Mom

Hey Dad, I spoke once about forgiveness, but I fear that was my own hubris. The other night I was talking about you with Mom, in the last place I spoke with my Grandmother about you, and I realized it was I who should ask for forgiveness from you. Not for myself now, but for the misguided youth that I was. I understand now, better than most, about the struggles you went through. Maybe in the next life we'll have that chance to speak. Maybe then, we can be friends again.

Hi,
I have let go of my 'conditions' regarding loving you ~ life.
I am now enjoying my own feelings of loving, myself and others, free of confinement.
I am waking up and coming out of sadness into joy-filed living.
Really it doesn’t mean anything, except I am freely loving.
It feels better ~ Much more fun ~
Thank You, Son
Love Mom

Hey Kurt - I've been working on my house and one of the workers turns out to be a guy who went to same high school I went to, spent a lot of time skateboarding, and has an interest in pressure as a means of power generation.-) He put me on to something that I thought you might like to see - https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pressure_exchanger - Interesting huh? Maybe we were on the right track after all.

Hi Son,
Merry Christmas ~
I miss you ~
Mom

To Heal It ~
I Have Needed To Feel It ~
I Have Done That ~ Son
Paradigm Shift ~
I Can Never Go Back ~
I Love You ~ I Miss You
Mom

Hi Kurkel,
Miss you ~

Hi Son,
Happy Birthday ~
I love you for Being ~
I miss you ~
Appreciation is my key ~
Who I was then ~
Who I Am now ~
Forever expanding ~
Love Mom

Hi Son,
Missing you ~

I wanna hold the hand inside you
I wanna take the breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of light into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
The strange light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart is out of home
You put your hands into your head
And your smiles cover your heart.
Fade Into You
Love You ~ Mom

Hi Son,
Just chattering ~
It will soon be four years sense you 'Expanded' ~
I am happy for you ~
And, I miss you ~

I received a little enlightenment this morning ~
Seeing myself ~ through other people’s eyes ~
What they think about me ~ How they judge me ~
It is an uncontrollable factor ~
And, not who I really Am ~ Who, I have become ~

"My truth is ~ I do not give a flying flip ~ what other people think of me ~
Therein lies my power and my creative self " ~ :)

Thank you Source ~ I love ~ I love ~ I love ~
I Am playfull today ~ :)
Love You,
Mom

Hello son,
Just wanted to say hello.

I turn to the higher truths
No one has done anything to hurt me
No one can empower me or dis-empower me
To believe otherwise is an illusion
It can feel that way, because of my own needs
However, I am in charge
I forgive those who I believed ~ deliberately hurt or abandoned me
That ~ was an illusion
They never plotted to reject me. They had their own needs.
I projected expectations onto them based on my own desires.
They failed to live up to my illusion.
It's OK ~ I love them ~ I love me, too.
Mom

Hi Son,
Just wanted to say hello ~

Words are flowing out like
Endless rain into a paper cup
They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
Are drifting through my opened mind
Possessing and caressing me.

Jai Guru Deva. Om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light, which
Dance before me like a million eyes,
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a
Restless wind inside a letter box
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.

Jai Guru Deva. Om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter, shades of life
Are ringing through my opened ears
Inciting and inviting me.
Limitless undying love, which
Shines around me like a million suns,
It calls me on and on across the universe

Jai Guru Deva, om.
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Jai Guru Deva
Mom

Fear ~ ThinkFeeling

I think ~ Great ~ I feel fear
Contrast is wonderful 
Feel Good ~ Feel Bad
I can always choose again 
Powerfully ~ What I do want to feel
It is Creation at its best 
What contrasting thought is
Is correct to who I am 
As a being who came here in a state of well being
I can feel ~ everything is fine
Things are always working out for me
I am willing to allow them to
I was born to create
Yes
Yes ~ in this state of well being and contrast
I am an evolver of what is on the leading edge of creation
I was born into a contrasting environment
Earth ~ Universe
It is the sweet spot
I can always choose again
Turning leading edge thoughts
Into amazing feeling things
That feel good is ~ ThinkFeeling at its best
Bliss
Love Mom
See Ya

Holy Now

When I was a boy, each week
On Sunday, we would go to church
And pay attention to the priest
He would read the holy word
And consecrate the holy bread
And everyone would kneel and bow
Today the only difference is
Everything is holy now
Everything, everything
Everything is holy now

When I was in Sunday school
We would learn about the time
Moses split the sea in two
Jesus made the water wine
And I remember feeling sad
That miracles don’t happen still
But now I can’t keep track
‘Cause everything’s a miracle
Everything, Everything
Everything’s a miracle

Wine from water is not so small
But an even better magic trick
Is that anything is here at all
So the challenging thing becomes
Not to look for miracles
But finding where there isn’t one

When holy water was rare at best
It barely wet my fingertips
But now I have to hold my breath
Like I’m swimming in a sea of it
It used to be a world half there
Heaven’s second rate hand-me-down
But I walk it with a reverent air
‘Cause everything is holy now
Everything, everything
Everything is holy now

Read a questioning child’s face
And say it’s not a testament
That’d be very hard to say
See another new morning come
And say it’s not a sacrament
I tell you that it can’t be done

This morning, outside I stood
And saw a little red-winged bird
Shining like a burning bush
Singing like a scripture verse
It made me want to bow my head
I remember when church let out
How things have changed since then
Everything is holy now
It used to be a world half-there
Heaven’s second rate hand-me-down
But I walk it with a reverent air
‘Cause everything is holy now
Mom

Japanese Bowl

I’m like one of those Japanese bowls
That were made long ago
I have some cracks in me
They have been filled with gold

That’s what they used back then
When they had a bowl to mend
It did not hide the cracks
It made them shine instead

So now every old scar shows
Makes me more beautiful
And worth a much higher price

I’m like one of those Japanese bowls
I was made long ago
I have some cracks you can see
See how they shine of gold

From every time I broke
And anyone’s eyes can see
I’m not what I used to be

But in a collector’s mind
All of these jagged lines
Make me more beautiful
And worth a much higher price

I’m like one of those Japanese bowls
I was made long ago
I have some cracks you can see
See how they shine of gold

Finely ~ I love you with no conditions ~ Son

My~Gods wealth is circulating in Life
It flows to me in a river of wonderful abundance 
All spheres of Life
All my needs, desires and goals
Matched instantly by infinite intelligence
I Am one with My~God
My partner in creation
Creating Life together is my purpose
Time after time, after time ~ moment after moment
Always stable, clear and ever flowing 
Forever creating together
I imagine abundance in my Life
I Am the feelings that wonderful abundance creates
I Am in the state of appreciation 
I Am abundant 
I appreciate you ~ No conditions 
Sumara Marie  Mom to you, son `
Sumara Marie

I am summonings life for new desires
Desires that cause me to feel empowered
Up-liftment ~ Excited ~ Passionate ~ Expanded
Vibrant~Joyfully Now~
Creating ~ More ~ Create ~ Create ~ Create
Alive ~ I Am
Who I Came To Be
Mom

He forgives you too, Jasion

Hi Son,
~ Find The Best Possible Thought ~
~ I Can Possibly Feel ~
~ Make Peace With Where I Am ~
~ The Leading Edge ~
~ As I Choose To Let Go ~

~ Most Important Of All ~ Is Feeling Good ~
~ All I Need To Know ~
~ Most Important Of All ~ Is Feeling Good ~ 

~ Fill My Vibration With Feel Good Wonderment ~
~ Being In The Feel Good Place ~
~ Everything Going My Way ~
~ Well-being Abounds ~
~ I Am That I Am ~
~ O-key Do-key Then ~
 Love You, Mom

Contrast
There is value in experiencing my life's contrast
I came here with value
I have been finding my way sense I came
The contrast has assisted me to find who I am
And what I desire
I like who I have become
Really like it
Contrast has defined me
I know what I want and what I do not want
I am deliberate in my definition
There is more
Than I have been able to allow
I am eager to discover more of who I Am
I experience emotional guidance
I expand into more of who I came here to be
It is delicious
I feel empty when I get off track
Effort to improve is not necessary
It is ease
Expansion is natural in the universe
Expantion is what it does
It is creating creation
My work has been to allow expansion
Revealed to me in more ways than I imagine
I am certain that the path is in the here and now
My level of evolution is the basis of my emotional feeling
Appreciation is my final key
My devotion to Source
Discovering who I Am
Maintaining my fullness of who I AM
My only way of up lifting
Is through my power of my example
It is between my Source and myself
I appreciate
Everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Everything I do
It is for sure
The easiest
Most productive
Most effective
Most progressive
Experience I have ever had
I understand that there is no price to pay
It is about the ease of being
I am so exhilarated to be on the leading edge
Knowing who I Am
Feeling the fullness of who I AM
In this moment in time
Sharing it with others
In devotion
It is my feeling within
Not in the words ~ That I am going for
Appreciation ~ Love ~ Devotion
In their purest form
I can not distinguish apart
Worthiness ~ Clarity ~ Exhilaration ~ Passion
In their purest form
I can not distinguish apart
I so adore living in this world
Knowing the fullness of who I Am
Aware in this moment in time and space
I love the advantage that it provides for me
For the advantage that it provides for everyone
Who lay eyes on me
I love this life experience
I love coming forth in this time space reality
I love the Source energy from which I come
I love knowing Source is aware of me
I love knowing that Source is at the leading edge with me
I love knowing that in any moment in time
I have entree to see
Through the eyes of Source
I now know that appreciation is Source
Looking through me
The language of vibration
There is great love here for you
Mom
Sumara Marie

No Big Deal
We, you and I, are consciousness in form ~
Vibrational light, beings ~
No big deal ~
We channel light ~ or not
Depending ~ on how toxic our temples have become ~
Toxins that we eat, drink, think and feel ~
Diet ~ Water ~ Movement ~ Thought ~ Emotions ~
Do I live in the “Feel Good Place” ~ or not ~
Do I discipline myself ~
Do I experience emotional well being ~
Physically feeling good ~
Spiritually living in gratitude ~ or not ~
Nothing mysterious about it ~
We are in control of it all ~
Actually, we are co-creating ~
With the power that creates worlds ~
Simple choices ~ intelligent decisions ~
No big deal ~
Those decisions determine the quality & longevity of moments spent ~
In the gift of Life ~
Not difficult to understand ~ Really, quite simple ~
Those choices are who ~
"I Am"

You're in your cocoon ~
Let your birth come ~
Except it ~ Allow it ~
The pain will transform into gratitude ~
Be all that you came to be

I am in my cocoon ~
I let my birth come ~
I except it ~ I allow it ~
My pain is transforming into gratitude ~
I Am becoming all I came to Be ~

I came ~ to love you ~
And ~ I do ~

Aloha Son
Mom

A Word To my Son

What ever agreements you ~
Your children ~
Myself ~
Made ~
Before our births ~
We all succeeded ~
Just as agreed ~
Others don't get to disapprove of you ~
Or approve of you ~
We only have the divine right to accept you ~
As you are ~
We do not have the right to judge you ~
You are not out of whack ~ when we disapprove ~
We are ~
No one gets to choose who you are ~
No one has control over you ~
That is misplaced ~
You came connected to Source energy ~
As we did ~
You can not go along with anyone’s disapproval ~
Nothing is missing in you ~
You are perfect as you are ~
Eternally changing and expanding~
You have fulfilled the agreement ~
We did, as well ~
Good job ~ Well done ~ To us all ~
Next time we can expand
Our focus and alignment ~
There is always more ~
Happy Fathers Day ~ Son ~
I love You,
Mom

Happy Birthday Son


Nothing Is Out Of Reach

Refuse to Allow the Outside World to Influence

No Longer Allowing the Abuse of My Own Mind

Clam My Own Magnificence

I Am What I Have Been Yearning For

Wounds Still Bleed

Vials of Illusions

False Beliefs

Reclam Myself

It Is But A Choice

Turn Myself to My Noble~Self

Divinely Devoted

Choice Is of Importance

Defer To My Heart and My Soul

Awaken to My Power

Magnificent

Surrounded By Divine Light

Appropriate Action ~ From Conflict

Undivided Attention

Return Of The Light

Time To Awaken To Well Being

Take My Place

Co-Creator

Gentle ~ Kind ~ Soft ~ Self-assertive

Compassionate ~ Nurturing

Forward Movement

Divine Guidance

I Am ~ Not Alone

Restore My Inner Wisdom

Gratitude In My Heart

My Greater Self

Soothing My Soul

Time To Awaken

Heart ~ Savvy

Restoration of My Life

Ocean Blue

That ~ That Created ~ Ocean

Created Me

Gentle Wave

Storm Passes

Return To The Love I Am

Courage-Strength-Faith-Laughter-Joy

Double Minded ~ No Longer

Faith ~ Devotion ~ Integrity

Message from My Soul

Restoration of My Life

Renewed

Re-clam My Sacredness

Sensual Self

Each Step

My Way Made Clear

Suppression Freed

My Nature ~ My Bliss

Steady In Light and Truth

I love Me/You

I Will Live For Both of Us

Happy Birthday Son

Mom

Finding My Feel Good Place

I love expansion and I know it will come, ongoing, continuously, abundantly ~
It is the most natural thing in the world ~ 
I am really good at figuring things out ~ I always figure things out ~
Life will constantly change ~
Newness is apart of life and the constant evolving of my creation ~
It is the I Am that we all are ~
Love is the newness ~ The freshness of each moment ~
I love knowing I can choose and maintain any part of it ~
I am relaxing and trusting in it ~
I experience release and relief in the flow of it ~
Nothing will ever come to me that doesn’t make perfect sense ~
New, is natural, just like spring flowers ~
The most natural thing in the world ~
I know that all is well ~
I have been putting things in my vortex that will naturally flow ~
I will know the next logical step when I see it ~
Everything will show itself in a comfortable way ~
I am tapping into bigger, better things ~
Using the leverage of bigger desires that, I Am ~
I am ready ~
Ready for it to unfold in Grace and Gratitude ~ The soothing of me ~
All I have to do, is know, all is well and expect ~
Everyday I am finding resonance with my “Good Feeling Place” ~
Knowing I am good and worthy, talented and knowing life is fun ~
I was born to uplift ~
I so love feeling the power of the Universe ~
I love that there are so many creative partners that want to create with me ~
All I have to do is find that “Good Feeling Place” and the details will fill  themselves in ~ It is so simple ~
In ways, as I see them and acknowledge that I see them ~ 
I take credit for them being as my vibrational energy is equal ~
That more and more will come ~ It is natural to create ~
I love knowing there is no end to the fun I'm having ~
I love knowing there is no end to the co-creative dance
I am doing with beings ~
I love knowing that I don't have to figure it all out ~
The only thing that matters is that I feel good ~
I love knowing that all I want is coming and all
good things that I don't even know off, are coming ~
That good is never ending ~
All in perfect timing ~
All in perfect order ~
All in perfect blending ~
All in perfect joy ~
It is so delicious to be focused in this time, space reality ~
Knowing what I know ~
The contrast being greater than ever before ~
Giving me more valuable contrasting data ~
To decide what I want and to know ~ I Am ~
I love knowing who I Am ~
I love knowing I am a creator ~
That all will fill in ~ In detail ~ Moment to moment ~
I love knowing that it is law ~ Law of attraction ~
My work is much simpler than I thought ~
My true talent, purpose is alignment ~
Co-creation is at the heart, of my creation and I revel in ~
It is clear to me. I love you and you love me ~
We are all in this together ~
It is enough, to feel it and revel in it ~
I am so happy to be in this physical body ~
Out here on the leading margin ~ With all that is non-physical ~
Nothing will surprise me ~ It will just delight me ~
New is natural ~
Natural just like spring flowers ~
Evaluation is my natural state of being ~
Mom

You are free to go, Son.
I know you are sorry, so am I.
We served each other well.
No judgement.
Only Love, we are both free.
Miss You, Mom

I wish I had one more chance to speak with you Father. I forgive you. -#2 son.